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I have 17 missed calls saying that you’ll never call me back.
And I keep reading your text messages
Thinking about how we were so goddamn in love.
But you loved to pound your fists into my skull more than you liked to kiss my forehead
And you forgot who I was
And you forgot how to love
So I stopped letting myself fall apart
And you stopped forgetting to love me back.
—  How To Spot An Abusive Relationship: Look At How They Blink When You Ask Who Loves You (Part 1)
So last night we were texting. I was being straightforward with you about everything. And all I get in return are 1 word answers? Shows how much you care about this “friendship.” But it’s okay because whenever your name lights up on my phone screen I die a little inside.
—  h.h//because I’m in love with you

I’m having to explain bronies to my college roommates

and I just wonder how much better my life would be if my brain weren’t so thoroughly filled with ridiculous fandom wank and bullshit incidents

like

what could I remember to do if my brain weren’t stocked with the likes of bronies and msscribe and the post of doom

  • my Maryland friends:GUYS THERE IS SNOW COMING 18 INCHES EVERYBODY GET READY BE SAFE HERE'S THE LATEST NEWS OKAY OKAY WE CAN DO THIS
  • my New York friends:isn't it supposed to snow this weekend? ughhhh at least it's starting later than last year. god I hate winter. ..... let's get lunch I'm hungry
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1. We’ll always worry, but that turned out to be so pure. Bless.
2. I knew they were still keeping tabs on his Tumblr tag…
3. The 90s called, they want “Iris” back. It used to be in my email sig - IT WAS THE 90S OK
4. Water-soluble post-shower sage styling cream (??)…
5. I mean, we all knew it would be Rhaegar, right?
6. He even remembered to shout out to rescue dogs. ;_; The only thing is - we knew he’d say French Bulldog ‘cos he wants to steal Daniel Sunjata’s puppy, and French bulldogs are all the rage after the Pixar short. But dogs bred for short muzzles such as French bulldogs, bulldogs, and pugs, have very bad health problems bred into them along with the look, and these dogs often suffer badly throughout their lives - so adopt bulldog rescues but don’t buy them, ok? ;_; For once, don’t listen to Aaron he’s a golden retriever (Craptacular said so and they presumably know him better than all of us haha) what would he know about French bulldogs unless you take it along with his rescue advice. I gotta admit this is the one thing I wish he hadn’t said, because the whole bulldog/pug thing is really hard to fight as they’re very popular “lifestyle” dogs thanks in part to celebrity trends, but the genetic problems are even more terrible than usual for most purebreeds. (EDIT: Having said all that, hearing him say “labradoodle” was amazing.)
7. He was obviously making an effort to address each asker by their name - how value-added is this service??

EDIT: We were discussing this indignantly but - how many answers did they edit out if they didn’t put in his cooking answer (WHICH WE REALLY WANTED) after all?

Also - @nexttogabe​, is the question about his car from you??!  Σ(°o°  )!!!

The thing about colorism is sorta like the whole left twix right twix debate both are the same candy, same factory, same company, both are still good but the only difference is how it looks

Y'all I started tinder and have a date with a pediatric resident tonight. We were BLITZ TEXTING last night about books and game of thrones and historical ladies and the rise and fall of empires and nuclear arms races and his work and my work I’M TRYING HARD TO KEEP MY SHOT TOGETHER.

My step sister is a nurse at the children’s hospital at which he works and has confirmed that he is not a douche canoe and is in fact quite nice to work with.

My married co-clerk read the messages this morning (she’s been living vicariously through me and demanding updates) and was like “okay yes keep an open mind but know that I’m writing my rehearsal dinner speech in my head right now.”

TRYING TO KEEP CALM BUT AM ALSO GONNA PUT ON MY STILETTO PUMPS TO MEET HIM.

positive thing #188

i’m at least 80% sure that i’m getting a cold, but i slept from 7pm till 5am and then 8am till 11am today and wow…that’s a lot of sleep for me. you go sarah. you sleep your lil heart out.

my boyfriend was ill the other day, having thrown up. i have a terrible fear of throwing up to the point i will hyperventilate at the very thought of it, but i still went to see him and let him mope and snuggle on me while we watched crappy daytime TV. i am fearless like a momentarily empowered mouse

(he bought a lightsaber. it was £200. i’m not even questioning it tbh)

Happy Birthday to my B @j.r.rogue! We met….over a year ago on here. Oh how time flies. We were nothing short of meant to be. We text daily about everything and I’m so lucky to have her. It’s kismet. 💁🏼❤️💁🏻
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Listening to the lyrics, and now it starts to hurt

I never liked how in elementary school they made you get Valentines for the whole class. You can sure as hell bet no one would be getting me a Valentines if they didn’t have to and I wouldn’t get them one either so what was the point?

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28 Jan 2016 / Day 28 / 393 / foodie, media, study, tv

Quiet down this mind of mine because "Less is more"

I’m not good at quieting my mind and removing all distractions from my reach, but it is something that I would like to train my mind to be better at because it’s good and necessary for the health of your soul.

Our culture is visually stimulated and we respond to that stimulation with immediate wants - which we can easily gratify with the clicking of a thumb on a screen. We can buy or travel or create a life for ourselves through a few simple hand movements.

But when we are put in an environment without our phone or camera maybe alone or maybe with another human, how do we respond naturally? Can we appreciate it for IT… Can we create friendly conversation with that person? Or do we wish we were texting someone else somewhere across America?
Or are we constantly thinking about that IG shot of blog posting we are gonna put up?

I am so l freakin’ guilty of this ^^^ and it makes my soul hurt! Life is so short. What’s the point of that? What are we living for? Or better yet…. Who are we living for?

Now C and I have a little human who will be looking up to us for direction and counsel and what will we be passing onto him? Parenthood is such a blessing that is given to us from God and I want to be a good steward of that - which probably means stepping back from this and IG and things that take me away from spending time with Hank and C and our friends and family because I have found myself being more interested in what’s happening on my screen in other peoples’ lives that I don’t know or barely know!

My husband deleted all his social accounts and has never gone back years ago. I don’t know if that’s that route I’ll take or not… But maybe? Going off the grid has its many pros and some cons… It’ll mean being far more intentional with my relationships and freeing up a lot of time to foster relationships in my community, so I like that a lot. But you miss out on the ones far away.

I’m not sure which is more important, and if there even is one that is more important than the other. But I do know that I’d like to quiet my life a little - and maybe this is just one step in that direction - removing the random social media aspect that clouds my brain and takes me places that I don’t necessarily want to go to or need to go to. I like our simple life and our family and our simple town.

Less really is more.

92 questions tag RULES: ONCE YOU’VE BEEN TAGGED YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO WRITE A NOTE WITH 92 TRUTHS ABOUT YOU. AT THE END, CHOOSE 25 PEOPLE TO BE TAGGED. DON’T FORGET TO TAG THE PERSON THAT TAGGED YOU.

Tagged by @strawberryishness thanks Max!! *hugs you from across the ocean*

Last:

1. Last drink: sparkling cranberry cherry soda (it was delicious)

2. Last phone call: to my grandma

3. Last text: to my friend, asking about what homework we were supposed to do (he didn’t know either, typical us)

4. Last time you cried: last night, while watching 60 minutes. They had a story about a boy who got his wish made true from the Make A Wish foundation. He got to go to Australia, and it was so cute and sweet and everything. Then at the very end, they revealed he had died from the cancer. It made me cry.

5. Last song you listened to: Where I belong - Danger: Mo Blue Version, by BTS

Have you ever:

6. Dated someone twice: haha, I haven’t even dated a person once

7. Been cheated on: no

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: I’ve never been kissed :(

9. Lost someone special: my great Grandma, and… my cat

10. Been depressed: not really

11. Been drunk and thrown up: no, I don’t drink

List your three favourite colors:

12. Purple

13. Green

14. Blue

In the last year you have:

15. Made a new friend: yes, so many :)

16. Fallen out of love: I mean I’ve fallen out of crushes, but I wouldn’t say love

17. Laughed until you cried: yeah

18. Met someone who changed you: Yeah

19. Found out someone was talking about you: not any that I know of

20. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: don’t have Facebook

General:

21. Do you own any pets: a dog, 5 chickens, and a bunch of koi fish

22. Do you want to change your name: no. I like it. It’s unique

23. What did you do for your last birthday: I had a party with my family, it was great. Another day, I celebrated it with some friends, it was my birthday party/ going away party for another friend.

24. What time did you wake up today: 6:10 AM :/

25. What were you doing last night at midnight: I was actually asleep by then

26. Name one thing you can’t wait for: To finish the homework, I am currently putting off

27. Last time you saw your mother: like 5 minutes ago

28. What’s one thing you want to change about your life: my horrible procrastination

29. What are you listening to right now: War of Hormone, by BTS

30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: actually, yes I have

31. What’s getting on your nerves right now: The fact that nobody else know what we’re supposed to do for our AP Lit homework

32. Most visited website: Tumblr :D

33. Blood type: I think O… Idk

34. Nickname: Aubs

35. Relationship status: Sexy, Free, and Single, I’m ready to Bingo ;)

36. Zodiac sign: Gemini

37. Pronouns: she/her

38. Favourite TV shows: this is hard. I especially Like Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt, and The IT Crowd. I’m not even going to get started on dramas

39. Elementary: eh. I moved around a lot. So it was hard, trying to adjust a lot.

40. High school: It’s been okay. But this past year and a half I think I really opened up and made a lot of new friends.

41. University: almost there

42. Hair colour: dirty blonde, like almost brown, but it’s definitely blonde

43. Long or short hair: short

44. Height: 5′7.5″ (the .5 does count)

45. Do you have a crush on someone: kinda sorta

46. What do you like about yourself: my lips and eyes

47. Piercings: earrings

48. Tattoos: none, needles are a nono for me

49. Righty or lefty: righty 

First:

50. First surgery: never had one

51. First piercings: earrings in like the first grade.

First best friend: Jasmine, Haven’t seen her since first grade

53. First sport you’ve ever joined: I think it was soccer (it could’ve been T ball too)

54. First vacation: don’t remember

55. First sneakers you’ve ever bought: how would I know that???

Right now:

56. Eating: contemplating over jellybeans or rice krispy treats

57. Drinking: nothing

58. About to do: homework… hopefully

59. Listening to: Look Here by BTS

60. Wanting: food and sleep

Want:

61. Want kids: yeah. 2 sounds good

62. To get married: it would be nice

63. Career: idk

Which one is better:

64. lips or eyes: eyes

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs

66. Shorter or taller: taller is nice, but honestly shorter is okay too. *grimaces at all of past crushes who were shorter*

67. Older or younger: I don’t really care, as long as the age gap isn’t huge

68. Romantic or spontaneous: both

69. Nose, stomach or nice arm: arms (let my guide you to Chanyeol my friends)

70. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

71. Hookup or a relationship: relationship

72. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

Have you ever:

73. Kissed a stranger: Nope

74. Drank hard liquor: no

75. Lost glasses or contacts: no

76. Had sex on a first date: no. pshhh. I can’t even get a first date

77. Broken someone’s heart: I have (but I mean he knew me for 4 days, what am I supposed to say) :(

78. Have had your own heart broken: no not yet luckily

79. Been arrested: never

80. Turned someone down: yeah once.

81. Cried when someone died: of course

82. Fallen for a friend: uh… yeah

Do you believe in:

83. Yourself: kind of

84. Miracles: sometimes

85. Love at first sight: idk, it seems more like infatuation to me

86. Heaven: yes

87. Santa Clause: no

88. Kiss on a first date: depends on the person, like how long I’ve known them, and how deep the feelings are

89. Angels: yes

Other:

90. Current best friend: I don’t have like a single best friend. It’s more like a tie between Trenna, Savannah, Lin, and Chris tbh

91. eye colour:brown

92. How many people on Facebook do you know irl: not on Facebook

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