weigh in days

Today is weigh in day and also the day I stop fucking around

Start Weight: 200lbs

Last Weeks Weight: 188.2lbs 

Current Weight: 189.8

First Goal Weight: 185lbs

Basically still five pounds to go, I was really hoping for some progress this week but I guess I just have to work my ass off this week, because I know that it’s not  coming handed to me on a silver platter.  

I actually have a plan for this weekend/next week though (well, the start of a plan) Involving:

- MyFitnessPal
- Fitbit
- Nike Training Club
- Couch to 5k

I guess the part of my journey where I can eat what I want as long as I workout and still lose weight is over, so (for the next seven days at least) I’m starting to (loosely) track my calories again using MFP.

I’m going to make sure I hit my step goal 6/7 days.

I’m going to do Nike Training Club workouts at the gym so I don’t get bored, and

I’m actually restarting the C5k because a) I can’t afford the $7 to upgrade right now and b) i want to increase my speed a little bit 

This is my plan and next week we are going to see amazing results from me!!!

3/22 weigh in: 180.8 (-1.4lbs!!)

I’m very excited about this weigh in. I didn’t think I was going to lose over a pound at all. I thought I might even have a small gain!!

My eating was pretty good all week but my activity level has been really low. My knee is recovered from my fall, but I just haven’t gotten back into the habit of daily exercise and I feel really shitty about myself.

I’m going to go for a walk in a bit (I’m in 2 Fitbit challenges right now).

I’m determined to be out of the 180s by next weigh in 🤞🏻

Wanna know what having anorexia is really like?

*sleeping as much as possible to keep yourself from binging
*drinking so much green tea or coffee on an empty stomach that your hands shake
*pushing on your stomach to stop the growling
*exercising until your legs feel weak
*peeing 40 times a day
*weighing yourself daily
*having to say no to foods you once loved
*hiding your illness from family/boyfriend/friends
*choking on giant vitamins
*wearing jackets in the summer because you’re always cold
*always being covered in bruises
*binging when you’re alone…
*…and then trying to puke or shit the guilt away
*staring at thinspo literally 24/7
*crying when the number on the scale just won’t move no matter how long you fast
*feeling guiltily proud of all your symptoms

Weigh-in Day (03/20/2017)

Hey lovely’s! It’s that time again! Weigh in MONDAY! ! 💪

Lost another 2 ½ pounds, I’m down to 232.4 now! 😄 Almost out of the 230′s just need another 2 and a half pounds to make it in the 220′s. Thanks to everyone that’s following my journey and leaving me awesome comments and tips. Feel free to message me about ANYTHING!!! I’m happy to help. Today I felt “skinny”. 🙄😏 it’s a weird cool feeling. It felt “light weight”. I love it. 🤗🖒


I’ve been down and worrying ALOT this month, and today felt different. Also it’s a BIG thanks to you guys, so thank you! 😘 💓💗❤❤❤❤❤

Also if ya want to, feel free to follow me on “MyFitnessPal” and check me out on instagram, I post alot of healthy food I’m eating on there, and once in a blue moon, I post random stuff. All my links, in a previous post. ☺✌

My New Rules:

1. No sugar, unless it’s fruit sugar
2. Absolutely no carbs
3. Only eat in front of people, never eat alone
4. 500 crunches, 20 push ups, and 30 donkey kicks at night
5. Exercise in the shower
6. Pillow squeezes, inner thighs, and cardio in the morning
7. Drink a liter of water a day
8. If I feel hungry, do 10 jumping jacks and drink green tea
9. Weigh myself once every 3 days
10. Achieve perfection

i hate how my entire day can be ruined because of a particular conversation i had, or because of how someone phrased something or because of the tone they used. i hate how i am so horribly sensitive that what counts for me as a “bad day” hinges entirely on the most insignificant things. things other people can shrug off, but they weigh heavy on me all day.

Shout out to all the trans aces who:

  • Don’t feel ‘truly’ asexual because you don’t know whether your dysphoria is having an affect on your sexuality
  • Feel that your trans-ness can’t be removed from your ace-ness but are told it should be
  • Don’t feel comfortable in hypersexual LGBT spaces
  • Have had your asexuality invalidated by people who say you can’t be ace and trans
  • Have had your trans-ness invalidated by people who say you can’t be ace and trans
  • Are happy that you’re trans and ace
  • Are sad that you’re trans and ace

Your feelings are valid. Your identities are valid. And you are amazing (ace, even!).

Weigh day was hard on Mouse, the albino Everglades rat snake. She was TERRIFIED of the tape measure and kept bolting every time she saw it. But we gotta take measurements and being afraid of a non-scary thing isn’t a valid excuse not to document growth, so I tried to convince her it wasn’t a devil monster coming to eat her tiny self.
Eventually she just covered her eyes with her tail and faced away from it, so this is the photo I had to use on the SerpWidgets snake measuring tool.


Afterwards I spent a little time consoling her, and then she got to go home and have dinner.

“Is it gone yet?”



Yes, baby, it’s gone now. No more tape measure.

“Are you sure??”

I ate too many calories last night and even indulged in a keto cupcake. I thought for sure when I stepped on the scale it would be a couple pounds higher. It was 2 pounds lower and I actually stepped back on the scale 2 more times to see if it was still the same. Cause sometimes that scale plays tricks on you. I know people say you shouldn’t weigh yourself every day but it holds me accountable. Cheers to losing over 60 pounds!

For Everyone Starting Their Weight Loss Plans Tomorrow

1- Make sure that you

  • Have accurate weight / measurements recorded [make sure you weigh yourself early, after you use the bathroom and before you eat breakfast]
  • Think about what meals you want to eat for the day.
  • Start meal prepping for the week [if you have time, cook them, if not, just write them down]
  • Pick a time when you will be done eating for the day [mines will be 7PM]
  • Pick a cheat day [if you want one]
  • Pick a “weigh in day” [ don’t weigh yourself everyday, you will stress yourself out, weight fluctuates every 24 hours or so]
  • Go food shopping
  • Download a fitness / health / weight tracker app on your phone [make sure everyday that your pedometer is turned on, it will count your steps, calories burned and miles went. ] (if you have a Samsung Galaxy you should have the SHealth Fitness app)


2- Some Helpful Tips From Me

  • Aim for at least 30 minutes of exercise EVERY SINGLE DAY
  • Buy Vanilla Protein Powder [I use a small amount of it as a replacement for sugar / artificial sweeteners in my smoothies]
  • DON’T WORRY ABOUT COUNTING CALORIES [to me it’s tedious and as long as you watch your serving sizes, sodium intake and know that what you’re eating is already super healthy, then you are good!]
  • If you don’t have a set workout plan go on Youtube. There are so many long / short workout videos, create a playlist.
  • KNOW YOUR LIMITS. Do not feel bad that you cannot do certain moves or do something for too long. That should inspire you to want to build your stamina and endurance.
  • Set small goals. Instead of 100 pounds this year, aim for 2 pounds a week / 8 -10 pounds a month. 
  • Plan your workouts according to time. 

3: VERY IMPORTANT DISCLAIMER

Please do not stress yourself out over a single thing because you will end up wanting to quit if things get overwhelming. Trust me, I know. It’s happened to me like 100 times. Some of these things cannot be done by everyone, whether it be lack of money or lack of time or even motivation. The #1 issue I have is that I feel like I’m not doing enough so I end up stopping. Some days will be better than others, do not let 1 bad day or 2 or even 3, be the reason you give up. Lastly, please remember that the idea / task of weight loss is MORE MENTAL THAN PHYSICAL. Whenever you get lazy, just think about every single day you’re uncomfortable. Think about how you’ve been trying to change for years.  Think about new clothes, the amount of energy and the new confidence and all of the new things you’ll be able to experience this year simply because you feel better about yourself…

I’d really appreciate it if you guys tagged me in your posts/ blog entries about your progress for the next few months… I’m giving out tips and advice but I myself need motivation…..