well if not love then intense like

extervus  asked:

It might be a dumb analogy & not even correct but kinda (emphasize on kinda) like the Great Gatsby sorta? Like Jay Gatsby idolized Daisy for YEARS & when they met up again, they were merely in love with the idea of each other, not actually in love with the people they were. So like Mags and Jules I feel like would need to spend some time getting to know each other again, & refalling in love, otherwise it wouldn't work out too well. Then again, the Great Gatsby was an Extreme version of that but

yeah yeah no this is definitely what i’m thinking of where they have definitely lost a huge sense of who they are individually and also who they are as a couple because they have this view in their heads of this intense and quick romance that they’ve only known for years and never got a chance to develop like i’d really love to see what would happen if they had more than a couple years of knowing and then 3 months of marriage 

small descriptions: sun, moon, & ascendant

Aries

sun - independent and courageous, enjoy leading others and bringing excitement into the lives of others, enthusiastic, very goal-oriented.

moon - incredibly persevering, brilliant sense of humor, modest about achievements (unless they also have aries sun), need to express yourself

rising - individualistic and impatient, quick-tempered, blush easily, outspoken with opinions, likes to get things done quickly

Taurus

sun - fight for what they want, easy going but stubborn, good work ethic, very loyal, strong love for home, practical, choosy about who they befriend

moon - inner wisdom, dislike unpredictability, value honesty, prefer familiarity, gentle and warm, serene quality that calms those around them, set in their ways

rising - great self-reliance, inclined to frequent stubbornness and jealousness, strongly persistent nature

Gemini

sun - very talkative, known for their sociability, go with the flow attitude, ability to think clearly, charming, wide range of interests, driven by curiosity

moon - clear and sharp mind, remarkable communication skills, confident speakers, tendency to over think

rising - quick witted, constantly alert, curious mind, strong desire to acquire knowledge, great need to communicate with others

Cancer

sun - enjoy security while also seeking adventure, unpredictable nature, love to nurture others, value a sense of security, homebodies, kind and warm

moon - need to see the difference they make in other people’s lives, not likely to show their emotional nature to others, very intuitive, supportive friend

rising - sympathetic, very talkative, fond of home, extremely sensitive to criticism, may like to collect things

Leo

sun - high self esteem, very devoted, kind and generous, hot tempered yet forgiving, most comfortable when in charge, independent, idealistic

moon - undeniable energy, charming and intelligent, like to take risks, optimistic outlook on life, amazing wit

rising - strong character, normally good natured and generous, demonstrative, energetic, need to be the center of attention, regal disposition, good humored

Virgo

sun - mind oriented, constantly analyzing and thinking, enjoy bettering themselves, down to earth and practical, selective with friendships

moon - often anxious, intuitive, very critical, high expectations of themselves, detail oriented and a dedicated planner

rising - worriers, tactful and somewhat high strung, strong desire for money, inclined to “tell it like it is”, modest due to self-criticism

Libra

sun - diplomatic nature, very expensive taste, get along well with everyone, quite ambitious, strive to maintain peace in their daily lives

moon - find beauty in simplicity, always seeking balance, they love a challenge and enjoy debates, like to have their way, unpredictable mood

rising - love parties, believe in justice for all, courteous and agreeable, tendency to meddle too much in other’s affairs

Scorpio

sun - very intense, like to question everything, treat others with kindness and loyalty, self reliant and in control, tendency to be a bit obsessive

moon - intense emotions, protective of themselves, loving heart, strong presence, need for control, very passionate, can be intimidating

rising - mysterious, intimidating, may come off as aloof or brooding, powerful, strong presence

Sagittarius

sun - optimistic, adventurous, sees life as a journey, loves to travel, needs variety in life, independent and honest, fast-thinkers, strong willed

moon - happy-go-lucky attitude, competitive, adaptable, likes to leave an impression on others, impulsive and enthusiastic

rising - loves to be active, very opinionated, bores easily with routine, cheerful presence, curious, appears confident, needs independence

Capricorn

sun - practical and persistent, self-confident, profound thinkers, their seriousness may make them seem unhappy, can concentrate very well

moon - needs to feel useful and productive, does not like dealing with emotions, very hard on themselves, hides sensitivity with sarcasm

rising - takes everything seriously, very conscious of the image they project, chooses to be around others who make them look good, calm demeanor 

Aquarius

sun - free-spirited and eccentric, charming, keeps to themselves and doesn’t express their problems, detached view of life, social, independent and original

moon - very observant, have always felt “different”, emotionally detached, kind and compassionate, strong ego, outgoing introverts, friendly and optimistic

rising - unique, loves to express their individuality, quiet and irreverent sense of humor, curious, likable and friendly, appears aloof while also coming off as kind

Pisces

sun - emotional and instinctual, easily discouraged, generous with friends, homebodies, accepts people for who they are, may feel unappreciated

moon - silly sense of humor, sweet and soft hearted, genuinely cares about others, creative, easily amused, tries to avoid the dull parts of life

rising - charming and intriguing, very impressionable, dislikes confrontation, is seen as genuine and gentle, dislikes attention

Rising signs personalities

Aries rising / Aries ascendant

This is a very direct, quick to anger person. You might catch this person doing the most cursing at drivers on the way to work in rush hour traffic. Then once they arrive is cool as a fan and friendly with their coworkers.  Remember, Aries ascendants have Libra on their descendant. Their Venus rules their house of  interpersonal relationships. A Libra individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

The passion of this rising sign may throw folks off if their Sun sign and features reflect a Taurus, or Libra who have a softer, less intense, more amiable appearance and features.

Taurus rising / Taurus ascendant

This is a very calm and easy going rising sign. These people don’t come off as very intense or aggressive. They appear to have a slow boiling huffing and puffing anger, like a bull,  from a distance. Their descendant is Scorpio so, this easy going nature really has an intensity and passion when dealing with loved ones. A Scorpio individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

A square jaw and wide grin with shiny white teeth could mislead folks if this person is a double Leo or double Sagittarius for example. They don’t know that this tamed bull is really a wild animal behind the veneer.

Gemini rising / Gemini ascendant

This is one inquisitive rising sign. This is the person who while riding the bus or the subway is talking to the person sitting or standing next to them making small talk. They want to understand other people to build their own  understanding of themselves. Sagittarius is on their descendant, their relationships may appear to be odd to friends. Dating someone who appears to not be compatible. A Sagittarius individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

This can be a confusing ascendant for someone who is a double Pisces for instance. These mental exercises of human interaction can be exhausting and cause them to retreat into isolation. People who knew them as this chatterbox person has to learn to accept who this person is.

Cancer rising / Cancer ascendant

This is a cagey rising sign. Water signs are known as “mute” signs. This  rising sign might go about its business without saying a single word. But if you look at their expressive eyes you will be able to read into what they’re thinking. Capricorn on their descendant shows an interest in older partners, partners who are established. A Capricorn individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

This person may be the quietest and then loudest person you’ll ever know if they have masculine signs as their Sun and/or moon and they know you well.

Leo rising / Leo ascendant

This rising sign wants to be seen and heard. They want you to know how they’re doing even if you don’t really want to know and tell them that. Their confidence and ego is worn on their sleeve. With Aquarius on their descendant they are actually very concerned with making and maintaining friendships. An Aquarius individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

Once you get to know them, that confident nature might prove to be a show if their Sun and/or Moon are feminine signs.

Virgo rising / Virgo ascendant

This is the person who tries to do everything, it may look like they are frantically moving around in a rush doing 10 things at once. Fidgeting with their phone, their coffee, their cigarette. They see everything wrong with the way the diner they grab breakfast from was remodeled. Virgo rising has Pisces on the descendant, so their really is a sympathetic side they have for loved ones. A Pisces individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

If you can make it past the barrage of questions , critiques and occasional meltdowns , and become a friend or more they may be very calm and easy going.

Libra rising / Libra ascendant

Libra risings will have a smile  for everyone they come across moving to and from. This person is amiable and knows their manners and how to make others feel comfortable. They’re skilled at mirroring others so that even if you don’t really know them, it seems like you do. They’re actually pretty demanding in relationships with Aries on their descendant. An Aries individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

Their smile and soft features may be misleading if you find out they have more passionate, emotional signs like Scorpio or Cancer as luminaries.

Scorpio rising / Scorpio ascendant

This rising sign, like Cancer is quiet when facing unknown people. Scorpio’s defensive wall is very thick and everyone who isn’t in their sphere of trust will get a poker face. Their serious face that scrutinizes and observes is good at keeping people they don’t want to know, away. They have Taurus on the descendant so once you know them they are actually open and generous. A Taurus individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility .

This ascendant can really be confusing if you find out they are the most open and talkative person when their luminaries are in masculine signs.

Sagittarius rising / Sagittarius ascendant

Sagittarius risings are enthusiastic and expressive. These people will talk with their hands and like to laugh a lot when their guard is up. Hyperbole is a part of their personality, telling a grandiose story to the person they’re sitting next to on the bus. In relationships, with Gemini on their descendant they actually do have an attention to detail in their relationships. A Gemini individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

This expressive presentation might be very different from the more intimate version of them. With luminaries in earth signs you might find that they are actually very balanced and sober in their dealings.

Capricorn rising / Capricorn ascendant

About business. Even if you’re not in business, people see your straight face and calm demeanor and think you might be. You always appear to be headed somewhere purposefully. Capricorns have Cancer on their descendant and actually love their homes and spending time there with their loved one. A Cancer individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

The serious and rigid appearance melts away when they know you especially if they have lighthearted Sagittarius or Gemini planets as luminaries.

Aquarius rising / Aquarius ascendant

Aquarius rising looks at everyone and treats everyone as equals, and impersonally. Even still there is a lighthearted and friendly demeanor about them. Just don’t disagree with an opinion of theirs. They actually do love the attention from a significant other in a relationship having Leo on their descendant. A Leo individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

The lighthearted presentation might make way for a much more emotional personal life if they have water signs as luminaries.

Pisces rising / Pisces ascendant

This dreamy eyed and sensitive appearing person is rather quiet, drawing both sympathetic people but also predatory individuals. When Pisces risings move about they carry with them an aura of spirituality. They can convince people of many of things with an appealing emotional approach.  They are actually more critical and detail oriented than they appear in their relationships with Virgo on the descendant. A Virgo individual may help balance you in relationships very well provided chart and personality compatibility.

Pisces ascendants may appear sensitive but might actually be a roaring beast beyond the appearance especially if they have signs like Aries or Sagittarius as luminaries.

Astrology Characters for Stories


Aries:
Your hero. Your fun loving wild child. The woman in a male dominated field. Your sportsman. Your adrenaline junkie. Your catalyst for chaos
Expresses as excitable, decisive, unpredictable, defender, destructor, antagonist, revolutionary  
The Aries character is youthful, brave, competitive, and will do anything to win. A character with a strong will and even stronger body to follow. A character who triggers chaos to ease their own boredom. 
Likes wearing red. Has an equally fun loving and energetic dog that is adored. A character that is capable of working under high pressure situations like paramedicine or emergencies. 
A character that is fighting for her cause. Mars is the ruler of Aries and corresponds with accidents, a character that displays remarkable inner strength to recover from a trauma. A character who won’t hesitate charging into danger to save somebody. Wonder Woman. 

Taurus
Your figure of beauty. Your desired one. Your affluent one. The stylish artist. Your business owner. Your hippie. Your hopeless romantic. 
Expresses as socially graceful and considerate. May be very indulgent. A character who knows how to enjoy the good things in life. A socialite. A character who loves throwing dinner parties. A savvy business woman with elegance, beauty, and sass. A character longing for traditional, classical romance in a world that seems to have forgotten what that is. A character who suffers financial instabilities. 
Has a taste for the aesthetic. Loves to stylise. A character who can play instruments or write music. The beautiful girl next door. A character working at the art gallery longing for her portraits to be on the wall. A woman who runs the floors of Wall Street with her stunning heels and pink blazer.  

Gemini
Your main voice. Your student. Your teacher. Your intellect. Your author. Your gossip. Your talkative barista. Your school starter 
Expresses as clever, charming, and a little cunning. A unpredictable character. Your character who shuts down debate instantly with wicked wit. She could be comedic. She may speak many languages. She may be a professional student. A character who is the ‘go to’ when people have questions. A character who is always using her phone. A character who seems to know everything about everyone. A character that you never quite figure out what the real intention was.
Likes to wear fresh, cute and youthful outfits. A character who takes off in a moment’s notice, and plays the devil’s advocate. A character who is underestimated due to her scattered and erratic behaviour but solves great codes or crimes or mysteries. Fyi. Sherlock Holmes was a Gemini 

Cancer:
Your mystical fantasy. The adored child of the family. Your first time mother. Your People’s Princess. Your Queen Mother. Your witch or sorceress. The family matriarch 
Expresses emotional and maternal qualities, often moody, easily provoked, imaginative, and nostalgic 
The Cancer character is protective. She could be a psychic or receive messages from crossed ancestors. 
Likes wearing darker hues. Maybe also a cross. A character who may be lost in time or attempting to run or heal from her past, one who makes admirable sacrifices. This character prefers to be home with loved ones and retains traditional values. She may live in a house the family has had for decades, probably haunted. Very caring and sensitive, could be a nurse, counsellor, or work with children. A character who has a vivid and intriguing inner life that is shut off to others. A character who is reuniting with her family or meeting her mother for the first time. 

Leo: 
Your starring role. Your Queen. Your dramatic teenager. Your aspiring actor or artist. Your Prince Charming.
Expresses the graces and faults of youth, playfulness and fun, leadership and dignity. The Leo character is noble, honest, strong willed, and creative. This is the one who lights up the room. Well liked, but sometimes misunderstood.She may live in a palace, a place of privilege, or more likely a chic and stylish decorated apartment with her prized animal.
Likes wearing gold. Will go into battle. But gets very wounded in battle.
A character who is trying to feel comfortable in her own skin, a character who expresses with pride and confidence but is secretly very unsure, a character who has overcome all the odds to reach their dreams and rule the world in some form

Virgo
Your intellectual progeny. Your puzzle master. Your dedicated and deserving labourer. Your problem solver. Your domestic eccentric.
Expresses as competent but self doubtful, has perfectionist tendencies, is very helpful and knowledgable, can be socially awkward in conversation until she is completely comfortable. A character who has odd rituals or phobias. A character who is a nurse or a nursing student. A character who has gruelling self expectation and goes to extremes. A character suffering a health crisis or a character who solves medical mysteries. A character who is special and can decipher number riddles and patterns 
Appearance can be very primed to perfection. The home can have a unique, very personal set up that reflects deeply ingrained rituals, it may be 
A character who is under appreciated. A character who carries out secret acts of altruism. Bree on Desperate Housewives is a good but extreme example of a Virgo character 

Libra 
The King’s daughter. Your object of desire. Your hopeless romantic. Your sweetheart. Your lawyer. Your court room darling. Your heartbreaker 
Expresses as sociable and friendly. Is easily well liked but has quite intense self doubt. Can routinely fall dangerously in love because of her vivid fantasy life. The friend everyone calls when they need a hand, an ear, or a heart. 
A character who crumbles when she is alone. A character who runs a law firm and throws the best parties like she has a day and night personality. 
A character who sacrifices everything for love. A character who has dreamed of her wedding since she was a child. A character who has a gleaning, blissful, classical image of romance in her mind. A character who is written off for her femininity or ideals but has a blade on her tongue during debate and slices just about anyone. 
Well styled, complementary dressed, nothing outlandish but nothing boring. Likes to accessorise. Home is cordially decorated and symmetrical. 
A character who is forced to choose between her head and her heart. A character who is fighting injustice against a big corporation or government. A dancer who is forced to choose between love and her art 

Scorpio
Your anointed one. Your gifted one. Your medium. Your seducer. Your revealer. Your hidden catalyst. Your troubled one. 
Expresses as secretive, knowledgable, calculative, sensitive, and intense. Can easily throw off weaker characters. Can be the intriguing object of desire. A character who is a detective. A character who can read people’s minds. A character who doesn’t trust other people. Scorpio is watery and medicinal, the character could be a grand healer or crone. A character who is a witch or gets involved in dark occult. A character who is forced to undergo psychoanalysis but systematically erodes the mind of the psychiatrist in the process. 
Lives in the house down the end of the street with the forbidding black fence and cemetery gates with a pet crow 
A character who uncovers conspiracies or government corruption. A character who follows the trail of serial killers and never fails. A character who assists dead people crossing over. A character that is instantly respected regardless of social skills. A character who can’t help but seduce unsuspecting victims 

Sagittarius
Your free spirit. Your jet setter. Your foreigner. Your student. Your professor. Your life of the party. Your pilgrim. Your comic. Your philanthropist. Your genie in a bottle 
Expresses as fun loving, provocative, knowledgeable, open minded, pleasure seeking. A character who has a remarkable change of fortune. A character who celebrates culture, freedom, and life. A character who can provoke tension due to her sharp honesty.  A character that wanders endlessly but doesn’t want to be found. A character that lives out of her suitcase and wears flowers in her hair and follows the festivals around. Jupiter is the ruler of Sagittarius so this character has numerous lucky breaks. 
Earthy, festive, and bohemian styling, cool and casual 
A character that never gives her real name or address, aspiring to escape the memories and confines of her home town. A character that experiences an enlightenment and goes completely off the grid. A character who falls in love abroad or meets a guru with profound spiritual truths, a character on a journey

Capricorn
Your Cinderella story. Your rags to riches Princess. Your leader. Your corporate ruler. Your battler. Your old soul. Your matriarch or patriarch. 
Expresses as focused, resourceful, dedicated, loyal, overcomes the odds, graceful, elegant, powerful , formidable 
A character who proves herself against the odds. A character who inspires and leads the way while secretly doubting herself. A character who is a master or expertise of their trade. A character that missed out on childhood. A character with an absent father. A character who has generated remarkable wisdom during her short time on earth. A character who can stop or change time. A character that owns a clock with everyone’s date of mortality.
Appearance is sharp, classical, elegant, conservative, dapper 
May live in a noted part of town or in a well known building considering Capricorn’s social prestige. A character who relentlessly chases her dream. A character who expires through her story from heartache to success. A teacher. A business woman. An expert on intricate statistics. A character who feels like death is always chasing her 

Aquarius 
Your genius. Your eccentric. Your mad professor. Your enigmatic air fairy. Your revolutionary. Your conspiracist. Your misfit. 
Expresses as highly intelligent, peculiar, outlandish, compassionate, unpredictable, free spirited, intriguing. A character who is relentless and frenetic about proving her unorthodox theories. A radical protestor. An environmental warrior. A character with secret alien friends. A character that experiments with everything with natural style and flair. Unusual or striking appearance, a teal haired character with purple contacts 
Aquarius is a character who has a lot of friends and appreciates unity. A character who inspires other people to join her plight against an injustice. A character from a small part of the world given nothing but a voice to change the world. A character who indulges in the Aquarian utopia that has been created in the near future 

Pisces 
Your inspiration. Your salient chameleon. Your lover. Your sacrifice. Your Fairy Godmother. Your mythical creature
Expresses as highly sensitive, emotional, withdrawing, creative, mysterious, tempting, and delirious. A character who is spiritual and has psychic gifts. A character that listens to fairies. A character who dreams herself into new worlds every night. The Pisces character is gifted, multifaceted, receptive, and intuitive. She can instantly tell if somebody is happy or sad before they say anything at all so she knows all the time that people lie.
Styled in darker or purple hues with thick coated mascara. Wears a cross or a symbol. Lives alone because she needs to escape from people. A character who is trying to support and heal people from their mental illness while suffering it herself. A character that receives frequent psychic prophecies. A character who can see what other people can’t. A character that deals with inhuman experiences in a human world. A healer, a witch doctor, a medicine woman, an evangelist 

-C. 

 

the most difficult thing to understand when i was figuring out that im actually a lesbian who was experiencing compulsory heterosexuality is that comp het isn’t just forcing yourself to like men

you can really, genuinely have warm, positive, strong feelings towards men and they can still be comp het. because comp het is the assumption that any feelings that you have towards a man MUST be attraction because society talks all the time about hetero love and attraction so when you feel something towards a man you think “oh, this must be what it’s like”. and then as part of “discovering your sexuality” you try to find ways that you find men attractive. you think “i’m not attracted to physical appearance, only personalities” or “i only like feminine men” or you find ways to make yourself aroused by men by imagining them in all kinds of kinky and unusual scenarios until you hit one that appeals to you

and then when you can’t follow through with this ‘attraction’ in real life scenarios when you have a chance to have a romantic/sexual relationship with a man you assume that’s it’s some broken part of you that’s stopping you, or some quirk of your personality, or a circumstance of your life (”i have high standards” or “i only like older men” or “i have some incredibly obscure made-up sexuality where i only like men until they like me back”), and you explain away why you’re unable to find an attainable man in real life who you’re attracted to.

and this is something that’s really difficult to recognise because in the process of figuring out your sexuality you question how you feel and you come back with “well i definitely have strong feelings for men” and assume you’re straight or bi. but another important thing to question is “have i correctly labelled and understood what this feeling is and am i certain that it’s actually attraction”

society puts so much emphasis on the importance and intensity of heterosexual love and attraction that it’s important to actively remind yourself that it’s possible to love someone and have a deep interest in them without having romantic or sexual feelings towards them (especially if that love comes along with another intense interest, like your feelings towards a fictional man in a tv show you love)

Okay, considering I have an entire inspirational folder dedicated to pictures of this on my computer I might as well make a post about how much I love ONE’s monster designs.

I know the focus is usually on his sillier or more comical ones, but when he brings the creepy  - he really brings it.

I mean, look at this

They’re just

so

freaking intense 

Like, his monster designs are one of my most favourite things, and I just want to bring more attention to how great they are. Because I don’t think he gets enough attention for how absolutely awesome his monster designs are.

Entwining Your Dominant Energies

I’ve noticed a lot of people seem to make the mistake as taking only the first dominant sign or planet, but your dominance works more as a rank than it does as one true thing.

Everyone has every sign/planet/element/modality within them. Each sign will have some amount of prevalence in your chart. For this reason, it’s key to look at it as encompassing yourself, rather than defining it as one.

For example, my dominant sign is Aquarius, but this would not be enough to understand or study me. I would also take my next 4: Virgo, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Taurus. Then, I could start to study these signs and their archetypes, and see how they can relate to me as a whole.

That’s the key to dominants: it is you as a whole. They work as a flash point, a conclusion, to your chart. Each sign or planet has a certain set of values and characteristics, which when you combine with the other most prominent dominants you have, can act as almost a small biography of who you are. 

When thinking of your dominants, it’s key to not take too much or too little. If you have 5 signs all with high percentages, you can use all 5 if you wish, but if you only have 2, then you can just use 2! 

To conclude, here’s a list of characteristics which can be used to describe each dominant. If you’re unsure on how many to take away from this, the default amount is usually considered 3 (3 signs, and 3 planets).

Signs:

  • Aries - Passionate, Impulsive, Chaotic
  • Taurus - Stubborn, Routinely, Loving
  • Gemini - Social, Dynamic, Laid Back
  • Cancer - Family oriented, Empathetic, Emotionally tied
  • Leo - Artistic, Extroverted, Dramatic
  • Virgo - Analytical, Precise, Helpful
  • Libra - Loving, Indecisive, Peaceful
  • Scorpio - Investigative, Deep, Intense
  • Sagittarius - Intellectual, Travel-oriented, Unsettled
  • Capricorn - Ambitious, Hard-working, Objective
  • Aquarius - Eccentric, Individual, Humanitarian
  • Pisces - Intuitive, Sympathetic, Romantic

Planets:

  • Sun - Confident, Extroverted, Sure
  • Moon - Emotional, Empathetic, Understanding
  • Mercury - Linguistically wise, Communicative, Social
  • Venus - Aesthetically Inclined, Loving, Musical
  • Mars - Rambunctious, Head strong, Prominent
  • Jupiter - Expansive, Experience-oriented, Unregulated
  • Saturn - Orderly, Specific, System-inclined
  • Uranus - Outspoken, Political, Blunt
  • Neptune - Delusional, Dreamy, Wise
  • Pluto - Ever-changing, Destructive, Revival

Example: Scorpio, Leo, Sagittarius & Mars, Sun, Pluto

“I am investigative and intellectual, I am intense and unsettled. Parts of me are artistic and dramatic. I can be travel-oriented, as well as deep. Amongst these things, I am rambunctious and ever-changing, maybe even head strong and destructive. It is likely you shall see me as confident or sure, even prominent or extroverted. But, I have another side of me which aims for revival.”

Laucy VS Camren

Well, this is not a theory. I got up to these pics and they hit me like a truck. I’m not a morning person, but this even overpowered what an alarm could do.

I admit I wasn’t on the best state to see these pics because I just got my heart broken. So seeing the 1st pic posted on wildflyme’s instagram was breaking my heart even more because I’m a camren shipper af.

These pics are so sensual, yes. They both look really happy. With the fragile state of me right now, even the 1st pic had me so down and sad because my ship has lost in the middle of nowhere LOL. It felt as if my heart was ripped to two.

But again, this is media. One thing that is consistent about me wherever I am on social media (Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr) is that I don’t trust media anymore. MTV is one of them. I don’t even believe in Billboard, then how can I even trust MTV? This is the link

http://www.mtv.com/news/2995972/lauren-jauregui-lucy-vives-photoshoot/?xrs=_s.tw_news


After all, we all know, these are from a photoshoot in November 2016.

There are many possibilities out there, but I’m just gonna narrow them down to 2 possibilities here. If I list all the possibilities one by one, it might end up like a novel. It’s better to just focus on two.

1. Laucy did date just like what was mentioned in the article and Camren was NOT real or even if Camren might be dating at some point

2. Laucy did date just like what was mentioned in the article, but Camren IS real as well

You know, when you read these 2 possibilities, you will feel like, “No, I think..” or “Wait.. but..” Save it. Let’s just focus on these 2, because I know it’s a never ending debate if we talk about all possibilities.

But now, let’s see the big picture and let’s stop with “No, Camren is real” and “No, Laucy is real” debate. Let’s look at another point of view here. What if both ships are real?

For me, the 2nd possibility is what I believe. You know I don’t trust media anymore just like what I said earlier. But, what was mentioned in MTV is STILL one of the many possibilities, right? We can’t just exclude it just because we are denying that Laucy is real.

Laucy might be real at some point (or not). They mentioned they dated on and off for a few years. They have known each other since high school. The context of “a few years” might be around 2 - 3 years. That’s my definition. 4 years for a relationship for me is a long time. I can’t define it as only “a few” years. But, what if this happened before Camila and Lauren met each other? Or what if this happened before Camila and Lauren realized they fell in love with each other? For God’s sake, this might happened during the X Factor as well, and Laucy & Camren might be a complicated love triangle (okay, I’m delusional but this is one of the million possibilities out there, right?)

It was mentioned in MTV article that they did this photoshoot as part of their coming out. It was mentioned “They did really like each other” but there was no timeline mentioned about when they had the relationship. It was only mentioned “They dated for a few years”.

Those photoshoot pics might break my heart, but I’m not losing my Camren heart. No.. Why? Because of these.

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I’m sorry but they look really happy here as well? Or are you still gonna call me delusional?

Well, these gifs seem too friendly though. But these iconic moments will always be in our minds.

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Originally posted by pureheartsaredope

Your other expressions can lie, but your eyes will never lie. These gifs are heart-warming to be honest.

Then, these indirects.

Lol, I’m sorry for being extra on this. But have you realized that the article confirmed yet killing Laucy at the same time?

I’m NOT losing hope on what I call as true love. I might be so lowkey about it on my instagram and twitter accounts cause I use those platform for another purpose. I never posts about Camren there. But here, in Tumblr, I’m quite vocal about it. I might not be as intense as the other Camren accounts, and I might be lowkey about it, but since the very beginning my fan account was made, I AM a Camren shipper.

You have your right to believe what you wanna believe, but I believe in true love and that revolves around Camren, because the way Lauren looks at Camila is love.

P.S. Guys, I don’t know why but on my phone the pictures shown are only a few. Even the indirect pics are only one which is shown. Is it like that in your phone as well? Because I posted this using my laptop. If you see it from the laptop or computer, you’ll see all the trolls lol

Scorpio: Why Does Everything Always Happen So Much

Whenever a Scorpio feels something, anything, it hurts. 

Think of the strange, compelling, almost-frightening pleasure-pain of sex. It hurts, but it’s good, but it’s too much. You want it to stop. You never want it to end. You feel like it could kill you; you think you might die without it. 

Dramatic? Yes.

But it’s not an exaggeration. 

That’s what emotion is to a Scorpio. It’s choking, burning, drowning everything. Happiness, sorrow, love, anger, fear- it’s always Too Fucking Much. Life, for a Scorpio who as not yet learned to control emotions, is an intense, interesting sort of hell. 

Cancer is so weak that a gentle breeze might as well be a hurricane. Pisces actively seeks out or creates excessive emotions to deal with boredom.

Scorpio is a different story. This is a sign that can know, accept, and even embrace powerful emotions, despite being strong and without actively seeking such experiences. 

This is the root of Scorpio’s secrecy: they don’t want anyone else to know how much every little thing, good or bad, hurts. They’re frightened by how intensely they can focus, how long they can obsess, how deeply they feel. If you knew, you’d be frightened too. 

They feel too much, and they also see everything. 

Say a wife is cheating on her husband, has been for some time, but no one, including the husband, notices. An evolved Scorpio can see, with a single glance, exactly what is happening and why. A mature Scorpio knows that it’s best to let them figure it out themselves. 

It can take people years to see what is painfully obvious to a Scorpio in an instant, which is another reason Scorpios prefer to keep quiet: they’re afraid they’re wrong. They feel like they’re crazy for seeing what no one else can. Even if they speak out and are right, people may deny the truth and stick to more comfortable lies. 

So… There you have it. 

For Scorpios, Everything Always Happens So Much and it is Literally The Fucking Worst. Please try to understand.

[also applies to pluto dominants; can apply to anyone with significant scorpio energy in the natal chart; does not necessarily apply to all scorpios, because a good number shut that part of themselves away and refuse to/can’t access it.]

Masterlist (Vol. 2)

Finally here is volume 2 of my mobile master list! I just wanted to thank you guys so much for everything, every single note, reblog and follow means the absolute world to me! Anyway enjoy and remember your feedback on any of my fics is always appreciated!

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Imagines-

High School AU
Introduction
Part 1 (Sweet Memories)

Steve Rogers (Captain America)- Total: 17
Over A Coffee Cup- Part 1, Part 2, Part 3
Amazed By You
Shock Confession- Part 1, Part 2
Similar Smiles- Part 1, Part 2
Who Told You?- Part 1, Part 2
Beautiful Soul
A Shy Situation
Nothing Like Her
Forever And Always
Senior Discount
Possibility- Part 1, Part 2
Somewhere Only We Know- Part 1, Part 2
Fallen
In Love- Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4
We Start Over- Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11
In The Rain (Wanda Maximoff Award)
Best Mother Ever (Sam Wilson Award)

Bucky Barnes (Winter Soldier)- Total: 23
The Winter Guardian (Teaser)
We Must Be Killers
Who Do You Think You Are- Part 1, Part 2, Part 3
Definitely A Stark
Well This Is Awkward- Part 1, Part 2, Part 3
Dance With Me
Too Cute- Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4
Keep Your Eyes On Me
Half Alive- Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5
American Beauty/American Psycho- Part 1, Part 2
Playmates
Taken From You
Brotherly Love
Jealousy
Scared
Can’t Believe
Demons
Comfort
Good For Me (Bucky Barnes Award)
A Little Bit Of Culture (Steve Rogers Award)
Stranded (Natasha Romanoff Award)
Saving You (T’Challa Award)
Don’t Touch Her (Wade Wilson Award)

Pietro Maximoff (Quicksilver)- Total: 6
Really?
You Little Tease
Stray
‘People of the Week’ Winner Request 1
Fallen
Freak

Sam Wilson (Falcon)- Total: 1
Cut It Out

Clint Barton (Hawkeye)- Total: 3
Little Details
Nesting
Mistakes

Tony Stark (Iron Man)- Total: 2
You’ve Got To Be Kidding Me
I Think I Love You (By Katie James)

Thor Odinson- Total: 3
Thunder Buddies
‘People of the Week’ Winner Request 1
Rainy Day (Peter Parker Award)

Loki Laufeyson- Total: 2
‘People of the Week’ Winner Request 3
What?

Vision- Total: 2
‘People of the Week’ Winner Request 4
Understanding Love (Clint Barton Award)

Peter Parker (Spider-Man)- Total: 2
Make Me
The Biggest Fanboy (Pietro Maximoff Award)

Howard Stark- Total: 1
Lost In War

Matt Murdock (Daredevil)- Total: 1
The Name’s Matt (By Katie James)

Johnny Storm (Human Torch)- Total: 1
Crash Landing- Part 1, Part 2

Dave Lizewski (Kick Ass)- Total: 1
You Had Me At Hello- Part 1, Part 2, Part 3

Phan (Dan x Phil)- Total: 1
New Year, New Chapter (By Katie James)

Severus Snape (Harry Potter- Total: 1
Always (By Katie James)

Daryl Dixon (The Walking Dead)- Total: 1
Scars (By Katie James)

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Drabbles-

Steve Rogers (Captain America)- Total: 33
Fight
Betrayed
She did the unthinkable and escaped.
He was seduced by the possibilities.
“Are you hitting on her for me?”
“The way you flirt is shameful.”
“Oh my god! You’re in love with him!”
“I’m flirting with you.”
“Well… don’t keep me waiting.”
“I can’t explain right now, but I really need you to trust me.”
“I may despise you with the burning hot intensity of the sun, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you.”
“If you die, I’m going to kill you!”
“Have you lost your damn mind!?”
“Oh you beautiful weirdo!”
“I’m missing something here, aren’t I?”
“How can you be so resentful?”
“Please just back the fuck off!”
“Aren’t you a bit… not… qualified?”
“You’re so small!”
“It killed me to see you with him.”
“You’re not getting rid of me that easy.”
“Your eyes are like stars.”
“Cuddle?”
“We’re not buying a dog.”
“It never gets easier.”
“Yell, scream, say something!”
“We’re not just friends and you fucking know it!”
“Wait a minute. Are you jealous?”
“I wish I could hate you.”
“Wait a minute. Are you jealous?”
“I love you, you asshole!”
“Come home with me.”
“I know this song.”

Bucky Barnes (Winter Soldier)- Total: 30
Mega Prompt Challenge
Fight
Trust
Guilt
Light
Regret
Stood up to them, regretted it.
“Oh you beautiful weirdo!”
“IF YOU USE UP ALL THE HOT WATER ONE MORE TIME IM GOING TO BAN YOU TO THE COUCH FOR A MONTH.”
“I think we should have another.”
“Do you think it’s possible that I…might be…pregnant?”
“Please, don’t turn him away again!”
“Please just back the fuck off!”
“If you’d ever show up, yes.”
“Your eyes are like the stars/”
“It killed me to see you with him.”
“Hello gorgeous, do I know you?”
“Don’t try, I’m not worth it.”
“You taste like heaven.”
“When’s the last time I said I love you?”
“I thought I could manage. I can’t. Not without you. Not ever, like that.”
“Suck my nonexistent dick!”
“I am in deeeeep shit!”
“Come home with me.”
“I can explain this.”
“I’d rather caress my asshole with a chainsaw.”
“Come home with me.”
“Don’t you ever do that again!”
“SO… you think I’m hot?”
“Don’t be an asshole. Asshole.”

Pietro Maximoff (Quicksilver)- Total: 17
Stood up to them, regretted it.
She did the unthinkable, and escaped.
“Wait a minute. Are you jealous?”
“A boy needs his father.”
“We accidentally got married in Vegas oops.”
“I waxed the floors, grab your fluffy socks!”
“Do you think it’s possible that I… might be pregnant?”
“If you die, I’m gonna kill you!”
“Please just back the fuck off!”
“He’s not agitated, he’s a jerk!”
“I can’t breathe.”
“Don’t touch me!”
“Hey. I’m with you, okay? Always.”
“Oh my god! You’re in love with him/her!”
“Suck my nonexistent dick!”
“I don’t know where she gets it from.”
“SO… you think I’m hot?”

Sam Wilson (Falcon)- Total: 2
“I’m missing something here, aren’t I?”
“You’re so cute!!!”

Clint Barton (Hawkeye)- Total: 5
“Your eyes are like stars.”
“Hello gorgeous, do I know you?”
“I am in deeeeep shit!”
“Suck my nonexistent dick!”
“I can explain this.”

Natasha Romanoff (Black Widow)- Total: 6
Betrayed
“Are you hitting on her for me?”
“Will you please just give me a hand?”
“I can’t believe you talked me into this.”
“Take my hand.”
“Where were you?”

Tony Stark (Iron Man)- Total: 4
Kiss
“Have you lost your damn mind?”
“You’re so small!”
“I’m in this for life.”

Bruce Banner (Hulk)- Total: 1
“I miss you.”

Thor Odinson- Total: 4
Sleep
“Your eyes are like stars.”
“We’re not buying a dog.”
“You’re so small!”

Loki Laufeyson- Total: 5
Regret
Survive
“You’re not getting rid of me that easy.”
“Use your words.”
“Don’t be an asshole. Asshole.”

Peter Parker- Total: 3
“I can arrange that.”
“How about if we-” “NO!”
“I broke your nose, and I’m sorry for that. But what you were doing wasn’t fair.” 

The signs hugging

Aries: Pounds your back to make sure you know how intense their love is

Taurus: Perfectly aligns hearts and holds you tight. A powerful warmth begins to spread through your body. Your eyes well up. A single tear threatens to fall. Then the hug breaks, and the moment is over.

Gemini: Asks first: “Do you need a hug?” Wraps arms around you, holds tight for a sec, then slaps your back in a brolike fashion and awkwardly breaks apart to avoid seeming too touchy-feely

Cancer: Gives and takes hugs in equal measure. Soft, gentle, and warm. Why hugs were invented

Leo: Casual hugs all the time, no biggie

Virgo: Getting a hug from them is like getting a hug from God; you can’t believe you made it to this moment, you must have done something right

Libra: hugs who they want to hug plus EVERYONE ELSE just to be fair so it doesn’t look like they’re showing favoritism or anything

Scorpio: *checks pockets*

Sagittarius: Short hugs, touch-and-go, like they’re about to catch a flight out of the country. Are they vacationing, or on the run? Will you ever see them again? No one knows

Capricorn: You have just sealed a pact of friendship forever, expect them a call from them at 8 pm on a Wednesday night 20 years from now to catch up like you just saw each other yesterday

Aquarius: “I’m not a hugger”

Pisces: Probably initiated the hug

See Yeh Break

Harry X Reader: Smut

In which you become well acquainted with Harry’s thigh.

Request? Yes:

riding harrys leg on a balacony overlooking the aegean on a sunny july day

THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING THIGH RIDING PLEASE

Author’s note: The beginning turned all mushy? Idk what that’s about (Yes I do. It’s because I’m fucking whipped for mushy Harry.) but if the transition seems sudden, whooops. :)


This vacation is an absolute blessing. A week away from the madness and noise of fans and paps and meetings. From the moment the two of you arrived to your private little getaway on the coast, Harry’s been warm and relaxed, and you couldn’t ask for anything more than that.

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reasons why you should try the "ace attorney" series

- its a fucking classic

- “objection” “objection” “objection” “objec

- you can even play the games on your phone like some millennial

- the main trilogy + apollo’s game have sick ass pixel art as well as sick ass pixel sprites with sick ass animations????????

- the 3d models look like memes??? the ones in soj and dd atleast

- music??? good music???? we got some intense af chiptunes here?? its even got chiptune jazz

- so much puns and pop culture references that you’ll turn into the upside down smiley face emoji

- choosing the wrong piece of evidence or objecting on the wrong statement will give you anxiety but youll still have fun dont worry

- you will love every single character and they will all personally love you back (except for maybe kristoph)

- germans

- “oOoO AaaAaCchHhtuuNnGgg BABByy”

- “fooLlshhLY FOOl iSH H FO oLS”

- “join us on the american kotatsu.” “eat your hamburgers apollo”

- you can talk to dead people

- your favorites dont die (sometimes– my fav died 8( )

- if the present time games arent ur thing……… dai gyakuten saiban exists

- ^^^^ japan history book??? the meiji period??? bro u can educate yourself with this

- ^^^^ smooth boy sherlock holmes is in it??

- ^^^^ steampunk

- ^^^^ GOOD MUSIC

- diverse ”“"american”“” cast

- you can use some weird black magic shit to be a lawyer

- everyone looks ridiculous

- the characters??? actually like grow up when a new game comes out?? theyre not eternally 21 or smthn

- each case is a good story that makes you go “oOoOoOo shHIIiT”

- professor layton crossover ????????

- the adorable promo art that the artists come up w/

feel free to add more im tired

Power is a fantastic music video. It provides us with just enough information (that EXO does in fact work on a multiverse/multiplanet level and LMR is in fact linked to the storyline) while not bogging it down with too much and just having fun. It kind of pokes fun at the serious tone of previous EXO MVs, mocking the narration in MAMA. It also teases at Monster by dropping us in the middle of a fight with our brave, dashing heroes and then almost immediately establishing that they basically have no clue what they’re doing. You start to really feel a connection to the cocky brave face immediately followed by getting scared by their own shadows. It’s also nice to see Chen take a front seat in a plot for once as well. Then the ending shots of them receiving their powers and the side scrolling shot of them using them is honestly badass and you have to cheer because the bumbling cuties have now become superheroes. 

EXO songs and concepts are generally pretty heavy and taken seriously. Think about the difference between the Korean and Japanese Love Me Right MVs. Fans like to analyze the concepts and appreciate a certain level of intensity, especially now that we’re starting to connect them more and more. Power takes a more lighthearted approach while still keeping the storyline in place, and the concept really adds to the song itself. It was a really good choice to go with a fun, comic-book style MV for such an upbeat and almost hectic song. It’s a good music video that is well executed and a change of pace for EXO that is very well timed and welcome. 

Help. I’ve fallen hard for Mystic Messenger and I can’t get up. 

I’m one of those fans who have multiple MCs, cause damn they all deserve to be happy. It’s just more fun that way for me ^-^ In all my MM headcanons, art, and fanfics- I always use these girls. 

How their story works is that Unknown has 5 different girls to choose to send to the RFA, and whichever member he wants to manipulate determines which girl he chooses to be the party planner (and therefore determining what route the player is on.) All 5 of them were specifically chosen because Unknown knew they would have the most significant influence on their target RFA member.

If you want to know who they are and read more about them, just continue under the cut!

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Moon in the houses

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1st

Moon in 1st people are sensitive, and their emotions are often displayed where everyone can see. Their emotions are instant and always are on the surface, making it hard for them to keep their emotions under wraps. They’re often known for being moody and emotional, which can sometimes make them seem impatient and overbearing to others. However, what a lot of people don’t notice about moon in 1st people, is that they’re extremely caring and nurturing towards others. They’re able to relate easily to other people, using their emotions to understand them.

2nd

Moon in 2nd house people’s emotion are often tied in with their personal values and possessions. Your belongings give you a sense of security, which is very important to you. Because of this, moon in 2nd house people love to collect things. Usually things with sentimental value. Despite their attachment to their belongings, moon in 2nd house people are often scared of being in trouble with money, or owing debt. These guys want to feel secure and go out of their way to make sure all their bills are paid. Sometimes vanity is also tied in with moon in 2nd house people. They often need to seek attention from others in order to develop feelings of self worth, which can make their emotions delayed or unresponsive.

3rd

Moon in 3rd people’s emotions are often intellectualised or communicated freely. Sometimes, these people flick between the two, finding it hard to make up their mind. They’re the masters at imitation, usually changing their views and opinions depending on who they’re with. This makes them the masters at communicating with others. Especially concerning emotion subjects and topics. These peoples find it very easy to pick up on the emotions and feelings around them. This is what makes them such good communicators when it comes to emotions. They often relate and understand the community and people around them.

4th

Moon in fourth house people often have a strong yearn for a sense of belonging. This then results in them usually searching in their past to find it. Because of this, they may find it difficult to break old habits and traditions, especially habits in childhood. It is indicated that moon if fourth house also have strong ties to their mother. She mothered and cared for you deeply as a child, creating a strong bond. Because of this, these people often struggle with the aspect of ‘growing up’ and can sometimes unleash that burden on others. Moon in 4th people also often have a strong urge to redecorate and move home’s frequently. Without this stimulation, these people often find hard to stabilize their emotions and take care of themselves.

5th

These people have a flair in their emotions! Moon in fifth house people can often dramatise and make a fuss out of their emotions. Like moon in first, the find it difficult to hide their emotions, and sometimes they don’t want to, they want people understand what they’re feeling. Another key aspect to Moon in 5th house people, is that they’re usually are known for having dramatic and intense love affairs. These affairs often change frequently as well as creative hobbies. These people also have an inner child, which also gives them a strong connection to children. You are always trying to connect to your inner child, whether that’s through your creative passion or emotions, you need to find it in order to be fulfilled emotionally.

6th

Moon in sixth house people need to feel useful, organised and on top of things within their life, in order to feel emotionally stable. They need the stability in their life and often achieve this by following a daily routine. Their moods can easily fluctuate by how organized they are, or their emotional states at work. When these needs aren’t met, this can lead into emotional unrest. Moon in 6th house people also feel emotional satisfaction when they’re helping out a friend! They’re always there to lend a helping hand to help fix whatever situation that they can change or help with.

7th

Moon in 7th people rely and crave support in a partnership in order to feel emotionally stable. Not only do they rely on their partner for emotional support, they also prefer to take them wherever they go. Whether that’s to the mall, beach or to get some gas. They just prefer to be with someone. Moon in 7th people also gain a lot of emotional discovery when they’re with their partners. It’s like something switching on inside them, they discover all their emotional needs and feelings. They also have the ability to adapt and understand people’s emotional needs, which makes them very easy to get along with. Because they become so emotionally attached to their partners, there is a tendency to be too dependent. They may feel unsure about themselves without a partner.

8th

Moon in 8th people have a strong desire emotional intensity and security. They are looking for people to connect with on a deep and intimate level. This ultimately makes it very hard for them to get over from any emotional betrayals and losses. They are deep and loyal people, looking for ways to transform themselves emotionally. They often do this by looking below the surface and into their painful memories of the past. This erupts deep and fierce feelings of jealousy, hatred and passion. Moon in 8th people are also deeply sensitive to what lies below the surface, which makes them interested in taboos, death, sex and occult.

9th

Moon in 9th people feel as though they need to live beyond the normal cookie cutter everyday to day life. They have a strong desire to explore, travel and educate themselves about the world that surrounds them. This can also make moon in 9th people very interested in philosophy. These people are often prone to feeling restless and uneasy if they don’t have an idea of their future. They often feel discontented if they’re stuck in one place, feeling as though they need to break free and travel the world. They’re constantly searching for more of what life has to offer, and can sometimes be prone to blaming their unhappiness on whatever situation they’re in.

10th

Moon in 10th people feel emotionally content when they’re status and achievements are achieved. They often work hard to towards their image, and are ones for keeping up appearances. Because of this, these peoples tend to change their goals and passions often, trying to find the perfect path for themselves. Sometimes it’s hard for them make decisions, as they often only focus on their emotional needs and what others want. They feel an overwhelming pressure to please people and perfect their image.

11th

Moon in 11th people feel an overwhelming need to be with friends and to belong in a group. These people offer all their support to their friends and want to receive the same back. They’re almost always surrounded by a close group of people, often relying on them for emotional support. However, this placement can often indicate an unstable social life which can be hard for them to accept and deal with. Moon in 11th people also have many changing and fleeting ideas and dreams. They have a great hope for their future and can often find it difficult to stick to one goal.

12th

Moon in 12th people can often feel blind to their emotions, or feel so much they can’t discern what they are. These people often have delayed emotional reactions, the 12th house cloaking them and keep them hidden. This can be very difficult for these people to really understand what they’re feeling and they often need to retreat back to their space in order to recharge. This can consequently make them isolate themselves and feel very detached from the world. Despite these people not really understanding their own emotional needs, they are ready to understand others feelings and emotions. They have a strong desire to help.

Downstream - ~1k, post 12.23 / pre s13, angst

The ocean is a flat plane of glass, and the boat doesn’t cause a single ripple as it glides along the surface. Dean has no idea how they managed to drift out so far, but somehow they’ve completely lost sight of the shoreline. The only indication of the horizon is the thinnest, faintest line; a stray hair caught in a watercolour canvas.

It’s light out, the air around him a diffusion of pink and gold and reflected back in the water’s mirror surface, but he can’t find the sun. Perhaps it’s nearing dawn.

Dean’s leaning back against the bow, hands behind his head. The gunwales are kind of digging into his shoulders, but he’s smiling.

His companion is silent and placid where he sits near the stern. The light is catching the tips of his hair, setting off the dark with glints of gold. Clasped hands hang between splayed knees.

Dean inhales thick, salt air and lets his eyes drift closed. “This was a good idea. We needed a vacation.”

“You deserve it.”

Dean hums, contented. “You too. Hell, we’ve all been through the ringer lately.”

Cas nods. “I suppose we have.”

Their voices float easily through the air, but in the space all around them it’s perfectly quiet, save the occasional soft, gentle slap of water against the boat.

“Seriously, we shoulda done this years ago.”

“When?” Cas asks, the corner of his mouth quirking up. “After the apocalypse, but before the leviathan? Maybe between the Mark of Cain and Amara?”

“Anybody ever tell you you’re kind of a downer, Cas?” Dean replies peaceably.

“Once or twice.”

Another long and companionable silence stretches out between them. They’ve been out here a while now and the sun probably should’ve risen, but it’s hardly a concern: the glow of light around them is warm enough. In fact, Dean could probably afford to take off his jacket, were he not far too comfortable to move.

“Dean. How long do you plan to stay out here?”

Dean cracks one eye. “What, you got somewhere to be?”

Cas’ answering smile is fond, and only slightly tinged with sadness. “No.”

“That’s what I thought.” Dean drops his eyelid.

“It’s just, there are things you need to do.”

Both Dean’s eyes open now, and he leans all the way up to sit on the hard, wooden seat. The boat rocks and sways. “Yeah, Cas, there’s always something. But you are cutting into our hard-earned relaxation time, man. You keep this up, you can kiss that second date goodbye.”

“This is a date?”

Dean gives him a look. “You take a lot of platonic pre-dawn rowboat rides?”

“I suppose not,” Cas says, and he casts his eyes out to the water. “I’m just a little surprised.”

“But not disappointed.”

There’s a faint blush dusting Cas’ cheeks. Maybe it’s just the light. “No.”

“Because you love me.” Cas’ eyebrows rocket up to his hairline, and Dean shrugs defensively. “Hey, you said it, not me.”

“Well, that’s certainly true.”

Dean’s gotta give him that one. “Touché.”

Cas is looking at him patiently, waiting.

Feeling rather like a third-grader forced to answer a question he wasn’t listening to in the first place, Dean casts his eyes down, suddenly intensely interested in the rough woodgrain below his feet. The fact that the boat has no oars is a mild curiosity.

“I dunno,” Dean shrugs. “Probably shoulda said it then. Guess I just figured you knew.”

“Because you’re always so open and honest with your feelings.”

That’s two points to Cas.

Dean plays for time a while longer, scraping his boots through the coarse, black sand he tracked in from the beach. “Alright, well, there it is. Better late than never, right?”

This time Cas doesn’t bother trying to hide the heartache in his smile.

They sit in silence again, for minutes or maybe hours. Eventually Cas looks left to the non-existent sun. “It’s probably time to go back,” he says quietly.

Dean shakes his head. “Nah. Little longer.”

“You have responsibilities, Dean.”

Dean scoffs. “What, you mean Rosemary’s baby?”

“He didn’t ask to be what he is.”

“He’s the literal antichrist, Cas.”

Whatever he is,” Cas says firmly, “good or evil, he needs someone. He needs guidance.”

“He needs a bullet in the neck.”

Cas shakes his head. “You don’t mean that. He’s an innocent, Dean. And he needs you and Sam, now that I can’t be there for him anymore.”

Something flickers in Dean’s chest, like a moth beating against his heart. He frowns, confused, and finds Cas’ eyes.

The intent expression on Cas’ face gradually shifts to one of resignation. He sighs softly. “You forgot again, didn’t you?”

Dean jolts awake to a blaring car horn.

Sam is driving, the hideous sodium streetlights casting harsh lines of shadow across his face when he turns to the passenger seat. “You were talking again.”

Dean doesn’t answer as he reacquaints himself with the deep, aching chasm in his chest.

Sam swallows visibly, shadows of raindrops on the windshield like pockmarks on his skin. “Do you wanna talk about it?”

Dean grits his teeth. “Yeah, Sam. There were these clowns. Like thirty of ‘em, and they all kept piling out of this Volkswagon.” The lie slides easy off his tongue.

Sam throws up a hand in surrender. “Okay.”

Anger is easier. Anger is always easier.

Dean closes his eyes tight and tries to chase the soft, pink-gold light of the ocean. He inhales Baby’s familiar leather scent, desperate for a whiff of salt air.

He tries to forget.


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Venus Signs

Venus is the planet of love, relationships and friendships and gives us insight as to the qualities that we admire in others but also the ideal nature of our connections. Along with this, planets in the fifth and seventh houses can give indications as to our relationships with others, as well as the sign on the seventh house cusp.

Venus in Aries: These individuals likely crave the rough and tumble traits of others, the impulsive and sparky elements. They likely enjoy heated, somewhat argumentative relations, yet with a boldness and the spirit of adventure. This is a passionate and initially intense energy.

Venus in Taurus: These individuals likely crave stable and tender relationships, where enjoying the physical environment can be a shared, sensual experience. They likely admire the determined, loyal and grounded energy of others, people that they can feel safe and familiar with. 

Venus in Gemini: These individuals likely enjoy the light-hearted and humorous traits of others, the intellect and charisma, a much more cerebral energy. These relationships are often changeable, comedic and can even be somewhat sweet if not odd at times.

Venus in Cancer: These individuals enjoy devotion and a full heart, where there is a soul to soul connection and a certain sensitivity. They likely admire the supportive, compassionate and nurturing traits of others, people they can feel that they find a home in.

Venus in Leo: This is a placement that seeks full fledged adoration and dedication, a generosity with both time and affection. People with Venus in Leo likely seek friends and partners that are bold, vivacious and full of a light and loving spirit.

Venus in Virgo: People with this placement know the value of the small things in life, the small gestures of kindness and helpfulness, so while these connections may be at least at first reserved, they often bloom into something that resembles devotion, helpfulness and groundedness, a supportive energy.

Venus in Libra: This is a placement that seeks communication and connection in relationships, where they can enjoy the finer side of life together. People with this placement likely admire the peace-keeping, intellectual and fair traits of others.

Venus in Scorpio: People with this placement seek connections that are very close, yet there is a need for boundaries and privacy too, where secrets should not and cannot be delved into. Yet, as time passes, they may find people that bring their own worries or feelings of shame into the light, much like a liberator.

Venus in Sagittarius: These individuals seek lightheartedness and freedom in connections, where there is a kind of kindred need to collect knowledge and wisdom, a constant adventure. Restriction will not be tolerated, but they admire the comedic and inspiring traits of others.

Venus in Capricorn: People with this placement likely admire the respectful, boundary-aware and grounded elements of others, but also those with a backbone, an ambition, an ethical standard. Yet, this can also be a very tender and humorous placement, especially when initial barriers have been relieved.

Venus in Aquarius: This is a placement that seeks often modern, open, connections with an emphasis on freedom. People with this placement often admire people that really stand for something, that value morality and ethics, but also gift the space to explore and express individually.

Venus in Pisces: These individuals likely admire the spiritual and off-beat elements of others, people that tap into a new-age universe. They likely enjoy connections that are creative, innovative and aware of each others spiritual end emotional desires.