we will miss you so much, community

Hey fellow cis wlw, here’s a friendly reminder that when trans women, especially trans women of color, talk about how the LGBT community wouldn’t exist today without the contributions of twoc, they aren’t erasing the contributions of cis LGB people, nor are they ignoring the history of LGBT activism prior to Stonewall. It’s not an attack on any of us for trans women and trans wlw to celebrate their legacy or point out the incredible work they’ve done for all LGBT people. None of them are saying “we did all the work and you did nothing”. The cis LGB+ community is still incredibly transphobic and transmisogynistic, so it’s important that trans women emphasize that much of the strides we’ve made wouldn’t have been possible without trans women, even as trans women continue to be excluded (often violently) by cis LGB+ people. If you take issue with trans women and trans wlw talking about women like Marsha P. Johnson, Miss Major Griffin-Gracy, and Sylvia Rivera, not only are you incredibly transmisogynistic; you’re also displaying insecurity for no rational reason. Saying “trans women of color are a major reason why LGBT activism exists” is not the same thing as saying “cis LGB+ people never fought or died and their contributions are meaningless”. It’s entirely possible to celebrate the contributions of the myriad cis LGB+ people (of color) to the movement while also centering twoc in our conversations. Frankly, some of you act as if twoc aren’t ignored or excluded by the community when in fact cis LGB+ people are seen as the “face” of the community and so much of LGBT discourse revolves only around cis LGB+ people. 

Read about our history! Read about Stonewall! Read about the gay and lesbian groups that existed prior to Stonewall! Read about how Stonewall transformed the community! Read about how the HIV/AIDS epidemic changed the community! Read about the transphobic violence cis LGB+ people perpetrated against Marsha and Sylvia and other notable twoc! Read about the transmisogynistic feminists in the movement sought to expel trans women from the community! Read, learn, and reflect. Be humble in your remembrance of all the LGBT people who came before us, and be thankful toward trans women and trans wlw who fought for us and continue to fight for us despite how transphobic cis LGB+ people are. 

politico.com
How Free Eyeglasses Are Boosting Test Scores in Baltimore
Educators know that poor kids do worse in school. The solution might be as simple as helping them see the board.

I really don’t like how this headline is framed. Even the sub-headline (is that what it’s called?) is insulting and also misses what the point should be.

The reason why this bothers me so much is that I’ve worked in the non-profit & charter school industrial complex where black children are business ventures, and the black community is an endless research project of problems that need to be solved. I don’t appreciate the premise of “who can find the most unique, high yield solution to the negro problem?” Or in other words “what can we do to help this group that refuses to help themselves?”

At this point people are like “you’re looking into this too deep” or “but these kids are receiving help, and that’s what’s most important” okay. yeah. Except go back and read the article. This is about boosting test scores, which is what the whole Black Poverty Industrial Complex bases their model on. Black children become data points that they get to manipulate based off of the unique variable they’re selling.

The fact of the matter is: living in poverty, with a lack of access to their most essential needs, impacts every aspect of life - INCLUDING education.

Black people aren’t only valuable when they’re able to produce test scores that benefit rich white people. That’s when we get white saviors flocking into neighborhoods to rescue black children from their family members. 

& buying kids a pair of glasses, while great for the individual, doesn’t excuse the systemic mechanisms in place that perpetuates poverty and intentionally target poor black neighborhoods.

A goodbye letter to my friends and followers.


Dear Everyone,

I am sad to say that I am resigning from the blog FatedFujoshis. As of today, the blog will no longer do scanlations and will be under new management. They will continue to pursue blcd videos since the girls want to continue/finish their projects. As for me, I am withdrawing from anything that has to do with the blog, meaning scans, videos, and overseeing the blog in action! I wanted to say a few thank you’s before I leave for good.

@sentimientoyaoi (Nikah), thank you for all your help. I don’t think we could have been able to put out great work like Katsura Komachi scans or others if it weren’t for them. They also introduced me to many players in the scanlation business, which open many doors for many things blog-related or friendship/contact wise. Yoru, I will miss your colored pages you did for us, you have amazing talent, always keep it up. (Nikah we’ll keep in touch :P)

@nijiniji-nikubou-scans, lol Nina, you are my lifesaver on so many levels lol. I think she oversaw all our projects, even including some blcd videos recently. Anytime I would hit rock bottom, you were there to help me getting the process done the way I wanted it. And thank you for letting me borrow your staff… I don’t think I abused you too much, Ash ;) ( But I won’t say goodbye to you guys, because we will remain friends on Facebook :P)

To @crappy-bl-scanlations Nagareboshi, my moon lighter translator, who will keep on helping my girls, I think I annoyed you soooo many times with Japanese proofing everything so we could put our best work forward. Thank you so much for putting up with my annoying million texts a day. Even though you made me redo a video 5 times and get mad, I knew it was for the best for the blog even if I was being snarky from being so analllll lol

To all the others, like @justpeachyicedtea The Anon, @fluffwords, @lustfulcat cat, Dhyzre, Fantaisy, (if I missed anyone else please don’t hate me ;P )  thank you for involving yourself with our group when we needed help on missing staff positions. I am overwhelmed with how everyone was ready to be hands on and help out with projects. Truly the yaoi community is very generous. So please don’t be hasty/nasty when projects are slow. All these groups take great pride in releasing awesome projects.

To my staff, thank you for helping grow the blog’s content, if it wasn’t for you guys, I don’t think we would’ve had so much content to share. Starting this blog with you guys was a lot of fun, I won’t miss the mentoring at lolol. Keep helping each other and keep going, the Yaoi community needs to hear more perverted moans lol! It was a pleasure to work with you all.

And as for the followers to, don’t be sad, more videos will be on there way, just without my editing! Love you all thank you for following me and the blog, it was a fun ride. -Katsumi xox

I mean.

What, pray tell, THE FUCK?

OK, so like, here’s the thing. Fuck this scene but also FUCK, THIS SCENE! Because like THIS IS WHAT FIGHTS LOOK LIKE?

Like we all know what Killian’s struggling with THE SMOL DUMB ASSHOLE WHO I LOVE.  And this was possibly the WORST WAY to handle this but here we are and like EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS SLAYS ME IN THE BEST WAY? I AM A SUCKER FOR WELL WRITTEN ANGST OK?

LOOK AT HER BODY LANGUAGE THO. THE STEPS BACK, THE RAISED HANDS. LIKE, AT THIS POINT SHE’S FEELING BETRAYED AF AND CONCERNED ABOUT HOW HE MIGHT NOT TRUST HER WITH HIS PAIN BUT ALSO, BECAUSE THIS IS EMMA SWAN, SHE’S NOT ABLE TO SORT OF ANALYSE IT?

SHE IMMEDIATELY GOES WALLS UP EMMA SWAN. CALLING HIM ‘HOOK’ AND NOT MEETING HIS EYES. LIKE THIS IS ABOUT PROTECTING HERSELF FOR HER WHERE SHE BELIEVES THAT HE’S HIDING THINGS FROM HER AND THAT HE DOESN’T TRUST HER.

WHEREAS HE’S JUST STUCK ON SORT OF, I DID THIS HORRIBLE THING IN THE PAST AND EVERYONE WILL HATE ME.

AND REMEMBER HOW SHE’S THINKING HOW HE COULD HIDE THIS FROM HER AND SO SHE ASKS HIM.

AND HE IS SO ON THE WRONG PAGE. LIKE BOTH THEIR CONCERNS ARE SO FUCKING VALID BASED ON THEIR OWN PERSONAL STORIES AND PERSONALITIES BUT THEY’RE NOT CONVEYING THEM CORRECTLY BECAUSE EMOTIONAL AND FUCK IF THAT ISN’T EVERY FIGHT I HAVE EVER HAD.

AND SHE’S LIKE I DON’T FUCKING CARE ABOUT THAT AND SHE’S TRYING TO TELL HIM HOW HE’S HURT HER BUT INSTEAD OF SAYING THAT NOW SHE ASKS HIM ABOUT WHY HE WOULD BURN AWAY HIS MEMORIES RIGHT?

AND THEY’RE STILL ON DIFFERENT PAGES ABOUT THIS OMG UGH THIS IS GREAT OK SO

AND HERE’S WHERE IT HURTS ME SO MUCH BECAUSE KILLIAN’S THINKING THAT THIS IS ABOUT HIS PAST SINS AND REPENTANCE AND HIM BEING A VILLAIN, HE THINKS OF IT AS A SOLITARY THING? LIKE THE WHOLE SITUATION SHOULD BE HIS TO DEAL WITH BECAUSE IT’S HIS PAST? HIS MISTAKES? WHY SHOULD EMMA HAVE TO DEAL WITH THEM? 

IN HIS MIND, EMMA’S STILL ON THE OTHER SIDE SORT OF? LIKE SHE WOULD JUDGE HIM OR LEAVE HIM FOR WHAT HE’S DONE? AND THAT’S WRONG AND EMMA TELLS HIM SO BUT FUCK I UNDERSTAND WHY HE SOULD HAVE TROUBLE BELIEVING IT POOR KILLIAN SELF LOATHING JONES THAT HE IS

NOW SHE TELLS HIM RIGHT, THAT YOU KNOW THEM BUT THEY’RE STILL NOT ON THE SAME FUCKING PAGE BUT SHE’S GETTING MADDER AND MADDER THAT HE’S NOT UNDERSTANDING HOW HE’S HURT HER BY NOT COMING TO HER

AND HE’S LIKE THINKING THAT SHE HATES HIM FOR WHAT HE DID AND THAT THIS IS STILL ABOUT HIS PAST AND HIM NOT BEING ABLE TO FORGIVE HIMSELF WHICH HE STILL THINKS IS A SOLITARY PUNISHMENT FOR HIM TO BEAR. THIS IS SO FUCKED BUT LIKE IN MY EXPERIENCE MOST FIGHTS HAPPEN LIKE THIS? IN THE MIDST OF EMOTION AND ANGER AND NOT BEING ABLE TO COMMUNICATE BECAUSE OF THOSE THINGS?

AND THEN SHE’S HIT HER BOILING POINT AND SHE IS LIKE YOU LEAN ON ME!

HOOK SHE CALLS HIM UGH AND I DIED WHILE ALSO CHEERING FOR HER BECAUSE YES BUTTHEAD, YOU LEAN ON HER.

BUT SEE KILLIAN JONES HAS WALLS OK? WALLS AF. AND I FEEL LIKE WE HAVE HANDLED SO MANY OF EMMA’S DEMONS. HER FEARS OF BETRAYAL AND ABANDONMENT SO MUCH, THAT WE SOMETIMES MISS THE FACT THAT KILLIAN DOESN’T REALLY LEAN ON ANYONE BECAUSE HE’S ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT THIS BURDEN OF HIS PAST WAS HIS TO BEAR BECAUSE IT WAS ALL HIS FAULT AND

WHO WOULD EVER WANT TO BEAR THOSE BURDENS WITH HIM? THIS RINGS SO TRUE FOR ME? EMMA’S NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH WALLS YK? LIKE HE’S ALWAYS BEEN SO OPEN WITH HIS FEELINGS FOR HER BUT HE’S ALWAYS STRUGGLED WITH THOSE FEELINGS ABOUT DESERVING HER AND I AM JUST SO SAD RN

LIKE EMMA’S REACTION IS ALSO SO TYPICAL OF HER AND HER OWN WALLA WHERE HER IMMEDIATE REACTION IS TO TAKE A STEP BACK BECAUSE SHE FEELS INCREDIBLY SAD ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING. AND IT’S NOT THAT SHE WANTS TO BREAK UP WITH HIM SO MUCH AS SHE WANTS TO SEE IF HE WILL FIGURE IT OUT AND COME BACK. SHE’S NOT JUDGING HIM OR PASSING A SENTENCE, SHE’S GIVING HIM A CHANCE TO FIGURE HIMSELF OUT LIKE SHE DID IN THE UNDERWORLD BUT FAR LESS ARTICULATELY.

BUT THERE’S ANOTHER COMMUNICATION THING HERE BECAUSE KILLIAN FUCKING JONES IS LIKE FUCK MY WORST FEARS HAVE COME TRUE

HE HAS BEEN IMAGINING THIS NIGHTMARE FOR SO LONG NOW THAT ONCE IT HAPPENS, HE CANNOT THINK THAT SHE MIGHT WANT HIM BACK

HE CANNOT THINK OF THE SENSIBLE MATURE THING BECAUSE THE NIGHTMARE THAT LIVED IN HIS HEAD AND HAD BECOME REALITY THEREFORE ALL THINGS THAT HE HAD THOUGHT ABOUT HIMSELF NOT DESERVING HER MUST BE TRUE RIGHT?

WHICH IS WHY HE GOES TO THE FUCKING NAUTILUS LIKE THE FUCK YOU IDIOT.

THIS IS GREAT AND I LOVED IT. 

[breathes]

it just felt real you know? like half finished sentences and tangents that go off to weird places and hyperbole and extrapolation. people do this shit when they fight and because it felt so real, I am so fucking hurt ugh kill me dead.

but also pls send me hugs, I need them.

Okay help me I’m still not over tonight’s episode I’ve gone soft for them all over again

Help me they’ve literally just confirmed in canon on screen that they’re still completely besotted and in love with each other haven’t they??? and that literally everything Aaron is saying to push Rob away is a lie.

and i dont even think it’s a biased fandom reaction trying to stretch and twist everything  were seeing. It’s literally the story they are telling. Genuinely. That is what i saw on screen tonight. Even my oblivious husband can see that’s what they’re doing??

They had them have a conversation with each other where they actually brought up how Aaron keeps telling Rob to stay out of his life and the outcome of that conversation was them ending up in the pub together….having a drink….flirting….and Aaron pretty much agreeing that he’d do the same for Robert (okay that bit might be a stretch I’ll allow). but like that conversation by the garage was just everything because remember THESE BOYS DON’T COMMUNICATE WELL WITH ACTUAL WORDS instead they use everything else, and this conversation pretty much said “oh yeah you keep telling me to leave you alone but you know I’m never going to do that and I know you never want me to really do that so shall we go for that drink please because you’re my best pal and I miss you”

…and they also made a point of having Aaron repeat to Rob that he doesn’t care only to have him screw his face up in regret as soon as Robert walked away…which just shows ??? he never means it ??? whenever he says it ????

…and then they had Robert suddenly taking it all out on Finn out of nowhere to show how much he’s spiralling and that despite him being up at home farm his mind is literally only revolving around Aaron?? Like Rob is r e e l i n g after Aaron pushed him away and Finn is just there…having the audacity to exist when robs lost everything that matters to him.

They are literally showing us, quite obviously imo, that they’re nowhere near over each other. and that they can’t keep away from each other. and that they are so connected and in love thay they’re never gonna be truly free of one another

And in the meantime I’m never going to be free of them either. Which is just great. Thanks.

My Candy Love Selfie Day

  • We miss your faces! That’s why we’re inviting you guys to participate on  Saturday - September 30, 2017 in sharing your pics with our beautiful community once again. 

We are different people living on the same earth, separated by distance, but throughout the years we have found, connect, and support each other through this game. It warms my heart to see such supportive people with such kind souls and I’m so blessed to be a part of it. I’m looking forward to see familiar faces as well as new ones! And let’s make this community closer and stronger than before!  :D

-Much love from me (Lily) and Dina.

In loving memory of an amazing and inspirational person, Felix The Judge.

I don’t know if Felix considered me a good friend of his, we didn’t talk a lot because I’m an anxious avoidant mess who’s afraid to message people, but I always thought of him as my dear friend. He was always so kind and encouraging, always ready to help, supporting everyone, and I loved chatting with him, even if we didn’t talk often. He was pretty much my only link to the Off community due to my disconnected and anxious nature, I felt like I was part of the fandom because of him, because he noticed me and talked to me, now I feel lost and alone… I miss him already. The community just won’t be the same without him… He was truly the heart of the fandom, to me.

Rest in peace, dear friend. Thank you for everything.

@thejudge

The house this luminary (sun) is in shows where we want to shine and be recognized - it describes the focus of our life. This part of life is illuminated and becomes very important to us, our whole being and energy is put inside this house - we put our heart into this house. Even when we try to pursue other areas of life, we will go back to this one again and again - until we have it figured out and have succeeded there, we can’t really focus on anything else.
—  Marina Kuhn in Your Micorcosm

I miss my old roommate at my last apartment because we just did our own thing, had our own dishes and minded our own business lol. She was so much more mature, and she was a student athlete senior in uni, and I was a senior in university and I just feel like even without communicating we communicated effectively and maturely lol and there was no like under appreciated mother tones that you can get with roommates, where they take on tasks no one asked them to and then want pity when they resent everyone even though they chose to take on those tasks? It was just the best living situation I ever had, completely pure and peaceful. Completely mature. No catastrophic reactions. You do what you feel comfortable in the house so will I, kind of vibe. I never got mad at her when I cleaned the kitchen, I enjoyed it because it’s my apartment and I wanted a clean kitchen. If she didn’t, that was her right and didn’t affect me. And if I was too depressed to clean the kitchen for a couple of days and she did, she would just do it and not like be passive aggressive and angry at me lmao… because it’s her house too? And it’s not an attack on you to have to maintain your house. And it’s not an attack on you if someone in your house is dirty?! And we both recognized that lol. And that gave me peace and I miss it because I couldn’t have asked for a better living situation back then :-( same age same maturity level similar life experiences. She was a student athlete used to communicating maturely and effectively on a team, i was a communications major studying the history of how badly it can go to not know how to maturely communicate etc. we just worked

today is a sad day in my orchestra

I would post this on FB but… honestly, I need the anonymity tonight.

last night, one of our violins died in a car accident. I’m still finding it difficult to believe - she’s barely a year older than me, she’s still young and vibrant and has a whole life ahead of her. well, she did, anyways.

i wasn’t super close with her, but it still hurts. orchestra is like a family, especially a small one like we’ve got going here. there are only about 20 of us in the strings to begin with… just someone missing a rehearsal is keenly felt, but now we’ve truly lost someone. 

she was a great violinist, and a really great friend. even though we weren’t close, she always made it a point to say hello to me - to everyone. i’m going to miss her so much, we all will.

the next time you’re on your way to rehearsal, or on your way home from it, please take a moment and think about her, okay? Just a moment. because we are a small orchestra at a small school in a small community, and every well-wish directed our way is felt, i promise you that. 

so, here’s to you, my friend. I hope you’ve got all the art supplies and lovely music you could ever want in the afterlife. you deserve every bit of it.

There is no day that I don’t wish that we are together, I just miss you so much.
Pet Names - Derek Hale - Part 2

Characters: Derek Hale, Vernon Boyd, Isaac Lahey, Reader.

Originally posted by sarcastilinski

Nothing was official with Derek. Things almost felt incomplete. After the night you two kissed things went back to normal. You were too clingy around everyone and he complained about it. You regretted the kiss, you thought it didn’t mean anything to him.

“Derek?” You opened his door slightly. He was laid across the bed on his phone.

“What?” He looked up at you.

“Do you want to cuddle?” You smile as you slip in and close the door behind you.

“It’s three o'clock in the morning, Y/N.”

You shrug, “So? I don’t see you in bed.”

“Okay, true enough.” He lays back and holds his arms out for you. You nestle yourself in his arms and sigh happily. You knew this is where you belonged.

“Pack meeting’s tomorrow. Isaac already told me Erica is going to bring you up.” He smoothed your hair.

“Me? What for?”

He chuckles, “Don’t act surprised, Y/N. First of all, you live with me. Second of all, when we’re with the pack, you are never more that two feet away.”

“So? What’s wrong with that?”

“Legally? A lot. Morally…not that much.” He smiles down at you.

“Well, I’ll leave you alone then.”

He laughs, “Really? We’ll have to see.”

“I will only communicate through text.” You grin.

“I don’t believe you’ll pull through on that one. You can’t go twenty-four hours without cuddling me in my bed.”

“Try me.” You got up and quickly slipped to your room, a smile on your face as he shouted after you.

was that really necessary? We could’ve started tomorrow

You read the text and laughed. Yeah, very necessary. You’re going to miss me so much, Hale.

I am?

Just know, Derek. I am well aware I am your only supply of female contact.

It had been 23 hours. Your phone buzzed constantly, he just wouldn’t leave you alone. You actually got some things done but it seemed this was harder for Derek rather than you.

Jesus, Y/N. quit replying to all of my texts with kinky. I will kick you out of the pack

You giggled. kinky

I’ll kick you out of the loft, throw your boxes out the window

ooooh extra kinky. i like it

y/n i swear to god

😏 wanky

wanky is 10x worse

You heard heavy footsteps and Derek threw the door open, he climbed into your bed with you and pulled you to his chest.

“Um, what the hell, Derek?”

“It’s been twenty-four hours. I missed you like crazy, Y/N.”

You laugh, “And you call me needy?” You turn to face him.

“I get it now. I need you.” He takes a deep breath.

“Mhm, tell me more?” You giggle.

“You’re loving this aren’t you? The roles reversed? You want me to act like you?” He raises an eyebrow.

“Yeah.” You reply with an undertone of sass.

“Fine.” He pulls you closer, if that’s even possible. He starts kissing the back of your neck.

“Derek.”

“What I missed you?”

“Derek, stop.” You laugh.

“I’m acting like you, remember?”

“Okay.” You roll your eyes. “I’ll be you then. Derek get off of me, I’m trying to sleep.”

“Y/N, I just wanted to cuddle.” He turns you over and continues to kiss your neck.

“Derek, go to your own room.”

He sticks his lower lip out. “Fine.” He gets up and leaves, leaving you with a grin on your face.

Derek had rescheduled the pack meeting, he told you with the bet you two had made he didn’t want anything interrupting it. He rescheduled for tonight and you were getting ready to go.

You walked into the kitchen and he smiled at you. “Hey, Clingy.”

Your jaw drops, “Do not call me Clingy.”

He grabs you by the waist, “Clingy.”

You smack his chest playfully, “Shut up.”

Boyd walks in and shakes his head. “You two…”

“Mind your own business, Boyd.” You pull away from Derek.

“I try Y/N, I try.”

Later at the pack meeting, you were talking to Isaac. “So, what are you two, anyway?”

“Who two?” You glance over at him.

He gives you a blank look. “I’m not dumb. You and Derek.”

You shrug, “Boyfriend and girlfriend? I don’t know.”

Derek heard you. He turned and gave you a look. You knew you were in trouble.

After the meeting you snuck up to his room. “Derek?”

He just stared at his phone.

“Look I didn’t mean to make anything weird, or official…Isaac knew I liked you that was all. I didn’t even say we were boyfriend and girlfriend…”

“But you did. You’re eight years younger than me, Y/N. Eight. I know that you like me, and I like you too, but you can’t just go throwing that around so loosely. It’s illegal.”

“I know. He wouldn’t say anything, I just…I don’t even know how to explain myself. I’m just sorry. If you’re so worried about it being illegal maybe we should just forget about it.”

He rolls his eyes. “Yeah. We should. Close the door on your way out.”

You scoff and turn, slamming the door shut behind you. Unbelievable.

It’s been three weeks since you last talked to Derek. You thought you were for sure going to go crazy. You missed him so much. You were going to swallow your pride and talk to him. If he didn’t want to talk to were going to pack up and move out. It was just too uncomfortable and you knew he’d never kick you out.

You padded into his office and leaned on the door way. “Derek, can we talk?”

He put his pen down and looked at you. “No.”

“Don’t be hostile. This is a ridiculous thing to hold a grudge about.”

“Tell me about it.” He turns in his chair.

“Derek, please? I just want this to be over with.”

“Why?”

“Why does it matter? I just want to end it.”

He smirks, “Do you miss me?”

“Yes.”

“Okay. We can talk later. For now let me finish what I’m doing.” He turns back around and you raise an eyebrow. You’re in control of this apology, not him.

You slip in the door and crawl into his lap, picking what he was working on up and pushing it aside.

“Really, Y/N?”

“Shut up.” You moved so you were straddling him. “Listen to me.”

He sits his head in his hand, “I’m listening.”

“Okay, I didn’t mean what I said to Isaac. I really didn’t. I just don’t know what to say anymore. I get that it’s illegal, but we haven’t had sex. We aren’t doing anything that bad. You can’t help who you have feelings for. I’m sorry, okay?”

He smiles, “Okay. Apology accepted. I’m still a little pissed though.”

You smile and put your hands on his cheeks before planting a soft kiss on his lips. “Now?”

“Ehhh…not so much.” He grins and kisses you again.

“Alpha?”

“Yes, baby?”

“Will you be my boyfriend?” You look at him through your eyelashes.

He chuckles, “Yes, I’ll be your boyfriend.”

Dear beloved GeekyCon community,

After GeekyCon 2016, we announced that we were giving GeekyCon a one-year hiatus so that we could figure out how best to produce this event. Our dream for GeekyCon started as (and continues to be) that of a community experience that revolves around the way story impacts and enriches our lives, and we felt sure we could figure out how to achieve that vision.

So, when we said we’d be back in 2018, we meant it. We know GeekyCon to be a home-like environment unlike any other fandom event, but faced with shrinking audiences and increased competition for other multi-fandom conventions, we had been having a hard time communicating what that meant. And if you can’t tell someone what something is, they have no reason to spend their time or effort or money on it.

Unfortunately, it has become clear that there is not an immediate way forward for this event. We must suspend it until further notice.

This means there is no event in 2018, and we know that is incredibly disappointing (and even heartbreaking to its creators). But we have spent seven months having countless conversations inside Mischief, and hearing the feedback of our GeekyCon ambassadors. That feedback has been immeasurably helpful, but also constructive: all of us together have still not been able to figure out how to make GeekyCon a success, as fervently as we dream of its continuation and its growth. There are a lot of factors why. They include:

  • Despite various marketing attempts, GeekyCon’s audience has shrunk year to year. This means we have also lost money, which isn’t always a deal breaker in event management. However, while all of Mischief Management began through volunteer work, and we still rely on the amazing work of volunteers at each of our events, we now are a fully functional company with employees whose livelihoods depend on our work. We also are not yet the kind of company that carries the sort of profits from other events that can balance out this sort of loss repeatedly.

  • We heard your requests for bigger-name guests, but to attract such names, we must pay them market rates for conventions of a similar nature, and unfortunately, the market rate in the multi-fandom area far outstrips our ability to produce the kind of event that eschews the normal pay-for-play activities. Just a handful of bigger-name guests would bring up our bottom line by over a hundred thousand dollars.

  • We are experimenting with a hybrid of a paid autograph model in some of our other conventions. The idea is to blend the ideals of community and content with the reality of paid appearances to create a middle ground. These experiments, however, are still nascent, and are best tested on events with a strong single-fandom affiliation.

  • If we made GeekyCon like every other autograph-based event, it would still face point-of-view problems that would hurt its marketability. GeekyCon’s success requires it standing out, and without a strong narrative supporting what makes it different than other events, this remains elusive. We know it is different than other events, but explaining how has been a three-year-long challenge that we are sad to say has not produced results.

We have learned so much from GeekyCon. The core of characteristics that made GeekyCon unique — celebrating content and community, inclusion and industry, and passion above it all — is now part of every event we produce.

We aren’t ruling out the possibility that, as we fine-tune a community-based model of convention, we discover how to truly make GeekyCon work, and we write you again with good news in the future. We just can’t responsibly commit to it right now.

The community that has come from GeekyCon is incredibly empowering. We hope it continues, and we thank you for the energy, spirit, passion, creativity, and joy that you bring to it.

We are so sorry for the disappointing news. I, personally, will miss GeekyCon very much: it was a place that helped define the values that make Mischief what it is, and walking around it always felt like home. I will continue to be incredibly proud of what we as a community produced there, and hope that, one day, we can go there again.

With love,
Melissa Anelli
CEO, Mischief Management

Long Distance Relationship Feeling

My heart aches for you. I just miss you so much. I crave for your comfort, your big warm hands wrap around me and kisses on my forehead. I wish I could be there like just pull me from your phone screen if we really could do that. Things would be much easier right? Just a pull from the screen. No long waiting, no expensive airplane ticket. We can just meet any time we want. Spend time together all the time. If only we can do that…

THANK YOU!!!

I know Jack doesn’t want when people congratulate him, but no one is stopping so thank you Jack, so much for the Antisepticeye video. I love how you’re having so much fun doing these kind of things and we love it as much!!

Also, thank you to Robin for the extraordinary edit like that was nuts!! I couldn’t imagine how much he put through it. He is the hero of this entire thing.

To the whole jse community, thank you for the hype that you brought. I already miss all the chaos that is happening here on Tumblr. Seeing y’all making theories and having your own hints for Anti was a lot of fun to see especially the edits that people were making, god why are you guys so talented? (I know I did some edits myself but I think it wasn’t that good)

Without Jack’s amazing acting skill and Robin’s insane editing skills, Antisepticeye wouldn’t even exist right now. I mean, I know we made him up, but seeing him come to life blew me away. Every fucking video with Anti with it makes me happy!! 

Just, thank you. I can’t express how much I loved it, every bit of it! Untill next time, you glitch bitch! 

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Harry Stlyes Imagine

See you again

Night and day seem to blur together these days. I had lost track of time, because it didn’t matter to me anymore… and I was okay with that. We were together and that was what held me in reality, his presence, and the knowledge that I would be back, we both would be back and in this same position again soon.

I laid flat on my back, Harry resting half on top of me. His head sat just over where my heart beat strong, his left hand in mine as I played with his fingers. My other hand ran across the back of his neck, giving off soft peaceful sighs let me know that he was still awake, just enjoying this moment as much as me. His long legs, clad in jeans wrapped around my almost bare legs, holding me into the warmth of his body.

I heard my phone go off in soft vibrations, letting us both know that the time had come. Harry didn’t move an inch, not wanting to accept the reality that was about to hit full force. I couldn’t blame him really; I didn’t want to move either… not from our peace of infinity.

“Harry,” I whispered into the silence.

“5 more minutes. Please.” He breathed out. “I only need 5 more minutes.”

Harry breathed in deeply, moving his head to the crook of my neck. He left a few of the odd kisses trailing down my neck, it was purely innocent. He was trying to hold onto memories, trying to remember little nothings.

I could hear voices on the other side of the door, and I knew Harry was completely ignoring them, having rested his head on my chest again. It had been like this for a few days, Harry and I just being in each other’s presence, just simply existing with one another, and it was pure magic for those few moments, when the world didn’t exist, and couldn’t break through.

“Harry,” I whispered again. “I have to go.”

“Why?” He spoke just as softly as I did. “Please, explain to me again why you have to go.”

“Because, I have a job back home.” I laughed lightly. “And I only had a month off.”

“Not good enough.” Harry shook his head like a child.

“Harry. You and I both know I need to get home.” I started to sit up, making Harry move to the side of me. “I need to hold the fort down until my Prince Charming comes home.”

“I guess that’s a good reason.” Harry smiled, looking up at me as I started to stand.

“Haz? Y/N?” A knock sounded at the door. “It’s 2:30, time to go.” Liam announced.

Harry heaved himself up and off the bed, opening the door to Liam, Niall and Louis. Each boy knew what this was going to do to Harry, being away from someone he loved, because when Harry loved, he loved with all of his heart, and today at 4:15, she was leaving to go home.

“Hey, you guys ready?” Louis asked.

“Yeah, I’m ready.” I announced slipping into my shoes.

“Don’t worry about your bags. We got them.” Niall said pushing past Harry, Liam on his heels.

“Thanks guys.” I smiled, grabbing my book bag that would be sitting with me on the plane.

The drive to the airport was over in what felt like minutes, with Harry’s arms wrapped around me as he tried to hold a conversation with the boys, failing because he would get distracted playing with my hair, or staring at me. Getting checked in and finding my terminal, this was it… we had about an hour left together.

We spent most of it in silence, not having to speak to communicate how much we didn’t want to leave each other. It was clear to everyone, so much so that even the boys didn’t engage with us as we simply spoke in soft whispers, stared at each other or I played with Harry’s hands.

“Flight 347, to London is now boarding.” The P.A announced.

“Well, we’ll see ya in a few months, aye, Y/N.” Niall pulled me out of Harry’s reach, giving me a hug.

“Yeah, I’ll see ya in a few.” I hugged him back smiling.

“We’ll miss you.” Liam dove in for a hug next. “Don’t worry about him. We’ll take care of him.” He whispered into my ear for me only.

“Thank you, Liam.” I hugged him a little tighter for those words of reassurance that Harry would be fine.

“Come ‘ere Sweetheart.” Louis smiled as I ran into his warm arms.

“Gosh I love you guys.” I spoke into Louis ear.

“And we love you.” Louis spoke, leaning back a little. “You take care of our Harry.”

“Thank you.” I smiled, knowing they’d do the same for me.

I turned to Harry who was still seated, looking at his hands, playing with one of his rings. Walking to him I reached for his hand, and when he looked up the stars shone back at me. I smiled my own dimpled smiled at the man who had stolen everything worth having from me, and I was fine with that.

“I love you.” I said as he stood and pulled me into a tight hug. “I love you so much.”

“You have no idea how much I love you.” He breathed happily into my hair. “Never doubt that I love you.”

I leaned up a little on my toes, placing my lips onto Harry’s soft ones, feeling him lean into mine with a satisfied sigh. It was a simple kiss, nothing more, but it showed how much love was between us.

“Please don’t cry.” Harry whispered.

I hadn’t even realized I had let slip a few tears. Harry wiped them away with his thumb, kissing me lightly on the lips again.

“I’ll see you again. I promise.” I spoke into his lips. “I love you.”

“I love you.” Harry spoke before I let go and turned away.

I didn’t look back until I was about to walked down the tunnel to the aeroplane, and when I did, I saw a teary eyed 6ft Harry Styles hunched over with his hands in his pockets. When he saw me see him, he gave me a smile and a small waved, it took everything in me not to run back and stay forever by his side.

“I’ll see you around, Harry.” I spoke to myself with a final tear-filled wave.


A/N - Feedback is appreciated

What a fucking betrayal

To be honest, I did shed a tear when I heard about Jemma’s departure in two weeks, but I’m not surprised that she was basically an afterthought.

I know some people don’t like the berena side of the fandom now or whatever, but this was a total waste of an excellent actress, regardless of your feelings about her character. If I was Jemma Redgrave right now though, I’d be pissed. In my opinion, when she left for her break, that was the end of berena. The kill list was basically a ‘there you go, you got your lesbian couple and don’t ask for anything else’, and then they disappeared, not a single moment of their relationship shown, except for Bernie trying to deal with Serena’s grief, and even then Jemma had very little to do.
In my opinion, when Jemma went on the break, the writers saw that there a big split in the reactions: there was all of us, who loved Bernie and berena and everything they were doing, and then there was the older, more conservative audience who made it quite clear they didn’t like Bernie or Berena. It was basically a choice between trying to keep the new viewers, or please the pre-existing audience, and they picked the latter.Realistically, I know that Berena on the show is over, regardless of how much I wish that they could both come back together and be happy. It doesn’t stop Berena being a very special ship.

Yes, some people will say it’s silly to be upset at Jemma leaving because only TV, but for me, Berena was really important.
Serena’s storyline made me finally comfortable identifying as bi and I wouldn’t have come out to my parents without Berena- telling them about what I wanted for them let me tell them in my own life and let them understand my feelings. Not only that, but Berena was a lifeline for me- I suffer from chronic pain that has me virtually housebound, but Berena got me back in touch with my creativity, experimenting with my online work. Plus it gave me the chance to experiment with fiction writing, and now I’m actually trying to write an original LGBT novel, because berena fanfiction gave me the confidence.

When I sent off my letter for an autograph from jemma, I thanked her and Catherine for Berena, because it gave me the chance to have control over my identity, which is enormous for me; I have so little power in my life now that it is so dictated by my pain, and that my whole image from my burns to my clothes, and Berena really did help me take a bit of control back.
Jemma put on the autograph ‘strong by name and strong by nature’ (my surname is Strong) and when I’m crying in agony looking at that genuinely helps.

I will always be grateful to Catherine and Jemma for Bernie and Serena, and sad that the writers denied us the relationship that we and seemingly Catherine and Jemma wanted to see.

But more than anything, I am grateful for the berena community: it was a huge part of me accepting myself, and everyone is amazing. I love you all to bits, even if you don’t know anything about me- you are all really amazing! ❤

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Secret World Legends is launching on June 26th. [x]

“What we really want to do is continue the experience and the story that we’ve been crafting these last seven years.”

“And I’m really excited for Secret World Legends because we will see a proper continuation of what’s going to be happening after Tokyo.”

“The original vision for The Secret World had several years of content that we haven’t even gotten to yet and relaunching as Secret World Legends will enable us to actually deliver the remainder of the story.”

“Exposing new players to that is really, really exciting and I hope everybody joins in this really cool community.”

We finally have a release date. You have no idea how much I need Season 2 in my life, and if this is the form it needs to take, then so be it.

Time to get back on that hype train to Kaidan. No, really. They’re redoing the Whispering Tide event from the first time round, so if you missed that you can get another chance to experience it.

See you all in Agartha 2.0.