well he was meant to be singing but i couldnt draw the hand

Breathless Part 7

Pair : Single!Jensen x Reader

Music : Mirrors covered by Madilyn Bailey

Summary :  Being at a SPNCON, Jensen was up to perform a song. But once he laid his eyes on you, he couldn’t stop himself from staring. After, as everyone made their way to the lobby, you had realized you left your phone somewhere. While calling it, in hopes you could find it, Jensen answers.

A/N : I was having a hard time with the ending and also had some personal issues to deal with, but its all taken care of. Sorry for the late update! Hope you enjoy (: 

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7

“Hello?” You exhaled. Feeling your stomach churn. 

“Hey.” The familiar voice rang in your ears, causing the tears to break through the seal and stain your cheeks.

“Jared?” Your voice shook, not knowing how to control your emotions. “Oh my God, hey! How are you? How’s J?”

You could hear him take a deep breath and sigh. “I’m okay. We got hit from the side-” He paused. A knot formed in your throat. “And J was sitting on that side. He;s pretty beat up. The doctors just took him in for surgery.”

His words stung you. Making you cringe as the knot grew tighter in your throat, making it unbearable to breathe. 

“But i have to go. Have to call the wife.” He faintly chuckled. “I just wanted to give you an update. I’ll call you if anything happens, okay?”

You took in a deep breath. “O-okay. Thank you.” You croaked. 

“Of course. You’re family. Love you Y/N. Talk to you soon.” 

“Love you too.” 

As you hung up the phone, you cried into your hands. Your heart felt like it dropped to the pit of your stomach, and you could barely breathe. 

With every bad scenario playing in your head, you couldn’t help but cry even more. Scared of whats to come. You felt sick. 

“Please be okay!” You cried. 


You helped Gen out of the car. Cliff picked you both up from the airport, and you both decided to go to the hospital before going to the hotel. You were too worried about the boys. 

You hated hospitals. It was always so sad and you hated seeing people hurt, sick. 

Gen pulled on your arm tighter, as you both walked down the hall. Following close behind Cliff. 

“Jensen hasn’t woken up yet, and Jared refused to leave the room, so they stuck them together. You know how those boys are.” He flashed a soft smile. 

As Cliff opened the door, Your eyes met Jareds. He looked exhausted. With some scratches on his face. 

“Hey baby.” He smiled as he walked over to Gen. He pulled her in, holding her tightly as he pressed his lips to her head. She cried into his chest as she squeezed. 

“I love you so much.” She whispered. 

You averted your gaze pass them, and you felt your chest tighten as you saw him. He looked so helpless, hooked up to the machines, unconscious. Your eyes welled with tears, as you made your way to his side. 

“His surgery went well. Doctors say he should recover just fine.” Jared smiled. 

You felt relieved as his words echoed in your head. 

Reaching for his hand, you felt chills cover your body as his skin met yours. Your tears streamed down your cheeks, this was the most terrifying thing you had ever been through. 

“Lets give her some alone time. Come on.” Gen muttered, pulling her husbands hand as she lead the way out of the room. 

Cliff followed behind, leaving you alone. The beeping sound from the machines echoed around you. 

“Hey baby.” Your voice cracked. Feeling your stomach churn. 

You pulled the chair up to the side of the bed, still holding his hand. 

“I missed you. I even have some great news to tell you. Well maybe not so great.” You took in a deep breath, as you circled your thumb over his palm. “I dont want to lose you Jensen. This year has been so amazing. Like a fairy tale.” 

You cried a bit harder, remembering the first night you two met. It felt like it was just yesterday, and you would do anything to go back. To feel him, see him smile again. 

“I dont know if you can hear me or not, but I love you. Okay? I’m here J. I’m not going anywhere. Just be strong. Come back to me.” 

You propped up on your feet, and leaned over him. Gently you pressed your lips to his. “I love You.” 


Its been a couple of hours, and still nothing has changed. Jensen hasnt woken up and you were beginning to feel like he never would. 

You rested your head down on to the bed, staring at his hand as you continued to circle your thumb over him. 

Mirrors by Justin Timberlake, quietly echoed from the room next to yours. You started to hum along. 

“I dont want to lose you now, I’m looking right at the other half of me. The vacancy that sat in my heart is the space that now you hold.” You whispered.

Jensen slowly fluttered his eyes open, aching from the pain that struck through him, But something was drawing his attention. 

“Show me how to fight for now, and ill tell you baby it was easy coming back into you once i figured it out. You were right here all along.” 

Jensen’s lips curved as you continued to quietly sing, unaware of him listening. 

“It’s like you’re my mirror.” 

“Are you serenading me?” He chuckled, making your jump up and snap your gaze to his. 

He stared intently at you as you felt yourself lose it. “J?” You forced out. 

Jensen smiled, and shrugged his shoulders. “The one and only.” He flashed a wink. 

You couldnt help but chuckle as the tears flowed down your cheeks. “Oh my god!” 

You wrapped your arms around his neck, making him cringe from the pain. 

“I’m so sorry. I’m sorry. I just-” 

“I know baby. Its okay. Come here.” He pulled you into him and held you closely to him. Molding your body into his. 

He missed you so much. 4 weeks apart, it was killing him. But it also helped him realize just how special you were to him. 

Little did you know, That morning when he skyped you, he and Jared had just gotten back from the jewelry store, where he had picked the perfect engagement ring for you. He was ready to show you just how much you meant to him. 

“I am so glad you’re okay. I was so scared.” You whispered, crying into his hospital gown. 

He pulled your face up, making you look right at him. 

“Hey, I’m fine okay? Just a few fractured ribs and a broken leg. But I’ll be ok. I’m sorry for scaring you.” He pressed his lips to yours. It felt great to have him kiss you back. It felt like forever since the last time you two kissed. 

As he continued to hold you, you knew you had to tell him the news, before something else happened. Because tomorrow is never promised. This just proved your point. 

You took in a deep breath, and sat up. 

“I have something really important to tell you, and I dont know how you will take it.” You looked down at your hands, feeling a knot form in your throat. 

“What is it?” He asked. 

You met his gaze, dreading this moment. You let out a soft sigh and cleared your throat. 

‘Here it goes.’ You thought to yourself. 

I’m sorry its short, but I didnt want to ruin the surprise! 

Let me know what you think. (:

[16.02.26] B.A.P Carnival Yeouido Fansign  Fan Account

Okay this is going to be kind of long but please bare with me!! This time I couldn’t speak to them much because I got very nervous and shy for no reason. I also prepared handcreams and chocolates for all of the members :)

They came straight from Music Bank and soon the fansign started.

The order was Yongguk, Zelo, Daehyun, Jongup, Himchan and Youngjae (But just before my turn, Himchan and Youngjae switched seats).

YG: Hello~
Me: Hello!
He signed and wrote “Thank you :)” at the bottom of his signature. He then looked at my sticky notes and looked up at me with big round eyes. He seemed really shocked by something but I didnt have any idea what it was about.
YG: 4th year in university?? Really?
Me: Mhm! I’m going to start my 4th year!
YG: How old are you?
Me: 23 (korean age)! 94 liner!
YG: Wow.. there are so many people who look younger than their age today…
He seemed.. really amazed lol. It wasn’t just a reaction, he really meant it lol.
Sticky note 1: I really like all the songs in Carnival! I was wondering if you could make a 3 minute version of Today as well? –> He wrote “OKAY!” without hesitation.
Sticky note 2: I’m in my last year of university now and got a design related work for the first time. I want to do well but I’m lacking in confidence.. Please help me find my lost confidence! –> “I’m rooting for you. Listen to Albatross :)” and then he looked up at me with his gentle sweet smile.
I said bye to him after giving him his present, held hands and moved on.

We greeted each other for a short time and he kept looking at me as if to figure out my age. In the end he just wrote my name lol.
Me: I’m your noona!
JH: Ah, fine~ fine~
and he quickly added “noona” on the bottom of my name lol
Sticky note 1: What made you adopt a puppy? Who named him? –> He said that his mom adopted the puppy and wrote “Me, friends, fans!!” for the who named the puppy part.
Me: So you don’t raise him at the dorm?
JH: no, he lives at my house!
Sticky note 2: Is there anything you’d like to achieve personally? –> “Grand award(대상)”
After this I gave him his present and talked a little about my friend who couldn’t go there before holding hands and moving on.

DH: Welcome~
Me: Hello~
I was too nervous with Daehyun because bias and couldnt talk with him much this time.. ㅠㅠ
Sticky note 1: I’m really stressed because of part time jobs and being in my last year in university. Please write something sweet and loving so that I can look at it to feel better! –> “You can do it!”
Sticky note 2: I really wanted to complete the drawing of you that i started and bring it here like I promised i would but i couldnt.. Please say something to teach me a lesson!! ㅠㅠ –> “There’s always a next time♡” 
And then he looked at me and smiled lovingly ; ; I quickly gave him his present and told him that the keychain inside is from my friend who is an exchange student from Brasil in my university and he looked closely at the presents inside and said thank you.
We said bye, held hands and I moved on.

I kinda just ended up staring at Jongup because i didnt expect him to be wearing contact lenses and it was just really pretty T_T
Jongup also tried to guess my age but just wrote my name only. I didnt try and fix it by saying i’m his noona because he’s an early 95 liner which means he can befriend 94 liners.
Sticky note 1: Did you guys ever try to approach the fans while wearing the Matoki costumes? –> Nope
Sticky note 2: Lets draw your own character! Draw it here and name it too!
He looked at me and his eyes were shaking as if he was lost and didn’t know what to do lol
JU: A character..? What should I do–
It took him a while but he started drawing but since he took a long time thinking the staff came and told me to move on T n T In the end he couldnt name it and i gave him his present before moving on.

Like I said, Youngjae and Himchan changed places just before my turn lol.
Me: You changed places?
YJ: Yes we did!
Sticky note 1: I cried a lot for your solo stage at the concert ㅠㅠ take responsibilities for making me cry! –> “…ㅠ I cried as well ㅠ..”
Suddenly i got the power to talk back lol.
Me: You didnt cry on the first concert ㅠㅠ
YJ: I didnt cry for the last concert either! (but you just wrote that you did..)
Me: Huh? No? They said you did?
YJ: I didn’t cry!
Me: You teared up ㅠㅠ
YJ: Mhm ㅠㅠ
Me: And had to pause for a bit ㅠㅠ
YJ: That’s right ㅠㅠ
Sticky note 2: I’ve lived out of Korea my whole life so i dont follow the whole early 94 thing. Lets just be friends ㅋㅋ –> “ㅎㅎㅎ dont.. want..”
And he smiled up at me all cheekily…
I was going to just be like lets be friends! But I ended up smiling as well when he smiled so now i have to stick with calling him Youngjae oppa(?)…
I gave him his present and suddenly he ripped the package open to take the chocolate out and looked at me, saying “I’ll eat well!!”. I didnt expect him to eat it on the spot so i was surprised and kind of touched? (He didnt eat it straight away though because he kept having fans coming but he did later on and Youngjae’s fansite SPARKLE&SHINE got a shot of him eating the chocolate i gave! You can see it here ->  https://twitter.com/SAS0124/status/703225268509356032)
We held hands and I moved on.

Himchan’s another member that I didnt talk to a lot either.. I’m guessing I used all my speaking ability on Youngjae..
HC: Hello~
I smiled and bowed and he got onto signing. He then looked at the sticky notes and went OH! lol
Sticky note 1: I got some work relating to design for the first time since i got into university! It has to do with coffee and since you really like coffee i’d like you to say something to cheer on me! –> Awesome work, Beautifully! (makes more sense in Korean OTL)
He then looked at me as if he was really proud and smiled.
Sticky note 2: Is there anything you’d like to say to Daehyun for bothering Kim! Him! Chan! all the time? –> “I! Will! Kill! You!” lol
I wanted to talk to him but I felt like the staff was looking at me to hurry up so i just gave him his present, held hands and quickly got off the stage.

After the fansign we had a Q&A time. But before that Daehyun made Jongup sing his self composed song. Daehyun also said when Jongup was preparing for his solo stage with his self made song, he(Daehyun) was also doing something but he will reveal it on the next concert.

HC: Before we start, who didn’t get in (for Incheon fansign)? Raise your hand!
Fans raised their hands and Himchan went “Aw my heart hurts” and fans started laughing while saying “Aw you’re saying it soullessly” 

Bby1: When will you upload Strong BeBe?
HC: Ah that, because of the flash it came out pretty(?) but I think i’ll have to edit it first. I’ll do it soon.

Bby2: Whose idea was the clothes hanger?
DH: /raises hand slowly
Fans: Genius!!
DH: How is this being a genius?ㅋㅋ

Bby3: Will you do a follow up song?
DH: We dont get to decide on that. But we’re doing Carnival now so.

Bby4: Mochi is becoming darker!
DH: What is Mochi?
Fans: /making sounds at Daehyun for not knowing lol
DH: He doesnt raise it at the dorm so I don’t really know
JH: I raise him at my parent’s house.. When he grows new fur it’ll turn grey.. Still a baby..
DH: Don’t show off! Honestly I’m a little worried. A baby is raising a baby ㅋㅋ
JH: Mochi’s dad ㅎㅎ

There were other  questions as well but it’ll get too long to write. They also talked about how if they win first place they will use the clothes hanger for encore stage. They said their goodbye and Youngjae used a fan’s name to say something lame (lol before running off the stage.

I know it was long to read and it was boring but thank you for reading my long fan account ; ;