well it was really long to do it


I finally read Boys at long last bc it seemed like a fandom favorite everyone and their goldfish read, and man. For being originally posted in 2008, it stands up to the sands of time and is done so wonderfully. It really encompasses everything in a realistic way with wonderfully flawed, human characters written as realistic teenagers/young adults as well as portraying so many of the aesthetics and characterizations the fandom had pre-Days that slowly disappeared over time. 
A lot of the references to what was happening in the 90s and culture in itself went over my head, but for the most part those aren’t utterly detrimental. I also found the timeflow to be a little strange, as it felt like it was taking place over months, but it does work as drama in your life as a teenager feels like 70 years.

Goddamn, if you like a novel-long read about some queer kids in the 90s with issues they’re slowly figuring out, then by all means please read it. Possibly the best fic I’ve read in this fandom, and I’m glad I read it now as opposed to as the little 13 year old I was when it came out because I wouldn’t have been able to grasp so much of the stuff in it. I would read the warnings on the fic, as there is drug use, alcohol use, violence, (rather vague and more emotionally perceptive) sex, teenagers being shitty, and so on.

Anyway, enjoy a shitton of art of various scenes, hope nothing’s really all that spoiled for you (I tried to avoid drawing spoilers!)

Do not repost or use without proper credit, ask first please.

Taeyeon’s been so happy and healthy for so long. What she experienced in Jakarta was a personal trauma that would impact anyone’s mental health. I’m worried this will set her back, we are well aware that she struggles with mental stability. I really hope this has nothing to do with the contract negotiations. SM can’t be THIS evil that they’d endanger her life just to prove a point.

Past to Present

A/N: Two requests down three to go! Hello my Lovely Wonderfuls! I hope you’re all doing well, and I hope you enjoy this story! To the Anon who requested this I really hope you enjoy this, and I deeply apologize for how long it took me to do this. Now, a little disclaimer, I don’t watch porn except for when I forget to turn off cinemax and it surprises and I immediately change the channel. So I tried my best. The names and the title of the video were just off the top of my head and if they are remotely close to anything it’s purely a coincidence. You’re totally welcome to laugh at them, I surely did. Anyway, Anon if you would like rewrite let me know! I hope you all have a marvelous day!



Request: Poly!Hamilsquad x reader where the boys have been with the Reader for awhile and they notice they really don’t know much about her past and they jokingly look her up and find out she used to be a pretty popular porn star before she met them

Warning: There’s like two curse words





When the boys had first met you, they thought you were sweet, strong, funny, and beautiful. They were surprised by how taken they became with you.



Alex had met you first. He had come into the bakery you owned. You had come to the counter while he was looking at what you had out.

“Can I help you, sir?”

He looks up, and he’s taken aback by your kind eyes and bright smile. His heart races a little.

“Is there something you want specifically, sir?” You ask again.

He had been staring for a little while, and you thought he had been lost in thought. He coughs and looks away, before he answers.

“Are these chocolate croissants any good?” He says pointing at them in the case.

“They’re one of our best sellers,” you say with your smile still in place.

He nods, as if contemplating whether or not to get them.

“They are quite good, sir,” you say grabbing his attention once more. “And if I may suggest,” you say smiling, walking towards the other end of the display case, “we have some absolutely delicious Triple Chocolate Cupcakes, if you’re in the mood for chocolate.”

You smile brightly with raised eyebrows, nodding your head up and down, in reassurance.

He smiles and chuckles a bit.

“There we go!” You exclaim, glad he didn’t look so serious anymore. “I’m happy I got a smile on that face.”

“I apologize,” he says, trying to come up with an excuse, “I still had work on my mind.”

“Ah, I see,” you nod in understanding, “you have one of those serious jobs.”

He chuckles again, liking you more each second.

“Do you have any other recommendations?”

You smile brightly and point out your personal favorites. You mention what you like to have when you’re in certain moods.

Soon he had more than what he came for.

You give him one last smile as he walks out the door. On his way home you’re the only thing on his mind, and he wonders how he’ll tell his lovers.

He decides to visit you a few more times, just to see if his feelings were something he even had to tell them about. By the fifth visit in one month, he realized that he was completely enamored by you.

He gets home and tells the boys about you, the excitement in his eyes and the smile on his face, made them curious about you.
They decide to pay a visit to the bakery, separately through the next week.



John is the first to visit and much like Alex is taken with you instantly. When he walks in, he can see you rollout out dough in the back.

“Welcome! I’ll be with you in just a moment,” you say with quick smile, walking towards the back.

He waits, looking at the goodies you had on display.

“Sorry about the wait, how can I help you sir?” you smile brightly.

He looks at you seeing exactly why Alex had been so taken with you. You had beautiful eyes, and the sweetest smile he had ever seen. You were simply beautiful.

“Can I, uh,” he struggles looking at the display case trying to decide what he wanted, “the red velvet cupcakes.”

“I’ve always loved red velvet,” you grab a cupcake placing it on a plate. “Mostly because of the color, and the cream cheese frosting.”

You hand him his plate with the same sweet smile.

“Can I get you something to drink, sir?”

“Some coffee would be great, thank you.”

He takes a seat at one of the few tables you have set up and you bring him a cup of coffee.

“Do you do everything here?” he notices, that you seem to be the only one in the small bakery.

“Well, I have help most of the time, but my employees happen to be sisters and it’s one of their birthdays, so I gave them the day off.” You shrug with a smile. “Plus I’m okay on my own.”

“That’s really nice of you,” he smiles up at you.

“They deserve it,” you smile. “Well, enjoy.” You start to walk away.

“Actually,” he says stopping you. “I-I hate eating alone, would you sit with me?”

You smile and give him a nod, taking a seat across from him. You wind up talking for over an hour, laughing back and forth, smiling the entire time.

As he leaves, he extends his hand to you.

“I’m John, by the way,” he smiles brightly at you.

You smile matches his and you place your hand in his.

“(Y/N), it’s nice to meet you.”

Your kind nature drew him to you, your smile and laugh making him want to stay longer. When he gets home, he tells his partners of his approval and has to keep himself from going with Herc and Laf.



Laf goes next and if your smile and sweet nature weren’t enough to draw him in, your mutual love of baking was.

“How did you get into baking?” he asks, after ordering and he was sitting at a table.

“When I was about sixteen,” you hand him the cinnamon roll he ordered. “It gave me a sense of peace when my life was a bit of a mess.

“It calmed you,” he says as if knowing.

You smile and nod enthusiastically.

“Yes, exactly. It was so cathartic. It still is.”

“I like seeing other people eat my food and enjoy it,” he bites into his cinnamon roll and hums in delight.

Your smile grows seeing his reaction to something you made.

“This is my favorite part, the way someone’s face lights up when they take a bite, and they make that yummy sound.”

He laughs and nods in agreement.

“Oui, I love the yummy sound.”

“Let me know if you’d like anything else.”

“Could I ask you a question?”


“You own this bakery? Do you bake everything yourself?”

“That’s two questions,” you laugh. “To answer them, yes and mostly yes.”

“Mostly yes?”

“I bake almost everything myself, but I do have help and sometimes they bake some of the yummy things we have on display.”

“When did you buy the place or start renting it?”

“It was actually given to me by the original owner,” you smile fondly. “I had started working for her when I moved here and we became very close. I was like a daughter to her and when she passed she left it to me.”

“That’s amazing,” he says surprised.

“I’m very lucky.”

You’re both silent for a moment and just about as you’re about to excuse yourself, he speaks again.

“What’s your favorite thing to bake?”

You laugh and smile with a raised eyebrow.

“Are you sure you want to have this conversation? It could take a while.”

He smiles big at you, not minding in the least how long it could take.

“I’m positive.”

You were more than happy to talk about all the ins and outs of baking with him. Your passion for it made him like you right away. He agreed with Alex and John, and told Hercules he was sure to approve as well.



Herc was last, but certainly not least. He was very curious about you and went into the shop with an open mind, knowing how much his lovers liked you. While, he was prepared for your kind nature, and bright smile. He wasn’t prepared for the sweet tone of your voice, or just how lovely your smile was.

While he stood there, looking utterly confused because of the emotions running rampant through his body.

You approached him with a gentle smile and asked if you could help him.

“I- I, um,” he took a breath, trying to steady his voice, “I would like a few pastries, please.”

He internally kicked himself for sounding so stupid, he was obviously here for pastries, this was a bakery. You made no comment, and just smiled brightly.

“Of course,” you say, lightly taking his arm and leading him to the display case.

He seemed so nervous and you found him so incredibly sweet. Everything you pointed out to him, he asked for.

“You don’t have to get everything,” looking at him with kind eyes that made his heart melt, “you can say if you don’t like something, I’m just suggesting.”

“No, no, everything looks so good, I’m taking it all,” he says with a kind smile of his own.

“As long as you’re sure.”

He ended up with two boxes of assorted pastries. When he came through the door that day, he had a huge smile on his face.

“She’s amazing.”

They all discuss what it would mean if they tried to date you, and how they all felt about it. When they decide how to approach you, they pay you a visit.



They come in the next day, and Peggy is the first to notice them. Her eyes widen as a smile spread across her face.

“(Y/N), your boyfriends are here,” she yells at you in the back.

“Peggy,” you say exasperated before you notice the group.

You’re a little confused to see four different customers all together, but then you figure that they’re all friends.

“Well now, who would’ve thought, my four best customers are all buddies,” you say with a big smile.

You liked all four of them, each of them were wonderful in different ways and you’d be lying if you said you didn’t have crushes on all of them. The trio of sisters were having a little too much fun teasing you about them. They all looked a little nervous and you were curious as to why.

“Why didn’t you tell me you were all friends?”

“We’re not,” Alex says stepping towards you, cautiously.

“You’re not?”

They all shake their heads.

“Then….” You trail off.

“We have a special relationship,” Laf chips in.

You still look confused.

“We’re all together,” Herc tries to explain further.

“You’re all together, together?”

“Yes,” they all say in unison.

“So, you all date each other?”


You nod slowly, understanding, as a smile spreads on your face. They were in a polyamorous relationship. You had heard about relationships like this, but never met anyone in one before. Let alone all the people in the relationship, not that any of this bothered you. Love is love and love is beautiful.

“That’s wonderful, but why are you telling me this?” you ask, as a thought pops into your head. “Do you need a wedding cake?!” you say excitedly.

“No, actually we came here to ask you out on a date,” John says looking at you sweetly.

“You want to date me?”

They all nod.

“Me?” you ask pointing at yourself.

They all chuckle, nodding again.

“We understand this is a little overwhelming, so we thought you could go out with each of us individually, if you want.”

They all look at you hopefully and you take a deep breath, trying digest this. Four incredibly sweet, wonderful, handsome men, came into your bakery and said they want to date you. All together.

You look back at Peggy, who nods and waves her hands, gesturing you to say yes.

“Wow, you know it’s not everyday a girl gets asked out by four handsome men at once,” you say with a light chuckle.

They laugh as well, knowing it was a lot for you to take in.

“As long as it’s okay with you,” you say slowly, “going on a date with each of you would be great.”

“Really?” Alex asks in disbelief.

They never thought you would say yes.

“Yeah,” you smile brightly at the four of them, “I mean before we all go out together, that way I can focus on each of you.”

They look at you smiles matching yours and the joy on their faces warms your heart.

“So, who’s taking me out first?” you say placing your hands on your hips. “Oh, and I don’t mind paying half of the bill. It seems a little unfair I get four free dinners.”

“We decided on the order we met, so I’ll be taking you out first,” Alex says, stepping closer and taking your hand in his, “and there is no way you’re paying for anything.”

You laugh and shake your head, these boys were going to have to get used to you.




And that’s how it all started. Before you knew it you were in love with all of them. After eight months, they asked you to move in. It was hard for you, you were so used to being independent, but you missed them so much that you couldn’t help but say yes.

Now, a year and half later, you were so happy you almost found it ridiculous. You and the boys had fallen in love with each other and you felt lucky everyday.

The boys were waiting for you to get home one friday, they had all gotten off early, but you had to work late. They were sitting in the living room just hanging out, when they started talking.

“Where are we going tonight?” John asks his lovers, forgetting their date night plans.

“That Italian restaurant on 44th street,” Alex says, wrapping his arms around John and pulling him close.

“When does l’ange get off?”

“Not until seven,” Herc replies, looking at his watch to check the time and seeing it was just past six.

“Does she know we’re going there?” John asks, snuggling into Alex.

“Nope, but she’ll be excited,” Hercules smiles, loving to surprise his loves. “Its her favorite.”

“It was the first Italian restaurant she went to when she moved here, right?”

“Yeah, her friend took her, for her birthday and she insists it’s still the best,” Alex answers Laf with a chuckle.

“Where did she move from again?” John asks, trying to remember when you’ve mentioned it.

They all try to think back, but don’t remember you telling them where you were from before moving to New York.

“Has she ever mentioned it?” Alex asks, confused.

“I don’t think so,” Laf says, trying to think of when you could have told them.

“We really don’t know much about her life before she moved here,” Herc thinks out loud.

“We should Google her,” Alex says jokingly.
“Maybe we’ll find an old Facebook account from when she was younger,” Laf says smiling at the thought of seeing the younger you.

“It couldn’t hurt, we probably won’t find anything.”

“Yeah, she really doesn’t like social media,” John agrees with Hercules.

“So, are we gonna Google our girl?” Alex asks, looking at his partners.

They all nod with a smile. Alex goes to get his laptop and they all sit at the dining table, looking at the screen. Alex types in your name and clicks search.

At first there’s pictures and accounts of other women by the same name. But just when they were about to give up, John sees a woman that looks exactly like you.

“Is that our baby girl?”

They all look at the picture of a woman in lacy white lingerie, biting her lip with a man grabbing her from behind.

“It can’t be,” Hercules says in disbelief.
Alex clicks on the link and a website opens up. The caption on the video says, ‘Lily Sugar and Derek Don in Secrets in the Dark’.

“It has to be a coincidence,” John says not believing it could be you.

“There’s only one way to find out,” Alex says pressing play.

It was clear as day, it was you. Your voice, your smile, your body. It was you, in a porn video and they couldn’t believe it.




You get out of work excited to get home to your lovers, and go out for date night. The boys had wanted to surprise you with where you were going and you were more than happy to play along.

As you make your way into the apartment, you don’t see or hear your lovers.

“My loves, I’m home,” you call out.

When you get no answer, you walk further into the apartment. You can hear moaning the closer you get to the dining room. You scrunch up your face because it sounds like a woman. You see them huddled around Alex’s computer and between Laf and John you can see the screen.

Your eyes widen as heart drops and you feel like you can’t breathe.

“How did you find that?!” you say panicked and making your presence known.

Alex immediately closes his laptop, as they all turn to look at you.

“You were in porn?” is the only thing Alex can get out.

You ignore his question and ask again, a bit angrier this time.

“How did you find that?” you look at each of them waiting for an answer.

They all stood still, like deer caught in the headlights. With each second you grew more frustrated.


“We Googled you,” John sputters out.


“We realized we didn’t know a lot about your past, and as a joke, we Googled you,” Herc says gently, not wanting to upset you further.

“Why couldn’t you have just asked me, why would you invade my privacy like this?”

“Its not as if you’re that forth coming with this information,” Alex says looking almost accusatory at you.

You look at him in disbelief and anger. The fact that your other partners said nothing only hurt you further.

“Did you think, for one second, that maybe, just maybe, that this was something I needed to tell you in my own time?”

When you were met with silence, you continued.

“This is something personal about my past, that I wasn’t ready to share and instead of just asking me about it, you snoop around behind my back? Do you know how awful that makes me feel? Do you know how hard that makes it for me trust you?”

You stare at them waiting for them to answer, apologize, something. They just stood there in shock and looking uncomfortable, none of them would really look at you. You feel tears well up in your eyes.

“This,” you say gesturing between all of you, “is exactly why I kept this to myself.”

You sigh and look at each of them, you shake your head.

“You can’t even look at me.”

You wipe away your tears, as they stand still.

“I can’t do this,” you say walking away from them, grabbing your things, and leaving the apartment.

When they hear the door slam, they all look at the ground and then at each other.

“We fucked up,” Herc says, wanting to go after you, but knew you needed space.

Your other partners nod, knowing they would have to find a way to apologize and get you to come back home.




You make your way Marias, crying the whole time. You had texted to let her know you were coming over and she was waiting for you.

When you got there and she opened the door to see you, and saw your tear stained face, she opened up her arms. You fell into your best friends embrace and cried some more. She simply hugged you and let you cry knowing you weren’t someone who cried often. You needed to get it all out and she waited patiently.

When you had calmed, she led you to the couch and made you some tea. She sat next to you on the couch and wrapped a blanket over your shoulders.
“Thanks,” you whisper, giving her tight smile.

“Of course, you know I’m always here,” she says smiling and grabbing your hand. “Now, what happened?”

You sigh and lean your head back on the couch, staring at the ceiling.

“They found out.”

“About the,” she pauses trying to find a better word, “work you used to do.”

You nod, still staring at the ceiling and trying not to cry.

“Judging by all this, I’m guessing it didn’t go well.”

You shake your head, closing your eyes and willing the tears to go away.

“I wasn’t ready for them to find out.”

“Hon, why would you tell them if you weren’t ready?” she asks you confused.

You sit up and look at her. She can see the slight anger in your eyes.

“I didn’t! They Googled me!”

“They what?!”

You simply nod.

“How dare they invade your privacy like that?!” She says outraged for you. “What did you tell them?”

“Basically the same thing and that if they were that curious they should’ve just asked me.” You take a breath and look at her tears rimming your eyes again. “You should have seen the way they were acting, they couldn’t even look at me.”

“No,” she says firmly grabbing your face and making you look at her. “You don’t let them make you feel bad, do you understand me? You did what you had to do at the time and it’s nothing you should be ashamed of. If they can’t deal it’s them, they have no right to judge you.”

You nod and lean on her again as she hugged you tightly, and told you how wonderful you were, as you fell asleep.



Maria makes sure you’re comfortable on the couch, before going to her bedroom and making a phone call.

Hercules answers on the first ring.


Before he has a chance to say anymore, Maria starts.

“You put me on speaker so you all can hear me,” she pauses giving them a chance. “You listen to me, you have no right to invade someone’s privacy the way you did hers and you have absolutely no right to judge her. She did what she had to do at the time, you don’t know the ins and outs of the situation. The only reason I am not over there, yelling at you in person is because she needs me here. She deserves so much better than this and you better fix it, or my yelling will be the least of your worries.”

She hangs up and turns off your phone, knowing you needed the time and they needed to sweat.




You wake up the next morning with a throbbing headache. You sit up rubbing your temples.

“Hey there doll,” Maria says walking over to you from the kitchen.

She hands you a plate of food, a glass of juice, and some Tylenol.

“Thank you,” you say gratefully, beginning to eat.

“Okay, so here’s what we’re going to do today,” she says with a smile. “You’re going to take a shower and borrow some of my clothes, then we’re going shopping and out to eat.”

You smile at her, and then frown a bit.

“I should probably go and talk to the boys…”

“Nope.” She shakes her head. “You’re spending the day with me, and when you’re ready, then you can go talk to the boys, but you need a clear head.”

“Yeah, you’re right.” You say looking at your plate, you look up at her with a small smile.

“Where are we shopping?”

She laughs, happy to see a genuine smile.

“Anywhere you want.”



You went to several shops, and got a few new things, courtesy of your best friend. You insisted you buy lunch and she only relented after you promised she could pay for dessert.

Once you’re back at her apartment, you gather your stuff and thank her again.

“Anytime,” she says with a smile.

You take a deep breath, thinking of the conversation you’d have to have when you got home.

“Hey,” she says grabbing your attention.

“Don’t let anyone make you feel bad about your past you did what you to do at the time,” she says her hands on your shoulders.

“We both did.”

You nod and give her small smile, as she pulls you into a hug.

“If you need me just call,” she pulls away, “I’ll be there in a hot second.”

“I know,” you smile. “Love you lady.”

“Love you, doll.”




You take a few deep breaths before entering the apartment, mentally preparing yourself for the conversation. You open the door and you hear foot steps rush to the door way. Your partners staring at you as if they couldn’t believe you were real.

“Are you okay?”

John is the first to speak, the gentle look in his eyes making you want to run to him. You couldn’t though, not yet.

“Physically, yes.”

They all look at the ground, guilt filling their hearts. You sigh, catching their attention.

“We need to talk,” you gesture towards the couch.

“Talk?” Alex asks nervously.

You simply nod and move past them to the living room. You wait as they get settled, once they are you begin.

“I’m still mad about you googling me. I know it doesn’t seem like a huge deal, but it’s not something I’m particularly proud of and once people find it tends to be the only thing they can associate me with. I try to keep myself separated from that part of my life. I really wish you could have let me tell you in time.”

“Would you have?” Alex asks quietly.

“Yes, if you had given me the chance, I would have.”

You take a breath thinking of where to start.

“I had just graduated high school and got a partial scholarship for culinary school, but my family didn’t have money to cover the rest of my school expenses. Not to mention the amount of debt my father had left us with. It was just me, my mom, and my little sister and working a full time job just didn’t cut it.”

You pause taking a deep breath and keeping your eyes on the ground.

“My boyfriend at the time, who was a bit of a skeeze, convinced me to do a video. He said it was really good money and it was. At first I refused, but I needed that money. So, he took me to this office and I signed paperwork and I did it.”

“And that’s how it started, they liked me and wanted me to come back, again I refused, but they offered me more money and I couldn’t pass it up. My boyfriend convinced me to go all in and just work with the company. He told me it could help me get through college, help my family and I couldn’t argue with that. There was probably better ways of solving my problems, but I was young and impressionable and I had good money in front my face.”

They listen intently and their hearts ache thinking about how much you had struggled.

“I never did anything raunchy or degrading, just the basic stuff I guess. I had the whole innocent girl thing, so I was never handled too harshly.”

You look up at them now.

“I’m not ashamed of the choices I made. I did what I had to when something needed to be done. I took care of my family, I got through college, ditched my crummy boyfriend and moved here with my best friend.”

They say the strength they always admired about you in full force at that moment. They also saw the walls you had up, ready to defend yourself.

“What made you finally leave your scum boyfriend?” Alex asks curious.

“I found out he was getting paid for every video I did because he got me to work for the company.”

“Are you serious?!” John yells, looking outraged.

“Yep,” you nod. “He didn’t care about anything, but getting his own cash.”

“I’m sorry you had to go through that,” Laf looks sadly at you.

“It only made me stronger,” you shrug your shoulders. “It taught me a few lessons, too. About life and sex.”

They all stare at you for a moment.

“Come on,” you smile small with a light laugh, “that was funny and true.”

Hercules chuckles shaking his head, and your other partners loosen up a bit, chuckling as well.

“I can’t believe we’re joking about such a serious situation,” Herc looks at you a small smile of disbelief on his face.

“It was a crummy situation, but I got through it and it’s in the past. If I can’t joke about it, it’s like a weight I have to carry around with me. I don’t want that, I never have. It actually makes me proud to see how far I’ve come.”
Your smile grows in self pride.

“I mean, I went from struggling and turning to porn to graduating college and owning my own bakery. I worked hard to get where I am and I don’t regret anything. Ultimately, it lead me to you.”

“We’re so sorry we invaded your privacy, mon ange.”

Laf comes to your side first, taking your hands in his and kissing them softly.

“We love you no matter what.”

“You are the most amazing woman we have ever met and you just keep showing us how remarkable you are,” Herc kisses your temple, looking into your eyes with nothing but love.

John comes to you next kissing you all over you face with quick sweet kisses, making you giggle.

“You’re absolutely the most beautiful woman, baby girl, and we’re shit for hurting you, but we’re going to make it up to you.”

“And if that means, making you breakfast every morning, giving you foot rubs, and telling you how wonderful, strong, amazingly sexy, and incredible you are everyday for as long as it takes for you to forgive us we’ll do it.”

Alex caresses your face, with loving, pleading eyes. You hadn’t realized you had started crying until he wiped away your tears and kissed you softly.

“I’ll tell you what,” you smile at each of them, “breakfast in bed on my birthday every year, telling me sweet things at least three times a month, and at least one kiss from each of you everyday and we’ve got a deal.”

They all chuckle at you.

“Make it three kisses or more from each of us and it’s a deal,” Herc says before pulling you between all of them.

You pretend to think about it and nod.


You squeal as they all kiss you at once, your cheeks, your neck, your stomach.

Everywhere, tickling you the entire time and making you laugh.

“We love you so much, cupcake.”

You look at each of your lovers seeing nothing, but love and admiration in their eyes.

“I love all of you so much.”

You lay there, content, surrounded by your loves. Suddenly, Laf lifts you up in his arms.

“What are you doing?” you laugh.

“We have a surprise, mon ange.”

“A surprise?”

Alex nods and smiles at your excitement.

“Close your eyes, baby girl.”

You do as your told a big smile on your face.

They say you can open your eyes and you gasp when see the scene before you.

Roses. Roses everywhere, with daisies and lilies scattered among them. Candles were lit, they had even hung twinkle lights around the room.

“This,” you take a breath, trying to find words, “this is beautiful.”

“Tonight, love,” Alex takes your hand leading you to the bed, “we’re going to show you just how much we love you.”

Your heart rate picks up, as they slowly take off your clothes, placing sweet, tender kisses all over your body, and making you feel more loved than you ever had before.




Later that night, you get a text from Maria.

*I’m guessing it went okay, by the lack of communication?

You smile lazily, looking at your lovers on each side of you, sound asleep.

-Way better than okay ; ) Call you tomorrow.

You put your phone down, as John wraps his arms around your waist and pulls to his chest, kissing your forehead. You snuggle into him, smiling into a blissful sleep.

anonymous asked:

Hi! So I have a money saving/spending problem. I get direct deposit so I only carry my debit card and I have my banks app so that I can transfer money when I need to. Do you think that's really hurting my ability to save money? I always pay off my bills first but the rest I have left over doesn't last long until my next check. I've heard of the envelope method with cash but I don't know much about it and don't know how well it'll work

By “envelope method with cash”, I think you’re referring to a budgeting technique. The idea is that you decide on a sum of money, and keep that amount in your wallet. You use this money on things like gas, snacks, shopping, etc. Once the money runs out, it runs out. You don’t replenish the money or revert to your card to buy anything.

It’s important that this money is not used for things like rent or utility bills. Those are expenses that need to be paid, regardless.

A friend of mine uses this method, and she finds it very effective. Try it out, and decide whether it works for you! Start out with anywhere from $75-$50 of cash per week, depending on how much you’re looking to save per paycheck.

Exchange Romance - Chapter 7

A/N: Hey guys, me again. Sorry for the slow update but I’ve had a bit of a crazy week so I haven’t had a lot of time to write. This chapter is quite long though so hopefully that makes up for it! The next chapter is going to be ‘day by day’ style as well. I was going to merge this chapter and the next chapter but I really wanted to post something today and I think this chapter is long enough as it is. Happy reading :)

Word Count: 6,050

Ch. 1 // Ch. 2 // Ch. 3 // Ch. 4 // Ch. 5 // Ch. 6 // AO3 link

Brave. This is the first word I would think of if someone asked me to describe Betty Cooper. Although these five small letters do nothing to describe the incredible human being that you are, they begin to describe what you are to me. The next word I think of is gentle, then strong, then intelligent, and then a millions others which would take a lifetime to write out. The truth is, a light such as yourself can’t be summed up with mere words, no matter how many I try to use. You couldn’t possibly be summarised because you are so much more than just a few sentences. You are your accomplishments, your failures, your memories, your regrets and everything in between. Every single one of these things has created you, the amazing, ethereal, kind hearted girl who I am incredibly lucky to call my girlfriend. You make me feel safe in this screwed up world and for that I am eternally grateful. Snowball fights and late night movies and vanilla milkshakes and that certain shade of green will forever remind me of you, surely bringing a smile to my face until my dying days. If someone ever asks me about it, I’ll be sure to tell them all about the beautiful blonde with a funny accent and piercing green eyes. The way her hair looks like pure gold when the sun hits it just so. The look of pure joy and wonder on her face at the sight of snow. The way she tilts her head back slightly and scrunches her eyes shut when she laughs. The tune she taps absentmindedly against the table as she does her math homework. If anyone ever asks me why I remember all of these small moments that anyone else would deem insignificant, I’ll tell them it is because of you. The unforgettable Betty Cooper. The girl who had my heart from the second I saw her laughing away in a booth at Pop’s. What I’m trying to say, or rather write, is that I love you Betty Cooper. Somehow it feels like I always have. Like I just knew, as soon as we locked eyes, that you were the only girl that would ever be anywhere near enough for me. I am so so happy that you’re in my life, and now that you are I can’t imagine my life without you. I hope that you have the most unforgettable Christmas, Betts, because you deserve it. You deserve all of the goodness and happiness in the world and I will try my hardest to give it to you. I love you.

This was the letter that Jughead wanted to send. The words flowed smoothly as his pen raced across the page to keep up with his thoughts. Before the ink on the first word had even begun to dry, Jughead knew he would never send this to Betty, no matter how desperately he wanted to. “What kind of wimp tells his girlfriend he loves her in a letter?” He mumbled under his breath before scrunching it up and tossing it in the bin.

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People are gushing over Sangwoo’s acts toward Bum in this chapter, but we all know Bum is going to be in a world of hurt if they get out of this. Sangwoo is not going to easily forget that Bum hid and lied about Bae being there. Sangwoo is likely pissed he was beaten and taken to the police station by Bae, he’s going to take all of that anger out on Bum.

And to be honest, can y'all really see a person like Sangwoo believing he screwed up in covering his tracks? He’s been doing this for so long and never got caught, but suddenly there’s this cop on his tail. He’s going to blame Bum, believing Bum had ratted him out.

I can’t see this ending well for Bum, no matter what happens.

mxn-yoongi  asked:

How are you doing today? Tell me about your day. I just want a nice lil update on your life and how you feel and stuff. I appreciate you. ♡

I’m actually doing really well!!!

I joined a gym and it’s been v good for my mental health. Work has been steady, nothing too crazy. I’m slowly getting back into writing.

I’m actively taking care of myself and eating well for the first time in a very long time :-)

anonymous asked:

Let me tell you guys a story of a sans once bad he killed the human gain the power to reset wanted to erase himself from his own universe/timeline but a bad sans came and destory his chance he hurt alot of sans with good endings but a good sans named color!sans helped him from being bad to good the sans that was bad was named killer!sans but people can be saved even if they done alot of bad things they can be a better person if they tried :3 then killer!sans became good and became friend w color


“why are there so many me’s?”


“well … they said this sans was nice in the end?”


[Papyrus hugs Sans. Sans hugs back, but finds himself wondering whether that is really true.]

anonymous asked:

💖- The First

“Charming gentleman who doesn’t prey on the weakness and vulnerability of a woman in aims to get into her pants. It’s new, there are rare few men like him around,” the Madam remarks, “It’s… Favorable.”

It was clear from her tone of voice that this question threw her off. Certainly, she was not expecting questions regarding a random shadow such as the First. Though she’d humor, of course. What else was there to do?

“From what few times I’ve interacted with him he’s proven attentive and goal oriented. I like that. No fuss, get shit done kinda guy.”

Her lips would purse, her eyes would roll, her hands would fiddle and readjust the cuffs of her long sleeved shirt before lifting her shoulders. “I, otherwise, don’t know him well enough to give you a third trait. For all I know he’s just really fucking good at making a good first impression to give him some leeway to act like a right fucking dick. The future holds the answer, should we meet again.”


anonymous asked:

how long did it take you to perfect anatomy?, I've been doing the same for like 2 years (not constantly because the lack of time), and I can do nice faces, but I struggle so much with anatomy, is like my brain doesn't know how a human body is meant to look. Also many thanks for the near daily dose of Caulifla

well, i am not actually haha, i still have alot of trouble with hands, and have no fucking idea how to draw feet and back correctly.

you really just gonna have to see references and art tutorials, no matter how boring they are, they are essential to improve 

anonymous asked:

What do you think of people who shove a ship you dislike in your face? Oh, and do you think changing the core personality of a character for a ship is ok? (Sorry I asked so much!)

Hmm, well for the first part, I’d say it’s disrespectful, as is shoving anything someone dislike in their face. To each their own.

And well, I don’t really like it, but as long as the person is aware of those changes and don’t treat them as canon, and don’t go harassing anyone over it, I don’t think it’s an issue. Like it’s good if they’re aware of those changes, and if it makes them happy and they’re not hurting anyone over it, I guess it’s ok. Medias are here to be explored, and characters can be the ground for a lot of creativity, so as long as there’s some knowledge of what’s being done and a distinction between canon and fanon, I guess it’s ok.

Idk if any of this is clear haha

Yandere-chan from Yandere Simulator.

Original image belongs to Yandere Dev.

Finally making good on my promise to do a series of Yandere Sim characters, because the Persona 3 one went over so well :). I’m so excited for this game! This game! I’ve been waiting to really try playing with it until Osana is released so I can see what a real week might actually look like, so for now I’m just watching from the sidelines, but you go Yandere Dev! Do your best! I will wait as long as I have to, I will wait for you foorreevvveeerrr.

anonymous asked:

Dear Yayaha, I have two suitors and they both proposed but I can't decide which one I should marry! One of them is an elezen adventurer from Ishgard and he's exciting but unreliable, disappearing for suns at a time. The other is a well-to-do lalafell, heir of an Ul'dah import business, that promises to take good care of me but can be kind of dull, always talking about money or politics. Neither one is perfect but I won't be young forever! Which one should I choose? - Wannabe Bride

Dear Wannabe Bride,

Neither of them.

Sounds to me like you aren’t really willing to be with either of them. One will never be around, and the other will bore you to death with constant talk of business. So…

Don’t marry either of them. You wait as long as you need to find that person, and don’t you dare settle for less than what is right for you. You’re right, no one is perfect, but your happiness is vital for a marriage to continue to work out. Otherwise you’ll be an unhappy wife, sitting waiting for your Elezen to return, or praying for your Lalafell to shut up for a bell so that you can think about something besides business.

With lots of Love and Support,


anonymous asked:

I'm so disappointed Perfect is the next single. Like its a good song but its not the best, it's not as good as Happier or Dive

I’m sorry you’re disappointed! I also prefer both Happier and Dive over Perfect, but I believe that with all the promo Perfect will be getting, it’s going to be a very successful single. And Ed himself loves it, so I don’t blame him at all for wanting to release it next! I’m sure you’ll dig whatever he has planned for it. :)

And hey, maybe Happier will still get a single release. I really hope so, anyway! I still think it’s the biggest song on the album. The best move to give it the most momentum would probably have been to release it second, after Shape of You, but I still think it could do really well even this far along as long as it got steady radio play. I love Dive too, and it’s clearly a crowd favorite when Ed performs it live, but I wonder how well it would do on radio. I mean, obviously every song on Divide would do well on the radio just because it’s Ed and he’s huge right now, so it kind of doesn’t matter what gets released, but it would be super interesting to me if I could see the data from all the different timelines where each song was released as a single, just out of curiosity. I think if Happier were released right now instead of Perfect, with the same amount of accompanying promo, it would do better than Perfect is going to. But Perfect is already going to be really big. I think whatever follows it probably won’t do quite as well in its wake, which is a shame, but also whatever song follows Perfect as a single will be available to be considered for a Grammy the year after everything else, so perhaps it’s smart to hold such a great song back another few months. 

FYI, this speculation is entirely based on my extensive knowledge of the music industry, all of which I learned the other day from watching Popstar: Never Stop Never Stopping. x) (Which is to say, I have no real idea what I’m talking about.) 

Anyway, I’m looking forward to seeing what happens with Perfect! Even if it’s not the best song on the whole album, it’s still a good song, and I’m completely prepared to love the video and whatever else we get from it. :D And in the meantime, you and I already have copies of Happier and Dive that we can listen to any time we feel like it, so let’s go ahead and consider ourselves lucky. :) 


I tried

i only did one of pidge cause im not quite sure how to edit her as a boy? i mean, shes already kinda done that herself so i was kinda thinking if she was a boy who had to disguise himself as a girl maybe??idk sry


Suga to Jin: 

“ To Jinjinjara/Seok-jin!! It’s your eternal roommate, Suga. I can’t believe it’s been 7 years since we’ve known each other. Remember when I first met you? You seemed so well-behaved and kind and you seem so bright and cheerful these days, which amazes me. I believe that being together with us has brought about that change? It seems like yesterday when you were concerned and not confident on stage but when I see you on stage these days, I realize how well you sing. It’s the result of your hard effort for a long period of time. I’ve watched you for a long time. It was touching to see you try to do better at something that you weren’t good at. I felt that I had a lot to learn from you. Let’s be together for a long time. P.S: But I wish you’d act your age”.

Jin to Jungkook: 

“ To Jk, Hi, JK. It’s me. I’m always appreciative of what you do. Thank you for having the same mental age as I do, when I am 26 years old. While traveling with you, I was reminded once again of how strong your punches are. I’ll do better, so please don’t hit me. I think your face got a lot darker during this trip. As the older guy, I’ll give you a facial mask when we go back to Korea. Soothe your skin with it, and also soothe yourself and stop lying on my bed. You keep lying on my bed and taking selfies. You may have gotten a tan in Hawaii, but I will throw you into a fire pit in Korea. Of course, that fire pit is my heart.  Come and be embraced in my big heart. Thank you for being the teacher and the energy of the team. Jungkook, you are nice, good looking, strong, have a  good body, have big eyes, sings and dances well. I love you”.

Jungkook to Rap Monster: 

“To Namjoon, Hey. This is the youngest of the team, Jungkook. I’m not good at writing letters so I don’t know where to start, but here I go. This is something that I always think about. I often get inspired, by the team. Although I’m inspired by all the members, I’m especially inspired by you. I have a lot of things that I wanna do but I never seem to stick to them for long. You guys always joke about that. But when that pattern was repeated, I felt that I have really become that kind of person. Whenever I see you working, talking about or working on music or speaking English, I develop this sense of confidence and passion. I know that things may be tough for you too, but please continue showing those things for me. I’ll keep following you from behind. You’re really an amazing person”.

Taehyung to Jimin: 

“To Jimin. Jimin, hi.  Writing you this sincere letter is making me cringe, but I’m trying to go on. Please understand. Since our trainee days, we came to Seoul without a clue.  We woke up, put on uniforms and attended the same school. We ate together, went to practice together, went to practice and got back to the dorm. Then we’d talk all night. After such 6 years, you’re now my dearest friend. Before our debut, you once got anxious about it. At that time, I had a company meeting. they asked me what I’d think if Jimin is on the team. I thought it over and said that you’re there when I’m up or down, the only one who laughed and cried with me. I said that I’d like such a good friend to debut with me as a team. It felt good to say that. And I’m glad that I was able to debut with you. All our good memories made me happy. And I’m sorry since I’m always on the receiving end. When I’m in the bathroom to cry, you still cry with me. And you come see me at dawn to laugh alongside me. You care about me and have me in your thoughts. You work hard for me and understand. You listen to my concerns and like me though I’m lacking. Let’s walk a road of happiness. Love you, buddy.

Rap Monster to Tae-Hyung: 

“Taehyung, my first letter goes to you. That gives me a mix of feelings. Like the peddles we’ve seen to our heart’s content in Hawaii, it’s hard to pick out what I want to say to you. like the open sea we’ve enjoyed, it may be because we go far back with many memories we share. I remember when I first met you. When you came with your father to our dorm with big eyes, busy legs, and your puckered lips, I knew at once.That you'be a rascal. I also remember how you were anxious before our debut. Your unique character and strangeness got me puzzled at times. so I wondered what aspect of yours helped you to bear everything at times. But as time went by and my hair started to grow out, I realized that even me, who I thought was the norm, is also a strange puzzling guy. And I was drawn by your uniqueness. And I was envious at times because you easily befriend people and everyone likes you. You have shown everyone that your strangeness is actually your unique charm. You might say this makes you cringe, but since you started out as a trainee, I want to say I’m grateful to you as a friend and older member.  Thanks for not being a farmer or playing the saxophone and coming to us to complete BTS. Let’s keep up the good work. Hand in there!”.

Jhope to Suga: 

“To my bro Suga from Jhope, Hey. It’s Hoseok. We’ve been together for 7  years, including our trainee days. When I was first at the dorm, I felt so awkward and shy. So I remained in the living room. Then you came over to talk and made me relax. I still can’t forget that moment. Coming from Gwangju, you were like my savior.  When I was sick or sad, you were always there for me. When I was tired and had it hard; you were there to give me strength. When I got seasick on Bon Voyage 2 and opened my eyes from sleep, the first person I saw was you. Though Jimin was also there. I didn’t say it then, but I really appreciate your help. As much as we’ve spent time together, I’m that much grateful to you. I’d like to say that with this letter at this time. Thanks for becoming a member of BTS. And thanks for being my big brother. I hope you’re always by my side. I love my bro!“.

Jimin to Jhope:

 “To Hoseok. I thought it would be easy because it’s not the first letter to you. But it’s not. I am nervous. Because we talk together a lot and I talk about my feelings to you, I guess you know well what I think or what I want to say. When I look at you, I have this thought: ‘He is really honest and faithful. He is a good and nice one”. I thought like this: “A person can be cool because he is honest and faithful”. I realized it thanks to you.  As a younger brother and a member of the same team, I learn a lot from you. You always take good care of us. you pay attention to us and work hard. I know. I want to say thank you, with all my heart. Thank you, brother! I hope you take care of yourself and stop worrying about us. My dear brother, whom I always am thankful, love you.“

By @mimibtsghost

Bon Voyage S2 Ep.8 - BTS’ letters to each other


“To. Jinjinjara, Seokjin-hyung!!

It’s your forever roommate, Suga.

Can you believe I have known you for 7 years… I remember when I met you for the first time. I’m surprised and amazed that the one who used to look so upright and kind… has become very bright and cheerful these days. I believe it’s because you’re with us. It seems like just yesterday you were nervous and not confident when you had to sing and perform on stage, but seeing your performance these days makes me think you sing really well. It’s no doubt the result of working hard for a long time. Even though I have been watching you for a long time, it still touched me how you secretly work hard to make up what you lack in. I thought of you as a hyung whom I have a lot to learn from. Let’s keep going together for a long time in the future too.

P.S: But I hope you can act your age.”


“To. JK

Hi JK, it’s hyung.

I’m always thankful to you. Thanks for having the same mental age as this 26-year-old hyung. And traveling with you this time made me feel this once again. Your fists are really strong. I will be good to you, don’t hit me, got it? And your face got tanned a lot. As I’m your hyung I’ll give you facial masks when we get back to Korea. Calm your skin and yourself as well, stop lying on my bed. You keep lying on my bed when I’m not there and send me your selfies. If you do that one more time, your face may have got tanned in Hawaii, but I’ll throw you into the fire pit in Korea. And by “fire pit” I mean my firey heart. You can come into my big embrace. Thanks for always becoming our team’s teacher and energizer. To Jungkook who’s kind and handsome and strong and has nice body and big eyes and sings well and dances well, I love you.”


“To. Namjoonie-hyung

Hi hyung, it’s our team’s maknae, Jungkook.

I’m not the type to write letters often so I don’t know where to start, but I’ll try this time. This is something I always think about every day, but I really am inspired a lot by our team. Although I’m inspired by all 7 members, but I’m especially inspired the most by you. I always want to do a lot of things but can’t stick to them long, like how you guys always joke with me. But gradually, it feels like I really became that kind of person. When you work, talk about music, compose or speak in English, I feel like I grew a sense of confidence and passion. I know it must be tired for you, but please keep showing me your that cool side of yours in the future. I will keep following you from behind. You are a really awesome person.”


“To Jimin.

Hi Jimin.

It cringes me a little to write a serious letter to you like this, but I’ll try. Hope you understand. When we were trainees, we came to Seoul without knowing anything. We would wake up, put on uniforms, go to school together, eating together after school ends, go to the practice room together, go back to the dorm together, and chat together at night. 6 years passed and unknowingly, you have become my dearest precious friend. There was a time before we debuted when you were anxious because of the debut. I had a meeting with the company at that time. They asked me “What would it be if Jimin was on the team?”. After thinking for a while, I said, “There’s no one who’s by my side when I’m tired or happy to laugh and cry with me but Jimin. I hope such a friend could be by my side. I want us to debut together.” It felt good to say that. I’m happy that we was able debut together and make lots of good memories. And sorry, because I’m always the one who take. Even know, you still cry with me when I cry in the bathroom, laugh with me when we sneak out at dawn, care about me and think of me, work hard because of me and understand me, listen to my worries, liking someone who’s lacking so much like me. Let’s keep walking together on the flower path for a long time. I love you, my friend.”



So my first letter is to you. I have mixed emotions. Like the pebbles on the beach we saw in Hawaii, it’s hard to pick out what I want to say to you. Maybe it’s because we’re cherishing so many memories and so many moments like the sea we saw? I thought of the time when I first met you. Seeing you following your father, roaming around the dorm with big eyes and pouty lips, I already felt it from first sight. “This kid will be a rascal”. I remember how anxious you were before we debuted. Your unique and strange character is so vague that I sometimes questioned what’s in you that helped you endure all the way here. But as time passes and I mature more, I learned that even I, who I myself thought was the most normal, am quite strange and unique like an alien. I was drawn by your strangeness. Sometimes I really envy you. Because you can get close easily to anyone and everyone likes you. Your strangeness proved to be your unique charm. It may sound cringeworthy, but as a friend, a hyung who have been with you from the beginning of your trainee journey to now, I wanted to say thank you to you. Thank you for not becoming a farmer, not playing saxophone and came to Big Hit instead. Let’s keep up the good work. Fighting.”


“To. My bro Suga
From. J-hope

Hi hyung? It’s Hoseok.

Without realizing, we have been together for 7 years, including our trainee days. When I first moved to the dorm, I was awkward and unfamiliar with everything, so I only stayed in the living room, but you came and talk to me first, helped me relax. I still can’t forget that time. You were like the savior to me, a Gwangju kid. Always by my side when I’m hurt, always by my side when I’m sad. You’re always there to support me and become my strength when I’m tired or exhausted. When I was tired from seasickness in Bon Voyage 2 this time, the first one I saw after opening my eyes was you. I couldn’t say then but I was really grateful to you. Through this letter and this chance, I want to tell you again that my gratitude to you is as great as the time we spent together. Hyung, thank you for becoming a member of BTS, thank you for becoming my dependable brother. Please keep staying by my side forever. I love my bro.”


“To. Hoseokie-hyung

This wasn’t my first letter to you so I thought it wouldn’t be hard, but it was indeed not easy. I’m nervous. You’re the one whom I talk and share a lot with so think you’ll know well what I think and what I want to say. What do I think when I see you? “This person is really truthful and sincere”, “This person is really upright and kind”. You are probably the first one that made me understand a person can become this cool just by being truthful and sincere. As your brother and fellow member, I have a lot to learn from you. I wanted to tell you that I know you are always working hard to take care of us and I’m always sincerely thankful to you. Thank you, hyung. I hope you can take care of your body and stop worrying too much. To my hyung who I’m always thankful for, I love you.”


i imagine this taking place in a relatively early cycle when merle, like….was off doing merle things; iirc, taako doesn’t have THAT many deaths under his belt, so losing him was probably hard to get used to. i also headcanon that it wasn’t often that the taaco twins didn’t go down together. so. here’s this.

also do consider full-viewing; i overestimated how large the panels would look.



hannibal + @screenshotsofdespair (1/?)


now that summer has come, i am now (for the first time, so if i mess something up then lmk) open for commissions! if you’re interested, contact me via twitter DMs, tumblr IMs, (please, do NOT send me an ask) or send me an email at steviegrayart@gmail.com and pay me via paypal! (please pay first, if not then i won’t do it) please provide me with proper references with what you want (a reference sheet for your OC, pictures of any characters, etc.) if you would like more examples of my art look here!

things i will draw:

  • fanart
  • OC’s
  • shipping (as long as it isn’t pedophilia/incest/etc.)
  • anthros/furries
  • simple backgrounds
  • portraits

things i won’t draw:

  • NSFW/kinks/fetishes
  • heavy gore/violence (light blood is fine)
  • complex mechs
  • complex backgrounds
  • really i have the right to deny anything that makes me uncomfortable or that i disagree with

for now i am starting with 10 slots! (this will be updated as i go on) if the url is marked out then the commission is done. ALSO! once i finish a batch i’m going to wait around a week to re-open slots so i can have a little breather and prepare myself for the next set of commissions! hope this isn’t an issue to anybody

  1. soggysnek
  2. nexijay
  3. javs2727
  4. trashasaurusrex
  5. discflame
  6. nicholas-p-wilde
  7. eviilbratt
  8. cowboycrunchies
  9. emeraldsinmyeyes

and lastly if you can’t commission me for any reason a simple reblog to boost this is just as appreciated! thank you and have a good day <3