we were at the barricade

A Mile High

A Shawn Mendes one-shot *

I’ve always loved airports, but could never but my finger on exactly why. I suppose there was just the excitement of being taken somewhere else. Everyone around you is going, living their own lives out in Alaska or Brazil or Germany. They were travelling for business, for pleasure, for family. I loved all of it.

Planes, not so much. I wasn’t afraid or anything, but I didn’t like being crammed into such a small space with no fresh air. Shawn never let me complain, though.

“At least you’re not 6'3.” He said, “Do you see my knees right now? I’m practically folded in half.” I rolled my eyes and put my hand on his knee, which were very high on the back of the seat in front of him.

“Alright, big tough guy. I get it, I’m sorry.” I sympathized, smiling gently and watching Shawn’s lips form a smile in response. He leaned over and kissed my nose.

“I have to pee.” He said. I rolled my eyes and pulled away from him, unbuckling and standing in the aisle so he could get out. The rows were only made up of two seats, so he slid into my seat and then stood, overestimating the amount of room he had and hitting his head on the plastic ceiling, turning on the little light there and emitting a groan.

“Oh, baby. Yikes.” I said, concealing a laugh as he rubbed the top of his head and pouted, making sure he was all the way in the aisle before standing up. I put my hands on his chest and pouted up at him in sympathy.

“That hurt.” He said, laughing gently and still rubbing his head. I laughed too and pulled his head down, standing on my tip toes to kiss his hair.

“You’re a klutz. How the hell are you going to fit in that tiny bathroom?” I said, laughing. Shawn shrugged and leaned closer.

“Think you could fit in there with me?” He asked. I leaned back and gave him a warning look, to which he replied with a cheeky grin and kissed me quickly. “As I recall, someone wanted to join the mile high club, no?” He whispered in my ear. I laughed against his neck.

“Not on this tiny plane, Shawn. I’d have you moaning my name way too loud, and the team’s sitting just in front of us.” I replied just as quietly. I could feel Shawn laugh against my shoulder as he pulled away and shook his head. His cheeks were red and I could tell he was trying not to laugh with his pursed lips. He ruffled my hair and walked away towards the bathroom. I admired his butt as he left.

I stood and stretched as I waited for Shawn to come back. He came out of the washroom and walked towards me as I lifted my arms above my head and leaned back slightly to stretch. I could see Shawn lick his lips and shake his head.

“Shawn, we’re almost there. Keep it in your pants.” I told him softly as he passed me to get back in his seat, mindful of the ceiling this time.

“It’s been like, a million years. This is our fourth airplane, babe. I’m feeling a little… antsy.” Shawn complained as I slid back in my seat. I squeezed Shawn’s leg and smiled softly.

“I think you’ll survive.” I laughed. Shawn grumbled and slumped further down his seat, wrapping his arm in mine and leaning against me, playing with our intertwined fingers.

“I can’t believe people know who I am in Japan.” He muttered quietly. I smiled.

“People probably know who you are in every corner of the earth.” I replied. Shawn looked up at me, then back at our hands.

“That’s kind of scary.” He said softly.

“It is a little scary. But think about it this way: you have friends wherever you go, right? You’re loved in every language.” I replied. Shawn smiled.

“I love you in every language, Y/N.” he whispered. I smiled softly and pressed my lips to his fluffy head of hair, closing my eyes and resting for a moment, breathing in his presence.

“I love you too.”


The airport was crazy. Once Shawn, the team and I reached baggage claim, we were blown away by the amount of fans pressed against the barricade, trying to reach Shawn. He took them all in with shock and amazement in his honey coloured eyes. I squeezed his hand and he looked down at me, with the most genuinely happy smile.

“This is insane. We’re in Japan. I’m from fucking Pickering, Ontario! This is insane.” He said enthusiastically, jumping a little. I laughed and pulled him back to me.

“Go say hi.” I told him. He smiled down at me.

“Come with me?” He asked. I smiled and nodded, letting him lead me to the increasingly louder fans.

Shawn barely let go of my hand the entire time. When he’d lean in to try and hear what a fan was telling him in broken English, he’d keep his arm outstretched behind him and his pinky laced with mine. Sometimes the fans would beckon me over to be in the photo with them, but for the most part I watched. Shawn was ecstatic, I could tell. A fan had given him a headband with the Japanese flag, and he wore it across his forehead. He looked adorable, with his eyes bright and his cheeks rosy. I told him that once we finally had to move on. He stopped pushing the cart of luggage to wrap his strong arms around my waist and twirl me around once, happily affectionate despite the paparazzi. He set me down when Geoff started yelling at him, and kissed me before continuing to push the cart.

Shawn kept his eyes glued out the window as we rode to our hotel, watching Japan go by. Occasionally, he would point something out to me excitedly, or lean over to kiss my cheek. Seeing him happy made me happy. Our hotel was ultra modern, in the heart of Tokyo. Our room was nearly all white, with tiles so shiny you could see your reflection in them. Across from us was a window stretching across the entire wall, giving us an amazing view of the city. “This is amazing.” Shawn said breathily, standing before the window. I slid my arms around his middle and hugged him from behind, cuddling my head into his back. "I’m so happy to be here with you, Shawn.” I muttered. Shawn smiled as he turned in my arms to face me, his callused thumb brushing across my cheek. He moved his hands down to my waist and I moved mine into his fluffy, curly hair. I loved his hair when it was like this. My smile widened as he laughed at nothing, all rosy cheeks and perfect teeth. He nuzzled his smile into my neck and nipped at the skin there, causing me to shriek in protest and try to wiggle away. Shawn’s grip just tightened as he laughed, his hot breath against my neck as he soothed the bite with a kiss. I laughed breathily, melting into him as he left short kisses along my neck. Eventually he pulled away and looked me in the eye. What floor are we on?” I asked. Shawn’s smile faded into confusion. "Twenty-three I think. Why?” He asked. "Well, we’re probably a mile high, wouldn’t you say?” I asked cheekily, watching the realization cross Shawn’s face and turn into a grin. He pulled me closer and kissed me hard on the mouth. "Oh, I think so.” ** Shawn in Japan was amazing. I hope you guys liked this :))) send in some Shawn requests my friends and I will happily write them. Love you all xox

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My B.A.P NYC Experience

I was in line with some AMAZING people and they were so LIT and I’m so happy I met them cause they made this experience A1! Real MVP’s. SO we finally go into the venue & some random people were already at the barricade & everyone was like wtf. But I only had 2 ppl ahead of me. Let me tell y'all I had this CRAZY ASS fan behind me who was trying to get in front of me sooo bad but I wasn’t moving at all. Hell no. But the DJ was Lit & he was cute & he had me dropping it low like I was at a club. And my group was turnt all the way up

When they came out I was SHOOKED :

No Mercy is one of my favorite songs


What are y'all looking at?:

I was so SHOOKED. I vibed with Youngjae a lot.. Maybe that’s why he hit my hand hard at high touch lol

Jongup stage was literally breathtaking

 Zelo is so smooth .

Jongup really messed me up.

Youngjae did SO good (on his solo stage).


NYC hyped the shit out of Zelo

More Yongguk

Zelo backing that ass it up is my aesthetic

B.A.P is literally so gorgeous:

It looks like i recorded a lot but I really didn’t. I danced more than anything & they absolutely loved it cause I was enjoying myself.


When I tell you I was nervous I was NERVOUS. Our group decided we were going to be ratchet & roll up like AYEEEEEEE. So as we are going to high touch all I could see was Zelo. When I tell you Zelo is TALL…that negro is tall af and I wasn’t near him at all.

FIRST OFF it was DARK and we couldn’t see shit. There was a black table there that no one could see, cause Julie & Meagan ran into the table. So we were almost at the boys & we were like AYEEEEE & Youngjae & Zelo were like AYEEEE. BOY it was lit off the back. THEN Meagan hit the table. THEN Julie HIT the table i was like omg they probably think we are clumsy but it was DARK & they had black on.

So I’m literally stuck at Youngjae since he was first and he was just smiling so hard and we had a hard high five then, Zelo broke my neck. The whole time we were going down we were like “Aye!” “Thank you!” “It was lit!” And they were all so happy at our extraness & clumsiness. Daehyun had his eye smile and i was like lord help me he is beautiful. BUT YONGGUK… added 5 years to my life span. Gorgeous. Magnificent.

Let’s just say we left QUITE an impact on B.A.P but we weren’t boring. I made sure to make eye contact with everyone. They loved us. We were so hyped afterwards we highfived the staff & security as we were walking out. Didn’t I say we were extra?!

The. End.


Knight (Single Dad! Calum Hood AU) 6

Originally posted by melancholymuke

A/N: Y’all ready for the last part? This one is going to be a doozy. Thank you all so much for all the support on this AU, it means the world to me! If y'all have something you want me to write, just send me a message and I’ll get to it! Again thank you!

Parts: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

“Are you all excited for your last show for almost a year?” Ben, one of Luke’s older brother asked taking a seat in the ‘big room’ backstage at the last show in Australia. Theres been a passing of time since they first landed in L.A., almost two weeks ago now, they spent a week there only doing a couple of shows, before hitting the last leg in Oz, much to the relief of the lads and (Y/N). She had been put back on the original security detail she was hired for because the fans had been getting a lot more violent lately, much to Aurora’s dismay. (Y/N) and Calum still hadn’t broken the news to ‘Rora, or anyone else because of the rocky waters they knew they were going to endure for the next while with moving around, and the hectic schedule she and Calum would be enduring.

“You have no idea.” Ashton laughed getting yet another snack from the table at the front of the room, you could tell they were nervous. Ashton was a nervous eater, Luke would get almost violent, but he had been going through a rough patch with his current girlfriend so that could be the explanation for the hostility for when he got nervous, Michael would game and tune everyone out, Calum on the other hand would try to spend as much time as possible as he could with ‘Rora, and (Y/N).

“Do you have plans for the break?” Michael’s mom asked getting her son’s attention.

“I might travel for a bit, been stuck behind these concrete walls for a while.” Ashton said taking a seat next to his siblings. “And spend time with these buggers.”

“Not really sure. I’ll come up with something.” Luke said pacing back and forth behind the couch that held most of his family.

“Take care of my mental health.” Michael said seriously. “A year is a good time to start to better myself, and spend time with you and dad.” He smiled at his mum.

“Helping Aurora transition into going to school, she already a year behind because of her birthday.” Calum said with a knocked out ‘Rora at his side, his family next to him as well.

“What about you, (Y/N)?” Jack asked this time, all eyes suddenly on you, who was keeping an eye out from the doorway.

“Have no idea really. Try to find a stable place to stay, find other jobs just incase it doesn’t really work out here.” You answered honestly, well semi honestly. Calum had already told you that you were free to move in with him and Aurora after the tour was over, and said you wouldn’t have to worry about having to work because he made more than enough to maintain a three person household. You declined his second offer as soon as it left his mouth, you had been working all your life, and you didn’t like to burden people especially when it came to money. The first offer you said you would keep in mind if anything.

“They still haven’t come up with a decision?” Calum asked from his seat.

“They said it depended how well today went.” You explained shaking your head, you hated the fact they were basing a good chunk of their decision on one show, when the rest of the tour had gone off without a hitch.

“(Y/N), we need you at the mouth, we need you to escort someone to the den. Over.” James ordered through the walkie talkie at your hip, except he sounded mad, which was rare.

“Understood, on my way. Over. Are y'all expecting someone?”You asked everyone before jogging to where security check was made, which was nicknamed the mouth, and the den was the big room where everyone was at.

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So @softgrantaire just surprised me with the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen?

Since our wedding he’s been writing things we’ve done, poetry and love letters onto little scraps of paper, onto receipts from things we’ve bought together, onto cinema tickets and all sorts of things. 

He’s stuffed them all, along with flowers and things, into a bag. It was supposed to be for our first wedding anniversary, but as we’re getting another kitten for our anniversary, he decided to give it to me today on Barricade Day (we were originally looking at getting married on the 6th, ha!) 

Honestly it’s the most beautiful thing anyone has ever done for me?


Hangout Music Fest 2017

i met some of my absolute favorite mutuals & band members so it was pretty much the best birthday weekend ever

alright so now that i’m just sitting in central park waiting for the fox upfronts to start, i can talk about glenn

basically we were on opposite sides of the street because they had the side where the celebrities were leaving all barricaded off. so we (me, nicole, and justine) see glenn come out and i yell and get his attention and he waves at us, and i try and wave him to come over. he looks around like he’s trying to figure out if he can, and he yells back that he can’t, so i ask if i can go over there and he tells us to come over

so i run across the street, almost get hit by a truck, and glenn just opens his arms and says “you made it!!” so i go right over and hug him. he’s super sweet and tells whoever he’s with that he’s gonna stop and talk to us because we worked really hard to come see him

so i take a picture with him, and then i was feeling brave so i told him that his trans activism really means a lot to me as a trans person. he was so sweet about it and said it means a lot to him too and hearing things like that is why he does it. then i took the video for @topdennis and @adrianicsea and we said goodbye

so that was pretty much it, glenn is a sweet angel and hopefully i’ll have some news about rob and kaitlin in a little bit!!

My first Ed Sheeran Concert / Argentina / May 2017

I know nobody reads my blog and I’ve got literally 5 followers and this is going to be a long post but I really need to write this down ❤️

So last Saturday was my first ever Ed Sheeran show (and first ever proper concert experience) and I’ve got to say…IT WAS THE BEST FUCKING DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE!!! I’ve lived a pretty decent amount of years and had experienced some beautiful, unique things through out my time on earth but OH MY GOD THIS WAS SO AMAZING, I just can’t get over it, it’s been a week and I’m still super excited about it (I’m also a pain in the ass for everyone who knows me because I just can’t shut up, I’ve literally been talking about it non stop since Saturday) 

I arrived to La Plata at 10:30 am, I live in a small town 620 miles away from it, on the northeast of the country so I had to take a really really REALLY long 13 hour bus ride to get there. I rushed to the hotel, quickly changed my clothes and went to the stadium. My cousin/god-daughter was already queuing with her older brother who was saving my spot. All this madness actually started because of her, in September she’s turning 15 and when the tour dates were released I knew this was the most perfect present for her (she loves Ed). Long story short, at first I wasn’t going with her, her brother was (he’s not keen on Ed), I had to work plus I’m doing a master’s degree that should be finished by the end of may so things were complicated, but then I though fuck it, you only live once! and decided to join her. By the end of march I surprised her with the tickets (which I kept secret for a whole month) and our Ed Sheeran journey began.

I got to the stadium at 11:30am, we had general admision ticket (the front section) so we had to queue to get good spots, when I arrived there were like two blocks of people queuing, some of them arrived on Tuesday and were camping outside for 3 days! We started chatting with some girls who were next to us and spend the whole afternoon together, we were like 6 girls and a dad, laughing and having fun, talking about Ed and stuff, it was so nice to get to know them ❤️ We even heard Ed doing the soundcheck and started screaming like maniacs (Argentinean people scream a lot hahaha)

By 4pm the queue started moving and we were slowly entering the stadium in groups, we ran like crazy (while screaming, obviously) even though the guards kept telling us NO RUNNING! When I entered the stadium I was so shocked by how huge it was and how close we were to the stage! I had no hopes of being close since I was arriving on the date of the show, I even brought my glasses because I thought it would be so hard to see him but, to my surprise, we ended up like 6 or 10 people away from the barricade, we were so so happy we send a voice message to our family screaming in joy. 

And then the wait and torture began, we were literally compressed, I coudn’t even move my arms and sometimes it was really hard to breathe, my cousin ended up a little bit further away from me because I went to get merch when we arrived but I kept an eye on here most of the time. The first oppening show (a local singer) was pretty good, a bit boring. Then it was Antonio Lulic’s turn, he was super charismatic and fun but I was so uncomfortable I just wanted to go, there was a point where I though “this is awful, I’m never getting general admision tickets again” How wrong I was.

It was a really cold day, 9º and it rained a few times, by the time Antonio was done and we were waiting for Ed it started pouring heavily, but we where so hot and pushed together that it was a relief. At 20:30 exactly the screens were lit, we where like 40,000 people inside the stadium, and boom there he was, in all his ginger glory, playing Castle on the Hill with his small guitar sporting a red hoax t-shirt over a flannel (I was hysterical about the flannel lol I just missed them so much) and those lovely tight jeans. And at that moment I knew, everything was worth seeing him, the wait, the cold, the rain, the pain, the pushing, the hair of the girl in front of me in mouth, he was there, a few meters a away from me. It was surreal, seeing him there, I’ve watched so many videos, and I was seeing him live so clearly, he was incredibly beautiful, he had the warmest smile I’ve ever seen, his hair bright orange and the red suited him perfectly, his eyes bright and excited. 

As usual, when he arrived people screamed to the top of their lungs and the Ed Sheeran party began, we were so so loud, and he was so so impressed. After Castle on the Hill he said “Hello, this is amazing” and told us he was looking forward to coming back to Argentina because he remembered how loud we were, and dared us to be even louder than the whole european tour (we were).

The rest of the night was pure magic, I was still uncomfortable but it was so worthy, I kept moving from different spots because people literally dragged me, sometimes I was closer to the stage, sometimes not so much. I sang, jumped, cried and scream through the almost 2 hour show. Apart from being amazingly talented as always and his voice just as sweet, beautiful and powerful, he was super happy to be there. That was the best part, seeing him enjoying the experience as much as we were. 

He kept moving closer to the edge of the stage and I was swooning every time he did, you can literally hear me in the videos sighing “ahhh”.

He sang Castle on the Hill, Eraser, The A Team, Don’t / New man, Dive (which he asked us to sing the loudest while it was raining heavily), Bloodstream (one of my favourite to hear live, because of the energy that performance has and the heavy guitar action), Galway Girl, Feeling Good / I See Fire, Barcelona (every time he sang the lyrics in spanish he smirked, he knew we would scream even louder, Perfect, Happier (where he asked us to turn the lights on, the view was beautiful), Thinking out loud, Photograph (I cried through the whole song, you can hear me sobbing while singing in my video) and then something amazing happened. In between songs we, the people in the general admission area, started screaming “Give me love, give me love” to which he answered “Try next time”. After Photograph, he grabbed his guitar, looked at us while we kept screaming “Give me love” and asked Trevor to bring any guitar that was on tune and HE STARING SINGING GIVE ME LOVE, we were hysterical, we asked, he did it, it lasted nearly 9 minutes, it was breath taking, he even set up a chorus in the crowd, dividing us in Higher Harmony, Lower Harmony and asking to sing non-stop, no matter what happened while he sang and directed us like an orchestra (you must have seen the video by now) It was magnificent. Then came Nancy Mullingan (he asked us to sing the nanananana instrumental part) and Sing (we jumped and screamed like psychos, it was super fun and energetic). He then run to change and came back with the Argentinean football t-shirt, I have to admit I was one of those people who thought it was silly when singers do that, and I didn’t understand the excitement of it, but when he came back I nearly peed in my pants hahahahaha it suited him so nicely, bringing out the blue in his eyes 🎵 Shape of you began, we where all dancing and jumping, and for closure, You need me I don’t need you, where he got all excited moving and running trough the stage like crazy while waving an argentinean flag. (overly excited Ed in YNMIDNY is my favourite Ed) And then he was gone.

I took a few pictures, almost all of them awful (I’m really bad plus my phone is crap) and videos where you can hear the crowd (and me) more than you can hear Ed hahahaha I tried to enjoy the show through my eyes rather than my phone, and I’m so glad I did.

Since december I’ve been strugling with a lot, went through something I thought I’d never had to deal with that got me really really down. The person I loved the most, that I thought would never hurt me, crushed me into pieces and the last 6 months were awful. I was depressed, didn’t leave the house, didn’t showered, lost weight, cut contact with all my friends and family but then the latin american tour was announced and I bought tickets for my god daughter. By the end of march I made the decision to go with her and from that exact moment things got better, I was finally looking forward to something, dreaming about the experience, smiling once again.  Ed’s music lifted me up in a way I tought it was not possible. The moment I saw him my heart was pounding so much. He was there, he was real. People tell me “If you didn’t go you’d have regreted it so much”. Now, being aware of what this type of experience is, what it makes you feel, I would never forgive myself if I decided to stay. I literally never imagined it would be THIS GOOD. 

20.05.17 is, by far, the best day of my life, I’ll never forget it. Thank you singer songwriter Edward Christopher Sheeran. You’re a magical human being.

*Sorry for my english but as you might have guessed is not my first language.

[20170416] B.A.P PARTYBABY in LA Fanaccount

Note: You all are probably tired of me saying this, but I am going to say it again ^^ Everything is written by memory, so everything is probably not exact and accurate. And I am so inconsistent with Junhong’s name, so forgive me if I keep saying Junhong then switching back to Zelo.

Also, If you don’t want to read all of the BS and wait I had to go through, you can just skip to the Songlist Section. And if you were tagged and don’t want to read this LONG post, just click ctrl+F and find your name to see where I tagged you, so you don’t have to waste your time ^^

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when i was 16 i had a dream that the zombie apocalypse broke out in the middle of the school day so we had to barricade ourselves in. some of my friends were coming back from lunch and were trapped outside and they died. my history teacher came up with a plan for our survival so that we’d last until we ran out of supplies. immediately, we started splitting into factions based on established loyalties and people started claiming territory. because most of my friends were dead now, i had to find new members for my group. my remaining friends and i went to the other groups and asked if they wanted to form alliances but we had very little luck. i’m like “whatever” but i’m already like marking them down as potential cannibalism targets if supplies become that scarce. the army arrives and, because this is 16 year old me, lead army guy looks like Evans, The Third Best Chris and they brought fuckin med kits and weapons and shit to protect ourselves with, but they won’t let us leave the school??? which is weird??? they make no attempts to evacuate us. ANYWAY the zombies break down the doors and flood in. people are screaming, people are dying, people are bleeding, shit’s heavy, the mood’s grim. i’m talking train to fuckin busan here, real shit. i start panicking. me, my friends. and army guy chris lock ourselves in a classroom with an assload of weapons. because this is 16 year old me, i start trading banter with chris with the FULL expectation that i’ll get that zombie apocalypse dick down (spoiler: totally did). we decide to be like “fuck it, rambo this hoe” and we burst out. i get bitten and my arm is immediately sawed off by a friend who DIDN’T EVEN GO TO MY HIGH SCHOOL?? and i’m just armless and in pain and screaming and crying and chris carries me because he’s a hero and i’m 16. we run outside and it’s amazing, like, we’re mowing through zombies and we get to a market and lock ourselves in there. in real life, this market does not sell condoms but this is dream!philly and i’m 16. we all (me, my friends, another army dude, and christopher) lock ourselves in there, we have our backpacks for some dumbass stupid ass reason so i put on some music so that we can de-stress and then dream!chris bangs me in a storage room and i wake up because i’m 16 years old

Are we all forgetting the fact that in the brick, Marius showed up fashionably late and saved Gavroche’s ass? In the book, when Marius wards them off after threatening to blow up the whole barricade, everyone greets him like a hero, and saying they were glad he came. In the film, after Marius tries to blow up the barricade, we can hear Combeferre shouting “What were you thinking, Marius? You could’ve gotten us all killed! My life is not yours to risk, Marius!!1!”

To be honest, the difference between these two is the reason why I’m laughing today

So my queue is about to run out, so I was scrolling through my likes to throw stuff in the queue and all of a sudden I hit a string of really angsty les mis posts and I was confused because yes, we’re an angsty fandom, but we also tend to devote a lot of time to “everyone lives” aus and then I realized those were all posts from barricade days, where we all collectively lie down and let truck loads of angst drive right over us.

Mikaelsons & Damon Salvatore - Family Secrets

Prompt: I rey love these tbh. I was wondering if you could do an imagine with the reader being damons long time vampire, who is also related to the originals. And even though they have a rival, she love Damon (even more than a friend).

“I hate all of you.” You hissed, rolling your eyes at your family. Sure, they were 1000 years old but god they acted like 5 year olds sometimes.
“Would you rather we try and kill the boy?” Klaus asked, looking up from his book with a devilish smirk lighting up his features. You glared at him, throwing a pillow, the nearest object to you.
“Oh Niklaus, do leave our poor Y/N alone. Remember, he’s a man, not a boy.” Elijah teased, repeating the words you had said earlier when your siblings had started this discussion on whoever was coming to pick you up tonight for your date. Of course, you knew, but your incessant family members didn’t because they were not the ones dating their rival and most irritating vampire on the planet, Damon Salvatore. Though his title was coming in to question the longer you spent in your family’s company.

“Oh come on, Y/N,” Rebekah begged, sitting down opposite you own the large couch. Most of your siblings were looking at you, Nik and Elijah both feigning disinterest with Kol and Rebekah chomping at the bit to find out about your new boyfriend. Finn, of course, didn’t have to feign disinterest, his complete aversion to your quote unquote immature and trivial matters enough to prove how he didn’t care enough to be in the room; which was refreshing considering your other siblings.
“Please tell me, I’m your sister!” She pleaded, using her signature puppy dog face.
“Rebekah,” You sighed, facing your sister. “You all hate him but I’m in love with him-”
“Oh, how sweet.” Nik cooed, earning a chuckle from your second eldest brother.
“I hate you both.” You snapped.
“Y/N, if we hate him so much then you should probably tell us in case he turns up at the door and we mistake his chivalry for a threat.” Kol reasoned, eyes flicking up to meet yours at the end.
“You know how paranoid Niklaus can be.” Elijah added.

“Though I appreciate your obvious attempts to get this information, I’m sure you can find someone else to take the piss out of to get it.” Nik retorted, turning to you like all the other heads in the room.
“Bekah I love you but guilt tripping me will not get you anywhere.” You began, facing your sister who only rolled her eyes in response. “Kol your logic is sound but I think I’d be more convinced if I trusted you as far as I could throw you.” You smiled at your brother. He waved you off, choosing to sit down instead of interrogating you more.
“Dear Niklaus, if you lay a hand on him I will personally see to your destruction I hope we understand each other.” You threatened, the smile not leaving your face as he tutted, suppressing his own smile.

“I am ashamed of you, Elijah. After everything we’ve done you honestly couldn’t find anything to blackmail me with? You’re going soft.” You teased your older brother.
They all watched you with defeat laced in their aged eyes.
“Now I’m going on a date.” You chuckled, beginning to turn towards the entry when a sharp knock sounded from the door. There was a rush of noise and a mumble of ‘I’ll get it’ ‘No, Nik, I will’ ‘Youngest first’. You huffed at you siblings before following them to the door, doubt itching underneath your skin. You loved Damon and you’d been going out for a long time but your brothers and sister still didn’t know. You had faith that they wouldn’t kill him but their murderous rampages respectively were enough to get you worried.

“It can’t be.” Rebekah whispered as you began to push through them to meet Damon.
“I can’t say your taste has improved from when we were young, Y/N.” Kol commented as you elbowed him, bursting through the barricade of Originals. You stood in front of your vampire boyfriend, flanked by two of your older brothers, their faces hiding none of their distrust.
“You have a Mikaelson protection squad.” Damon mused, smirking, his light eyes piercing. “I hope they’re not coming with us, I have plans that can only involve 5 after several shots.”
You narrowed your eyes at him though you were unable to hide your grin as you turned to face your siblings. You placed a hand on both Elijah and Klaus’ chests, pushing them back inside with little success.

“I’m going on a date with Damon Salvatore and if you have a problem with that then I will most definitely bring up each and every time you’ve personally made my life suck and I will drown you in the guilt. Am I clear?” You spoke, examining each pair of eyes before you.
“Damon if you hurt Y/N, we will all see to your painful demise in our own fashions. I assure you it will not be a pleasant or quick death.” Elijah stated, scowling at your boyfriend. You rolled your eyes at your older brother before wrapping your arms around Damon’s neck and kissing him. It worked as you’d hoped, all your siblings trudging back inside and muttering to themselves, leaving you and your wonderful date to have an amazing time.

Even Devils Are Afraid (my poem)

Even devils are afraid,
Of this planet we have made,
Not even they can bear,
What we have here,
Even they prefer to live and grow,
In the depths below,
Cos this world is not good enough,
For devils below or angels above,
We’re stuck inbetween,
Where nobody wants to be,

Even devils are afraid,
Of this planet we have made,
Not even they are that brave,
They have been saved,
From this hell of a world,
Where humans kill over pearls,
And war over ideas,
So it is no wonder that devils do fear,
This planet we inhabit,
We’re a global bad habit,

Even devils are afraid,
Of this planet we have made,
The one we created, the one we destroyed
The one that one day will be no more than a void,
When we wipe out eachother,
No love for our mother or brother,
No respect for the animals who were here long before,
We broke down the barricade at their door
And ruined the land they called home,
So we could pollute and build drones,

Even devils are afraid,
Of this planet we have made,
Does that not say something to you,
That hell is preferred over this cage of a zoo

Save Me - Part 2 - Chapter 18

The radio station was only about fifteen minutes away which was a good thing. Since there was a bit of traffic, we literally made it with just minutes to spare. Knowing Jared, he probably wasn’t thrilled about that but he didn’t say anything. He was actually in a pretty happy, relaxed mood.

I sat in the back of the van with Jared while Emma, Shannon and Tomo sat in the forward seats. As we pulled up to the entrance, there were barricades up with a lot of security guards trying their best to keep everyone in control. Fans were literally scattered down the block on both sides of the barricades, holding signs and cheering. Apparently the band being here for the morning radio show was heavily advertised.

Looking around, I was awestruck. “Wow… I can’t believe how many people are here.” I said, more to myself than anyone else.

“Yeah, I know. They’re giving away tickets to tomorrow’s show. What’s crazy is that they didn’t start to advertise that we were going to be here until this morning.” Jared happily said, I think just as shocked at the turnout as I was.

“Dude, this is unbelievable.” Shannon said, equally surprised, “There has to be at least 300 people.”

“Okay, baby,” Jared said, wrapping his arm around my shoulders, “hang close to Emma.”

Nodding my head, “Got it.” I said smiling.

“We’ll get out after them and wait inside.” Emma instructed.

“I’ll just follow you.” I said.

As soon as one of the security guards opened the sliding door, Jared jumped out first, followed by Shannon then Tomo. The crowd went absolutely wild! The guards looked like it was a struggle trying to hold the barricades in place as fans pushed for a closer view.

Emma stepped out and I followed. We went straight inside to the reception desk to check in. Within just a few minutes, we had our ID badges but the guys were still outside. We were on a schedule so they couldn’t stay out there all day.

“They’re taking forever..” Emma said, looking slightly frustrated and just about ready to go get them herself.

“Yeah, there were a lot of people.” I said shaking my head.

Just as I said that, the three of them walked through the doors looking like they had been through hell but all three had smiles on their faces.

“Man, I thought they were gonna blow the barricades!” Shannon exclaimed.

“Dude, I know! That was crazy.” Tomo agreed.

Jared and Emma exchanged words…and they sounded tense. I heard words like late and schedule, not that Jared seemed to care. I think, just as in the other parts of his life, it’s HIS way or the highway. HE wanted to greet the fans so that’s what he did. I’m sure he thought, why not take advantage of the free advertising, right…

We boarded the elevator together and were heading into the studio with moments to spare. Just as the guys walked into the sound stage and put their headphones on, the commercial break ended and they were introduced on air.

Emma and I watched from outside the glass studio but we could listen in. I have to say it was a really cool experience and I was captivated but Emma was already on her phone, moving onto the next thing on her list. For her, this was nothing special, more of an everyday activity. For me, it was neat to experience.

She had business things to deal with so I stayed in my little corner outside the glass doors and watched. Every now and again, Jared would look towards me and I could see him silently checking on me but gave nothing away. Each time I just smiled as he nodded, continuing on with his conversation.

The interview was rather short and after spending a few minutes doing some pre-recorded promos, they were done. One down and one more to go. Hopefully the next interview goes the same so that we’d still have most of our day to explore the city.

“We have about an hour before the next interview and I thought after that, we could go grab lunch?” Emma asked as we stepped inside the elevator.

“Yeah, that sounds good.” Shannon quickly responded as Jared looked towards me.

Instead of answering right away, Jared squeezed my hand to catch my attention. Without saying a word aloud, I knew he was asking if lunch with everyone was good with me or if I’d rather us be alone. Honestly, it surprised me he didn’t just make the decision without my input but then again, I know he initially wanted today to be a free day for us. Taking my thoughts into consideration just made him stronger and even more Dominant in my eyes.

I simply smiled then lowered my eyes and he took that just as I knew he would. Whatever he decided to do is what we do. Period.

“Lunch is fine. Find a place close to the hotel though.” Jared said as the elevator doors opened and we stepped out into the lobby.

Emma and I walked out of the doors together with the guys following behind us. Quickly making our way into the van, this time the fans only got a quick wave as everyone piled in. Time was of the essence since traffic is always so unpredictable.

Luck was on our side though because we got to the next radio station in record time. Given that fact, the guys were able to record the commercial promos before the interview instead of after which would definitely save a bit of time.

By one o'clock, we were heading back towards the hotel to a little cafe Emma had found.

Lunch was really nice and the food was amazing but the whole thing seemed rushed. We had just sat down and started to relax, enjoying our conversations until the food came. As soon as the plates were set down, Jared was hurrying me along and ready to go. Everyone could tell he was anxious to break away from the group and it was borderline rude. At least, in my opinion.

To a certain degree, I understood where he was coming from. We were limited on time together, I only had a few days with him, but still. If he didn’t want to go, he should have just declined the invitation and we could have gone our own way.

After lunch, we quickly said our good-byes and splintered from the group. Emma took whatever we didn’t need for our day exploring back to the hotel so we didn’t have to make the extra trip. Considering Jared’s behavior, that was sweet of her. Though I must say, I seemed to be the only one surprised by how Jared was acting.

“You guys have fun!” Emma said, giving me a quick hug.

“You too!” I responded as Jared waved them off with one hand while pulling me down the street in the opposite direction.

As soon as we were away from everyone, Jared seemed to relax, at least a little bit. We had walked a block before I decided to say something. I didn’t think I did anything wrong but by the way he was acting, I knew something was bothering him.

Weaving my arm through his as we walked, I leaned into him, pressing my temple into his arm. “Everything okay?”

“Yeah, why?” He asked.

“I guess you seemed fine earlier but at lunch you were a bit…. irritated.” I said as delicately as possible.

There’s nothing worse than telling someone they seem crabby.. In my experience, that’s just asking for a fight. Jared was quiet for a minute or two and suddenly, I got worried that the problem really did have something to do with me.

“I was ready for us to be on our own but I knew that everyone would have been pissy if we didn’t go with them.”

“Why would everyone be pissy? Not like you don’t see them very much!” I laughed, trying to lighten the mood.

“I think it has to do with you, not me.” Jared laughed, “They like you and want to get to know you which is fine but you’re mine and I don’t like sharing.”

I totally shared his sentiments but didn’t say it out loud. I was too overwhelmed by the adorableness of what he just said.

“Aww, that’s sweet.” I said, this time kissing his arm as we continued to stroll around Arendal. “I didn’t want to share you either..”

Jared smiled warmly as he kissed the top of my head. We didn’t have a lot of time together and I wished we did. Especially in such a beautiful place. Norway was absolutely incredible and I knew I definitely wanted to come back. After exploring the different touristy shops and museums for a few hours, Jared was ready to get back to the hotel.

“I had Emma make dinner reservations for us tonight so I think we’ll head back to the hotel and relax a little before we get ready for dinner.”

“Okay.” I happily said as we turned back towards the hotel. I didn’t really care what we were doing, as long as we were together.

As we walked I could sense another change in Jared’s demeanor. It was subtle at first but it was definitely there. His mind was elsewhere and for the time being, I just left it alone. Although he held my hand while we walked together, he had let it go as we stood waiting to cross the street only a block from our hotel.

Unsure yet again if I had done something wrong, I looked at him, our eyes connecting for a moment, “Is everything…” I began to say but was cut off as Jared brought his index finger to his lips.

“Shhhh.” He said, his face calm but stern.

Just as I was about to speak, the signal to cross changed. People began to pass us, though I was rooted in place. Breaking eye contact Jared looked ahead then grasped the back of my neck motioning me to walk. Feeling his hand against the back of my neck, asserting his dominance, instantly made my panties damp.

After we crossed the street, Jared slowed his pace, bending to whisper in my ear.

“You didn’t think I forgot about this morning, did you, baby girl?” Jared murmured, squeezing his fingers tighter.

I instantly remember our shower this morning and knew exactly what he was talking about. Shit. I thought maybe he would have let that one slide but I should have known better. Swallowing hard, I tried to quickly come up with something to say.

“I’m sorry I was a bad girl this morning, Sir.” I said turning my head as much as his tight grip would allow, all the while trying to walk and not trip.

Jared didn’t acknowledge my response at all and I knew that was definitely not a good sign. After my apology, I kept my mouth shut, not wanting to take a chance at getting myself in more trouble.

Approaching the hotel, the bell hops immediately recognized Jared and greeted us. I smiled and said hello while trying to act completely normal. Which couldn’t be further from how I was feeling. His silence wasn’t making me feel any better either.

Walking through the lobby, I felt my legs turning to jelly. My mind and body were a mess, a bit of fear mixing with anticipation, were a dangerous combination. As we waited for the elevator doors to open, I watched Jared’s reflection in doors. I’ve seen this look before and although I didn’t know exactly what was coming, I had a pretty good idea.

As soon as the doors opened we quickly stepped inside. He was still silent and the longer that went on, the more my mind was building anticipation. It was completely unnerving and exciting at the same time. When I couldn’t take it anymore, I spoke up.

“Do you accept my apology, Sir?” I said, my voice so soft I wasn’t sure he could even hear what I was saying.

But before he had a chance to respond, the damn elevator doors opened again. It was our floor. Wordlessly, we walked down the hall to our room, his grip still firmly in place. Stopping at our door, he slid the key card in the lock then pushed the door open.

It wasn’t until the door loudly shut behind us that he let go of my neck and quickly stepped in front of me. Jared silently regarded me, his eyes dark as the connected with mine.

“You’ve been a bad girl, first your teasing this morning then continuing to speak, knowing I wanted you silent. We have some things to work on baby girl.”

My heart raced as each word fell from his lips. I didn’t even know how to answer.

“Undress then come to me.” He instructed, “You have ten minutes.”

“Yes, Sir.” I said, my voice trembling along with the rest of me.

When I didn’t immediately start towards the bathroom, he raised his eyebrows in surprise. “Go.”

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Okay, I don’t think this is anything special. There are a lot of better stories than mine, but I want, at least, to try I discovered Of Mice & Men something like one year ago, but I didn’t think they were this special. Then I found out they were coming to Italy, so I gave them one more shot. That was an awful period, I felt so hollow. I had this thing in the middle of my chest, a constant reminder that I wasn’t fine, that I would never have been. I never had a real family. I never felt what is unconditional love, and I couldn’t understand why I was getting up everyday. I was useless, first of all, for myself. And then, that band. They made me feel loved and special, somehow, they brought out something I didn’t even knew I had, real feeling, real emotions. Before them, I was sure metalcore and all that kind of music wasn’t for me, but I was so wrong.For me it’s enough to think about them, and I start smiling and tears form at the corner of my eyes. I, of course, went to the concert. I was basically obsessed. I really want to met them all, say thank you, and give Austin my letter. I et them. They came out from the tour bus, and I swear, I never met someone who is more caring and funny than Of Mice & Men.

I asked Austin to write something I could have tattooed, and he thought about it for something like a minute. Now I have “let live” tattooed on my arm. There was something like one hundred kids and they spent some time with all of them, with an endless patience. They are role models or me,  because you can simply feel that they love to death what they do-and they love us. I didn’t have to search for that family, that unconditional love, it was there. It has been the best concert of my life, so much energy, so much passion, it was like if we were a tre hundred (and five) family members, all together.I never take off the necklace with Phil’s pick, and he waited for me before giving it away.Remember the letter? There was written all my love, admiration, support, feelings. I wanted so much that Austin read that. I never put so much truth inside something.And I forgot it home. Yeah, I did. In the moment I noticed, in the morning, I wrote quickly something and gave it to him.

I think he remembered it, at least they say so, because during the concert came to me and smiled, before sticking out his tongue (making me laugh). After the concert I waited for them, but I talked only with Tino (..that told me I got too many hugs from him that that, while hugging me for the fourth time) and Austin. Austin stayed with everyone even if they had to go away, the day after there were supposed to be in Belgium. I climbed the barricade, and while we were hugging, for mistake we almost kissed. He said “I was going to kiss you!” and laughed in my ear, then we stayed silent or ten seconds and he said “I love you”.

That few words and that laugh still light up everyone of my days. The photo is of that hug. But the letter.. I couldn’t get over it. In the end, I went to Berlin, on august, just to give Austin that motherfucking letter. Venice-Berlin, I don’t even know how I convinced my parents. But.. that happened. I’m not even sure he read it. I hope so, and I would love to meet him again- unfortunately they don’t come back to Italy, this year, I’ll wait, and tell him everything I did for him and them, and what they did for me.They taught me that it always gets better.Now I know that if I fall, someone will pick me up. 


They did everything they could to make it impossible to see the filming here. They build the busstop at Byng Placeand first filmed with a drone (getting some food at the fish and chips and then chatting and discussing a letter with the LiR) and then it was the same scene in different close-ups. We were maybe a 50m away behind a barricade.

The guy with the rainbow flag just passed by. I thought it was funny ;) He had nothing to do with the filming.

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