We’re afraid others will see our flaws, weaknesses and insecurities. We’re afraid if others really knew us, they would reject us. We feel like fakes and frauds in a world that seems to have it all together.
I clamored drunkenly into the back of the cab, the driver was playing Surah Al Mulk, flooded in shame I whispered astaughfirullah to myself beneath my breath. The driver turned to me and said “Allah is forgiving and we are all weak sometimes”..it changed my life.
being blunt, straightforward, and unapologetic about things is one of the ways to not conform to femininity, because femininity is about being overly apologetic and always being sorry, always putting others ahead of yourself.
I’m not saying don’t admit your mistakes, but don’t admit you made a mistake when you didn’t, either. women shouldn’t have to be unnecessarily meek in order to be socially accepted.
I want to be strong, but sometimes I have to hide in my closet, sleep at six pm, cry alone in the bathroom, purposely not tell my friends everything, purposely forget about things I don’t want to go to, take a shower until the water is freezing cold, sit in the dark alone, travel through my complex mind, but overall sometimes I need to be weak once so I can be strong later.