My heart was beating faster and faster as we walked into the family home of the Blacks. I glanced nervously at the crowd .
I hated these pureblood parties that my parents dragged me to. They were excrutiatingly boring, and so dull. The pureblood families got together every now and then to brag about their riches and accomplishments. Boring stuff. And it was another excuse for parents to find suitable brides and grooms for their children.
My eyes went through the crowd of people, searching for just one face.
Eventhough I shouldnt be doing that.
Its been over a month since I last saw him, and we had had an awful fight before vacation began. He didnt even write to me. And his silence just drove me mad.
I found myself in the huge dining room. The long table was laid out with lots of food, and people were already sitting around it, talking and eating.
Thats when I saw him.
Sitting at the table, with a bored expression. Leaning back lazily on his chair. He saw me and sat up straight, running his fingers through his silky black hair.
“Y/N ! Come on now !”
My mother’s sudden appearence startled me. I stood staring at her with a hand against my chest.
“What is it, dear ? ” she asked, seeing my expression.
“You scared me, Mum !” I said, as she took my hand and led me towards the table.
Most of the seats were taken, except for one where my mother sat, and two others on either sides of Him.
Sirius Black had that smirk on his face now. He knew I will have to sit next to him.
“Sit !” Mum urged me, as I hesitated.
This is going to be a long night, I thought as I walked up to the empty seat and sat. He looked at me, and I just gave a nod of acknowledgment.
Sirius and I were pretty close. We were very much inseparable. We have been together for 3 years now, and he still gave me butterflies in my stomach.
We had quite a nasty fight about a month before school closed for summer. I happened to see a Ravenclaw girl pushing him against a wall like she owned him, and trying to kiss him. I was way beyond jealous, and we got into a fight. I knew it wasnt him who did anything. But I didnt see him pushing her away either. I was just too heartbroken to reason with anything. And we havent spoken since. He tried while at school. But I didnt give in.
I tried my best, but I just couldnt resist sneaking glances at him. Both of us played with our food. I took ocassional bites to satisfy my mother, who was eyeing me from across the table.
Just as I was about to put the spoon to my mouth, I felt his hand on my knee. I dropped my spoon and it hit the plate with a loud clang. Several guests looked up at me, and Mum was glowering.
“Alright there, sweetheart ?” she asked in a sickly sweet tone.
I nodded, and I felt his fingers tighten around my knee. I bit my lip, not knowing what to do. I grabbed my goblet and took a big sip of water.
His hand slid up.
Thank god for the elaborate and frilly table cloth !
“Sirius, dont you dare !” I hissed at him, swatting his hand away.
He smirked again.
An old wizard sitting next to Sirius’ father Orion Black, asked him something. Sirius turned to face him, and spoke. His fingers were still stroking my thigh, and it was sending shivers down my spine. I put a hand over his, and squeezed it, to stop his fingers from moving. He continued talking with the man, as his fingers slowly intertwined with mine.
I missed this boy. I missed the way he touched me, and said my name. I missed everything about him.
As I felt a heaviness in my heart, he moved his hand again. My stomach did flips at that. I knew this wont go well here.I held his hand again, and moved it away from my leg.
I got up.
Excusing myself, I almost ran out of the dining room.
It was my first time in his house, so I didnt know where to go. I just went up the stairs, and found a door that opened into a small balcony. I stood, with my hands on the railings, breathing heavily.
I didnt know how I managed without him for this long. I couldnt do it anymore. I needed him. I needed Sirius Black.
Just as tears began to sting my eyes, I felt a pair of arms around my waist, and Sirius’ scent filled my nostrils. He pulled me against his firm chest, kissing the back of my neck. I just held his hands to me tightly, not wanting him to let go.
“You’re bad Sirius Black” I said.
“You’re so bad”
“Im sorry, Princess” he said, and turned me around to face him.
He leaned forward to kiss me, and he lifted me off the floor. I pulled away, hearing some footsteps.
“Someone will see us ” I said, looking over his shoulder.
“Come on” Sirius said, taking my hand.
We ran up the stairs. And he opened a door, pulling me in with him. And I immediately knew it was his room.
Before I could actually take a look at it, he pushed me against his door, and kissed me again.
“Owww” I said against his lips, making him laugh. He moved his lips down to my neck.
“Sirius ! Our parents are downstairs !” I said, pushing him away.
“So what ?!” he said, grabbing me again.
“No !!” I said as he came forward again.
He stopped, and pouted.
“Where have you been ? Did you even bother to write to me ?!” I asked.
“Im sorry Y/N!” Sirius said, looking defeated. “I didnt know what to do ! You wouldnt even look at me ! Besides, homes been hell -”
I knew what it was like for him, and I felt bad for being so hard on him.
“Please, Y/N?” Sirius said, takng my hand in his, and kissing it.
“I missed you, idiot” I said, hugging him.
Sirius smiled and pressed his lips to mine again. His hands arms came around my waist, pulling me closer to him.
“I love you, baby” he said, kissing my nose.
“I love you too ” I said, smiling.
* * *
I stood in front of his mirror, fixing my hair, as he sat, watching me.
He strolled towards me slowly, with a sad look on his face.
“ I dont want you to leave” he said, standing behind me, with his hands on my waist. “Lets run away”
I turned around and kissed his cheek,laughing.
“We might have to” I said, and put on my shoes.
“Just a month more till school starts” I said, and went to the door. “Love you, Black”
* * *
“Where have you been, Y/N !” Mum hissed as she saw me.
“Umm…bathroom” I said, shrugging.
“Come here ! There is something important” said Mum, grabbing my arm and leading me into the dining area.
“Found her, have you ?” Walburga Black was speaking to my Mum.
“This is her” Mum said, giving me a little push.
“Hmm” Walburga said, as she touched my cheek, trying to bring out a smile. “She is perfect !”
I stood staring at Sirius’ mother.
“Ah ! There ! SIRIUS !” she bellowed, making me jump. I turned to see Sirius looking at us with wide eyes.
I was sweating now. Shit, have they found out about us ?!, I thought, my heart racing.
Sirius came to us slowly. He looked at me cautiously.
“Mary, I hope you’ve met my son before, Sirius ” Walburga said, and Mum nodded, smiling at Sirius.
I felt another hand on my shoulder, and turned to find my Dad, smiling down at me. Why were they all so happy ?
“I think its time to tell them, Orion.” He said. Sirius’ father nodded and looked at his wife.
“Well, we have decided to join the Y/L/N and the Black family ” Walburga began. “And as the two of you are so well suited for eachother…”
Sirius and I stood frozen.
Is this for real ?!
“The wedding will be soon after your education at Hogwarts is complete !” Mum added happily, smiling at Walburga.
Sirius and I exchanged glances, still unable to react.
Walburga came forward to hug me.
“Welcome to the family, Y/N” she said, struggling to bring about a smile.
Sirius finally smiled as my parents embraced him.
“I think this is great !” Mum exclaimed. “We have so much to do now !!”
Just as our parents began their own conversations, Sirius looked at me.
“I cant believe it ” I said.
I had to join in. Sirius put his arm aound me, kissing my forhead.
Hello everyone! So! Tomorrow morning, I will be leaving for BMT. For those of you who don’t know I have been enlisted into the US Air Force, and I am going to be at basic training for at least 2 months. I will not be able to be on the internet or on my phone during that time, so I wanted to make this post to tell you all about me leaving and I want some specific people to know how much I love them, and I won’t forget them while I’m away! And I will be back, I promise! I’m not leaving forever, I will be back as soon as I can! My entire blog will be on queue after this lmao. Also! You can always shoot me asks and messages, I’ll read them when I have access to my phone <3
Anyways, If I somehow don’t mention you in this, just know that i still love you and you mean a lot to me !!
My mother, who I have not spoken to in a month: If you are not with the family, you are against the family.
Me: BITCH YOU LIVE IN NEW ZEALAND AND HAVENT BEEN HOME IN 4 YEARS. Goddamn. I take care of your mother, mediate the shit between the family, I paid for your brothers funeral because your uppity ass didnt want too, I do all of this while being a wife and pursuing a writing career. Like? Are we in a fucking Soprano episode? Wtf Is this shit. Go away.
I’m so done with this crap. So very done with “Family”
“I know a girl….
Whose never tried to settle down
She wears her loneliness
Just like a crown
But when she smiles all the kings will bow
Down, down, down….
I know a boy….
Who’s broken every vow he’s made
Who’s spoken every coward’s phrase
But he can listen like a rainy day
And drown it out…..
But still we laugh, we cry,
We fall, we get high
Just like we were kids, just like we were kids
And when im feeling small
You get me through it all
Just like we were kids,
Just like we were kids again….”
NAT OMG HELLO IDK IF YOULL EVEN REMEMBER ME WE HAVENT SPOKEN IN LIKE OVER A YEAR PROB BC I WAS IN AFRICA AND STUFF FOR A WHILE AND DIDNT HAVE TUMBLR AND IM ALSO USELESS @ KEEPING IN CONTACT BUT I HOPE YOURE WELL I MISS UUUUU
OMG ZOE I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! OF COURSE I REMEMBER YOU YOU’RE AN ANGEL!
Hello everyone. 2016 was a good year to me and i decided to make a thank you post for everyone who made my 2016 as good as it was despite all the shit that happened. if i forgot anyone im deeply sorry.
here we go :
Fave Phan blogs of 2016 –thank you for all the phan content
on my dash-:
Fave blogs of 2016, senpais, friends, gif makers, the blessing of
fandoms and more –thank you so much for filling and brightening my day and dash
you are amazing and you look beautiful every single day, 17/10 blogs would always recommend–:
hey so 2*16 is almost over and i wanted to make something to let u all know how much i love and appreciate all of you… i know im not the best mutual im not very interactive and i dont shut up about zion.t but youre all still following me anyways so thank u !!! i care about u all a whole lot and i really wish the best for everyone in 2017 !! 💖💐
ok so my blog turned 5 and i wanted to make a little appreciation post because i love you and your blogs all so much, i’ve changed fandoms and urls so much in the past five years but most of you have stayed and i met so many new people and i became such good friends with a lot of you and you’re all amazing!!! (i put it under a cut bc it got way longer than intended whoops)
merry christmas/happy holidays!!! it’s been a crazy year, and since everyones been making these, i wanted too also! thank you to all the amazing mutuals new and old! sorry if we havent spoken in a while, im awkward but i still love you! and im sorry if i forgot anyone, this was especially hard with the url changes, just know that if i follow you, i love your blog! <3