I was in 10th grade honours English. I loved my teacher - she was super cool, but didn’t take any shit from anyone. During our time with her, she was going through a rough divorce.
Our teacher had developed this system: if we were good, she’d add “time” to our class, with each “time” being worth ten seconds, so we had to work hard. That meaning, she would give us a free period after we’d built up the exact time that a period extended to be. It was an earned privilege, and we always did our best to try and obtain it. Hell, playing puzzle games and reading was way more fun than a test or worksheet!
We were reading Animal Farm, a book my mom had given to me when I was ten bc she knew I loved to read and enjoyed anything that was thought-provoking. I’d read it then, and again later in my parochial middle school. Living in a big city, public schools aren’t well-funded, and I was lucky to have all my close family scrape together cash for a good education. Needless to say, I was rather familiar with the book.
Now back to the system! Our teacher had implemented a rule that every morning (she taught my first period class) we wood stand up and recite the commandments of animalism. We’d all try our hardest to do it perfectly, lest “time” be taken off our class. But one morning, she was… cold.
My classmates who’d recited before me were all told to sit down and stop reciting, because they were “wrong.” Knowing that, I was confused, as was everyone else. Yet, we all kept trying the same thing. She let the first few people finish. Then, she let people get partially through before she’d utter, “wrong” or something of the sort and deduct our hard-earned time.
It finally got to me; it was my turn. I stood up and started, and was immediately shut down by her. I was frustrated, to say the least. I replied after a second and told her that I was, indeed, right. She muttered for me to sit down. I refused, and by now she’d taken off twenty seconds. Everyone groaned, but I continued to disobey. Eventually, my classmates started telling me to just stop and it turned into yelling at me once I’d lost our hard-earned twenty minutes (meaning we had been halfway to a free period) as I continued to argue. Once we were in the negatives, people were literally yelling obscenities at me. They even yelled at her, blaming her divorce and period. Gross behaivour, mind you.
I didn’t stop.
The teacher said that she was going to call security and have me removed. I replied that it was a-okay with me to do so. I promptly walk out of the room and she followed up by telling me to wait in the hallway. I’d intended to walk to the office myself, but obliged figuring it was no matter to me.
I was in the hallway for about a minute before she rushed out and gently grabbed me by the shoulders. I was rightly confused. She gasped, and stammered out that she had never imagined it would happen. Why was she suddenly not being so ruthless? Why was she flabbergasted? Well, apparently what she’d “wanted” was for us to all fail. That it was a lesson, and she’d have given back the “time” she had removed. It was all about “knowing” what was coming, and how fascism meant that the rules could change at any time, without your knowledge and consent, but you could still be punished for it. She told me that she’d called security, and told them if they saw me in the hall during that call, to excuse me. Nobody had done that before. Apparently, throughout her decades of teaching, not one student had done that. They had all caved and sat down eventually.
You can be that person. In something that matters to us all. It’s not fun, but when has fighting for what’s right ever been easy?
Yes! We just have to believe and hold on to our faith, faith that is within the depth of our being and rises up when troubles come. Because we know we serve a living God who is faithful and just! He will pull us through every trial, every struggle, and deliver Us!
“Sometimes beautiful things come into our lives out of nowhere. We can’t always understand them, but we have to trust in them. I know you want to question everything, but sometimes it pays to just have a little faith.”
Don’t know what it was, but you just had this thing about you
Lately we’ve been distant, see, I just can’t be without you
And my soul got so attached to yours, I can’t be me without you
But, we hate ourselves because we run from the people we love
And we all hold on to the past ‘cause we miss what it was
Don’t wanna feel so we try to numbin’ the pain with these drugs
Living in hell, 'cause we lost faith in the place up above
And my anxiety is breaking me, it kills me
I’m living in a world so fake, I lost touch of the real me
Had to take a look back, just to ask me if I’m still me
And would I still stand for this if they wanted to kill me?
I can’t take it no more, I just can’t take it no more
I can’t smile like I’m okay, I just can’t fake it no more
I can’t act like I’ve been happy and complacent no more
Cause every time I try to change, it is the same as before
Mercury: Mercury refines the Sun sign, and it helps to define how we take in–and give out–information from the world around us. The style of communication we use, and how we make decisions, how we pick up, process, absorb, and exchange information?
Venus: Venus influences your love preferences; What you want from a relationship, how you act in a relationship, what’s your approach towards relationships, your inherent desires and expectations in love, and how you behave with your partner. It also shows (to some extent) the kind of person you get attracted to.
Mars: The sign position of Mars reveals much about our basic animal nature—our aggressive instincts, our sexuality, and our drive. What makes us tick, what gets us all fired up, what makes us angry, and how do we express that anger? Mars is all about what we really desire, and how we go about getting it.
Jupiter: Jupiter reveals how we express our generosity and tolerance. It shows how we go about improving our lives, as well as how we build our trust in others and faith in the universe. The qualities of Jupiter are qualities that, when displayed and embraced, help us to expand our personality and life experience.
Saturn: Saturn reveals our own limitations, fears, and sense of responsibility. It is associated with restriction and limitation (where Jupiter expands, Saturn constricts). Saturn brings structure and meaning to our world, it reminds us of our boundaries, our responsibilities, and our commitments. Saturn makes us aware of the need for self-control and of boundaries and our limits.
Uranus: Uranus by sign will be shared with other people in the same generation due to the comparatively slow movement of Uranus in the galaxy. Uranus represent change, it helps bring about progressive change in all aspects of our lives. This Planet takes us into the future; tradition is made to be broken. Uranus Signs also represent enlightenment, novelty and ingenuity and intuition.
Neptune: Neptune by sign will be shared with other people in the same generation due to Neptune’s slow movement in the galaxy. Neptune rules spirituality and is associated with intuition and spiritual enlightenment. Here, we find hope that is sometimes unrealistic, a poetic and intuitive outlook, and compassion.
Pluto: Pluto by sign will be shared with other people in the same generation due to the comparatively slow movement of Pluto, the outermost planet, in the galaxy. It is associated with renewal and rebirth. It represents endings and new beginnings, as well as spiritual growth. This area of life may be associated with change, upheaval, power struggles, and issues of control. Where we find Pluto in the chart is where we either seek change and transformation, or have it thrust upon us.
Hello everyone. Years before Streetlight Manifesto came into existence, way back in the year 2000, a (not so) small group of college students gathered in a dark basement in suburban NJ to record original music. A total of 16 musicians contributed to a 4 song EP, which was then released under the name BANDITS OF THE ACOUSTIC REVOLUTION (BOTAR, if you’re into the whole brevity bit). The group was made up of strictly acoustic instruments; acoustic guitars, an upright bass, violins, cellos, trumpets, saxes and more, but the music was decidedly fast tempoed and energetic, something of a contrast to the majority of the music traditionally played by said instruments. Because of limited resources and time, future plans for the project had to be put on ice for the next decade and a half or so. In its stead and from its bones, Streetlight Manifesto came screaming into this world and has been touring and releasing music since.
Today, it is with hearts bursting with joy that we announce, that as of January of 2018, the ice will have completely and permanently melted. BOTAR is back, and ready to pick up where it left off. To celebrate its rebirth, BOTAR will be performing a full set of Streetlight Manifesto songs, accompanied by a 40+ member orchestra on January 13 at the Beacon Theater in New York City and on January 25 & 26th at the Ace Theater in Los Angeles. We hope you can join us for this once in a lifetime occasion. Tickets will be on sale for all three shows this Friday. More information about the shows and about BOTAR (and its future) will be coming shortly and regularly.
Thank you for reading, and to those of you who never lost faith in BOTAR’s return: We hope we can live up to your expectations this January.
Conjunct Saturn by 6 degrees - serious expansion… we are becoming serious about our paths and where we want to go, we are aiming high, we are getting realistic, we are chasing dreams, we are re-writing the meaning and story of our lives, we are feeling optimistic, we are communicating, we are following the light. We live on the brighter side of things, we can plan long-term goals with the power of Jupiter + Saturn, Jupiter goes direct the day of the full moon, giving us an extra sense of expansion, we have been circulating inside looking for meaning, and now we can implement it. We know who we are. Now we must live it! The destiny calls us, and we are strong enough to pursue it.
Our minds see life from a higher plane, and we release all the old energies that do not align with our truths. We expand the boundaries of our lives, we collect new information, we write new beliefs.
Believe believe believe! Have faith in your journey.
We live in a time when many people are losing faith in the traditional Gods but mankind seems to have a desperate need for worship. So, we worship celebrities. Movie stars. Royalty. Athletes. Fake preachers and gurus. Yet they too let us down. They get caught in a scandal, they say something inappropriate when they are drunk, beat their wives. They bilk the trusting and are caught.
Then the false gods plummet to the Earth.
You see, just as we are fond of setting up false idols to worship so are we keen on seeing them fall. Never worship human beings. Human beings are frail and worship often tears them apart. They will fail you. They will always fail you.
Always think for yourself.
Believe nothing merely because you have been told it. Do not believe what your teacher tells you merely out of respect for the teacher. But whBatsoever, after due examination and analysis, you find to be kind, conducive to the good, the benefit, the welfare of all beings - that doctrine believe and cling to, and take it as your guide.
– Siddhartha Gautama, the Buddha, The Kalama Sutta
My God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:19) In Philippians 4:6, Paul says, “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” And then in Philippians 4:19 : “My God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” If we live by faith, it will be very hard for anxiety to survive. We should battle the unbelief of anxiety with the promises of God. When you go through periods of tremendous stress, remember, the Lord says, “Fear not for I am with you, be not dismayed for I am your God, I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you, with My victorious right hand” (Isaiah 41:10).
Summary: A angst fic. That’s all I’m saying. Requested by @bhion-chan
Everything was hectic, everyone in a panicked frenzy as touka, the Queen and my loving wife, went into labour. It started two hours ago and yet it already felt like days have passed by. My heart wouldn’t stop racing ever since this started and a sickening fear ate away at my mind at the thought that anything horrible could happen at any moment.
The pregnancy hadn’t been easy on touka these past nine months and saying that would be an understatement. The child had drained all her energy, every meal she ate, whether that be human food or meat, would only be threw up moments later. She was weak and showed no improvement.
In a moment of sheer desperation, I had went as far as to suggest that perhaps…It would have been better if we didn’t have the baby at this moment of time. Touka, of course, refused such a proposal, despite my desperate pleads for her safety. This child meant everything to her, so how could I have refused her of this precious gift?
I don’t know what to think anymore.
We had urgently called for doctors from the Great Wheel act and hoped that they could help with delivering the baby. They came soon enough and took touka into the next room where they were already prepared for the delivery. I, on the other hand, stayed in the next room with the others and paced back and forth constantly, my lip sore from the amount of times I bit it out of nervousness. My hands wouldn’t stop shaking either, my whole body tensed with a persistent voice inside me that fed me words of fear and bitterness. She won’t make it, it told me, she won’t survive.
Forcibly, I pushed back this voice and decided to focus on what’s important. It was a miracle that the baby made it this far to begin with, everyone seemingly convinced that it would have been consumed by touka, considering the mixture of genes within the child. But touka, that wonderful woman, refused to lose hope. It amazed me, in a way, that she held so strong to her faith that it would live on, that we could finally have a family to call our own. With her persistent positivity, I also began to look forward to seeing the baby. Our baby.
Characters: Bucky x reader, Steve Rogers (mentioned)
Summary: In the world that Bucky Barnes lives in, there was very little room for love. He had grown comfortable with being alone, but when he’s walking the streets of Manhattan, he meets you; a woman who might change his mind on one fateful December night when you embark on a journey that proves to him that there is still good in the world
Warnings: Fluff, hopeless romantic!bucky, chrrrstmrrrs, as per usual, bad editing
A/N: Another Christmas fic in August for no parent reason. I included lyrics from Better Days by the GooGoo Dolls if anyone is wondering. REBLOG IT AND LIKE IT AND REQUEST STUFF FOR ME TO WRITE AND I’LL KISS YA WHOLE FACE
The cold of winter nipped at Bucky’s nose as he walked briskly down the streets of Manhattan in the December air. He liked night walks, they made him feel calmer, and the cold helped with that too. Spending time cooped up in his small studio apartment made him feel claustrophobic and stuffy, he absolutely hated that.
Bucky was a habitual people watcher, and on this night he didn’t stray from his routine. He smiled as people went into little shops, lit up by fairylights as the Christmas season emanated in full swing in the streets of New York. This would be the first holiday he would spend as himself in a very long time, and his entire being was conflicted about the whole thing, but he pushed it out of his mind. Bucky had Steve, and Steve was family, so at least he’d probably spend a Christmas morning similar to that of their childhood with him. This thought made Bucky Barnes smile even wider.
Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I’m not concerned about that now. I just want to do God’s will. And He’s allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I’ve looked over. And I’ve seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people will get to the promised land.