we heart allah

‏اللهم طهر قلوبنا من النفاق وأعمالنا من الرياء وألسنتنا من الكذب وأعيننا من الخيانة فإنك تعلم خائنة الأعين وما تخفي الصدور.

Oh Allah, purify our hearts from hypocrisy, our deeds from riya (showing off), our tongues from lying, our eyes from treachery. Surely, You know the treachery of the eyes and what the chests conceal.

& there we were.. in the coldest nights, in the darkest hours, praying to Allah for help and for mercy.. we connected to our Lord through our hearts and our tears, and we broke in His Hands because we knew there was nothing as strong to keep it together in our most fragile moments. The only thing that kept us in one piece around people was Allah’s mercy holding our back bone.. reminding us we weren’t alone. The comfort that the One who created everything in this worthless yet incredible world told me how important I was.. and that I would be helped. How could that not give me relief? And He was there when I cried, He listened to the unspoken words of my broken soul, He saw me in my darkness when nobody else did. And Allah Almighty gave me light, He pulled me out of my misery. He gave me all that I loved and asked, that I waited so patiently for. But then what had happened when I was given the blessings of my Lord.. I became forgetful. My connection had less passion, more routine.. My world became more full of the dunya I was gifted, not Allah who had given it. So I sit with a heart full of sadness.. and wonder where my passion went. And I truly understand now when they say that being broken is a blessing because Allah wants you to turn to Him. Allah wants you to be close to Him. Allah wants to help you.. most don’t understand this because most don’t truly turn to him. I did.. & I’m one to tell you that not all sad stories needs to be ones that always makes you cry or sad when you hear them. The sad stories that are connected with God are the ones that make you grateful, that open parts of you that you didn’t know existed.. that crack you out of your shell.. that help you stretch your wings and fly. I am truly grateful for the hardship that I spent curing myself spiritually with the help of Allah Almighty. Because spiritually, I don’t think I’ve ever been so high. I don’t think I’ve ever been so full of determination. I don’t think there was a time in my life I was so broken, but so full..
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The fear, love, consciousness of Allah and everything else Taqwa entails is the solution to all of our problems. Some of the fruits of Taqwa are:

وَمَنْ يَّـتَّـقِ اللّٰهَ يَجْعَلْ لَّهٗ مَخْرَجًاۙ

And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out {65:2}

وَمَنْ يَّـتَّـقِ اللّٰهَ يَجْعَلْ لَّهٗ مِنْ اَمْرِهٖ یُسْرًا

And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him of his matter ease. {65:4}

وَمَنْ يَّـتَّـقِ اللّٰهَ يُكَفِّرْ عَنْهُ سَيِّاٰتِهٖ وَيُعْظِمْ لَهٗۤ اَجْرًا

And whoever fears Allah - He will remove for him his misdeeds and make great for him his reward. {65:5}


It’s never easy to stand when the storm hits. As soon as it starts raining, lightening shortly follows. Dark clouds replace the sun and all you can see are the waves of an ocean, once calm, surrounding you. No longer able to find your way, you reach out for help.

You begin by calling the coast guard. No reply. You try again to redirect the boat. No use. You look for the lifeboat. It’s gone. You reach for a life jacket. Torn. Finally after you’ve exhausted every means, you turn your face upward.

And ask God.

However, there’s something completely unique about this moment. At this instant, you experience something you otherwise could only theorize about: true tawheed. Oneness. See, on shore, you may have called on God. But you called on Him along with so many others. You may have depended on God. But you depended on Him along with so many other handholds. But for this singular moment, everything else is closed. Everything. There is nothing left to call on. Nothing left to depend on. But Him.

And that’s the point.

Do you ever wonder why when you’re most in need, every door you seek of the creation remains closed? You knock on one, but it’s slammed shut. So you go to another. It’s also shut. You go from door to door, knocking, pounding on each one, but nothing opens. And even those doors you had once depended on, suddenly shut. Why? Why does that happen?

See, we humans have certain qualities which God knows well. We are constantly in a state of need. We are weak. But, we are also hasty and impatient. When we are in trouble, we will be pushed to seek assistance. And that’s the design. Why would we seek shelter if it’s sunny and the weather is nice? When does one seek refuge? It is when the storm hits. So Allah subahanahu wa ta`ala (exlated is He) sends the storm; He makes the need through a created situation, so that we will be driven to seek shelter.

But when we do seek assistance, because of our impatience, we seek it in what is near and what seems easy. We seek it in what we can see and hear and touch. We look for shortcuts. We seek help in the creation, including our own selves. We look for help in what seems closest. And isn’t that exactly what dunya (worldly life) is? What seems near. The word ‘dunya’ itself means ‘that which is lower’. Dunya is what seems closest. But, this is only an illusion.

There is something closer.

Think for a moment about what’s nearest to you. If asked this question, many would say it is the heart and the self that are nearest. But, Allah (swt) says:

It was We Who created man, and We know what dark suggestions his nafs (self) makes to him: for We are nearer to him than (his) jugular vein.” (Qur’an, 50:16)

In this verse, Allah (swt) begins by showing us that He knows our struggles. There is comfort in knowing that someone sees our struggles. He knows what our own self calls us to. But He is closer. He is closer than our own self and what it calls for. He is closer than our jugular vein. Why the jugular? What is so striking about this part of us? The jugular vein is the most important vein that brings blood to the heart. If severed, we die almost immediately. It is literally our lifeline. But Allah (swt) is closer. Allah (swt) is closer than our own life, than our own Self, than our own nafs. And He is closer than the most important pathway to our heart.
In another verse, Allah (swt) says:

O ye who believe! give your response to Allah and His Messenger, when He calleth you to that which will give you life; and know that Allah cometh in between a man and his heart, and that it is He to Whom ye shall (all) be gathered.” (Qur’an, 8:24)

Allah (swt) knows we have a nafs. Allah knows we have a heart. Allah knows that these things drive us. However Allah tells us that He is closer to us than even these. So when we reach for other than Him, we are not only reaching for what is weaker, we are also reaching past what is closer, for what is further and more distant. Subhan Allah (Glory be to God).

So since this is our nature, as Allah (swt) knows best, He protects and redirects us by keeping all other doors of refuge closed during the storm. He knows that behind each false door is a drop. And if we enter it, we will fall. In His mercy, He keeps those false doors closed.

In His mercy, He sent the storm itself to make us seek help. And then knowing that we’re likely to get the wrong answer, He gives us a multiple choice exam with only one option to choose from: the correct answer. The hardship itself is ease. By taking away all other hand-holds, all other multiple choice options, He has made the test simple.

It’s never easy to stand when the storm hits. And that’s exactly the point. By sending the wind, He brings us to our knees: the perfect position to pray.

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surah al-alaq - verse 14

Allah (swt) is watching over us, all the time, out of His care for us. And this should have a profound effect on the way we live.

One of things that should warm our hearts when we know Allah is ar-Raqeeb (the all-Observant) is that we are never, ever alone. When we are up late at night working on an essay, or awake in the early hours of the morning getting ready for work, Allah is with us.