Don’t mind me, I’m just sitting here contemplating the difference between I don’t take orders from you and If I’m on the list, you’re on the list because just, like, think about that. By the time Finn died, Bellamy knew he loved Clarke, right? You can argue about it being romantic love or not, but she was definitely his Person by that point, and he when suggested going on a suicide mission she shut him down. And he snapped I don’t take orders from you because, well, he loves her but his life is expendable and this makes the most sense. And then she says because I can’t lose you too and he doesn’t really have a response. He knew what she meant to him, but Clarke saying no your life matters to me is still a little too much for him to fully process.
But in 403, Bellamy has already announced his intention to participate in a slow-motion suicide mission by declining a place on the Ark. He delivers the news as if it’s already been decided and Clarke once again challenges him, but they don’t really get into it until later that day. He says okay, you want me to live? Then you live too. We’re a package deal now, and when Clarke can’t bring herself to agree, he writes her name for her. He agrees to let her save him only on the condition that he gets to save her too. He’s not even that surprised that she wants to save him and I suggest it’s because because he knows she loves him. And now it’s Clarke’s turn to be just a little bit speechless as Bellamy makes it perfectly clear how much he loves her.