I’m Utterly In Love With You
Kim Jongdae (Chen) x Reader
Summary: Your parents gave you up so you had no choice but to become his wife.
Genre: Mafia AU, fluff, angst
Word count: 1,861
“Stay with me, like this” were the first words you remembered when you woke up. You looked around and soon realized you were alone in the room. His room. You couldn’t see him after what happened, it would be so embarrassing. You quickly slipped out of the bed and went downstairs, carefully checking if he’s not there. You couldn’t find him anywhere, so you went to the kitchen. After finally discovered where the mugs were you made yourself a coffee but couldn’t get yourself to drink it because you kept remembering that you actually went to him yourself. You set the cup down and decided to make one for him as well, maybe he will come back soon.
“Hoho, so now where even on that level where you make coffee for me,” Jongdae cooed and you almost spilled the coffee.
“Jongdae! Don’t scare me like that!” but he just continued his speech.
“That’s understandable though, since we just slept together,” he said taking the cup out of your hand.
“We didn’t sleep together…”
“What do you mean? We did! You were lying right there, looking all cute,” he smiled, making you blush.
“Agh! You know what I mean!” you said stomping away. You stopped in the doorway. “Wait. Were you watching me sleep?”
You caught him red handed. He just averted his look and sat down at the table.
“No, I… Of course I wasn’t” he mumbled, taking a sip. “Okay! I was. I admit it but you looked so adorable I just had to.”
You covered your face with your hands. Him and his cute, flirting nature, your heart can’t take it. Wait did you just thought he’s cute? You peeked through your fingers and saw him patting the chair near him but you sat on the opposite side, well you can at least finish your coffee with him. This setting reminded you of the time you signed those papers but you quickly brushed it off.
“What got you so scared last night that you came running to me?” he asked. You never told him anything about yourself, so you wondered if you should share this as well.
“You don’t have to tell me, if you don’t want to.”
“No. It’s okay,” you can’t keep it to yourself forever, maybe you will feel better when you speak about it. “It was my sister.”
His eyes fixed on you. He was suddenly very interested.
“Your sister? What about her?”
“She… She died,” you finally said, your grip on the mug tightening, if you would have kept your eyes on him, you would have noticed that he wasn’t any bit surprised by this.
“I’m sorry,” you heard him say in a quiet voice.
“It was a long time ago but I still think about her some days…” you closed your eyes and breathed out. You can’t start crying now. “Okay, let’s stop being all emotional. I’m more interested in all this,” you said, gesturing to the area around you.
“What do you mean?” he asked. “I’m not getting divorced if you’re thinking about that.”
“That’s not what I mean. I was going to ask what’s going to happen now?”
“That’s actually what I wanted to talk to you about as well,” he said, taking out a key and sliding it along the table surface to you.
“What’s this?” you questioned.
“A key. You can go anywhere you want, I’m sure you won’t try to run away but since that incident with Jimin I can’t let you go wandering alone, so it will be with me or one the bodyguards. Other than this, enjoy yourself,” he smiled.
You picked up the key. You certainly didn’t expect this, well having a bodyguard is not very fun either but he finally gave you the freedom you longed so much.
The other few months went by so fast and you two lived more like roommates. He didn’t force you to do anything you didn’t feel like doing but his flirting never ceased. Now that you could actually go out, it all felt so normal. After a long time you felt happy and content with your life and he noticed that you smile more often when with him. You weren’t bored but you wanted to repay him somehow so one day you asked him about work.
“I have all this money, at least let me treat you.”
“You do it all the time anyway,” you pouted.
“Don’t you want to study instead?” and your eyes beamed up at his suggestion. He thought about what he said for a while and then changed his mind immediately. “No, you know what, it’s too dangerous. There’s too many guys in the campus. Nope, no way.”
“Ahh don’t give me false hope!”
“You know you can always work with me,” he said.
And you knew you could, he always told you that because that way you would be with him for most of the day. He spoke about his job often and didn’t hide anything from you but you wanted nothing to do with that part of his life. It was dark and cruel. Violence is not something you could get used to, so you refused for seemingly 100th time. Staying inside, you started to enjoy cooking again and despite him liking it very much, he often took you out on dates to such expensive places you never even dreamed. One evening, you were reading on your computer and noticed an article that had you in it. “Famous CEO finally taken.” You looked at the photo in the article from one of these dates you two had.
“A CEO?” you thought. “Well that’s one way to hide what’s he’s actually doing.”
You were so immersed in the article that you jumped up when Jongdae burst into your room through the door.
“Oh my God! Jongdae!”
“Y/N come with me, quick.” he said taking your hand and dragging you out of the room.
“Where are we going? When did you come back?” he usually worked really long hours and you were genuinely surprised to see him this early. He took you out to the balcony. The sky was clear and very beautiful.
“Come,” he said, guiding you to the railing.
“Why are we here exactly?” you asked him.
He smiled to you and looked down. You two stayed silent for a moment before you spoke again.
“Jongdae did something happen?”
“No, everything is okay. I just like being near you.”
He turned and looked at you.
“You know,” he said, taking something out of his jacket’s inner pocket. “I never got you that wedding ring.”
He opened the little box revealing a beautiful golden ring inside. You had no idea what’s happening.
“Is this a joke?”
“It’s certainly not, you signed those papers yourself,” he laughed.
“Y/N please. It may be just a ring to you but it would mean so much to me if you wore it, so can I?” he said taking your hand, he held it for a while before you finally nodded. He then took another ring out and you chuckled.
“You want me to put it on for you?” you asked and then slipped it on his finger.
It felt so strange actually wearing one and only now you realized that you are indeed married to this man.
“I’m always happy with you,” he said, interlocking your fingers with yours. He stared deep into your eyes.
“Y/N,” he finally spoke. “You may have already noticed it but I’m utterly and extremely in love with you.”
You started blushing immediately after his sudden confession, especially since he was holding you so close. You felt kind of bad you couldn’t say the same to him yet or maybe it was just your stubbornness but in the heat of the moment you couldn’t stop yourself and wrapped your hands around his neck and tugged him into a kiss. The kiss was sweet but also passionate at the same time, you felt his hands slide down to your waist and you two had no intentions of stopping when somebody cleared their throat behind you. Jongdae pulled away.
“Am I interrupting something?” you looked at the man who had cat like eyes standing near the door to the balcony.
“Yes you fucking are, don’t you have eyes Minseok?” Jongdae was angry and annoyed, a side of him you didn’t enjoy seeing.
“You know, I don’t even care that I interrupted. All of us were trying to contact you since morning, where the hell were you?”
“Are you seriously here because of that?”
“No. I’m here because it’s urgent, something came up and you’re needed.”
“Can’t you do this without me?”
“We can’t,” the man glared at him. “All of us need to be there, so you better come with, you’re getting on my nerves as it is. I will be waiting outside, you have 3 minutes,” he said and walked away.
You looked at Jongdae who was trying his best to control himself.
“He ruined the mood and I was starting to enjoy myself,” he said, checking his clock. “It’s about 10 pm now, so don’t wait for me because I will probably only be back in the morning. We can continue what we started then,” he smirked and kissed your forehead before going out himself.
You stood there confused, still not sure what happened. Did you seriously just kiss him? You must be out of your mind. You looked at the ring on your finger and smiled to yourself. You had to admit it, the kiss was pretty good. You looked at the stars for a while but since you had nothing better to do after that, you went to sleep. You woke up early and he still hadn’t come back. You have decided to spend your time cleaning the apartment while he was gone because you refused to hire maids. You rarely went to his office but since you were at it why not clean it as well. You piled up the documents neatly on his table when you noticed something laying on the floor, you bent down and picked it up. It was a photo. Your photo. Way back from high school. Where did he get something like that? You wanted to stand up but bumped your head into the bottom of the table and a bunch of other papers and documents fell down from underneath it. You looked at them and quickly realized it was you. All you. You couldn’t believe what you were seeing or rather you didn’t want to believe. There was your school club activities, addresses of all the places you have lived in, your routes home, day jobs, your friends list, parents, photos as young as teenager. Anything and everything it’s possible to know about you. You picked up another photo. It was your sister. Near the picture you saw something why all of this was hidden in the first place. You were studying and rereading through everything over and over again when you heard the familiar footsteps and that sweet voice call out to you.
“Y/N are you in there?”
~ Part 6 ~