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Benevolence 5

5/20 The unstable couple goes fishing! There’s a argument flashback towards the end. This chapter is finally here enjoy

Word Count:5,083


The bell rung letting me know someone had walked into the store. I was lucky enough to be given the opportunity to work at Parakiss, a clothing store ran by my favorite designer Johji Koizumi. Baekhyun had caused us to meet by ‘accident’ leading to him asking me to run Parakiss in Korea while he was away in Paris. I was grateful in every way possible it’s bittersweet since Baekhyun uses it often to bribe me.

“Hi welcome to Parakiss.”, I greeted finally removing my eyes from the sketchbook I was looking at, my eyes landed on Yixing. He had sunglasses and a mask on but still, I knew it was him.

“Every time I walked into this store it’s completely different.” he laughed turning the open sign to the closed side. I had almost forgotten that Yixing and I planned to meet today, we needed to talk about the way Baekhyun had been acting lately. In all honestly I was surprised articles hadn’t shown up when blew up on me in that restaurant on my birthday. Once again, Baekhyun got things to go exactly his way.

“You know you’re not supposed to just open and close the store whenever you please.”, I giggle walking around the counter to greet him properly. Yixing would often swing by Parakiss, whenever he was on his way to practice. Before Taeyeon came back into the picture Baekhyun would often come too, now he’s mostly with her at SM.

“I like it better when no one’s in the shop with us.”, He chuckled sitting on the love seat running his fingers through some fabric. I took the remaining seat next to him and lifted my feet under my legs.

“So what’s up.”, I asked only half paying attention because I have 6 different outfits I need to make within 2 weeks. When I turned in the dresses Lisa and I made she assigned us 2 more design projects meaning I’ll be spending more time with Lisa. After the other day I don’t even know how I feel about her, especially not after hearing her conversation. It was painfully obvious that she was the other woman trying to play victim.

“I wanted to talk to you about Baekhyun.”, He said softly not knowing my reaction. “I can tell something is going on with the two of you.” Yixing was always the type to notice the absolute smallest details so I wasn’t surprised when I couldn’t slip this one past him. We honestly hadn’t been friends long because Baekhyun and I were so reserved with our relationship. I had only been friends with Yixing maybe 6 weeks before Taeyeon came back into the picture. I had met all of the members of EXO since I worked at SM and made the outfits for their Lotto music video, but, I never tried to become close with any of them.

“I wanted to talk to you about him too, I know you don’t mean it by anything when you get close to me yet, Baekhyun has been losing his shit over the smallest of things lately.”, I chuckled looking away from his strong gaze yes, I found Yixing attractive but, that didn’t mean I was romantically interested in him. I guess I was raised to be loyal to the ones you truly love, now when it comes to other men yeah I’m attracted still I never think of them romantically.

“I know, that’s what I wanted to talk about he blew up on me for telling you about the trip without telling him. I didn’t even think he was going to invite you since he invited Taeyeon to come.”, He started.. invited I was under the impression that the company happened to have her tag along. “I know he loves you though, that’s probably why he keeps blowing up on us. His heart is in a good place.”

Whatever, if his heart was in a good place he wouldn’t be thinking about how he needs to fuck two girls more than one.

“Yeah I know, it’s relieving in a sense knowing how much cares.”, I lied resisting the urge to roll my eyes.

“Kai was getting worried too we love you Y/N, just want to make sure everything’s alright.”, He smiled at me, Kai it’s been a few weeks since I’ve seen Kai. He was the other member that I had gotten close with however, he was always in a bitchy mood towards Baekhyun so I didn’t see him much.

“Whatever, go get me some food.”, I giggled standing back up to go behind the counter. Yixing got up as well to head back out the door.

 “Spicy rice cake?”, He asked.

“Yeah, that sounds good.”,I muttered “Make sure to flip the sign on your way out.”

“I’m just going to end up flipping it back when I come back.”, He laughed walking out. I just shook my head as I watched him walk out of the door.


Three days have passed since I’ve seen Yixing, I would see him and the rest of the members today. I was currently packing the rest of the things while those two pieces of  shit were in the shower. Surprisingly Baekhyun actually invited me in however, once again I declined him. I’ve been turning him down for sex a lot these days, unless I was really horny he wasn’t getting any from me. Taeyeon’s obnoxious moans could be heard all the way from the bathroom, trying my best to ignore it I stuffed the last couple t-shirts in my bag.

“You’re wearing those?”, I heard someone scoff behind, turning around to see Baekhyun naked with Taeyeon not far behind. He was purposely walking around naked, to get some type of reaction out of me. I couldn’t be bothered with him at this point.

“Yes I am, we’re going fishing on a boat it’s not fucking fashion week.”, I replied harshly zipping the rest of my items in a pocket on my bag. Baekhyun, just needed to stop talking honestly half the shit that come out of his mouth made zero sense. As I was getting ready to throw my bag over my shoulder I felt his arms wrap around my waist. Pulling my body closer to his body I felt his still semi-hard dick press against me. 

“No need to get upset about it baby, you seem so irritated lately are you on your period? Is that why you never wanted to have sex, it’s be awhile since we’ve played.”, He whispered into my ear lips trailing down my neck. “I miss you”

“Stop, we have to leave in a minute-”, before I could finish my sentence his hand was going down my panties dipping into my core. I gasped getting ready to shove him away, but, his grip on me was too tight and his fingers were already inside of me moving around.

“You’re not on your period so what’s the problem baby?”, He asked removing his fingers showing me that there was no blood before sticking them inside of his mouth. This stupid piece of shit has no respect for boundaries, he was going to finger me on my period! I think BDSM is hot and all but not fucking period sex.

“Get the fuck away from me Baekhyun.”, I snapped clearly disgusted by what he just tried to do. When the fuck are the rest of the guys going to get here? We had to drive at least an hour until we got the boats. Taeyeon rolled her eyes and shoved at Baekhyun’s shoulder.

“Stop it Honey, let’s go downstairs.”, She spoke looking at him in a loving way. That bitch. She was giving him the ‘won’t you do anything for me’ look. Of course Baekhyun just had to do whatever the fuck she said.

“We’ll finish this conversation later okay Baby?”, He asked me while grabbing the clothes Taeyeon had handed him. He makes me fucking sick, doing whatever the fuck she wanted him too.

“Whatever.”, I muttered before lifting my hand showing Taeyeon my middle finger. She’s been so up Baekhyun’s ass lately it’s annoying. “Go downstairs I’ll be ready in a minute.”

“Y/N, be nice.”, Baekhyun growled as he slipped on some boxers before heading downstairs with the rest of his clothes. After finishing packing my things I went downstairs just to see that they weren’t even there. Sighing I went all the way down to the parking lot to see them along with the rest of EXO.

“Hey Y/N.”, Chen and the others greeted.

“It’s been a while princess.”, I heard Kai chuckle before pressing his lips against my forehead.

“Don’t fucking kiss her.”, Baekhyun scoffed roughly shoving me behind him bumping into Taeyeon.

“Don’t be so rough Baekhyun.”, Yixing snapped at him furrowing his eyebrows before giving me a small smile. “We have to leave soon are you okay with riding with me and Kai?” Switching my gaze over to Baekhyun who tried to look innocent in this situation.

“Am I not riding with you?”, I asked faking confusion, this asshole purposly piled up all of their shit in the backseat, even so I’m his girlfriend yet once again he’s choosing Taeyeon over me.

“There’s no room Babe and I want Taeyeon to ride with me we have some things to talk about nothing serious you know you can trust me.”, Baekhyun fake kindness as the others all shuffled into their cars.

“Why wouldn’t you want to ride with me?”, I asked Baekhyun a little pissed off. I hope he wasn’t stupid enough to think his band mates wouldn’t notice the fact that he was in a car for an hour alone with his ex girlfriend instead of his current one.

“There’s more than enough room for you in the car Y/N. We can always move some of the stuff ”, Taeyeon looked at me with pleading eyes not to start anything.

“No, I’ll go with Kai and Yixing I’d rather not go with you two and I haven’t hung out with them in a while anyway.”, I snarled at them watching Baekhyun’s eyes go dark. I was over the entire situation within a matter of seconds. Baekhyun being the dumbass he was didn’t realize he was leaving me alone with Yixing for a one when it’s been clear he doesn’t like me around him alone. Kai has been eyeing Baekhyun and Taeyeon funny since I came outside he clearly has a problem.

“Don’t wait up you know I drive slow.”, Yixing yelled to the others as he opened the backdoor for me.

“Come with us Y/N”, Baekhyun spoke lowly right as I was sitting down in the backseat.

“No, I’m fine here with them.”, I smirked before laying all the way down on the seats, I haven’t been getting much sleep lately so I was going to take advantage of the free sleep time.

“Goodnight sleeping beauty.”, Kai chuckled sarcastically getting into the passenger seat when Yixing started the car.

“Shut the fuck up Kai.”, I yawned getting comfortable into the seats.

“We’ll problably have to share a room is that okay?”, Yixing asked looking back at me.

“Yeah that’s cool.”

“Great.”, He muttered before pulling off causing me to fall into a deep sleep.

Kai carried my bags along with his as Yixing had his hand on my lower back. I’m pretty sure we were the last three ones to get on the boat since all of their cars were parked. Yixing pressed a button alerting the captain that the last three passengers were now on the boat. The boat shifted as little as it got further away from shore.

“Let’s go see which room they left us to settle with.”, Kai mumbled annoyed. Letting my thoughts sink in I wondered why Baekhyun didn’t even check on me once. All of these things he was doing made it easier and easier to hate him yet, sometimes it easier to love someone than to hate them.

“It can’t be that bad we’ll be here.”, Yixing tried to lift up the mood as a chuckled at his sorry ass attempt. 

“You tried Yixing, you tried.”, I cooed walking ahead of them both to go see which rooms we had gotten. I hope Baekhyun hadn’t chosen a room with Taeyeon, not only would that make me look stupid it would make things so obvious at that point. However, knowing him the deed had already been done still, I wouldn’t let him ruin this for me I loved the sea. We walked down three hallways before we found our room. Opening the door so Kai could stumble in with our things we entered the room. Shit, I wasn’t expecting this it was a nice suite.

Kai threw our bags on the floor and landed on the red love seat with a loud sigh. Yixing gently put his bag beside one of the beds, before sprawling his body across the floor. Sitting next to him criss-cross applesauce I questioned him.

“All of that mattress for you to lay on and you still choose the floor?”

“The floor actually feels better on my hip.”, He chuckled turning to gaze at me with a smile. In front of us I could hear Kai grumbling curses.

“I need to get my damn hip checked out from carrying all of those bags.”, He grumbled rolling onto the floor a couple feet away from us. Yixing shook his head at the his younger member before rolling on his stomach head facing away from both of us.

“Seriously Y/N, why’d you have to bring so much shit?”, He complained.

“First of all Kai, I didn’t ask you to carry it second, I brought one  bag while you brought 3 suitcases.”, I scoffed at him hearing Yixing let out a chuckle.

“Well excuse me for being a gentlemen the least you could do is kiss me. I’d ask to make love but, that can’t wait until later tonight.”, He winked at me while Yixing scowled at him.

“Don’t talk about her like that.”, He scolded the younger man while Kai just rolled his eyes.

“You couldn’t pay me to fuck you Kai.”, I giggle pushing my legs out laying on my back.

“Fine, then kiss me.”

“Go away little boy.”

“Come on kiss me.’, Kai giggled trying to climb on top of me. I don’t know what was going on but he wasn’t drunk or anything. Thankful Yixing gripped his hand around my ankle and pulled me towards him while Kai fell into a fit of laughter.

“Sorry Kai, I’d only kiss you if your were GD.”, I giggle sitting up on Yixing’s lap.

“What does GD have that I don’t?”, He fake cried burring his face into my knee.

“For starters talent.”, I retorted sarcastically while a gasp could be heard coming from Kai’s lips throwing the three of us into hysterical laughter.

“Come on guys I have something special to announce.”, Baekhyun grinned, he was jealous I could tell his grin was stiff. I didn’t know what he saw exactly but still, it didn’t really matter Baekhyun makes everything a big deal.

“Can’t you see we’re busy.”, Kai snapped at him stopping his laughter and wiping the smile off of his face. He whole mood just did a 180 as soon as Baekhyun had walked into the room.

“Watch your mouth kid, Y/N is the one I really want to come out anyways.”, He snapped back at kai. Yixing had dropped his hand from around my shoulder and gave Baekhyun a cold stare.

“It is pretty rude to just interrupt us like that Baekhyun, you never wanted us bothering you when Taeyeon was around at the studio.”, Yixing mumbled standing up offering his hand out to me.

“It’s pretty rude of you to be all over my damn girlfriend Yixing.”, Baekhyun snapped but, of course Kai couldn’t let that one go.

“It’s pretty rude of you to be with your ex girlfriend when your much better current girlfriend is here right now.”, Kai clapped back. “Besides can’t your little announcement wait until tomorrow?”

“Let’s just go now before he starts acting like a baby.”, I muttered taking Yixing’s hand lifting myself off of the ground.

As the four of us walked out of the the deck I saw the rest of EXO and Taeyeon standing there.

“Sorry it took so long they decided to be assholes today.”, Baekhyun chuckled sarcastically walking over to Taeyeon wrapping an arm around her shoulder. What the fuck is thinking?

“Taeyeon wasn’t invited to this trip by mistake.”, He started off while the rest of us stood beneath him and Taeyeon waiting for his next words. What the hell was he getting into? The way they were standing next to each made me feel extremely uncomfortable. It wasn’t out of jealously it was the way Taeyeon was acting, she was clinging to him like her life depended on it. She was never really open to PDA, since she liked to keep her relationships private but for some reason lately she’s been really touchy. “For awhile now I’ve known that my heart just wasn’t in the right place.”, He continued his little speech while I narrowed my eyes locking with his. No..He couldn’t be doing what I thought he was doing he knows damn well I’m not okay with this.

“No absolutely fucking not.”, I spat at him shoving against his chest. Baekhyun had just asked me to make the ‘relationship’ with him and Taeyeon public. I’m not okay with that, this isn’t even a relationship more like an arrangement. The relationship Baekhyun and I had wasn’t even public so why would I be comfortable with them going public for the second time?

“No Baby, it’s not like that I want to tell the world that you’re both my girls.”, He tried to reason with me.

“Stop just stop, I’m not okay with any of this you said you’d keep us separate. Why the hell would you bring this bullshit out public when you know I’m not even okay with Taeyeon being around.”, I shouted  slamming my hand on the table.

“That’s enough Y/N, I’ve told you one too many times that I’m not just yours anymore. You are mine and so is Taeyeon, you two belong to me while I belong to the both of you. You’re being so insensitive towards Taeyeon and it’s making her feel really bad about herself Y/N”

“I mean shit I’d, feel bad about myself too If I broke up with my ex just squeeze my way back into his life when I was fully aware he had a girlfriend. You see the thing is I don’t think people are sluts, or whores because they sleep with a bunch of different people. I think they’re a whore when they do just that knowing that someone else is being hurt by their actions.”, As soon as the last word left my lips I heard glass falling down with a bang shattering onto the ground. Both of our eyes shifted towards the noise, Taeyeon was crouched down trying to pick up the glass cup she had just broken. 

“Taeyeon, did you hear what she said? Don’t pick that up you’ll hurt yourself.”, He spoke softly towards her, the look in his eyes was filled with love and concern. 

Her head was to the ground and her hands had stopped trying to pick up the pieces of glass, instead, they balled into small fists.

“Y/N.”, She spoke firmly.

“Please just mind your own business for once.”, I groaned getting ready to finish my conversation with Baekhyun. I seriously couldn’t even argue with him without her being there it’s so damn annoying. 

“I’ve had it with your disrespect, I’m your senior and I demand to be treated as so, you and Baekhyun are both younger than me meaning you are not as wise. Baekhyun and I made the decision together to bring out our relationship public two versus one Y/N.”, She tried to threaten me, keyword tried. I respect people who respect me. I usually have no problem whatsoever respect my seniors because they’ve always given me proper respect back.

Was I really supposed to believe that Baekhyun fell back in love with her out of nowhere? They’ve had to have had spent time together or something because I work at SM Taeyeon wasn’t even in the building the time we got together, she was on hiatus like she is now. Either Taeyeon or Baekhyun had initiated this entire thing to start over again, besides, I met Taeyeon to get her measurements for her failed comebacks with Girl’s Generation. She knew I was his girlfriend yet smiled in my face like she wasn’t fucking around with him behind my back.

“At the end of the day for whatever dumb reason Baekhyun still wants me here. I’m already five seconds from slapping the shit out of you and walking out this door for good but, I can’t risk my career. The point is, I’m not okay with it and if Baekhyun still wants me here then he won’t be either.”, My glare went from her to him.

“Y/N, we can’t run from this forever I’ll give you some time but, I want our relationship to go public sometime, you can’t run from this forever accept the fact that Taeyeon is now in our relationship. I expect you to apologize to her for your harsh words.”, His voice low and steady.. He was pissed.

“I expected almost what a year ago, to still love you but things change don’t they?”, I spat back knowing exactly what I had said. The tension in the room had died and Baekhyun’s face went from stern and angry to hurt, desperate and confused.

Taeyeon’s jaw had tightened and tears began to fill to the brim in her eyes. What the hell was she going to start crying for, I’m the one who is really not happy in this relationship. Taeyeon has Baekhyun back and Baekhyun has Taeyeon back and me on the side when he wants to pretend to be interested in me. I had a lying manipulative ‘boyfriend’ with his ex girlfriend who I’m 100% positive that he cheated on me with. Due to that dumbass mistake I made when I was 18, I have no other choice but to stay in this relationship. My dream of becoming a designer is the only thing I have left anymore. As I turned my heel to go up the stairs I stopped to say one last thing.

“Don’t even think about trying to do it behind my back like you did this entire so called relationship. Knowing the both of you, you’d try to sneak and do it giving me no other choice but to accept, but, I’m telling you now if you do that Baekhyun you’ll regret it.”, I spoke clearly before heading up the stairs..


But here we are now, the two of them up there while I’m down here once again going behind my back. However, I wasn’t going to even try and stop them because if he did this Baekhyun’s really going to prove his respect for me against hers. At this point I just waiting until Baekhyun decided to get tired of me, then I’ll live in a big house making clothes and die alone. That’s exactly what I wanted at this point, to be alone. Taeyeon’s eyes flickered over to mine while her grip on Baekhyun’s shoulder tightened. This bitch knew exactly what the fuck she was doing yet, I was enjoying it.

“Y/n and I have been fighting a lot like I told you guys before, and Taeyeon has been filling up the void when I need her to. My heart isn’t with Y/N anymore, it’s with Taeyeon.”, He spoke looking me directly in the eye the entire time. Bingo, he said exactly what I knew he was going to say making me look like the bad one. I had almost forgotten he said this in front of the rest of EXO. 

“Was this really the way to do things Baekhyun? By the looks of it Y/N, didn’t even know you were going to say this you’ve always been so selfish Baekhyun.”, Yixing spat out giving Baekhyun a cold stare, he looked so upset.

“No, it’s not like that Y/N, is still very much in the picture I’m just seeking other options. We’re on a break.”, He  tried to justify making himself sound like a straight asshole. I mean shit you could’ve given me a little more respect ‘other options’ really, more like I’m a second option if he ever gets tired of Taeyeon.

“No we’re not.”, I deadpanned, I could tell by the look in his eye Baekhyun wanted me to tell them that we were in a poly relationship his little plan is going to backfire on him. He just gave me a reason to get away from him, honestly I am a little hurt. Why is it that Taeyeon and Baekhyun make all of these decisions behind my back? I had no say in anything at all it’s like he doesn’t even care if I have feelings or not. I felt a hand on my lower back, turning towards the person Yixing was giving me a worried gaze.

“What do you mean?”, He asked voice filled with concern while Suho gently tried to get Yixing to calm down. Kai was upset as well, you could see it written all over his face. Kai was never okay with Taeyeon being in the picture and he often yelled at Baekhyun whenever he was rude to me. The next few words that come out of my mouth are ones that I’ve wanted to say for a long time.

“It means I’m done once again, Taeyeon, you got exactly what you wanted the both of you did.”, I laughed harshly feeling Kai wrap a firm grip around my shoulder damn it, he was pissed.

“What the fuck did you do Baekhyun getting back together with that bitch ! Did you  forget what happened when she first broke up with you? You cried like a punk for days Baekhyun and now you repeating the same steps”, Kai spat the words towards the two of the them filling the words up with hatred. Something obviously had to have happened for Kai to be this upset over someone else’s relationship.

“It’s not like that Kai, I was feeling unloved from Baekhyun and decided to break up with him now he’s feeling the same way I did with her.”, Taeyeon decided to speak up. This stupid bitch just doesn’t know when to stop does she? I was getting ready to snap on her when Yixing beat me to it.

“Maybe that was Baekhyun’s fault did you even think to consider Y/N’s feelings in this? You didn’t because both of you are so insensitive, then you tried to push all of the blame on Y/N like this is her fault. If Baekhyun was a real man and really cared about her, he would’ve spoke to her about before running his sorry ass back to you.”, He shouted stepping away from me and more towards them. Why were they getting so angry about this I don’t understand? This is the second time I’ve seen Yixing stepping out of his character to shout at a woman.

“Either way it doesn’t change the fact that Baekhyun’s a dumbass for throwing Y/N out just because she isn’t sucking his dick whenever he wants it or the fact that Taeyeon is still a whore.”, Kai growled pulling me closer towards him, even though he was angry he was rubbing my shoulder  gently letting me know he was there. I didn’t like the fact that they were pushing themselves into I didn’t want this to affect their relationship with Baekhyun. However, at this point you can clearly tell that Kai has had his blood boiling towards Baekhyun for some time now.

“Stop, just stop, I don’t even care anymore.”, I chuckled harshly surprising everyone on the boat. 

“I want to talk to her in private.”, Baekhyun stated I could see the look in his eyes it’s the same look he gives me whenever I even mention anything about another male, he was scared. He was jealous, scared, and desperate  for me not to leave.

“Go it’s not going to change anything my mind is set.”, I spoke to the rest of them. “Especially you, just being in this room with you makes me sick to my stomach so hurry the fuck up.”, I glared at Taeyeon as she gave me an unfamiliar look of pity. 

“Even if she takes I’m back I won’t allow them to be in the same room alone after this. Baekhyun you really need to get your shit together.”, Chen said throwing him a look of disgust. 

“Let’s go Taeyeon, I need to have a word with you anyways.”, Suho spoke turning around already leading the rest of the members out.

“Don’t fucking say anything rude to her Suho!”, Baekhyun shouted before she began walking out with them our eyes locking the entire time. “I don’t care what any of you say to me but, I love her and I won’t allow the disrespect towards her.”

“Stop Baekhyun I’m a grown woman I can handle myself.”, Taeyeon responded walking off in front of Suho.

“Can’t handle yourself whenever you’re walking around riding dick.”, Kai blew under his breath causing me to stifle a giggle.

“Kai enough! Do not speak to her like that.”, Baekhyun threatened. “Or you’ll regret it.”

“We’ll be waiting for you in the my room.”, Yixing whispered before walking off.

“I’ll be waiting for you in the kitchen.”, Kai spoke towards Baekhyun making his words sound like a threat.

They were gone now it was the two of us face to face, the way it should’ve been from the start. I’ve given up so much for him already and he’s done nothing for me, not only that I’m giving up something so important by leaving him.

“What the hell is your problem.”, He whispered taking a step towards me. “You did  the exact opposite of what I wanted you to do, us breaking up really?”

I small smirked tugged at my lips before I repeated the words I had said earlier.

“I’m done.”

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