we havent spoken in a while

The Party

Sirius Black x Reader

My heart was beating faster and faster as we walked into the family home of the Blacks. I glanced nervously at the crowd .


I hated these pureblood parties that my parents dragged me to. They were excrutiatingly boring, and so dull. The pureblood families got together every now and then to brag about their riches and accomplishments. Boring stuff. And it was another excuse for parents to find suitable brides and grooms for their children.

My eyes went through the crowd of people, searching for just one face.

Eventhough I shouldnt be doing that.

Its been over a month since I last saw him, and we had had an awful fight  before vacation began. He didnt even write to me. And his silence just drove me mad.

I found myself in the huge dining room. The long table was laid out with lots of food, and people were already sitting around it, talking and eating.

Thats when I saw him.

Sitting at the table, with a bored expression. Leaning back lazily on his chair. He saw me and sat up straight, running his fingers through his silky black hair.

“Y/N ! Come on now !”

My mother’s sudden appearence startled me. I stood staring at her with a hand against my chest.

“What is it, dear ? ” she asked, seeing my expression.

“You scared me, Mum !” I said, as she took my hand and led me towards the table.

Most of the seats were taken, except for one where my mother sat, and two others on either sides of Him.

Sirius Black had that smirk on his face now. He knew I will have to sit next to him.

“Sit !” Mum urged me, as I hesitated.

This is going to be a long night, I thought as I walked up to the empty seat and sat. He looked at me, and I just gave a nod of acknowledgment.

Sirius and I were pretty close. We were very much inseparable. We have been together for 3 years now, and he still gave me butterflies in my stomach.

We had quite a nasty fight about a month before school closed for summer. I happened to see a Ravenclaw girl pushing him against a wall like she owned him, and trying to kiss him. I was way beyond jealous, and we got into a fight. I knew it wasnt him who did anything. But I  didnt see him pushing her away either. I was just too heartbroken to reason with anything. And we havent spoken since. He tried while at school. But I didnt give in.

I tried my best, but I just couldnt resist sneaking glances at him. Both of us played with our food. I took ocassional bites to satisfy my mother, who was eyeing me from across the table.

Just as I was about to put the spoon to my mouth, I felt his hand on my knee. I dropped my spoon and it hit the plate with a loud clang. Several guests looked up at me, and Mum was glowering.

“Alright there, sweetheart ?” she asked in a sickly sweet tone.

I nodded, and I felt his fingers tighten around my knee. I bit my lip, not knowing what to do. I grabbed my goblet and took a big sip of water.

His hand slid up.

Thank god for the elaborate and frilly table cloth !

“Sirius, dont you dare !” I hissed at him, swatting his hand away.

He smirked again.

An old wizard sitting next to Sirius’ father Orion Black, asked him something. Sirius turned to face him, and spoke. His fingers were still stroking my thigh, and it was sending shivers down my spine. I put a hand over his, and squeezed it, to stop his fingers from moving. He continued talking with the man, as his fingers slowly intertwined with mine.

I missed this boy. I missed the way he touched me, and said my name. I missed everything about him.

As I felt a heaviness in my heart, he moved his hand again. My stomach did flips at that. I knew this wont go well here.I held his hand again, and moved it away from my leg.

I got up.

Excusing myself, I almost ran out of the dining room.

It was my first time in his house, so I didnt know where to go. I just went up the stairs, and found a door that opened into a small balcony. I stood, with my hands on the railings, breathing heavily.

I didnt know how I managed without him for this long. I couldnt do it anymore. I needed him. I needed Sirius Black.

Just as tears began to sting my eyes, I felt a pair of arms around my waist, and Sirius’ scent filled my nostrils. He pulled me against his firm chest, kissing the back of my neck. I just held his hands to me tightly, not wanting him to let go.

“You’re bad Sirius Black” I said.
“You’re so bad”

“Im sorry, Princess” he said, and turned me around to face him.

“Forgive me”

He leaned forward to kiss me, and he lifted me off the floor. I pulled away, hearing some footsteps.

“Someone will see us ” I said, looking over his shoulder.

“Come on” Sirius said, taking my hand.

We ran up the stairs. And he opened a door, pulling me in with him. And I immediately knew it was his room.
Before I could actually take a look at it, he pushed me against his door, and kissed me again.

“Owww” I said against his lips, making him laugh. He moved his lips down to my neck.

“Sirius ! Our parents are downstairs !” I said, pushing him away.

“So what ?!” he said, grabbing me again.

“No !!” I said as he came forward again.

He stopped, and pouted.

“Where have you been ? Did you even bother to write to me ?!” I asked.

“Im sorry Y/N!” Sirius said, looking defeated. “I didnt know what to do ! You wouldnt even look at me ! Besides, homes been hell -”

I knew what it was like for him, and I felt bad for being so hard on him.

“Please, Y/N?” Sirius said, takng my hand in his, and kissing it.

“I missed you, idiot” I said, hugging him.

Sirius smiled and pressed his lips to mine again. His hands arms came around my waist, pulling me closer to him.

“I love you, baby” he said, kissing my nose.
“I love you too ” I said, smiling.

                               * * *

I stood in front of his mirror, fixing my hair, as he sat, watching me.

He strolled towards me slowly, with a sad look on his face.

“ I dont want you to leave” he said, standing behind me, with his hands on my waist. “Lets run away”

I turned around and kissed his cheek,laughing.

“We might have to” I said, and put on my shoes.

“Just a month more till school starts” I said, and went to the door. “Love you, Black”

                                * * *

“Where have you been, Y/N !” Mum hissed as she saw me.

“Umm…bathroom” I said, shrugging.

“Come here ! There is something important” said Mum, grabbing my arm and leading me into the dining area.

“Found her, have you ?” Walburga Black was speaking to my Mum.

“This is her” Mum said, giving me a little push.

“Hmm” Walburga said, as she touched my cheek, trying to bring out a smile. “She is perfect !”

I stood staring at Sirius’ mother.

“Ah ! There ! SIRIUS !” she bellowed, making me jump. I turned to see Sirius looking at us with wide eyes.

I was sweating now. Shit, have they found out about us ?!, I thought, my heart racing.

Sirius came to us slowly. He looked at me cautiously.

“Mary, I hope you’ve met my son before, Sirius ” Walburga said, and Mum nodded, smiling at Sirius.

I felt another hand on my shoulder, and turned to find my Dad, smiling down at me. Why were they all so happy ?

“I think its time to tell them, Orion.” He said. Sirius’ father nodded and looked at his wife.

“Well, we have decided to join the Y/L/N and the Black family ” Walburga began. “And as the two of you are so well suited for eachother…”

Sirius and I stood frozen.

Is this for real ?!

“The wedding will be soon after your education at Hogwarts is complete !” Mum added happily, smiling at Walburga.

Sirius and I exchanged glances, still unable to react.

Walburga came forward to hug me.

“Welcome to the family, Y/N” she said, struggling to bring about a smile.

Sirius finally smiled as my parents embraced him.

“I think this is great !” Mum exclaimed. “We have so much to do now !!”

Just as our parents began their own conversations, Sirius looked at me.

“I cant believe it ” I said.

He laughed.

I had to join in. Sirius put his arm aound me, kissing my forhead.

Maybe this wasnt such a bad party, after all.

all yall whos ever been nice 2 me………… i never forget anything like that and ily even if we havent spoken in a while. i wish i knew you guys irl and could properly thank you for treating me w kindness. its hard to come across nice things in the world and i love all the nice things you guys bring forward. you are valuable to planet earth and you’re cool and good.

anonymous asked:

Daddy Dara, help, im in my first same sex relationship, second total, and my gf and I havent spoken in weeks... It's long distance, open relationship, and she's had her eyes on a coworker for a while and I know she's been pursuing him but i feel sorta neglected and i almost wanna break up with her cuz we dont agree on a lot of stuff idk help me Dara... :(((

if you want me to be blunt, it sounds to me like this relationship just isn’t going to work out. that might be the hard truth, but truth nonetheless.

if you’re getting thoughts of breaking up, that’s a sign to let the relationship’s light flicker out. this is just you’re second relationship, so even though this one doesnt seem to be working out, don’t give up hope okay?

maybe your next relationship will be the perfect one for you. and don’t rush into a relationship by all means. it’s okay to take things at a slower pace, and some advice for future relationships (ESPECIALLY long distance)

Communication is very important. if there’s a problem, talk to your partner. if something makes you uncomfortable, talk to them. work it out. if it’s meant to be, you’ll find a way to make it work.

just remember, relationships are work. they’re not always easy, they aren’t always love and happiness and all the great glorified stuff you hear about. relationships are a lot of effort from both parties. 

TL;DR….. you should probably end this relationship before you get too emotionally involved and ends up hurting you more than it should have. the next one will be better, my child. 

feel free to come to me for any more help/questions <3



Hello everyone. 2016 was a good year to me and i decided to make a thank you post for everyone who made my 2016 as good as it was despite all the shit that happened. if i forgot anyone im deeply sorry.

here we go :

Fave Phan blogs of 2016 –thank you for all the phan content on my dash-:

@dil-no, @angel-bean-d-slice, @internetcultleader

Fave non-kpop blogs of 2016 – thank you so much for bringing some aesthetically pleasing content and info to my dashboard- :

@beeclub, @rnashallah, @baesmillah, @softporn, @htttps.

Fave source blogs of 2016 –aka the blogs I rely on heavily and I thank you so much for uploading so much and keeping me in the loop of info and fantaken photos- :

@fyseokmin , @cottoncandycarat, @purplegirl-stuff, @int-carats, @what17says

Fave girl group blogs –tbh I need more girl group love in 2017- thank you for always reblogging and posting amazing girl group content :

@kgirlsquad, @eunjiyas.

Fave writers/fic blogs of 2016 –I love every single piece you wrote I adore you and you guys are my role model! Thank you for the amazing fics-:

@svtnimagines, @17mounteens, @vixx17andbtsimagines, @svt-husbands,

@horoscoups //I honestly didn’t know in what category to put you I hope you don’t mind//.

Fave humorous kpop blogs of 2016 –honestly your memes/jokes got me laughing in bad days thank you-:

@luvmyfunnykpop, @incorrect7teen, @amemericans, @lolfunnykpop.

Fave blogs of 2016, senpais, friends, gif makers, the blessing of fandoms and more –thank you so much for filling and brightening my day and dash you are amazing and you look beautiful every single day, 17/10 blogs would always recommend–:

@jejuboos, @floraljeonghan, @zeungkwan@bijoujisoo, @kimbap-uh-kidding, @youngmangos, @amillionwon, @starryjunhui, @jackoffjae, @honeyboobooseungkwan, @mangopixies, @vitaminhoshi, @wooziology, @hannie-jars, @wonnhao, @chasingyoungjae, @mc-gyu, @minghaeo, @lilchubchim, @c0ups, @converseconvict, @danisnotonnfire, @hanwooz, @eatmark, @seungkvvan, @leehongbins, @ottokaji-vixx, @actualminghao, @sandeulsbeautifultarget, @j-holy, @awwfuckno, @hypertone, @haramqueen, @merribaozy, @influentyeol, @cutiepatoodie, @linnilinh, @once-upon-a-nugget, @of-yehets-and-ohorats, @vitaminniedk, @eetjin, @junhan, @hughosh.

Fave followes of 2016, in 2016 ive gained over 120 new followers and tbh you guys made my year and I love you dearly:

@grapefruit-kwan, @tea-tiffuku, @mingyoose, @suni-hye, @angelyoons, oetori137, @chentangled, @golden-boo, @tsunderetrashheap, @red-raindrops, @ttamagucci, @crumbsyboo, @williane18, @boo-dynasty, @c0unter-fucks, @ink7, @floweringstarlight.

Fave people I met on tumblr 2016, I would like to take the time to thank them personally so if you wanna continue reading it will be under the cut:

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anonymous asked:

there's this boy i've had a lil crush on for a long time , havent seen him in a while, and i think i saw him ride his bike past me yesterday but i'm not sure because i was scared to look.. oh goodness, he is gorgeous! really soft spoken and gentle and lovely. i've known him for a few years but we've barely spoken and sometimes made awkward eye contact and smile. he makes my stomach go all weird

this is cute, bub you gotta make a move though! pinning is great and all but imagine the hugs and the kisses!!! be brave and he sounds lovely!!

jeonu  asked:

👡, 🍦, 🎀, 🍉, 🍓 I love Chan's little puff :')

👡 - you’re pretty
🍦 - your blog is great
🎀 - you make me smile
🍉 - i wanna talk to you more
🍓 - i wanna get to know you better

hi wonwoo’s other half we havent spoken in a while!! that needs 2 change :/ n wow rina right back at u.. one of the most gorgeous people on here n not 2 mention also one of the most gorgeous blogs.. i lov our conversations together whenever we get the chance to have any.. thank u so much for sending this in i lov uuuu but just remember we’ll always be together in spirit as long as we have wonchan interactions kkkkkk

hey so 2*16 is almost over and i wanted to make something to let u all know how much i love and appreciate all of you… i know im not the best mutual im not very interactive and i dont shut up about zion.t but youre all still following me anyways so thank u !!! i care about u all a whole lot and i really wish the best for everyone in 2017 !! 💖💐

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Happy 5th birthday to my blog!

ok so my blog turned 5 and i wanted to make a little appreciation post because i love you and your blogs all so much, i’ve changed fandoms and urls so much in the past five years but most of you have stayed and i met so many new people and i became such good friends with a lot of you and you’re all amazing!!! (i put it under a cut bc it got way longer than intended whoops)

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anonymous asked:

I love you and I hope youre safe. We havent spoken in a while.

This is so sweet. Who is this? You should message me! And thank you! :) I probably love you too, but I’d have to know who you are first

merry christmas/happy holidays!!! it’s been a crazy year, and since everyones been making these, i wanted too also! thank you to all the amazing mutuals new and old! sorry if we havent spoken in a while, im awkward but i still love you! and im sorry if i forgot anyone, this was especially hard with the url changes, just know that if i follow you, i love your blog! <3

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