I don't know what to do anymore. My life is in shambles. My ex best friend changed and left me, leaving me with the feeling that everyone is going to abandon me no matter what. I've come to realize how alone I truly am without them (it's actually been months) and I've just keep getting worse and worse. The day before yesterday I was trying to kill myself, but then I backed out of it last minute. I am so angry at myself. I wish I had done it.I don't need to be here anymore. Why am I sending this?