B U R N O U T 1 0 1 // what it is and how the fuck to fix it
So, you’ve been really stressed/anxious/exhausted and all of a sudden you’re feeling unmotivated/apathetic/frustrated? Congratulations, it’s looks like you’ve burned yourself out!
What is burnout?
Normally, burnout occurs after an extended period of excess. The breaking point is different for everyone; some may cave after a week of finals, for others it may take months or even years. Symptoms of burnout include, but are not limited to:
- Short attention span, difficulty concentrating, switching between tasks frequently
- Frustration with others, your work, or yourself
- Depression, low mood, anxiety
Shit, that’s me! How do I solve it?
- Start small, and ease yourself back into the swing of things
Make note of the stuff you absolutely unavoidably have to to do with immediate urgency. Order in terms of immediacy as well as workload. So give credit for tasks both urgent and time consuming. If it doesn’t need to be done (either partially or completely) right this very minute, don’t worry about it.
Break big tasks down into little tasks and tackle them one at a time. Reward yourself upon completion, but keep it reasonable. One episode of Parks and Rec is okay; a whole series is not.
- Reestablish a routine
As insanely fantastic as it is, laying in bed all day is not going to get you anywhere. Set a routine, and stick to it; wake up at a consistent time and actually get out of bed, accomplish a few things each day (but they don’t have to be academic - laundry, taking a walk or vacuuming your bedroom) and stay out of bed except for when you’re sleeping.
Naps are ok too though, but keep them short and don’t start after 3pm because you won’t be able to get to sleep at a human hour that night.
- Take care of yourself
Give priority to maintaining healthy and normal sleep, eating, and self-care habits. You’re going to be useless if you’re exhausted, hungry, and grimy.
Try to identify why you’re burnt out. Yes, you had two weeks of back-to-back exams. But is there anything you could have done differently? Could you have started studying earlier, made revision materials as you went, reduced or delegated other commitments? While this isn’t necessarily cure for burnout, it’s crucial to preventing another episode further on down the line. And after all, they say prevention is the best medicine.
- Ask for help!!
Counsellors (academic and therapeutic) are there for your use. Take advantage of them, especially if they’re provided free of charge by your institution! They’ve got a lot of experience, and could impart some seriously useful wisdom about managing workloads, maintaining your sanity and resources if you really are struggling.
Supportive family; not everyone is lucky enough to have one, but if you do, make sure they know you’re under duress and see if they can help in anyway - letting you get off chores or offering to help with your place if you’ve moved out, providing sustenance, or just offering an ear for you to moan and rant and talk it out.
Make sure there’s nothing underlying that’s causing your anxiety/depression/low mood, and if you suspect there is talk to your doctor!
You’ve heard of TEDx Talks, now get ready for TED-Ed! These videos range from philosophy and history to science and riddles! They even have a few videos on writing! Most all videos are done in five minute animations with narration and also include links to full lessons in the descriptions of the videos. Watching this channel for hours on end will only scratch the surface of what is offered!
This one you’ve probably already heard of, but it’s worth checking out! Since CrashCourse has been online for years now, they now have several very interesting videos to watch, ranging from psychology to sociology and physics to film history. They also have videos centered around literature and astronomy and so much more. My personal favorite has been the mythology videos! The videos are made weekly in a series format, so you could watch one lesson a week or binge watch the whole class once it’s done.
If you’re not so into the lecturing-style the above channels have, then a great place to check out is Overly Sarcastic Productions. These videos are actually made by two college students hoping to teach their favorite subjects in a humorous way! They have videos ranging from literature to history to mythology, as well as some videos on religion and philosophy. And most all of these videos are done in adorable animation and are quite easy to follow, and they stand the test of watching multiple times!
If you’re looking for something even more casual and without any sort of curriculum, if you’re just looking to watch some educational videos just for the fun of it—I highly suggest NerdyAndQuirky! This channel is chock full of “Cool History,” ranging from art to debunking myths as well as video essays and some social commentary. Also, get ready for the puns!
Some of you may recall my ridiculous 70 minute exploration of Lydia’s romantic growth throughout the series, from a year ago. Well, I’m happy to say that it is officially updated with the scenes from Season 6. Unfortunately I could not find the original project file, so I was not able to change much of what was already there, only correct a few minor things and add the new footage at the end. But it really does give the whole thing a complete feel, because the ending of the previous version was just completely unsatisfying. Now there’s an actual ending to it because, well…they finally done did the Stydia.
There is a password required because I needed to protect the video from copyright bots that would take it down.
Runtime: 90. Fucking. Minutes.
Hope you guys enjoy! Let me know if you have any problems with it.
So this whole white haired Keith thing gave me the Idea for this au. I’m planning to make a whole comic series out of this. But well, I’m still not sure if I could / should do it. Bc my timeline is actually pretty stressful etc. (& the storyline is kinda basic lol)
Uhhh and I also need a Name!
Anyways, here some important notes for this au:
Lance has a big Crush on Keith
Lance has freckles all over his body
Lance’s a Nerd but still our cheesy flirty boy
Keith’s still a hothead & does shit all the time
Hunk & Lance are roommates ∠( ᐛ 」∠)_
the Garrison is an art school
there’s art, dance, music etc. class, but they all have also regular class
Lance & Hunk are in dance & music class
Pidge & Keith are in art & music class
Shiro & Allura are out of school & working in their café named Altea
I did another playthrough of Episode Prompto (on my own this time) and took it upon myself to transcribe all the audio files and writings in chronological order. Spoilers (and a VERY long post overall) below the cut! Also, please let me know if I’ve missed anything!
EDIT: Added in a researcher’s journal entry that I missed the first time!
Matt and Trey were making fun of some yaoi archetypes in anime, which I found hilarious tbh. But then it turned into this well developed relationship throughout the South Park series. Craig goes from his usual sarcastic self,
To actually really caring about Tweek and his well being.
one thing about gravity falls that never ceases to bother me is shermie’s entire role in the story. or, more accurately, his lack of role in the story.
i mean, gravity falls is largely about family love, with an especial focus on sibling relationships. dipper and mabel’s relationship is the focal emotional point of the series, and stan’s bond with ford is what turns out to be the main motivation behind the answer to one of the biggest mysteries of the entire show.
and yet, shermie, the actual grandfather of the main twins, only gets one brief nonchalant mention from stan in the entire series. that…. doesn’t match up well with the rest of show’s tone, in my opinion.
however, i can also understand why shermie had to be created. i remember back when ‘not what he seems’ had just aired and theories about which one of the stan twins were dipper and mabel’s real grandfather were running wild, the whole grunkle4grandpa thing being the most popular one. and though i wasn’t really into it back in the day, i appreciate it much more now, because it at least ties in better with the themes of the show.
i guess that the main issue here is that if either stan or ford were made to be the twin’s grandfather, uncomfortable implications would come with it, implications that the crew were likely not interested in dealing with alongside the main story. for starters, neither of them would have been around to actually raise the kid that would eventually become the twin’s parent; stan because he was hiding as ford, and ford himself because he wouldn’t be able to be around whether he wanted to or not, obviously.
knowing that, questions about dipper and mabel’s parent would become kind of of inevitable. who raised them, who was their mother, would their father ever pursue an actual relationship with them like the one he formed with his grandkids, this sort of thing. if they actually delved into it, it could have distracted us from the main plot and relationship, and if they didn’t delve into it at all, either stan or ford could have come out of it seeming irresponsible or unsympathetic to the audience.
so, making both of them have no deeper relationships or responsibilities with anyone in the past was, indeed, the easiest, most consequence free alternative. it’s just kind of a shame that it had come in the form of a character that’s basically a plot point with a name. :/
I’ve now made a year’s worth of gifsets for this series and I just wanted to thank everybody who has shown their love and support for the Daily Pick-Me-Ups. This series wouldn’t have kept going without all of you. The messages and the tags showing love for the gifsets
I make here
, as well as the continuous reblogs and likes, are genuinely what keeps me doing this on a regular basis. Seeing that these Pick-Me-Ups are actually bringing a little spark of joy (or feels) to someone makes the whole thing worth it. I look forward to continuing making these for you all for as long as I can. Hope you enjoyed the first ‘year’ and enjoy the next just as much!
Requested: •Hello ^_^ Can I request a Johnny virgin (the girl is virgin) SMUT? Like they are in highschool or smth. Or like he is a BadBoy and she is innocent? What ever you like.But can you make it into actual smut pls. K love ya ️️️
A/N: Well, I decided to turn your request into a short series. Hope you don’t mind! I went with him being kind of more like a playboy I guess rather than the whole high school bad boy thing just to make the story more on the mature side. I apologize for the angsty beginning, I promise it will get fluffier as it goes along! Especially when it gets to the smut part. ;)
BREAKING NEWS: Reylo not actually dead in Miami. Fake news causes stir in Star Wars community.
Recent reports from Reading Comprehension Weekly indicate previous suggestion that a murder took place in Miami was false reporting.
“People are saying it’s the contempt Rey has for Kylo that did it - that it’s dead - murdered by contempt ,” a local law enforcement officer told us, “but that was misidentification at its worst - Reylo didn’t die here. This is a classic example of set up for Character Growth… and none of our reports indicate that Character Growth leads to death. It’s a false report.”
A long-time investigator in Miami, who wished to remain anonymous, stated, “I think these people need to take a moment and check out Reading Comprehension Weekly’s report. If anything, we already knew Rey had contempt. If they knew anything about storytelling, they’d realize that character dynamics won’t stay static like that - that the heroine is going to have to face her challenges head on and learn compassion. It’s a classic theme in Star Wars. This doesn’t kill anything - the theory is alive and well and right on track at this point.”
A long-time local, however, had this to say, “This ship is disgusting and anyone who thinks it shouldn’t be dead and buried should go to Hell. Rey hates Kylo. That’s all the evidence I need. Star Wars has nothing to do with redemption or forgiveness. Contempt is the bullet that took Reylo down, once and for all. Analysis is for nerds and squares. I rest my case.”
An interesting counterpoint, perhaps, but the experts have already called it in - Reylo is alive, and better than ever at this stage.
Although we tried to reach Reylo for official comment, PR has revealed that a major plot twist is preventing any official communication or confirmation at this time.
“We can neither confirm nor deny the state of Reylo’s well-being at this time. Just watch the movie in December and don’t be assholes to each other in the meantime,” a PR official, Getta Life, responded.
In the report from Reading Comprehension Weekly, Rian Johnson is recorded as saying, “Kylo and Rey are, ‘two halves of the dark and the light.’” and, “Ben Solo’s shift to darkness is symbolic of ‘the treacherous road through adolescence”’ that Star Wars often explores.”
Further investigation reveals that Reylo is actually two parts of one whole, and they are happily taking a vacation in the Bahamas in preparation for their big role in the next installment of the series.
“Steven Moffat had the Doctor murder another Time Lord; he obviously doesn’t understand Doctor Who.”
Setting aside the obvious poor reading here that the Doctor committed murder (not that his assault of the General is not a big deal, but come on), the scene in question is concrete proof that Moffat understands Doctor Who very well. The impact of the scene relies on the audience’s understanding that the Doctor coldly shooting down another person is an act that goes against the Doctor’s ideals. It’s “out-of-character” because the Doctor is being driven to perform “out-of-character” actions by his attachment to Clara. These character extremes are the whole point of the Series 9 climax, and the single motivation for the Doctor and Clara to part ways.
Of course, this scene also proves that Moffat understands Doctor Who, because it is not actually out-of-character for the Doctor to go to extremes or take things too far. This has been an aspect of the Doctor’s character that has been hugely focused on ever since the show returned in 2005.
You can point to bits of dialogue that are evidence of the Doctor’s pacifism and refusal to do harm, but when the Doctor repeatedly commits violence and causes harm, you can’t claim that he is out of character when he does so.
The Doctor tries to express and live by certain ideals. The Doctor does not always live up to these ideals. The Doctor sometimes fails.
ME: It’s really good! And stuff. I mean not really. Psht. You might totally hate it, but it’s fantawesome and if you don’t read it I’ll cry RAWR.
ME: (not listening) AND IT HAS SO MANY GOOD THINGS AND CHARACTERS AND PLOT AND GAH WHY DON’T YOU READ IT?! YOU SHOULD READ IT! READ IT! WAAAAH
TSFV: (alarmed) I think–
ME: IF YOU DONT SAY YES THEN YOU DON’T LOVE ME BECAUSE HOW CAN YOU LOVE ME IF YOU DON’T KNOW ME AND TO KNOW ME IS TO READ THIS BOOK OR REALLY THIS WHOLE SERIES SO JUST PICK IT UP OMG I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS!!!!
Summary: Working as a bartender in a five star hotel while a rich and famous family is staying over for a month, and one of their sons, Bucky, happens to have an eye for you, is a dream right? Right? Wrong!
Chapter 1: Special Guests.
Y/N: your name
Warnings: alcoholic parents, mentions of abuse.
Word count: 1,464
A/N: Well, I wanted to give the whole Alternative Universe thing a shot, so I came up with this series. This is the first chapter, should I continue?
The pool of a five star hotel is a place many would pay to be on. Actually, a lot of people do. The three different pools, plus two Jacuzzis, massaging experts, tropical cocktails and as much sunshine as you could want. Who wouldn’t love that? So yes, I could say I’m enjoying myself, even though of the facilities I listed, I only benefit from the last one.
I’m the hotel’s bartender. The new hotel’s bartender. I’ve been here for barely a week, but luckily I know my share on alcohol. My mother’s death: elliptic coma. My father, how ironic, turned into an alcoholic after that. That’s essentially my life: a bad joke. Let’s stop taking about this.
Today is an important day. Well, all days are important for our manager Scott, but apparently today is an extra important day. A really rich and famous family, of those that have their face front cover on Sunday’s gossip magazine special, are arriving today. They come to this hotel every summer for a month and are the most prestigious guests of the year. I wish I could tell you why exactly they are so famous, but while most girls of my age where screaming and freaking out about their celebrity crushes, I had better things to do. Like making sure we had enough money to eat that night, for instance.
The pool has been prepared, and all the staff instructed. I have to admit everything looks gorgeous: The plants are sorted in an exquisite combination of white and green, and give out a fresh smell that mixes with the sea’s. The private beach is accesible from here, and the sound of soft waves, brushing golden sand and dragging castaway seashells to shore, fills the otherwise silent terrace. All hammocks have clean and fluffy white towels, with the hotel’s name embroiled with gold, and the parasols are made out of wood and blend naturally with the atmosphere. The waitress is ready to take their orders, the pools are calmed and cristal clear, palm trees lean over to frame the views of the beach, the very first thing they will see when they enter. Everything is beautiful and for a second I allow myself to be the one who’s actually going to enter through that door and enjoy all the facilities. But just for a second.
“Here they come… Y/N, are you ready?” mumbles Scott, from the door of the bar. I nod silently and rub my hands on my apron in an unconscious attempt to relive stress.
acchan, what are the things you most love about ourCiel and lizzie's relationship?
Hello! Well, that one is easy xD
Remember when Soma said…
… Well, that is without a doubt the most accurate depiction of our!Ciel’s character in the whole series: he’s so terrified of being happy that he’s lying to himself about how much he actually cares for some people, Lizzie being the most concerned, and that is what I love the most about Ciel/Lizzie from his perspective => he’s trying so hard to be alone that he’s almost clueless when it comes to his own attitude towards Lizzie.
As for where Lizzie is concerned, what I like the most
…is how selfless and loving she is when it comes to Ciel. To some extent that’s also a flaw of hers, but a flaw doesn’t mean that it can’t be appreciated.
And so, “when Ciel’s cluelessness meets Lizzie’s selflessness” it gives cute moments like:
Hi. I am one of those terrible people that consume a
lot more fic than I comment on, because I’m a shy and lazy child. So: fic recs. To promote lesser-known authors, I’ll list from
least to most bookmarked (I’ve left out some really popular ones, you can likely find those on your own). Feel free to give me recs in return!
If you’re an author on this list (and somehow see this despite my small following) and are like “mothereffer who’re you we’ve never talked” I plan on commenting on all of these this weekend, because #ficrecdays.
Symphony in a minor by Anicaruscomplex: This adorable 2 part
drabble was published around Christmas and it’s been with me ever since. It’s a
slice of life, but also Yuuri dealing with the temporary nature of their
Scents of home by espritneo: This is the best fic I’ve ever
read about Makkachin. Have you ever heard of espritneo? NO? Allow me to
introduce you to this gift of a human being. Everything espritneo puts out has
wonderful characterization of both Viktor and Yuuri and everyone else in their
lives. Also, espritneo is versatile: canon continuations, folklore AUs, sex,
time travel, and this whole puppy fic. You have no excuse not to check them out.
Heart Lines by thelonelywriter: Yuuri reads Viktor’s palm, Viktor is ridiculous, and it’s adorable. Thelonelywriter, despite being
lonely, has written some very quality fluff, so check them out.
Infinitesimal being by sarahyyy: An Otabek/Yuri fairytale
story where Otabek is an immortal goblin, and it’s… written from OTABEK’S POV
sometimes. I feel like this is so rare but it’s done so perfectly, and the lore
behind it is bittersweet.
Again and Again by grayclouds: A reincarnation AU that is
heart-wrenchingly beautiful and unconventional. It’s a whirlwind of different
forms of Victuuri and some have me turning over in my bed at night—in one of
them they don’t even exist at the same time and it still makes my stomach flip.
The road that stretches out ahead by hellodeer: Yuuri and
Viktor go on a road trip. THIS FIC. I’ve read it so many times, and it’s just
raw and so convincing in its story of how Yuuri finally realizes that Viktor
actually loves him and intends to stay with him. It doesn’t get all the attention it deserves.
Undertow by Mhalachai: *heavy breathing* this fic is
beautiful and creative and almost made me cry for Viktor Nikiforov. It’s one of
the few fics that demonstrates Viktor’s insecurities and doubts and does it by successfully
using supernatural Russian folklore. I am so impressed by this piece and it’s still messing
with my head—it also has a companion piece that’s Yuuri-centric.
Understand Someday by triste: A wonderful piece of Victuuri
family fluff, starring Yurio. You will want to hug the little tiger by the end
of it. Triste has other excellent works, too!
Rumour has it by lunaetude: Viktor and Yuuri are at Hogwarts
together, and are ADORABLE and very in-character, and it alludes to Viktor’s
loneliness softly but emotionally. Lunaetude has multiple AUs for YOI that are
gorgeous, so go read everything by that author, even if you don’t think it’s
your cup of tea, because you WILL like it.
Of Dahlias and Deadlines by ingthing: have you ever read a
fic and been like, this is so cute? Why isn’t this a show all by itself? Well,
ingthing has a florist/wedding planner AU series that makes me say this every
time they post, and everyone should read it. Viktor was born to be a wedding
Easy on my knees by ineptshieldmaid: A Viktor-centric
relationship study that has such a careful and touching path to them getting
together, and Viktor trusting and loving Yuuri. Ineptshieldmaid has written
other equally squeal-inducing fanfic, too!
High-Flying, Adored by terra_incognita: I’m a sucker for
superhero AUs and this is amazing. Everybody has secret identities and it’s a
love square between Viktor and Yuuri and their superhero personas—it’s quirky
and emotional and addictive. Also, Yuri Plisetsky is amazing in it. You will
have to suspend your disbelief a bit though, because Yuuri somehow doesn’t
realize that two silver haired Russians arriving in town at the same time ARE
THE SAME PERSON.
The measure of the year (the mind of men) by geckoplasm: A
fic where Yuuri and Viktor are a real couple with actual communication issues,
just like in the show! They screw up and make up and you always get both sides
of the story in a way that is personal and eye-opening as to how two people
that love one another can still have misunderstandings and cause major damage.
Adoration (noun) by crossroadswrite: pre episode 10, but an
incredibly convincing and thoughtful explanation of how Viktor fell in love
with Katsuki Yuuri—an AU where Viktor had originally intended to leave Hasetsu after a year.
Chasing Tail by Metallic_Sweet: This is the only fic on my
list that I think is probably dead but please read it just for an A/B/O experience that you’ve likely never had before. Viktor has his scent glands removed and he is calculating in
a way almost nobody depicts him as, but which I think is true to canon.
Body music by fan_nerd: Um, everybody probably already knows fan_nerd because they’re a magical presence in the YOI fandom, but their
reverse AU is the best. Viktor looks up to five-time champion Katsuki Yuuri and
some things stay the same (being drunk at the banquet) and some things
hilariously change (Yuuri actually emails Viktor before he just shows up at his
Dear Mama by Ferrero13: Viktor writes letters and emails to
his beloved mother throughout the YOI series, and it’s HILARIOUS. Also sweet.
Viktor’s writing and drama is spot on, and this whole fic is just well done.
Specks of silver in the evening sky by winchilsea: “Viktor’s
kink is taking care of Yuuri” in a way that’s both eros and agape. This fic is
breathtaking. *sobs into hands* I love winchilsea. Sometimes I read things by
winchilsea that I don’t even know about (I read a Pacific Rim AU of YOI and
I’ve never glanced at Pacific Rim) and it doesn’t matter because they are such
On top of the world by springsoldier(ladydaredevil): Another
superhero AU, where superman Viktor takes on Yuuri as his superhero protégé and
Yuri Plisetsky fails terribly in his attempt to be a villain (he rescues
kittens, y’all). It’s so, so precious and I love its Viktor.
I have my body (and you have yours) by astoryaboutwar:
*UNINTELLIGIBLE SCREAMING* if you haven’t read any of her works, you need to go
read astoryaboutwar RIGHT NOW. This is a heart-stopping soulmate AU where Yuuri
keeps his soulmate a secret and then everything is emotional and stunningly
written. *points helplessly at ‘our doubts are traitors’* Look, she’s writing
this too and nobody is worthy of it. Nobody.
Nerve Endings by Phyona: Yuuri moves to St. Petersburg, and
they deal with Yuuri’s anxiety. Yuuri has A LOT of anxiety, and it’s depicted
at length here in ways that feel real and devastating. Later, Viktor has
anxiety too, and overall I was just sitting there clenching my head in my
hands, having a lot of feelings.
Healthy Impropriety by mtothedestiel: Viktor and Yuuri in
Victorian times!! Viktor is EXTRA extra, in the most perfect way, and Yuuri is
just a normal Victorian guy trying to live his life. The author clearly worked
really hard to keep it true to novels written during that time (Pride and
Closer, Still by sciencefictioness: *spits out beer* did you
know that A/B/O could be incredibly poetic and full of gorgous yearning and
make you feel like you’ve been missing out on someone for your entire life?! Go
The naming of cats by csoru: Another Yuri/Otabek rec. It’s
realistic and Yuri is so in character it hurts. It actually spends time
depicting their ice skating careers, and doesn’t just focus on their
relationship, in true YOI style. Also it’s wonderfully written, so go check it
Stargazer by Fahye: No ice skating, just amazing space AU
sports. Yuuri is a commoner that gets taken under the wing of space royalty to
learn how to ballist.
From Almaty, With Love by BoxWineConfessions: another one
that I probably don’t have to rec because if you like Yuri/Otabek, you’ve already
discovered it. Yuri goes to visit Otabek for a summer and they fall in love. It
captures both of them very well, and its scenes are written out so stunningly
that even them lounging around in Otabek’s apartment is like a painted picture
in your mind. I’m not even a huge Yuri/Otabek fan and this fic is just… sigh.
Always My Soulmate by Watermelonsmellinfellon: obviously,
I’m a sucker for soulmate AUs and compilations and this is a good one.
Watermelonsmellinfellon contributes a massive amount to the YOI community, and
has done everything: soulmates, an AU where Yuuri is deaf, and time travel, and
they actually research everything. So, so impressed.
A glide in your step by Yuu_chi: this was one of the first
fics I read that threw me into the pit of YOI. It’s so, so sweet and
masterfully crafted and something I always go back to; it’s a beautiful
depiction of how Yuuri and Viktor got together in Hasetsu. It’s pining Viktor
written before pining Viktor was even canon.
Maelstrom by feelslikefire: Viktor relives the a day of the
Sochi Grand Prix over and over. A fic in which Viktor is actually initially a
terrible person that gets to do character development, AND the worst day of
Yuuri’s life is handled masterfully again and again.
Victor Effing Nikiforov by shysweetthing: so I would like to
recommend both the story and the author, who despite being a writing god
constantly descends from heaven to grace everyone with reviews and tumblr
musings (her tumblr is the same as her author name on AO3). Yuuri doesn’t fail
the Japanese nationals after GPF1, makes it to Worlds, and Viktor Nikiforov steamrollers
him with love that Yuuri is incredibly confused by. Go read everything by this
author and pray that she updates Viktor!!! With Swords at some point.
Until My Feet Bleed and My Heart Aches by Reiya: They’re rivals! Do I even
have to rec this? It’s so frickin popular and THERE’S A REASON. I daydream
about this fic and the worldbuilding for the AU is sublime. The author plans
everything out so beautifully. In case you’ve somehow missed it, Yuuri meets up
with Viktor as a kid, Viktor is Viktor and is blunt, and Yuuri’s heart breaks,
resulting in him ferociously working to beat Viktor in competition. Then,
there’s incredibly respectful one-sided hate sex.