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Morning cardio session out of the way! Even after the 5 yesterday my body felt really good this morning! Even with missing a day of running, with that awful stomach flu, I still will make my 60 mile minimum for the month! 😊

I may run again this afternoon before my lifting session or I may just lift! I am really feeling solid lately, I am in a great workout groove.

Hope y'all have a great Monday!

CrossFit

has played an enormous role in my life for the last five, hugely developmental years. I lost a tremendous amount of weight, completely changed who I was. I transferred and subsequently graduated college, met the love of my life, in addition to countless other incredible people that I’ll never ever forget. I was exposed to and eventually fell hopelessly in love with the sport of Olympic Weightlifting, competed at a level higher than I’d ever imagined as a severely overweight, insecure kid, and even embarked on a career composed of equal parts mind-boggling stress and raw exhilaration. The one constant through all of it has been CrossFit, in varying levels of intensity.

It’s been five years and about a billion memories later, and tonight I signed up and completed my first CrossFit Open workout. It was awful. And I don’t regret it.

Anything or anyone that has power over you, is teaching you to take YOUR power back.
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This weekend, I realized I had given away my power to someone without even knowing.
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When they left my life, they didn’t leave alone. They took my power with them.
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And even though I consciously denied it, subconsciously I was broken.
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I let them walk away with my self-worth.
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All the inner work I had done felt like it had gone to waste.
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I felt like no matter what I did, I still wasn’t good enough.
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The feeling of despair and unworthiness manifested in my body.
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Turning to food for comfort, the weight slowly creeping back.
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I was using food to fill an emptiness I felt, when all along it wasn’t food I was hungry for.
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This resulted in so much shame & guilt.
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It’s been months & I just realized it.
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But today, I can proudly say that
I TAKE BACK MY POWER.
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And if you’re in a similar situation, you should too!