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HannibalCon RDC3 - day 1. Personal recap

So yesterday was the day that so many of us feverishly anticipated and dreaded :), the actual possibility of meeting Bryan Fuller, Hugh Dancy, Aaron Abrams, Scott Thompson, Demore Barnes and Ellen Muth! I mean. What -are- the chances?

I flew over Friday morning (having dreaded flying in that storm but it did die down that night, fortunately) with Alex and we made our way over to arrive at 10 am, to photos of other Fannibals on Twitter already, though the hotel was still very much empty. Good to take photographs :)

I got upgraded to the next room level (which is why I can now drink coffee while writing this at 5:30 am (thank goodness)). By afternoon the lobby was filling slowly, flowercrowns everywhere. A truly elevating atmosphere, because even though I’m not really a flowers and frilly stuff kind of gal, it just is incredible to watch. Btw the bloody flowercrown @idontfindyouthatinteresting made for me drew many compliments (thank you, again!)

Registration openend a bit early and people went queuing until the main ceremony started. Incredible, there were soooo many people there, so many beautiful cosplays already. @lovecrimecat came by and we distributed the flyers for @radiance-anthology flyers to those standing in line, managed to meet so many of those who signed up (yay), got little gifts in exchange from so many people (and everybody just gave me a second one when I asked so I could give them to Katrina who couldn’t come - so awesome of you guys, thank you again!). I met so many people ‘from’ Twitter and it’ so nice to recognize some from last time, to put name and face to the @s. *hugs at all*

Opening ceremony.
I have a gold ticket this year so I went up front and sat next to SpiceyScorpion, only to realize that -that- was way to much in front for my nerves …. *rolls eyes at self*. I went a few rows back and to the side, which was a good decision for later^^.
“They” came in a few minutes to late, we saw Aaron and Scott do shadow theatre behind the scenes and Sean called them out one after the other.

Demore seemed honestly happy to be there, addressing us with such kind words, upping the applause and calling backstage that that could not possibly be topped*fg*. Aaron came out and asked us to clap for Hugh because he was supposedly afraid he wouldn’t get any ^^^^^, Scott said something along these lines as well, I think. Both very funny. Ellen was there^^ and addressed us with a few kind ords and then Sean announced Bryan next and the room (not in any way quiet before) went -wild-. And Bryan…. Bryan went “crowdsurfing”. Meaning he ran through the aisles and high-fived us. You know that sitting to the side decision? Yeah….
What a moment, there’s lots of pictures in the Tag #HannibalCon, go and look, it was…. incredible. God bless. Anyway Hugh came out last, announced by Sean as one of the best british actors, and boy, that was applause^^. He seemed a bit overwhelmed with the energy there^^ and honestly, I can’t quite remember what he actually said but it was something along the lines that he was looking forward to a wonderful weekend.

They came out together after that and we held up the signs that @the-winnowing-wind distributed - “Fannibals Forever”…. They took videos and photos of us. Bryan posted some of it later. Incredible moment to have been part of. I’m even in Bryans video (yay^^ (and if you know where to look^^)).

The gold ticket holders went across the hall next, to a slightly smaller room with tables set up and we were seated by group/friends. And then we waited, because they got something to eat first…. (darn^^^). Colleen got out some booze and we talked a lot and proverbially bit our nails a lot *g*. When they finally got in they were sent to the various tables for 4-minute-meet-ups. Only the meet-ups didn’t stay at 4 minutes :P.

Demore was first and I was soooooo nervous. (The seat next to me was free btw, and so the -all- ended up sitting right next to me (*still screaming about that*. …. ) I shook my hands in the air in an effort to get rid of some of the energy and he put his hand on my shoulder asking me why I was nervous and I brabbled something unintelligible and shook my head. Very sweet. We talked a bit about his fight scene with Mads and that we would have liked to see more of him^^ and I told him I can’t wait to see him in American Gods and he rubbed my back when he left. *float*

Next was Scott, who brought his pizza and drank some mooneshine with us^^, played Tarot with us and was generally just this very kind and interesting person. I wasn’t -quite- that nervous anymore by then (thanks Demore (and Colleen for the prosecco)), meaning I actually talked a bit, though I can’t quite remember what^^.

Ellen was next and she was also very nice, we talked about the fact that her scenes are imho some of the most scary in Hannibal. She also wore some of the coolest jeans I’d ever seen^^.

Ok. Next? BRYAN. He saw the Will!Faun scarf of @flying-rotten we had put on the table cloth and chuckled that he knew who -we- are waiting for and that he couldn’t blame us^^. He asked us, if push came to shove, if we would prefer Will & Hannibal S4 or SotL. Our table was Hannigram, though there was apparently one that was 'done’ with it…. He told us about it a bit, much the same that Hugh has said before as well, that it would be an inversion of S1 etc. I…. hope that push does not come to shove, because he told us a bit about how much he loves the lyric of Thomas Harris books and I would really love for him to be able to fully lay out his vision. I hope he gets to do this (we have to continue to fight, guys!!!). He also told us, that Thomas Harris apparently writes a new book and he…. poked Martha to get the rights to it already, without quite knowing what it was about yet *g*.

I…. took all my courage then and showed him one of the Radiance-Flyers and explained a bit and we asked if he wanted to do a little something like a foreword for it. And guys - HE DOES! He asked when it would need to be done and I said May 1st and he looked at the flyer and indicated the twitter @ there and asked if he should send it there and I was like (you know this situation, where, once you start, your mouth kind of runs away with you?! At least mine did^^^) “Oh well, yes, or you know you follow me on twitter, you can just send it there if you want” and he looked at me (directly) and said “yes, I know.” Well, RIP me. I answered with a very intelligent “ah” if I recall correctly and ducked my head and then Romina and I emphasized that it would be awesome if he actually wants to do that and finds the time.

He asked us after what drew us to Hannibal, as he got feedback from a lot of the other young women (I thanked him for 'young’, you know, once you’re in it doesn’t matter anyhow *another eye roll at self*) and we said that its not only beauty and connection, but also intelligence. You have to think with Hannibal. He recommended 'Legion’ to us and asked if we’d seen it before and I said that some stuff hasn’t made it across the big pond yet. And then Bryan went and …. not ranted directly…. but expressed his lack of understanding of the fact that things take so long to be legal and why series were not streamed worldwide because people would just go and pirate it anyway -because- it was not available legally. He went and made a (imho) very fitting anology with the conservative stance on abortions in contrast to piracy, meaning just because it’s forbidden it doesn’t stop people from doing so, it just gets unsafer and illegal.
Oh and he took photos of our table and @dr3piecesuit s and another girls tattoo, because he loves them. :) And he told us that he brought something for Hugh to wear for the Cosplay contest. Can’t wait *g*
He was called away then, way past the 4 minutes^^ and …. he is such a precious human being?! Exuding so much warmth and honesty and exuberance. I feel honored that I got to sit there.

A propos honored… Hugh was next and there I was again - nervous. Awesome. *third eyeroll* He complimented Camilles Will!Faun, saying it was very beautiful and then laughing that that was maybe a bit weird^^, and then telling us about all the gifts he gets and that he keeps the little plush Wills, giving them to his son to play with, even the bloody ones….. *fg*.
The girl next to me (@OnTheVerger) talked to him about how much Adam means to her because she has Aspergers and then broke into tears and Hugh comforted and hugged her and it was sooo sweet. We showed him the Radiance flyers as well and he said “blood fueled embraces, indeed” *g*.
Bryan ran by then and left a bitten off Babybel for Hugh. IDK if Hugh bit off that piece or if Bryan did but it was hilarious^^.

Hugh had to leave then and Aaron came to our table last, I told him I backed him and he told us about the film he and Scott are in (Scott came by and set down next to him^^) and we talked about how much we would all want to see more of Hannibal. Oh and Scott said (before) that he was supposed to teach Clarice Starling - how awesome would team Sassy Science be doing that in SotL? Seriously?
Anyway, I remember I touched Aarons shoulder in the spur of the moment talking about -something- but I can’t remember what exactly and the panicking about that. ;))

I went to my room at 1:15am, got into bed by 2am and was wide awake again at 5:15 am.

What. a. rush.

PS: This is no photos because my cameras not that good - check the Hashtag on Twitter, there’s TONS of them ;). Already ;)

anonymous asked:

hi blythe! today i went to Pulse bc i live right outside of orlando and the memorial was really heavy but really rewarding. i cried so much but they were happy and sad tears. i felt comfortable holding my gf's hand in public for the first time. i saw kids with pride shirts and old gay couples and survivors with their families. there were a few homophobic picketers but we chanted to drown them out and held things up to hide their signs. today i felt proud to be me for the first time in my life.

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Give Yourself To the Rhythm! (Lucio)

Originally posted by a-sinner-apparently

Pairing: Lucio/Reader
Words: 590
Warning(s): None
A/N: You’re right, my frog son doesn’t get enough love! I hope you like it and I apoligize for any mistakes,,, I started writing this at 12:15 am lmao
Request:  Can you maybe do something with Lúcio & his S/O? Frog boy doesn’t get enough love


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Give Us The Radio

Pairing: none

Genre: Fluff

Summary: Request fic for @sleepersareweaker. “hey, could you maybe do something with ftm drummer reader, like in Truth is Now Acceptable, being reassured and cared for by the rest of the band after a bad day with a lot of misgendering?”

You and the rest of My Chemical Romance had been busy. You were sweaty and exhausted from playing a long show. You’d been anxious about it, because this was the first time you’d be performing in your new short haircut and masculine clothes. But, the fans had still cheered for you loudly during your drum solo. Emo kids were used to bending the rules of gender, you supposed. They’d never been bothered by Gerard’s androgyny, either.

You’d made an official announcement on the band’s website about your transition a few days before. You were reluctant at first, because you figured media backlash was inevitable, but, as Frank pointed out, if you wanted your fans to use your correct pronouns, you had to tell them what they were. You’d almost cried when you saw a couple teenage fans who were also trans guys comment to tell you how much it meant to them that their idol was just like them.

One fan you’d seen dancing in the pit had held up a sign: WE LOVE YOU, MR. Y/N!

The kids were so supportive. Adults, who weren’t in the fandom, however, were another story.

Like this asshole radio show host you and the guys had an interview with right now. She’d just called you by your deadname, even though she had to be aware of your coming out post by now.

“His name is Y/N,” Gerard said with an impatient look.

“Right, sorry,” the host shrugged. “Anyway, let’s talk more about your new album, The Black Parade. You recorded it in this, like, haunted house, right?”

“Yeah, this place called the Paramour Mansion,” Ray nodded. “A few of us experienced some weird stuff while we were working on the album, actually. Mikey heard doors slamming themselves shut, and Y/N swears he saw something in the bathroom one night.”

“Oh, she did?” the host asked.

“He,” said Frank, narrowing his eyes.

“I’m sorry?” the host blinked. Why was she acting so confused? She had to be doing this on purpose.

He did,” Ray clarified.

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heechul x reader (request)

POV: Reader
Pairing: Heechul (Super Junior) x Reader
Rating: G
Comments: This might not be exactly what you wanted but it’s really muddy outside right now and I almost got stuck in my driveway of all places so this is what you get out of that life experience.

Summary: “i have a request for super junior Heechul. Please can it be a first date goes wrong and he tries to hide the fact that it is ?” - Anon

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anonymous asked:

Hi Ally!!! I saw the 106 fact about you on Twitter (the one about you being an Assistant Company Leader) and I practically screamed so loud that my fam was judging me hehe. I'm currently a Senior Patrol Leader for my Company and my batch only has 3 people (yes, 3 people leading the Company) and I would just like to ask *what activities did your company do to make trainings enjoyable?* (i currently face this prob ;-;) PS: I REALLY LOVE YOUR WORK <33

WEEPS BECAUSE THE POST TO GETTING CLOSE TO 800 LIKES AND I CAN’T THINK OF ANY MORE FACTS TO TWEET

OMGOSH THAT’S SO COOL HELLO SISTER GUIDE!!!!!!!!!!! lesser and lesser people are joining uniformed groups for their CCAs and it’s really sad i can see the number declining too but the experience is just irreplaceable!!!!

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Good *mornthing*

The van was late yet again, so I drove Youngest to school. We had a lovely time; I had cued up a Wintergatan playlist on my phone to listen to while making breakfast, and he liked it so much that we carried on listening all the way to school and talked about the ins and outs of building new musical instruments.

We were not the only ones doing a late dropoff. As I walked him in, there was an older Asian man walking several kids in. We held the door open for each other, and he watched the kids sign the Tardy list after I signed my lad in and sent him off to class.

Back in the car I sat for a few moments checking notifications. As I did, the man came out and climbed into his truck, which was parked in front of me - and as he did, I saw that he still had a new tag still hanging onto the back of his collar.

I turned on my car and pulled up next to him, waving for him to do the same, and called out, “your shirt still has a tag on.”

He misunderstood, and called back, “they are my friend’s children, I was dropping them off.”

“No, your shirt.” I grabbed my own shirt, and he mimicked me, looking puzzled. I reached back and patted the back of my neck. “You have a tag.”

He mimicked my gesture again, and his eyes got huge. He popped off the tag, stared at it, and burst out laughing. We laughed together and waved, wishing each other a great day, and I pulled out to head for home.

As I got to the road, though, I realized my neck was kind of itchy, and I rubbed it. I felt something just before I pulled my hand away. A tiny bit of lint? Sand? A flake of skin? I put my hand back and plucked put away to look at, and lo and behold!

A tick.

A teeny, tiny tick no bigger than the point of a pencil lead, sickly green with wiggly little legs. I pitched it out the window, came home, and showered like woah.

I regret, a little bit, pitching it. There was a little pinch when I pulled it off my neck. I’m going to have to have SALM check me for circles for the next few days, because I cannot see the back of my own neck.

Do you believe in fate, coincidence, karma? Higher powers, helpful spirits, guardian angels?

I wonder if I would have found the tick if I hadn’t taken the moment to help that man.

Hi.

UPDATED!!! LITTLE ROCK DRAG CLUB IS RACIST

im a local queer and trans black youth of color from Little Rock, Arkansas. Living in the deep south is hard enough as it is, and now we are struggling more due to racism being endorsed By Club SWAY within one of  our few local drag clubs.

Queen Anthony Gerard Wade Jr, who is employed as a Drag performer at Sway sparked a conflict when he (a cis white gay man) posted a photo of herself wearing box braids, calling herself an ebony enchantress, and claiming she was born in the wrong body (insinuating that he should have been born a black woman). This is the same statement Rachel Dolezal made when called out on her racism.

In response to being called out, Queen repeatedly asked the person (who identifies as non-binary) was asked if they were born a man or woman, and was referred to as “it” when corrected on misgendering the person.

In retaliation to being called out, the club Anthony works for posted a video of him impersonating a black woman (wearing box braids and performing to a black womans music) while smashing watermelon and eating off of the floor.

Many queer people of color found this video to be insulting, and felt as if Sway was just mocking the anger and struggles of poc. A protest was planned but later had to be cancelled due to safety issues after members of Sway and patrons threatened the organizer and members of the protest.

Soon after Sway posted an article featuring RuPaul titled “Straight people steal from gay culture and why educating youth is a waste of time” while Queen Anthony maintained the statement that he “doesn’t argue with children”

The Drag community is not what it once was. It was queer and trans people standing together in solidarity with people of color and those who meet at that intersection of identities against police brutality, racism, homophobia and transphobia. Never forget that the first person to throw a brick in the Stonewall Riots was a trans woman of color. The drag community in Arkansas is here for the sole purpose to appropriate mock black culture while making a profit off of it and ignoring the struggles that we face. 

this photo features another drag queen from little rock arkansas wearing crochet braids. The comment highlighted in red says “drag lives matter” to add insult to injury.

Never once has this club spoken out about the dozens, probably hundreds, of Black Trans Women who have been murdered this year. Nor have they spoken out against police brutality for killing more than ten queer and trans people of color this past year, the Flint Water Crisis, or about any other issues surrounding the Black Community.

As a queer person, a person of color, and a trans person never have I been more disappointed in the Queer community. Allowing these oppressive behaviors to be fueled and endorsed by “safe spaces” is not and will never be acceptable.


UPDATE:

conway pride- i went to conway pride- a parade for lgbtq folks in a city 45 minutes away from where sway is located. they were performing and during their performances one of the wigs came off and hit me in the face. not knowing what to do with it it was placed on the ground and then the performer “LadyBoi” came off the stage and got in my face threatening to fight me. as the situation was diffused queen anthony got on the mic and called me a bully to which the crowd cheered. we left the situation and recorded a live video. which can be found here (sorry we’re kinda hype) 


 On june 24,2016 we sat down with the two owners and queen anthony. the meeting lasted three hours with no resolution. i was consistently misgendered, ignored negated and even questioned. my first resolution was to have sway pull out of little rock pride, they did not want to do that so we changed our bottom line to if they want to go then they need to go through free anti-racism trainings and issue a public apology to the queer black community and pride and they refused. 


On october 16th, 2016 black lives matter little rock along with revolucion (a queer latinx group) banded together and we organized a direct action at Central Arkansas Pride against Club sway. we held our black lives matter sign in front of their float and chanted things such as “Racist Drag is Still Racist” and “Fuck You Sway, We Wont Go Away” and ended with the assata shakur chant from ‘a letter to my people’. As Revolucion performed they ended by holding up signs saying “Queer Latinx Undocumented Immigrant” which was our cue. we took the stage and were immediately met with resistance even though we had permission from the MC, Bob the Drag Queen. The DJ of pride ran over to us screaming and grabbing the mic from two black femmes. They turned the mic off, blared music, and booed us. They called the LRPD who escorted us off stage into the audience. Then the crowd began to hurl insults and boo and question us and some even got into verbal altercations that were escalating quickly. 

Then LRPD pulled tasers on the group and we were forcibly silenced. 

During the performances of Sway signs were held up to block them to which demonstrators were pushed out of the way. 

Share this post, Signal boost it, Write bad reviews on yelp and google about sway, don’t give them your money, message them and tell them how you feel! They cannot silence all of us. I am asking for you to show your support to the queer and trans poc community of Arkansas, and take a stand against racism within the queer community.

toukentime  asked:

Touken danshi are mysterious for sure! Do you swords age in human form? Are you fertile? Were you aware of anything before becoming human? So many questions!

Those of us who have been around he longest have yet to show any really visible signs of aging, but we’ve only held human form for a few short years. Maybe given more time we will notice some changes.

As for fertility…well, we haven’t really had a chance to figure that one out. Taichou is the only woman in the citadel and as her personal physician I can pretty safely say she isn’t…with child, I think is the term.

As for your last question, it’s a little different for all of us. I remember flashes of things from my time as a sword, including a few sensations such as…extreme heat. I’ve spoken with Honebami and Ichigo and a few other swords who suffered burns and it’s the same for them. Kashuu has a very strong memory of being broken at Ikedaya and doesn’t like talking about it. I’d never asked Horikawa if he remembers being tossed in the ocean. That seems…very personal. Others who did not suffer severe damage have more complete memories of their previous masters and experiences but no one has perfect recall.

anonymous asked:

This is the 2 apartment anon. I signed the lease agreement and then they called saying I didn't meet the income requirement and that I would need a guarantor. They sent the paperwork to my dad but he ended up not signing anything because we found a cheaper place. They put his financial info in anyway then approved my lease. I tried telling them I no longer wanted the apartment but they said that we are both still held liable because I signed the lease.

Gotcha!

Regardless, there was something your father needed to sign off on in order for them to run his financials. The fact that he chose not send in a form to them, and that they ran it anyway after you had already told them you weren’t interested, is super sketchy. SUPER sketchy. 

Call them again, and I would do it with your father in tow. He’s in this just as much as you are, and an irate parent on the phone does wonders with customer service. Really, it does. Tell them that you are not going to pay for this apartment, tell them that you found another apartment and you’re moving in. Tell them that you specifically called them and told them that you were not interested, and remind them that their running your father’s financials and processing a lease agreement was against your will. At that point, they have two options. 

One- They can let it go. This is the more likely options. They’ll see what a fuss you’re putting up, and they’ll find other tenants who are interested in moving in.

Two- They take you to court. This will cost them $$, and they’re already loosing money because you’re not paying them rent. Taking you to court could take MONTHS to be resolved, all the while they’re paying court fees as well as for a lawyer. I really don’t think they’ll choose to do this, because they did run your father’s financials without your permission, which will look bad legally.

A strong conversation telling them repeatedly “no” and standing your ground should do the trick. 

Please let me know what happens! 

3rd Jack- Requested

ANON:

“Hiiiii can I have an image?? Could it be about y/n finding out she is pregnant with Nates baby and they decided to put it up for adoption and have a really hard time with that? You can come up with the rest. Thanks 💗”

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“Nate, I’m pregnant” The words still hung in the air. We were on our way to his 23rd birthday party and I was tired of keeping the secret in and it had been complete silence since I dropped the baby bomb 5 minutes ago. Nate pulls into a Starbuck’s parking lot and shuts off the engine.

“I love you, Mama. But, I need time to think about this and my parents are going to be at the party, so we can’t discuss it now. Let’s hold off making any decisions for a bit. You are beautiful and I will support whatever you decide, but I just need some time to process.” He says in a shockingly calm voice. 

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I don’t remember much of that party and I don’t think Nate does either. The next couple of days, we talked about our baby a lot. How much it would cost, plans for the future, where we would live. We had decided that the answer was to raise it ourselves or give it up for adoption but couldn’t figure out the right decision. But today, the answer came. I got a letter in the mail from Oxford about a community service fellowship I applied for months ago. I hadn’t gotten approved then, but a spot opened up teaching English in Thailand for 6 months, something I had always talked about doing. I would have to leave everything behind in a year. Nate and I knew that me applying for this would mean long distance for us, but I could never leave a newborn for that long. I told Nate and he held my hand. We both agreed it was a pretty strong sign, and were leaning closer to adoption. 

That’s when the final push came. Nate’s loan for his recording company went through on the same day. He had acquired the building and the bank statement saying the company finances had been approved got delivered on our way to my Gynocologist appointment. We pull into the parking garage for the 3rd time this month and I look over at my amazing boyfriend. “This can’t be our child, Nate. We have too much going on. The baby needs parents who are going to be around for them, to raise them. I love you and this baby is going to be beautiful, but we can’t be their parents” I start crying softly and get out of the car.

He nods and comes over to pull me into his chest. “I know. I was thinking the same thing”. He rubs my back. “It’s just not our time. We will make it through the next 8 months or so together and I will support you every step of the way, but we aren’t at the parenthood stage yet. And, that’s okay” I sigh into him. He always knows exactly what to say. 

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After deciding to give up the baby, the rest of the pregnancy ran smoothly. I started prepping for Thailand and Nate began working on the new studio spaces at his company. We were busy. Nate would come home late at night and rub my feet and my belly with cocoa butter. He was so sweet and was constantly checking on me, even early on when no one else knew I was pregnant. 

I was in charge of a lot of the adoption paperwork. I looked through so many files and filled out so many forms. When one day, Nate and I found a perfect 35-year-old couple, Eric and Liz, who couldn’t have their own kids and wanted to start a family. We met with them a few times and they couldn’t stop talking about the future our baby would have with them and how much they were going to love it. They both came from big, fun families and were deeply saddened that they couldn’t have one of their own. 

Having such an inspiring set of people to give birth for made the rough 3rd trimester easier. I was huge and Nate had to do a lot for me around the apartment. I couldn’t wait to have my old body back, the ability to shave my own legs, the freedom to wear normal clothes. Nate promised we would go drink, have sushi and caffeine the night after I gave birth. 

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I was visiting Nate at the record company construction site on a hot day for fall when all of a sudden I was leaking. 

“Nate!” I called leaning on the window.

“Baby?” He said casually, coming up the stairs.

“Yes baby, here now!” I yelled, panicking slightly.

Nate was shocked, barely speaking and helped me to the car and over to the hospital. “Call Eric and Liz,” I say as I get whisked away. 

Nate held my hand the entire time. I made sure that he told the doctors not to put me on pain drugs. I wanted to do this the natural way. Nate and I made this baby beautiful and nothing was going to mess it up. I cried and screamed and Nate cried and then, at 4:20 am on September 15th, our baby boy was born. I looked into his eyes and saw Nate. He kissed me on the head and for a split second I forgot we weren’t going to be a family, that the sweet little angel sitting in my arms wasn’t going to come home with us. The nurses pulled him away and I started to cry. 

“I know Baby. I love him too” Nate rubs my arms as we watch the nurse hand him over to Eric and Liz, who fall in love with him as much as we had. I was so happy that I could do this for them, that something that started as a mistake could be something so pure and perfect and beautiful. Eric and Liz name the baby boy Jack and Nate and I smile at each other, the 3rd Jack in our lives. That was the last time we saw his big brown eyes and thick dark mop of hair. That was the last time we had a baby. 

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I had just flown back from Thailand. My time teaching was incredible and Nate had organized a welcome home party for me upon my return. I drove up to the park and our eyes meet. He runs over to the car and sweeps me into his arms. “Hey beautiful Mama” He kisses me and I melt. 

“Nate” I smile. We talked on the phone a lot and it took some time to get over the baby thing. Jack was such an important and stressful part of our lives for those months and then he was gone. I sigh as Nate and my niece chase after a few ducks as they eat up cake crumbs. He is so sweet. Sometimes when I see a little boy with dark eyes or see Nate playing with kids, I wonder if we made the right choice, if we should have taken parenthood on. I shake this thought fairly often, though, we made our decision and we move forward. 

Nate drives us home, back to the apartment I have missed so dearly, back to us. He opens the door and immediately, the sheer number of flowers amazes me.”Nate? What is this?” I look on the ceiling and there are thousands of pictures of us together hanging down on strings. He flicks a switch and little twinkle lights come on.

“Y/N I realized when we gave Jack up that I wanted so much more in this life than a recording studio with a view of downtown LA and a nice Jag for the weekend” He comes in and takes my hands. “I realized that for me to even have a shot at being happy from here on out, you have got to be around. You being away for 6 months just made me even more sure of how I feel about you. You’re it” I start crying and cover my face. “Our baby, though we gave it up, showed me that I wanted a family, but more importantly, it showed me that we already are a family. You are my home, my rock and I can’t ever be without you. I love you” He gets down on one knee and pulls out a tiny box. “Marry me, make us the family I know we already are”

“You perfect thing” I say, choking back embarrassing amounts of tears. I kiss him. “Of course, I’ll be your wife. I want nothing more than to have you as my family.” He slides the ring on my finger and I throw my arms around him. He runs to the window 

“Everyone! My fiance is home! That’s right LA! I’m engaged!” He calls out into the darkness. I laugh and shake my head. 

“Hey Fiance, come help me unpack” I smile as he turns around playfully and his eyes, Jack’s eyes, meet mine. What I loved most about that baby boy, I will now have for the rest of my life. 

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Hope you liked it! Sorry if the tenses got all weird in the middle. 

Jess


MASTERLIST

The Last Train (Part Three)

Originally posted by tekukii

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Summary: Waking up in Taehyung’s bed was just the beginning of your problems.

Pairing: Taehyung (V) x Female!Reader
Featuring:
Yoongi (Suga), Namjoon (Rap Mon), Hoseok (J-Hope), Jungkook
Genre: Fluff | Angst | Smut
Contains: explicit language, cheating, alcohol mention, emesis/vomiting mention
Word Count: 4.1k

Author’s Note: This was longer than I thought it’d be? And it didn’t end where I was expecting to leave it off either. Anyway, thank you sticking around to read all this. This story is kind of a vent story? I feel like I’m projecting some feelings onto BTS.


You carefully rolled over in bed, your body sore from last night. I can’t believe I missed the train last night. The space next to you was cold and empty. You opened your eyes and sat up. You checked to see if there was a nightstand next to you, hoping Taehyung would have put your glasses there. Thankfully there was a nightstand and that your glasses were neatly folded on top. You reached out to them and put them on.

This is the first time you’re actually able to examine the room with good lighting and good vision. The white walls were lined with black and white photos, probably taken and developed by Taehyung in his black and white photography class. By the door was a computer desktop, where Taehyung had folded your clothes and placed them on the chair. Across the room from the bed, that was in the corner, was a closet with sliding mirrors. In contrast to his personality, Taehyung’s room was pretty empty.

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Okay, so, there’s a story behind this lol

I have something called S.A.D and only after going to a new doctor after I moved cities was I finally diagnosed. However, since getting into the fandom, I’ve learned that Rob, who plays my favorite character, also has Anxiety. I never knew how to handle my anxiety until a young lady at a different convention once asked R2M how they keep from getting nervous for auditions or playing live. Rob gave some excellent advise; to embrace what you’re feeling so you can change that energy into something positive and use it to help you. I kinda paraphrased it with my quote, but it’s from a novel I’m writing which is filled with lessons I’ve learned from this wonderful cast.

Anyway, Rob was my very first photo op for the con, so needless to say, I was terrified he wouldn’t actually like his quote or he maybe wouldn’t understand it. I was shaking like a little leaf but I told myself to do exactly what my quote told me and stepped forward when it was finally my turn.

When Rob looked at me, I immediately lifted the sign up and as calmly and confidently as I could, I began to explain quickly,

“Hi. This is something I learned from you and it’s really helped me out. Would it be alright if we just held the sign up?”

Rob read it quickly and I watched him go from curious to extremely grateful and touched all at once. Honestly, I’ve never seen someone look so happy to read something and I nearly melted into a pile of cooing goo when Rob looked up at me and said in his squeaky and excited voice,

“Yeah! This is awesome! Thank you! Thank you so much!”

Now I’m always open for hugs so long as I know they’re coming, but when Rob and I closed in for the photo, he gave me what had to be one of the tightest hugs I’ve ever recieved. It only loosened just before Chris took our picture and as I started to leave (I fear those handlers lol) Rob took the opportunity to thank me so sweetly once again before I thanked him in return and dashed outta there.

tldr; Rob is the sweetest man alive and he gives amazing hugs when he knows he helped you somehow.

Sehun : Our Baby Boy [Request - Scenario]

“W-Where is Sehun?!” You asked – no, you shouted in fact with your hand desperately squeezing onto your best friend’s hand. “H-He’s at a fan signing event!” She replied you hurriedly, causing you to groan with your head falling back. You couldn’t wait any longer – it has to come out now.

After 9 months of carrying a life produced by you and the love of your life, Sehun, in your stomach – it was time for this little life in you to come out.

The two of you didn’t know whether it was a boy or a girl considering the two of you wanted it to be a surprise but considering Sehun wasn’t even here, it seems like you had to go in on your own.

“Ma’am, we have to put you in labor now.” The nurse was literally pressing on time and you grunted in pain, “Forget Sehun! I’ll be fine on my own!” You quickly breathed in and out after that, leaving your best friend there in the corridor when the nurses rushed you into the emergency room. It was just a regular day out with you and your best friend, a nice walk around the park but little did you know, your water broke and she rushed you straight towards the hospital after that.

Your best friend, immediately fished out her phone to dial Sehun’s number.

It rang for a while, but he answered. “Oh, yes?”

“Your wife is in labor!” She literally shouted over the phone and Sehun had dropped his pen. “What?!” He shouted in reply, shooting off his seat in an instant, leaving his fans to look at him worriedly.  Honestly, his fans supported his marriage with you and they even wished you the best. Of course there were a few fans who weren’t as nice as the ones who supported you but Sehun didn’t care. Getting married to you and having a baby with you was the best thing he could ever ask for but now you were in labor – in pain without him. He immediately looked over to his manager and his members were looking at him worriedly.

“Now?!” Sehun raised his voice, unable to hide the shock he received and your best friend scowled, “Get here now!”

“I-I can’t! I’m in the fan signing event now! It doesn’t end in a few hours! Are you in there with her?”

Your best friend groaned hopelessly, “She didn’t want me to go in with her, Sehun! You know she only wants you there with her now!” Your best friend was literally fighting for you but even she knew that you’d understand that Sehun couldn’t make it. But you would be very disappointed though because now, you were suffering in the emergency room.

“I want to be there so badly but I can’t!” Sehun cursed softly and kicked the table gently, causing the members to get up, walking over towards Sehun. “What’s wrong?” Suho was the first to ask and Sehun lost it, “My wife is in labor right now!”

“Oh God.” A few members mumbled softly, rubbing their hands together – they would want Sehun there too but he has to be here for at least a few hours before he could leave.

“Ah! I’m just going in there with her! You better get here as soon as you can leave the fan sign!” Your best friend huffed, hanging up as she shoved her phone into her pocket before she barged in the emergency room, putting on the gear she has to put on before she could stand beside you to let you hold onto her hand as you grunted in pain, literally forcing the life in your stomach to come out.

“Hello? Hello?! God damn it!” Sehun cursed, putting his phone back into his pocket as he sighed deeply.

“I talked to the manager, you can only leave after three hours, Sehun.”

Sehun groaned dejectedly, “Fuck.” He cursed softly, running his fingers through his hair. He shook his head, taking his seat back down in front of the fans who were worriedly staring at him. “O-Oppa, are you alright?” One of the girls asked meekly and flashed out a quick smile, “Y-Yes. Sorry to keep you waiting there. What’s your name?” Sehun picked up his pen, ready to sign whoever’s name she would say but honestly, Sehun’s mind was only filled with you and how much trouble he would be in for not being there with you because he would rather be with you now. He wanted to show you support, he promised you he’d be there but it looks like he broke his promise and even though he knew you’d understand – he feels terrible for it.

“Hang in there, baby.” He whispered to himself as he signed the albums.

 

“Before that, you can go ahead and see your child first, Mr. Oh.” The nurse told Sehun kindly, causing Sehun to part his lips. “Would you like to see your child first?”

Without hestitation, Sehun nodded his head.

As he entered the room filled with newborn babies, he was led to the one at the corner right. “Here’s your baby, Mr. Oh. He’s beautiful.”

Sehun’s heart leaped. “I-It’s a boy?”

Nodding once, the nurse flashed Sehun a smile. “Your wife is in ward 302. You may visit her too if you’d like.” Sehun thanked the nurse before she left him to be alone in the room. He bent over to stare at his son’s features. Even though his son was sleeping peacefully, he could analyze that he had your face structure while the baby had his lips. It was so cute, he thought. So beautiful, so pure…

In that moment, he planted a kiss on his finger, before he lightly patted it on the baby’s forehead. When the baby shifted, he jerked up, but calmed down when he noticed he was still soundly asleep. With that, Sehun smiled, “Looks like your name will be Oh Seon Jung.” He found himself noticing the baby had his lips curled up a little – as if he approved of the name.

Sehun was then reminded of his wife who was still in the ward alone – which was you. He hurriedly dipped down to just kiss the baby’s forehead with his lips before he left the room, searching for your ward.

Just as he opened the door, your head turned to the door weakly where you smiled at the sight of your husband. “Sehun…”

“I’m so sorry.” He quickly apologized, getting down to his knees as he held onto your hand. “We had a fan signing event and I tried to leave but they only allowed me to leave three hours after. I’m so sorry that you had to go through it alone. I’m-!”

“Shh…” You hushed him quietly, “What’s important is that you’re here…”

He gulped as he looked at you gratefully, how could he ever deny that you were the best thing that’s ever happened to him? Apart from his newborn son.

“Did you see him?” You asked him softly and Sehun nodded twice with a grin, “It looks like it’s going to be our little Seon Jung-ie.”

You smiled at him again and this time, you felt yourself closing your eyes to sleep. He hovered above you, planting a kiss on your forehead as he pushed your hair away from your forehead. “You must be tired…”

You gave a soft hum and he moved down to kiss your nose, “Sleep. When you wake up, I’ll be here.”

You simply gave a small smile, before you fell asleep. When you wake up, you’ll definitely reunite with Sehun, along with your newborn son.

[MAGAZINE INTERVIEW] 160319 MINO+TAEHYUN For April Issue of ELLE

MINO

You returned from China today, right? I heard that you are going to appear in the famous Chinese variety show, “Happy Camp”.

I was really worried to appear in a variety show at a place where I don’t understand the language fully but it was fun. Apparently, it is a show that only really famous people in China appear on. I was in a rush asking about a few words to the staff members and practicing them on the day before the recording. I think I did better than I expected. I even received compliments.

WINNER released the new album “EXIT: E” after 1 year and a half. How does it feel to promote a new album in such a long time?

We’re so busy to the point where we barely have time to sleep but we still enjoy it. When we held fan-signing events after releasing our album, I often received very sincere comments from our fans. Every time a fan told me that the songs I made helped them overcome their difficult times, I was very grateful and strengthened.

You appeared in “Show Me The Money 4” during the hiatus. During the whole time it aired, you were at the center of attention. Did you earn as much as the struggles you faced?

Of course. It was a very fulfilling and good experience. At first, I wondered if I could do well and if I only had things to lose and I worried about many different things. Honestly, it was so exhausting. But in hindsight, I think the times I found difficult are now meaningful memories. And I sometimes feel that I’ve matured through those experiences.

Aren’t you “hungry” for stages where you stand as the rapper Song Mino of that time?

It would be a lie to say I’m not greedy for that. I do my best to achieve the group’s harmony when I stand onstage as WINNER, however, I hope that I receive the opportunity to show everything about myself as a solo artist some day. As I work on group songs, I also work on solo songs. If CEO Yang grants me that opportunity, my bullets are ready (laughs).

You are seen as the most “manly man” of the group but there are many times you are “mischievous” behind the scenes.

I joke around a lot. I used to fool around so much but as I grew older, I’ve become sensitive and not as talkative. But whenever I’m in a good mood, I become limitlessly elated and jump around a lot. I’m the type of person to be positive in whatever situation I face. If I fall depressed just because I’m tired, it’ll only make me suffer and I won’t be able to progress.

I heard that you’re very sociable. What kind of people do you enjoy spending time with?

I’m very certain about that: Fun people! When I look at the people I’m close with, they’re all fun. I like people who are funny, witty, and have unique individuality. I love crazy people (laughs).

What about Nam Taehyun, who you had this photoshoot with? Do you two hit it off well?

Yes, I think our “chemistry” is good. Out of the group members, I think he and I have energetic exchanges. We sometimes drink (alcohol) together at the dorm. Taehyun is very curious. He sometimes seems like a little boy. So I watch over him like a parent. Whenever he looks like he’s about to fall while he’s playing, I hold him upright.

“Pricked” is a song that Song Mino composed and wrote the lyrics for and Nam Taehyun sang in it. I felt that this song was the most emotional song in the album.

I made the original song called “Madman” during “WIN”, but while I was working on our album, I opened it, erased all of it, and wrote it again. At the time, I was slightly gloomy so I tried to express that gloominess as deeply as possible and lyrically as well. I even turned off the lights and worked on it to focus on the emotion. After I was done, I made Taehyun listen to it because I thought his voice would suit it and he really liked it. He recorded it right away and his voice did suit the song, as expected.

You even personally drew the album art for “Pricked”. You have lots of interest in art, don’t you?

I love looking at drawings and drawing. When I was young, during the time everyone else was studying, I doodled at my desk and even after I became WINNER I’ve steadfastly continued to draw. Just recently, I saw the artworks by the Korean artist Jang Youngwon at an art exhibition in Kyungi-do and I found them fresh. He usually does collage artworks but he had exhibited installation art.

Do you have any new hobbies or is there anything you recently became interested in?

Up until some time ago, I was able to count how many books I’ve read with one hand but I have fallen into a new world with reading. I went to a bookstore at the start of the year and I bought Higashino Keigo’s “The Murder in Mansion Masquerade”, and I really enjoyed it. After that, I picked up the book called, “The 100-year-old Man Who Climbed Out the Window and Disappeared”, which was gifted by a fan, and I seriously felt like I experienced a new world. I found that reading [novels] has a charm different from movies and paintings. I found the variety of expressive sentences really refreshing. I’m planning to read more books. I write in my journal every day too. I felt like I let go of things that are important since I have bad memory.

How does it feel to live as a singer signed under YG Entertainment? I think it would feel like being inside a firm fence but also being on a battlefield between talented artists.

It is very competitive. Especially because almost all the artists write their own music, it can’t be helped but to be wary of each other. However, the pride and the sense of belonging in YG is very powerful. When I was in high school, I was a trainee at a small company but now I debuted and I’m promoting as WINNER under YG, so a lot of things have changed in my life.

Even if you say that it is your dream to live a life where you make music and compete through music, do you ever feel burdened?

When I was young, I loved that [idea] so I faced all the music that I looked for as “work” so there are times now when I feel regret. When I was struggling a lot during album preparations and when I appeared on “Show Me The Money 4”, I found myself not listening to the music that was associated with those times. But that didn’t last for long. I love music and I’ll think of music as my work until I die. There are many things I haven’t achieved as a member of WINNER. I want to experience more things from now on and I want to receive more attention and love. I think my members will think the same. All of us are bundles of ambition (laughs).

I heard that WINNER will appear in the upcoming JTBC variety show “Half-moon Friends” that will air its first episode in April. Can you tell us a few more details?

Us WINNER members will become kindergarten teachers to children who usually spend their days alone. I don’t have much experience in spending time with babies and children but I like young children so I think I’ll be able to do anything for them. I want to make memories with them that will be unforgettable for all of us and I think I will receive a lot of things through the children as well.

TAEHYUN

The album tracklist is filled with the members’ names but your name is written the most. It seems like you worked hard in making music [during the hiatus].

It wasn’t my intention to put as many of my songs in the album. If I like to draw, I’m the type of person to be satisfied only after drawing with my own hand. I like to listen to music so I started to write music and because I enjoyed and had fun making music, I ended up working on many songs. I enjoy sharing the music I make with my family and my friends but having my songs go up and down the music charts and having numerous people listen to them makes me overwhelmed and thankful.

I heard that you made the title track “Sentimental” while playing with Song Mino.

As usual, I was working while playing the guitar and because the other members had gone home, I was alone with Mino-hyung. It was late at night so we were having some beer and talking about this and that. We started talking about being “sentimental”. I often find inspiration within words. I suddenly became interested in that word “sentimental”. I wrote the song with the emotion we felt in that moment as the foundation.

Do you often feel “sentimental”?

Yes, I do. Since I enjoy being alone more than being in loud and noisy places with many people, I think I am often sentimental or often become immersed in emotions.

What do you do when you’re alone?

I usually listen to music. Because I prefer the analog style, I listen to music on LPs often. Recently, a fan gifted me a LP of Kim Kwangsuk-sunbaenim’s album. I know that it is hard to acquire it so I am really thankful. The other day, I was at Dongmyo because of a shoot and I found an audio store on the verge of collapsing in a secluded alley, away from people. The atmosphere I felt was really mystical. I bought a turntable there and because it’s really old, it costed more to fix it. Because the amp and interlocker I had didn’t work, I went shopping for components. I just very recently finished setting it up. Thanks to the all these happenings, I’m really enjoying listening to music.

I saw you take out your portable speaker and playing music during the photoshoot.

I always bring my portable speaker to photoshoots. I found that when music I like is playing during photoshoots, I am more comfortable and I have more fun. Today I played the Beatles, country music, blues music, and songs of that style. I listen to these genres of music a lot these days.

You currently appear in “Actor School”. Isn’t the tiger-like teacher scary?

Are you talking about Teacher Park Shinyang (laughs)? It’s slightly different from scary. He doesn’t yell or shout. He is really a perfectionist. He makes you choose your words very carefully. I like that we don’t have to force ourselves to laugh because it’s a variety show. I’m really bad at forcing myself to laugh.

Because you’ve experienced an acting controversy before, you must have needed special courage to choose to appear on the show.

When I received information about the show, I liked the objectives and I thought that it was an opportunity I needed. When I was swept up in the “controversy”, I was drowning in thoughts but above everything, I was embarrassed that I took part in a drama when I was not prepared. I wanted to learn properly so I am doing “Actor School” with a genuine heart. I am certain that the show will be one of the most significant learning opportunities of my life.

I was surprised that you personally brought color lenses after seeing the draft proposal. I feel like you are a very passionate person.

I like to try things out. Maybe it’s toughness? Courage? When people say, “I don’t think this will work” or “This isn’t safe. I’m not going to do it,” I do everything. Naturally, I get scared but no one knows what will happen in the end. I want to create room as much as I can for possibility. I think that for people like us who do this job, we shouldn’t limit ourselves.  

Where does that mentality of welcoming challenges come from?

I think it’s mostly because of the environment I grew up in. From when I was young, I spent much of my time alone and I liked different things compared to the kids my age. When I was in elementary school, my friends liked mangas and robots but I really liked subways. I liked them because when I go to a different station and a different exit, I see a world different from the one I know. I used to ride the bus alone and go to the last stop. I didn’t trap myself in the usual boundaries, instead I made it a habit to absorb and accept different things. Because of this, I think I have a wider range of feeling happiness compared to other people.

What does the combination of Song Mino and Nam Taehyun entail in WINNER?

When there is darkness, there is light. I think we’re that kind of combination. Mino-hyung and I have very different aspects. If you think of me as being introverted, Mino-hyung is extroverted. Even when you look at our looks, if you see me as having a soft image, Mino-hyung’s face lines are thick. When we sing, hyung’s voice is low while I often use a soft tone. In those ways, I think we complement each other. And even though Mino-hyung looks manly, he’s actually very cute. He’s a person with many reversals.

The teamwork of the five members must have improved as you spent more time together.

Because each of us have such different inclinations, when we first gathered, we creaked and squeaked, but now, we bring each of our charms and become harmonious together. When I take a song I make to them, even if it may be a song that’s lacking, my members immerse themselves in it with passion. I want WINNER to be a group that creates heartfelt music instead of a group that follows the trend. And I hope that people recognise that some day. I wish we become a group that walks slowly and steadily.

What about Nam Taehyun’s personal goal?

Looking in the long term, I hope that I don’t lose the drive and passion I have now. I still find it embarrassing and shameful to say that I’m a singer and an idol with my own mouth. I want to become an artist who is acknowledged and known by others without me having to tell them. I think that’s my goal.

Just like “Empty” and “Sentimental”, how would you express your current state of emotion with one word? 

Tired (laughs)?

When was the last time you said, “I love you”?

It’s been a long time since I said that. I hope that I’m put in a situation where I can say that!

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