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To Anyone who Thinks They're Falling Behind in Life (and aren’t good/creative/ect. enough)

“You don’t need more motivation. You don’t need to be inspired to action. You don’t need to read any more lists and posts about how you’re not doing enough.

But, honestly, here’s the thing that nobody really talks about when it comes to success and motivation and willpower and goals and productivity and all those little buzzwords that have come into popularity: you are as you are until you’re not. You change when you want to change. You put your ideas into action in the timing that is best. That’s just how it happens.

And what I think we all need more than anything is this: permission to be wherever the fuck we are when we’re there.

You’re not a robot. You can’t just conjure up motivation when you don’t have it. Sometimes you’re going through something. Sometimes life has happened. Life! Remember life? Yeah, it teaches you things and sometimes makes you go the long way around for your biggest lessons.

You don’t get to control everything. You can wake up at 5 a.m. every day until you’re tired and broken, but if the words or the painting or the ideas don’t want to come to fruition, they won’t. You can show up every day to your best intentions, but if it’s not the time, it’s just not the fucking time. You need to give yourself permission to be a human being.


Sometimes the novel is not ready to be written because you haven’t met the inspiration for your main character yet. Sometimes you need two more years of life experience before you can make your masterpiece into something that will feel real and true and raw to other people. Sometimes you’re not falling in love because whatever you need to know about yourself is only knowable through solitude. Sometimes you haven’t met your next collaborator. Sometimes your sadness encircles you because, one day, it will be the opus upon which you build your life. We all know this: Our experience cannot always be manipulated. Yet, we don’t act as though we know this truth. We try so hard to manipulate and control our lives, to make creativity into a game to win, to shortcut success because others say they have, to process emotions and uncertainty as if these are linear journeys.

You don’t get to game the system of your life. You just don’t. You don’t get to control every outcome and aspect as a way to never give in to the uncertainty and unpredictability of something that’s beyond what you understand. It’s the basis of presence: to show up as you are in this moment and let that be enough. Yet, we don’t act in a way that supports this lifestyle. We fill every minute with productivity tools and read 30-point lists on how to better drive out natural, human impulse. We often forget that we are as we are until we’re not. We are the same until we’re changed. We can move that a bit further by putting into place healthy habits and to show up to our lives in a way that fosters growth, but we can’t game timing. Timing is the one thing that we often forget to surrender to.

Things are dark until they’re not. Most of our unhappiness stems from the belief that our lives should be different than they are. We believe we have control — and our self-loathing and self-hatred comes from this idea that we should be able to change our circumstances, that we should be richer or hotter or better or happier. While self-responsibility is empowering, it can often lead to this resentment and bitterness that none of us need to be holding within us. We have to put in our best efforts and then give ourselves permission to let whatever happens to happen—and to not feel so directly and vulnerably tied to outcomes. Opportunities often don’t show up in the way we think they will.

You don’t need more motivation or inspiration to create the life you want. You need less shame around the idea that you’re not doing your best. You need to stop listening to people who are in vastly different life circumstances and life stages than you tell you that you’re just not doing or being enough. You need to let timing do what it needs to do. You need to see lessons where you see barriers. You need to understand that what’s right now becomes inspiration later. You need to see that wherever you are now is what becomes your identity later. 

Sometimes we’re not yet the people we need to be in order to contain the desires we have. Sometimes we have to let ourselves evolve into the place where we can allow what we want to transpire. Let’s just say that whatever you want, you want it enough. So much so that you’re making yourself miserable in order to achieve it. What about chilling out? Maybe your motivation isn’t the problem, but that you keep pushing a boulder up a mountain that only grows in size the more you push.

There’s a magic beyond us that works in ways we can’t understand. We can’t game it. We can’t 10-point list it. We can’t control it. We have to just let it be, to take a fucking step back for a moment, stop beating ourselves up into oblivion, and to let the cogs turn as they will
. One day, this moment will make sense. Trust that. Give yourself permission to trust that.”
 
- Jamie Warron
The case of Lars.

I’m actually really happy there are many posts out there “defending” Lars. Not because I particularly like him, but becase he IS the most realistic human on the show.

Personally, I strongly dislike Lars, and I get why people do as well: He’s a self absorbed, egoist and extremely insecure person governed by his own fears and, so far, he hasn’t even proved to be somewhat useful in the face of adversity, like Sadie has.

BUT- and it’s a big but- I know why I dislike Lars so much, and it has to do with the theory I have that regarding certain things, we despise on others those traits we also have, and hate about ourselves. The reason I don’t like Lars- and maybe the reason some of you don’t, either- is because he is SO desperately, intolerably human, that he embodies the sheer vulnerability we all have and despise in ourselves.

Originally posted by sadiebarrigaofficial

In a narrative, the spectator is supposed to empathize with the protagonist, and we perform that role gladly: Wether it’s the sassy anti-hero that unconventionally saves the day; the righteous hero whose bravery and determination will outcome every obstacle; the antagonist that outsmarted everyone and won the game, we are expected to look at them, live through them, and ultimately, identify with them, therefore attributing those desirable traits to ourselves. Are you more a Snape, or a Harry? Which Crystal Gem are you? Which Madoka Character represents you best? In all of those, we can- and want- to believe we are as smart, as brave, as cunning and as strong as those figures, when adversity strikes, we can hold our own and we can win, because we are that great.

Lars…reminds us that is NOT the case. Lars is a human and a troubled teenager, and so he displays the angst the teenager mind goes through (especially if he interpret him as a trans character, just IMAGINE the amount of angst that adds). He doesn’t have any special powers, he’s not trained in anything that can help him, he goes to extensive- and somewhat ridiculous- lenghs to conceal the good things he DOES have going on for him, and if you’re perpetually starving to be something you are NOT (popular, traditionally cool), and negating what you are, it’s no surprise that most of the time you are going to be paralysed by fear, frozen with doubt, and with your sense of self worth downer than The Cluster.

Lars is insecure of himself and he remind us how we would most likely act in the face of true fear: one- some say the- most human fear, the fear of death. Lars shows us the self preservation instinct that would likely govern us in the situations the show presents, and we also shows us how powerless we could feel, how hard we would struggle before actually jumping to the unknown. We are, after all, only human.

Originally posted by rockstarhazel

That’s why I think Lars being in the show is so important, he doesn’t only offers a powerful contrast and mirror to the spectators, he’s the one that represents the most raw potential of growing. Lars’ arch can be develop to what Rose woud most admire: A human being. Troubled by his own thoughts, constantly struggling with himself, but constantly learning, constantly evolving. Just like us, mere mortals, do.

But you know, it’s fantasy and nobody wants to admit that, even to ourselves.

  • me: *slaughters entire little villages of monsters who were innocently minding their own damn business*
  • me: *standing over their body parts, blood-encrusted Master Sword in hand* I am the true monster here
  • BotW: *creepy music* 🎶
  • Zelda: The Blood Moon rises once again...
  • Ganon: *resurrects all the countless innocent monsters I murdered*
  • me: oh, thank god
It was a Saturday. We sat in my living room, playing video games, and drinking cheap alcohol. Your laughter filled the room, and it filled me warmth. I turned to you, you were  focused on the television screen, completely unaware of anything else. It was in that moment, surrounded by your laughter, that I was thankful that I hadn’t killed myself six months earlier.
—  things i never told you (1/?) (24/52) by (DS)

we live in a world where EA’s Big Q1 Release and Bioware’s Newest Game in Their Most Successful Franchise is more than 10 points lower on Metacritic than a Yoko Taro game

The Party (Reggie x Reader)

There will be a part two coming up in a few days.

Request: something with reggie x reader and how their relationship comes out at a party please?

Part 2  Part 3

 You watched as Jughead argued with Betty. You didn’t know who side to be on. Betty just wanted to make her boyfriend happy but you knew that this wasn’t the right way. You had been friends with both of them for so long you didn’t know what to do. You weren’t the only one since your brother Archie had the same look on his face as he look at the two. Veronica on the other hand look fine with the situation, she probably had been through this with her parents. The ring of the doorbell interrupted all of your guys thoughts.

“Who else did you invited to this Betty?” Jughead sneered at her not impressed with party at all.

“No one, it was only suppose to be the inner circle” She replied back but as the doors opened your breath got caught in your throat at the sight in front of you. First and foremost was Cheryl and Chuck then behind them was most of the football team and other students from your school. Cheryl smirked as she made her way in.

“Where should we put the keg too?” She asked as everyone cheered. You and Archie sent a look to each other knowing that nothing good was going to come out of this night. It was kinda proven when Jughead pushed his way passed you both to go hide out in the garage. You wonder if you should chased him but you knew it was better to leave him alone to his thoughts. Plus if anything happened to this house you and Archie would be toast.

 It had been hours since the party started and it was getting more hyped as the time went by. People were drinking drink after drink and you were sure if you looked in that keg that there would be nothing left. You figured that it would die down soon since it was getting close to one in the morning but you were proven wrong once again when Cheryl opened her mouth to speak.

“How about we play a game?” Everyone gather into the living room excited to hear what they would be playing. “You know we all have secrets in this house don’t we?” Tons of people nodded at her statement.

“Well how about we spill some of them?” Yours and your friends mouth dropped at what Cheryl wanted to do, she always knew a little too much about everyone. Others in the room didn’t feel shocked what so ever they were all willing to play. Cheryl started to speak, calling out Veronica and her family. Not shying away from any of their feelings towards them but if Cheryl had thought V would say nothing she was dead wrong. Veronica started to imagine what really went on between Jason and her. As you try to hold back a laugh, Cheryl looked a bit stunned not knowing what to say about this possible too much sisterly love.

“My turned now” Chuck announced and he scanned the room, setting his eyes on you for a moment before they landed on Betty. “Why don’t we talk about what Veronica and Betty did to me. More importantly about how Betty has some alternate ego or split personalities. Pretending to be her sister Polly seems like one of them ” Chuck only smirked as he could tell it was getting to Betty even you could see it from across the room. “I’ll tell you one thing Betty or should I say Polly I ain’t Jason, I’m better” You rolled your eyes at his statement, leave it to Chuck to still be the cockys thing ever. It wasn’t like he hadn’t learned his lesson.

“So why don’t we talk about someone else?” Chuck asked not really wanting an answer since he was going to do it anyway. You thought for a moment that Cheryl glance your way but you shook it off since there were so many people here.

“Y/N” Chuck said, making everyone eyes land on you. You tilted your head sideways wondering what Chuck had up his sleeve, trying not to show your discomfort. “Sweet little Andrews” He looked away from you then stared down your brother.

“We talked about Archie love affair so why not talk about yours also”

“What’s he talking about sis?” Archie asked not taking his eyes off of Chuck. You ignored him and went straight to Chuck. Grabbing one of his arms you said

“Don’t do it Chuck. Keep it to yourself” He shrugged you off and continued

“Well you see, your sister isn’t innocent in all of this. Actually I’m surprised you didn’t see her name in the book because she should be in there I put her in there” Archie stood up from his seat quickly taking a seat forward with his fist by his side, ready to hit if needed.

“Slow down there Andrews” Chuck laughed as he put up his hands “I wrote her in there but I’m not the one she slept with. It was-”  You cut him off

“He’s your friend Chuck, don’t do it”

“Friends don’t take each others spot on the team” He huffed and went on “She slept with Mantle, Andrews. Your little sister slept with your enemy.” Gasps were heard throughout the room as the secret was spilled. No one expected it but the football team they knew and now they were all wearing smirks on their face to prove it.

“Is that true?” Archie asked you but you couldn’t meet his eye. You didn’t know if you were embarrassed that it happened or that he found out.

“It wasn’t once either” Cheryl piped which made you send a death glare her way. “You should of came to my parties more often Archie. They always had fun.”

Archie just looked at you with confusion written all over his face. He could tell it was true from the atmosphere in the room, he didn’t need to heard you say it. He just couldn’t believe what you had done. You couldn’t stand being in your house any longer with all of the stares, so you took one finally looked around and went to leave but before you did Chuck spoke up once again.

“Say hi to Mantle for me” He knew that’s where you were going and he wanted everyone else to know.

“Bite me” You shouted before you left. Your hook up was out now and there was nothing to do but only if they knew. Reggie was so much more than a person to get your mind off of things. You loved him and now you were scared of what was going to happen. What would Archie do now knowing that you were sleeping with one of the people he hated. Also how Jughead would react since he was also like your brother and Reggie made it a habit to pick on him. The worse was yet to come.

RPG Maker Fever Undead and Deranged

Warning:This article may contain spoilers and the content inappropriate for children…or may not contain.But get the children away from the screen just in case.

Good morning! Or is it already evening? Meh, as if it matters…cellar, where I’m chained and writing my articles  is pitch-dark 24 hours per day. So, today we’ll learn how to make friends, control the undead and have a happy dream ( with some experimental drugs involved).Now then, shall we get started?

1. 1bitHeart

Alright, here goes our first title, made by the author of Alice Mare and LiEat series. 1bitHeart is an adventure game, where your goal is to make as many friends as possible . Game plays similar to Ace Attorney series, but with some QTE-scenes, while setting and atmosphere is kinda similar to TWEWY.You can make 49 friends in total, all of them have unique appearance and personality. Plot of the game is pretty good, dialogues are well-written and sometimes hilarious. Besides, every dialogue has it’s own mood supported by stylish well-chosen music track and quality voice acting. Additionaly I want to praise 1bitHeart’s presentation, since  both artwork and sprites are extremely beautiful .

2. The Boogie Man

And here comes the Boogeyman, the Boogeyman comes for me. Here comes the Boogyeman, he’s gonna take me in my sleep…Nah, actually not. Here comes the latest installement in our favourite  the Strange Men Series. This time with the fully voiced in-game cutscenes (and skippable as bonus). The Boogie Man stays true to series and plays like classical horror-adventure with action cut-ins. At some point of the game you can even play as our old friends -David and Sophie, but new protagonist Keith is quite notable too (he’s my personal fav to be honest).Overall the game makes very good impression, the story is interesting and dialogues are bright and entertaining (with many references to previous games).

3.  END ROLL

I’m not the sensitive type, but  even I was kinda hesitant to play this game at first, since it has waaay too many suggestive content, supported by quite a lot of graphic violence.But after beating it I can state that this game is totally drugtastic. END ROLL plays like quality role-playing game and somewhat reminds the wild mix of the Gray Garden and Re:Kinder, but with better story-writing and gameplay I believe. Game has plenty of  unique dungeons (all of them has some plot-related meaning behind it) as well as tons of optional content, which along with well-designed and interesting characters make END ROLL very enjoyable.

4. Guuzen ~ Ningyou no ito

What? Don’t tell me you’ve never heard about the rite named “doll’s prayer” .You’ll forget all of your worries and  path to the Heaven will open before you. But the place, our heroines’ve found themselves in, can be hardly called Heaven. I wasn’t expecting much from this game, but it turned to be quality horror with beautiful character designs, memorable soundtrack, logical puzzles and surprisingly mature story. The game reminds us that we’re often starting to value something only when it’s already lost.Sadly, right now  Ningyou no ito is only available in chinese, japanese and russian.

5. Liar Jeannie in Crucifix Kingdom

Yet another full-fledged role-playing game has made it to my list.And kinda tough, I must say. Imagine what if Dark Souls was the turn-based RPG with cute nun as protagonist and you’ll get Liar Jeannie… more or less.Unlike many RPGs, this one doesn’t  have any levels, and your stats and basic skills fully depend on your current equipment (by the way, every item in this game can be equipped). A special mention is deserved for game’s bosses - there’s a few main bosses and a lot of optional ones -all of them have their own battle tactics and require some thinking before acting ( especially Pleiades Knights-you want to defeat them, trust me).Also, if things during the fight will become real ugly, you can always summon expendable monsters as your allies (or living shields,heh).

6. At the Tale End

Here we have a game, which looks like a regular fantasy-adventure, but only at first. Plot includes our standard party of heroes (fighter,mage,priest and thief), cursed princess and battle with the local dark lord.But each of these elements plays very different from your typical fantasy stories.At the Tale’s End is definetely a unique experience, a role-playing game in it’s original meaning, without countless random battles, but with a certain weight of responsibility for your actions within a narrative.Also this game has detailed and interesting world as well as quality animated cut-scenes.

7. Pocket Mirror

A long-awaited Pocket Mirror has been finally released this year. And I’m amazed with  enormous amount of work made by the  team of developers.When it comes to game’s graphic, Pocket Mirror is stunning. Beautiful artwork and memorable soundtrack help to create this mysterious, unique atmosphere of dark fairy tale. And with that Pocket Mirror has some gameplay issues. You see, while some puzzles are interesting, most of them is quite uninspiring, some of the locations are pitch-dark and hard to navigate.And with that plot of the game is quite complicated,but doesn’t make much sense,if you don’t pay close attention to numerous in-game notes and letters.This game is definetely not bad,but still leaves some feeling of unpolishness.

8. The Maid of Fairewell Heights

Despite the fact that story of the Maid takes place at the haunted apartment complex, this game has no horror elements. Maid feels more like comedy anime straight from ‘90s. Gameplay (along with main character’s outfits) varies depending on the room your’re currently exploring. Starting with regular cleaning you can end up playing detective or running the shop. Game has bright illustrations, good humour and overall is pretty good.

9. Libretta

I’m sure everyone knows that beside translating games vgperson also makes their own, and Libretta is one of them..This game  definetely gives an interesting experience. While playing similar to Ib, Libretta has it’s own unique atmosphere and somewhat complicated plot, where everyone can find something for themselves (or so I think). Libretta has memorable soundtrack and interesting puzzles, requiring some thinking from the player Also playing shirigories between chapters is kinda fun.

10. Imaginary Friends

Imaginary Friends is a classical rpg-horror-game with quality visuals, well-thought puzzles and some minor chasing scenes. While story lacks originality, it’s still interesting to follow, since charactrers are nice and game has several endings. Game is about 3 hours long and leaves mostly positive impression. So, if you like old-school rpg-horrors-be my guest.

11. Red Trees

While having some minor horror elements, Red Trees stays warm and relaxing adventure game with humorous and ironic view on horror genre and quite unexpected ending in a way. Graphic style of the game and whole atmosphere of a local town is somewhat reminiscent of Mother series.Gameplay is quite simple and consist from few “find-and-bring-to-the- right-person” puzzles, which can be easily solved in 30 minutes or so.

12. The Stairway

Like Red Trees this game is also recommended for players, who’ve already tired from jumpscares, explinct content and overthinking bizarre puzzles. This game has simple yet nice story, unique visuals and some easy logical puzzles.So, if you want to neatly spend 30-40 minutes of your time, try and climb The Stairway to see what’s awiting you at the very end.

13. Friendship

The most fitting description for Friendship would be “horror for the beginners”, since it can surprise or startle you only if you haven’t played any other rpg-horrors before. In fact Friendship doesn’t stand out much compared with better quality school horrors ( like Misao or Amayado Bus Stop ).But it doesn’t mean that the game is bad-Friendship is a good way to spend 30 minutes seeing how strong attachment to a friend can turn simple game into yandere-horror.  

14. By Ourselves

 And here comes our closing title about two former classmates, who’ve found themeselves trapped in the room. Game is only 10 minutes long and basically is one big locked door puzzle. You find the first hint and then successively exploring the room for the way out. Game has two endings determined by how much attention you’re paying to your comrade in distress.

Where and how to watch NWSL games

(Making this for my sake mostly because I can’t answer the same messages over and over again)

Are you from the USA?

If your answer is yes, there are 3 ways to watch a game! If not, ignore the next chunk of gibberish and skip to the paragraph after!

Step 1: choose a game you’d like to watch (refer to NWSLSoccer.com/schedule). And if the game you’ve chosen is the weekend’s Lifetime-featured game, proceed to step 2. If not, check out step 3.
Step 2: you can turn on your TV and flip it to whatever channel you have Lifetime on OR, you can head on over to mylifetime.com for the online stream!
Step 3: download the go90 app on android or iOS and click on to the NWSL link to look for your game of choice! To watch on a telly, link your device up to Chromecast or Airplay!
Step 4: enjoy the game!

International fan?

Nice! You’ve got 2 ways to watch the games!

Step 1: download the NWSL app for iOS (if you’re using Android or if you’d rather not watch on your mobile device, you can skip to step 3)
Step 2: click on games on the bottom portion of your screen and select your game of choice! The stream should be up a few minutes before kick off.
Step 3: head on over to NWSLSoccer.com/schedule and click the game you’d like to watch. There should be a link for a live stream up for you a few minutes before kick off!
Step 4: enjoy the game!!

FAQs:

Can we rewatch the game after the stream?
- Yup! On the go90 app/ mylifetime.com for people in the US; on the NWSL app/site for internationals!

Is there any other way we can live stream the games?
- Nope. Not even on YouTube!

Will NWSL upload the entire games for rewatching on YouTube still?
- According to the FAQ page on the NWSL app, there won’t be any other rewatch platforms for the games (unless someone else - not the NWSL account - uploads them on YouTube)

If you want to text first, do it.
Want to double text? Go for it.
If you like someone, tell them. 
If someone makes you happy, say it.
If someone made you upset, talk to them and tell them why.

We spend so much of our lives playing games and trying to figure out our next move. We are afraid of being vulnerable, afraid of looking weak. Screw that. Do what you want to do and the right ones with move along with you. Life is too short to play by some made up rules.

anonymous asked:

I have the strong feeling that *nobody* is fooled by BH's "human disguise". Everyone is completely aware he's in no way shape or form human. They're all just too terrified to bring it up. :D

  • “Morning Mr. Trueba” *snaps his head 180 degrees around yet keeps walking forward* “OH GOOD MORNING, HUMAN NEIGHBOR.”
  • “Boss, the Richardsons called. They said something about our dog ruining their flowers? But 5.0.5 hasn’t gone outside since last w–” “OH THAT. They were bothering me, so I glared at them.” “Boss she said they were completely uprooted!!” “Yeah, they started trying to run away.” “………”
  • (The yoga mom squad probably knew from his first lesson, but they’re probably too nice to say anything haha)
  • HELEN IS ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN. NO DOUBT. 100% he is NOT human. But whenever she tries to bring this up to the rest of the PTA, the people on BH’s side are always like “what are you talking about?? Looks human to me”
  • “I saw him eat a live bird at the soccer game!” “And we saw you sprinkle salt on Martha’s brownies at the bake sale; who’s the real ‘evil monster’ here?“

BH’s human disguises are often very cheap, because he thinks humans are “stupid creatures, who would fall for a lamp disguised as a person.” In reality, well, there’s only so much a fake wig can do.