we have a happy and real family

I honestly think relationships in general would be healthier, in general, if we didn’t believe they should last forever.

When the default is “forever” and shorter relationships are seen as a failure, we miss out on a lot. We stay in relationships that don’t work because they’re not “bad enough” to leave, as though not wanting the relationship anymore isn’t a good enough reason. We deny ourselves happy memories, saying “If it doesn’t work now, our love then wasn’t real.” We pass on relationships we know would be short, because if it doesn’t last forever, what’s the point in joy in the moment?

An ending isn’t a failure. It’s an ending. Most relationships have them. What would our relationships be like if we stopped focusing on our fear of endings and started focusing on what we - and our friends, partners, and family - need right now?

Eight years ago, when I first started coming out, I felt that I was resigning myself to a life alone. I didn’t believe that I would one day stand in front of my dearest friends and family, and proclaim my love for the kindest cutest sweetest person in the whole world. And I did it all while wearing the floofiest floofiest dress! 

After the ceremony, my Dad pulled me aside briefly, and held my hand. He said that eight years ago he, too, couldn’t have imagined my wedding. It was so beyond his realm of experience, he said, that to say it was beyond his dreams was an understatement. Today was better and happier and waaaaaay gayer than anything he could have foreseen. I am so happy that I came out, that I transitioned, and that I stayed in touch with my family, even through the hardest of times, however painful it was, and how far away I had to go. We are all better for it. 

To all you trans kids and youths out there struggling right now, it’ll get better if we fight for it. Keep fighting, keep loving, keep going. 

Once Upon a Time bosses unveil plans for season 7

Warning: This story contains major spoilers from the season finale of Once Upon a Time. Read at your own risk!

The Final Battle led to a lot of loss during Sunday’s two-hour season finale of Once Upon a Time.

After the curse hit, Henry (Jared Gilmore) found himself in a Black Fairy (Jaime Murray) run Storybrooke where Emma (Jennifer Morrison) was locked up in a mental hospital, unaware she’s the savior and refusing to believe in fairy tales.

It turns out, the Final Battle is not an actual fight, but a battle for Emma’s soul. The Black Fairy hopes to crush Emma’s belief, thus causing all the realms in Fairy Tale Land to crumble and disappear — and she nearly achieves her goal, too. Though Emma initially returned to her old life in Boston, Henry was able to convince his mother to return, saving everyone’s lives.

But it’s Rumple (Robert Carlyle) who actually breaks the curse. Furious that the Black Fairy imprisoned Belle (Emilie de Ravin), Rumple killed his mother, thus ending her spell, returning Emma’s memory and bringing everyone home to Storybrooke. Unfortunately, the Black Fairy had already commanded Gideon (Giles Matthey) to kill Emma. Instead of fighting back, Emma decides to sacrifice herself rather than kill an innocent. But, in a scene echoing the season 1 finale, Henry’s kiss resurrects Emma.

Though the storybook was burned, it reconstitutes and subsequently ends. Yes, it’s the end of this book, but not their story. Everyone gets to keep living happily ever after together. And yet, in a flash to the future that echoes the pilot, a young girl named Lucy (Alison Fernandez) shows up at an adult Henry’s (Andrew J. West) door, exclaiming that his family needs his help. She’s the same little girl whom an adult Henry in the Enchanted Forest employed to protect the storybook when a darkness came for him in what turned out to be a flash forward. What does this mean?! EW turned to executive producers Adam Horowitz and Edward Kitsis to find out.

ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: Many of the cast we’ve known over the last six seasons are not returning. Can you talk about how the story will be changing moving forward?
ADAM HOROWITZ: Just on a conceptional level, it’s the same show. We’re trying to tell the same kind of stories and honor the DNA of what Once Upon a Time was from the very start. But I think we — Eddy and I — felt that as we approached season 6, the time had come to close the chapter on a lot of the stories we had been telling, which was the impetus behind this season finale, and open some new chapters. While there are some characters returning and some not returning, it’s still the same universe, and it’s still the same kind of storytelling. It’s just that we’re going to be coming at it from a little bit of a different angle. It’s not going to be necessarily Storybrooke-based.
EDWARD KITSIS: Also, what we see is, a new hero is leading us into a new world, which is an adult Henry Mills. We saw that in what we realize are flash forwards, and then at the very end, Henry has grown up and he looks like he left home. He was an Author writing everyone else’s story, so to me it looks like he left home to find his own story and then something happened, and now he’s got to be the hero.
HOROWITZ: It’s a little bit of the continuity between the two iterations of the show, which is Henry. Henry has been the heart of the show from the beginning. Jared was amazing, and we couldn’t love him move; watching him grow up has been amazing. Now, we’re going to see what that character becomes in a 10-years-older version. But he’s still going to be that character and still carry that essence of the show and be the center of the family that’s at the heart of the show.

You gave so much closure to so many stories, how do you plan to reconcile that with some people returning next year but not others? Does that change their happy endings?
KITSIS: What happened to these people, those are episodes, those are things we will probably want to show. For us, we felt creatively it was time to end a lot of these stories. What we’re really interested in is, as we said, it’s like a new book. So we’re starting with new stories. Although it’s going to have some of the people that we’ve loved for six years at the center of it, we are going to meet new people and new worlds.

Will we see an influx of new characters and other fairy tales? How will you branch out in that sense?
HOROWITZ: Hopefully when you see the premiere, that will become super clear, so we don’t want to give too much away right now other than to say we do intend to branch out, we do intend to also stay with some of the characters we’ve been with. It’s about how do you honor everything that’s come before, but also widen the canvas a little bit?
KITSIS: Open the world up.
HOROWITZ: That’s the goal of season 7. In addition to the people that we’ve already announced who are coming back as regulars, and who are not, there will be more regulars we’re adding to the mix.
KITSIS: As we completed one journey, what we want to do next year is take people on another one. The DNA is still the same, which is fairy tale characters in the real world in search of hope. We still have Henry, we still have Regina, we still have Hook and we still have Rumple, and we still have people are that are going to come in and out that we know, but we’re going to meet a whole new universe and a new group of people. So for us as writers, we’re also excited to do that. Probably you’re going to see a world with no magic in it on one side, very similar to the way we did in season 1.

Thematically, what are you hoping to explore that’s different than what the first six seasons were?
KITSIS: We always say that Emma was a character looking for her family and finding hope. I would say that Henry was the heart of the truest believer, and what we saw at the very end is he no longer believes. Henry’s loss in faith and the idea of belief is the jumping off point. The DNA of the show remains, and always will be, of hope. Each character was always looking for their happy ending, and that is no different than anyone in the real world.
HOROWITZ: One of the hardest times to have hope in anyone’s life is when you’ve lost belief or faith in something. That is a jumping off point for where we are for the next season, which is, how do you deal with questioning faith and belief and finding hope again?

This scene with adult Henry echoes the pilot, even down to Henry saying he doesn’t have a kid. Has something happened to him in terms of his memories or has he just become cynical somehow seemingly being separated from his family?  
HOROWTIZ: These are excellent questions that might be better answered—
KITSIS: —in the teaser of next year.
HOROWITZ: But they’re excellent and insightful questions.

Is the storybook that Henry charged his daughter with protecting in the Enchanted Forest the book we’ve always known, or a book with brand new stories within?
HOROWITZ: It’s another excellent question, and without getting too specific about what that book we saw in the teaser is really about, what we can say is that Henry has grown up, he has remained true to what we’ve established and he is an Author.

Let’s talk about Lucy. Who is her mother? Is it Violet?
HOROWITZ: Violet is in the montage at the end. When Henry goes to school, she’s waiting for him at the school.
KITSIS: But that being said, unfortunately like a lot of us, your first love in high school ends up not being the person you marry. You end up leaving home and moving on. It is not Violet. Who the mother is, and who Henry fell in love with, is one of the things we’re really excited about next year. In the tradition of Snow and Charming, Henry and his wife are a very much Once epic romance.

Is there a Savior in this story?
KITSIS: There could be.
HOROWITZ: There very well could be.

Can you talk at all about this new darkness coming after adult Henry that we saw in the Enchanted Forest? Is this the introduction of the new antagonist for next season?
HOROWITZ: It is. It looked pretty scary, so I don’t think it’s a new friend-tagonist. What we see in the season finale in those little snippets is, it’s a darkness that grown-up Henry has to deal with and has a big impact on what’s going on in season 7. We’re still at that we need to be slightly infuriatingly vague stage.

Since the show is going to be centered partially around Regina next year, what can you say about her drive or her story going into next season?
KITSIS: I’d say she’s fighting for the people, just like a queen does.

The Evil Queen seems to be marrying Robin Hood. Will she play a role next season since Lana is sticking around?
HOROWITZ: I would say, never say never.

Rumple seemed to get his happy ending with his family, but what do you plan to explore with him next season? The darkness is still inside and he’s just killed his own mother, so how has that changed him?
KITSIS: We saw his happy ending with Belle, and they worked really hard to get it. What’s happening next in his life and what he’s going through is obviously what the story is. That one I don’t want to just fully tease yet. All this stuff is literally just being worked on.
HOROWITZ: We really would love for the audience to be able to spend the summer living with the happiness that we’ve seen these characters get, because it’s real, and it’s meant to be real. It’s not meant to be something that we’re doing that we want to destroy and make all horrible, or whatever. We want these characters to have really earned this place of happiness they’ve found. But because we’re telling stories, we’re going to have issues to overcome in the future, and Rumple is no exception to that rule. To tell you now what it is would give away so much, so we’d rather have the audience really sit with what we’ve left them with for now.

Because you see Emma get her happy ending, and we know that Jennifer is only returning for one episode, a lot of fans are worried Emma is going to die. Do you want to say anything to the audience?
KITSIS: Not really. There’s nothing to say. That is correct, she is coming back for an episode. Their happiness is real, and people should enjoy that. The thing is this: Right now, we’re not trying to take away the show we’ve done for six years, and we’re not trying to destroy people’s happiness right now, but we’re going to be telling a new version. But until they see that, they won’t understand what it is. So for us, we’d rather not whip people into a frenzy.
HOROWITZ: I’d like to underscore that for a second: Really we wanted the audience to not think about what we’re doing as throwing away what came before, but building on and expanding from it, so that what happened and what they’ve lived with and what they’ve invested in all these years still really matters; it matters to us as writers and we know it matters to so much of the audience. We want them to know that we do really respect that and we really do approach the story from that level. We’re not just clearing a playing field and starting over willy-nilly. We’re trying to tell these new stories and expand our canvas, but also honor what’s come before.

Hook’s always walked a fine line of giving into his darker instincts over the years. Is that something you might delve into again moving forward?
KITSIS: That’s definitely a part of his DNA, but we’re hoping to tell new avenues of story for the characters. The lessons they’ve learned on the show, like we don’t want another year of Regina wondering whether or not she should be evil; that’s been settled. When the dwarves bow to her, they bow to her as the queen. She’s no longer the Evil Queen. So we want our characters to move forward. But like any of us, once you get a hold of one issue, there’s always three others.

Can you talk about how you’ll be handling flashbacks next year?
HOROWITZ: We do intend to keep a flashback component to the show and we hope that how we do it is fun for the audience.

Now that you have this new direction, do you have a better sense of your endgame?
HOROWITZ: Our goal with the show remains the same, is the simplest way to put it. It’s that question you always get asked, which is, “Do you know exactly what the end is going to be?”
KITSIS: We knew for this chapter, we have ideas and we are creating a new chapter. We’ll see how that goes. We’re excited about the new journey. We think it’s very much Once Upon a Time. At the same respect, we are excited that we got to see those happy moments from our characters in the finale and really build to that.

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12.14 coda

Dean may have missed out on the fight, but he still feels like drinking when he finally gets back home. Ketch’s expensive bottle of bribery is still sitting on the war room table and his glass is still in his favorite spot, right where he left it.

“Oh, hello, sweetness. Daddy’s here,” Dean coos at it. He hums as he picks up the bottle - still heavy even after a couple of drinks. “Shhh. It’s just you and me now.”

Sam scoffs. “Really, Dean? You’re that easy?”

Dean rolls his eyes over his shoulder. “So?”

Sam doesn’t really want to start anything, he’s feeling too good. He lets Dean smuggle his booze away to his room like always and revels in the still-fresh feeling of adrenaline-fueled ass-kicking. Changing the world. Power in the palms of his hands. He’ll try not to let it go to his head, but he deserves to celebrate the win at least.

Dean, meanwhile, falls like a heavy weight against the back of his bedroom door. 

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Okay but can we talk about Misha. Misha is one of the nicest and purest people to ever exist in our time. He tries to change in this lost, destroyed world as much as he can and on a daily basis. But can you just look at his almost angelic face? Look at his ocean blue eyes, look at how sincere they look. Look at his fluffy hair and how is just looks so simple but so extraordinary. Look at how his head is tilted in the cutest way possible. While he is just probably answering a question without any intentions of looking this way, he is being an angel. Hs saves lives. Not only in the show, but in real life. He saved a lot of us before and he may save others in the future. A lot of us know this, a lot has felt, and a lot more has experienced it. He made us laugh, he made soms happy. Hs supported families. He supported a lot of people and helped them to have a better live. No one has ever been rejected by him. He just accepts everyone, no matter of their race, gender, sexuality, or religion. And I think we need more people liks Misha in our fucked up world.

Significant Weather Advisory 

by reddit user OtistheWriter

I hate thunderstorms in the Midwest, mainly because they bring with them a threat of real danger. In southern Nebraska we’ve been known to have tornados somewhat regularly, ugly black funnels that drop from the sky and ruin your life. 

That is, if you lived in my neighbors house in 1997, when I was a teenager. I’m referring to a family of three just several homes down. Family friends and caretakers of our corgi while we were on vacation, they helped our street feel like home. Then the storm came and everything changed.

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anonymous asked:

Hey, I just finished the tog series and I don't understand why lorcan betrayed aelin? Why did he summon maeve? I thought he was falling in love with elide so I don't get why he would do that and also why he was devastated when maeve broke the blood oath. Didn't he say he wanted to go to perranth with elide?

The answer to your first question or two is simple, while the last one is more complicated.

To answer why he betrayed Aelin or summoned Maeve, can be long or short. The short answer was that he actually had no loyalty to Aelin and he was trying to protect Elide.

The longer answer is that when he summoned Maeve, it was at a point in time where he thought that there was a ship full of enemies come to kill/capture them. They had just used all of their power fightings so they would have absolutely no chance of succeeding. Lorcan has been abused for the past 100 years plus some, in these years the relationships he has had have been surface level or based around survival.

Elide is the first individual to ever really mean something to him or show him affection, probably in his whole life

. His being is centered around that.

All he has ever tried to do is protect and fight for himself, those are really the only skills and emotional capacity he has developed. So when he began caring for Elide, Gaverielsthose transferred onto her.



Now, we have seen that he does display loyalty to the cadre. This is rare and hard to come by, but we see it when he ran to help Aedion in QoS simply because he was Gavriel’s son. These loyalties come from years of surviving abuse and trauma together, though that does not change that Lorcan never developed or had a loving relationship (once or twice if at all), but he did respect this cold, but loyal, survival kinship with the cadre. Calling Maeve would not endanger them since they were all sworn to her anyway besides Rowan. As for Rowan, we see that Lorcan felt a deep betrayal at Rowan leaving with Aelin. Rowan was the closest thing Lorcan had to an actual friend, he actually felt close and connected to him over all the other cadre members. This was because Lorcan is almost, if not as, powerful as Rowan so they were often sent on missions for months together. Rowan was the closest thing he ever had to family, a brother. And Rowan just left Lorcan with Maeve, without so much as a backward glance. Before, Rowan was grief stricken and cold like Lorcan. He felt comradery to him. Then Rowan left him to become more emotional, feeling, and to have a court, a family, with other people. This genuinely was both a physical, relational, and emotional betrayal of sorts for Lorcan. While I certainly do not blame Rowan or think he should not have done anything differently, that does not mean we wouldn’t expect Lorcan to react this way. We often see this with people in real life. Trauma victims or abusive victims, when someone else gets out or moves on with their life, while we would hope that most would be happy for the individual, others might feel a sense of abandonment.

And Lorcan, cold and abused, had no moral reason for serving Maeve. She was just a way to achieve status, a way to not be the prey in life and instead be the hunter. Lorcan operates on a kill or be killed mentality, as all his life experience has told him to. It was a survival decision to join Maeve. He says himself, he cares not about the actual battles or why they are doing the things they do, he is so depressed and traumatized that he simply just exists. So, he could care less personally about Aelin and the goodness she represents. He has no personal ties to her, he has only talked to her maybe three times in his life.He only knows himself and Elide when it comes to base instinct. She is the first person to move into his circle of survival, the first time he really has an active role in someone else’s fate. She breached those walls. So when he thought they were under attack, his first instinct and thought are to try to find some way to save himself, and the first person he has come to really care about or have. He barely even thought, he just reacted on a base survival need. He might have paused if this resulted in the death of his cadre, but they were on the same side as him. And while I do not think he wished any harm particularly to Aelin, Rowan, and their court, he was not going to choose them over himself and Elide, nor the cadre, who are his brothers in arms of sorts. 


As for why he was devastated that Maeve cut the bond, there is a long list of complicated emotions he was probably feeling. One is simply shame. The culture in throne of glass is very different from where I live or where most people live in today’s world. It is very much based on visible status, etiquette, titles, and honor.  Maeve cut his blood oath in the most dishonorable way she could think of. Lorcan was a street bastard, the lowest you could get in society. The main reason he even took the blood oath was so that he could have a name so he could be something in his world and society. Now, not only has he returned to nothing after years of abuse and torture and trauma, but he also has added dishonor. He basically just became an outcast homeless person.
And the abuse. That I think is the primary reason he reacted the way he did. For 100s of years, Maeve has been in his mind, perverted his actions, forced him to do and endure terrible things. basically ruled his entire existence. He can barely remember the world without Maeve. It’s the same concept you see when sex trafficking victims who have been rescued try to return to their captors, why domestic violence victims lie to law enforcement and say they aren’t being abused, why kidnapped victims will fight and defend their captors against law enforcement trying to rescue them. Brainwashing, Stockholm syndrome, confusing their identity, making their abuse and their captors become essential to their survival, whatever you want to call it. HIs brain, his emotions, who he is is so confused and traumatized; everything he was is wrapped up in and depended upon Maeve. He had nothing and no one before her, this way of life was his only known reality. He does not know what or who he is without it. And when Maeve displayed displeasure and anger, the only way his mind knew how to react was to try to please her, beg forgiveness, and the fear of losing the only life and ways he understands caused him to try to hold onto that as much as possible.

It is very hard to understand or relate to unless you have gone through it yourself or know someone who has. And that’s okay, that’s understandable. Trauma and abuse are horrible things and are very hard to overcome. To anyone who may not be aware of why he would do this, it seems pathetic and confusing. 

I hope these answered your questions. 

And to anyone out there who may be going through abuse or have been traumatized, know that there is help out there and that it is not hopeless. I cannot imagine all you are going through, but there are people out there who have been through it as well. I escaped emotional abuse in high school, and life has gotten significantly better. Attatched are some resources for the domestic abuse hotline, suicide hotline, trauma resources, and people can feel free to reblog more.

Here if you need me ToG fandom!

http://www.thehotline.org/


Suicide hotline: Call 1-800-273-8255

https://www.domesticshelters.org/

https://www.samhsa.gov/capt/tools-learning-resources/coping-traumatic-events-resources

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I posted this on Instagram and I’m going to post it here aswell because I’m so sick of the stigma of bisexuality. It’s real. We exist. It’s valid. So fucking deal with it. My mother and aunt were the ones saying that shit to me and I was furious but nothing has changed their mind… yet? However posting this allowed me to see the support from my school and how for the majority I go to school with people that are very accepting which made me happy. I have been out to my friends for a year and have loved the freedom but when Lauren Jauregui @ssweet-dispositionn came out in November it gave me the final push to come out to my family and I love her even more for that. Maybe at some point my family will come around but for now I sure as fuck am not going to let what they say affect me. I am bisexual and so proud.

The Party

Sirius Black x Reader

My heart was beating faster and faster as we walked into the family home of the Blacks. I glanced nervously at the crowd .

Purebloods.

I hated these pureblood parties that my parents dragged me to. They were excrutiatingly boring, and so dull. The pureblood families got together every now and then to brag about their riches and accomplishments. Boring stuff. And it was another excuse for parents to find suitable brides and grooms for their children.

My eyes went through the crowd of people, searching for just one face.

Eventhough I shouldnt be doing that.

Its been over a month since I last saw him, and we had had an awful fight  before vacation began. He didnt even write to me. And his silence just drove me mad.

I found myself in the huge dining room. The long table was laid out with lots of food, and people were already sitting around it, talking and eating.

Thats when I saw him.

Sitting at the table, with a bored expression. Leaning back lazily on his chair. He saw me and sat up straight, running his fingers through his silky black hair.

“Y/N ! Come on now !”

My mother’s sudden appearence startled me. I stood staring at her with a hand against my chest.

“What is it, dear ? ” she asked, seeing my expression.

“You scared me, Mum !” I said, as she took my hand and led me towards the table.

Most of the seats were taken, except for one where my mother sat, and two others on either sides of Him.

Sirius Black had that smirk on his face now. He knew I will have to sit next to him.

“Sit !” Mum urged me, as I hesitated.

This is going to be a long night, I thought as I walked up to the empty seat and sat. He looked at me, and I just gave a nod of acknowledgment.

Sirius and I were pretty close. We were very much inseparable. We have been together for 3 years now, and he still gave me butterflies in my stomach.

We had quite a nasty fight about a month before school closed for summer. I happened to see a Ravenclaw girl pushing him against a wall like she owned him, and trying to kiss him. I was way beyond jealous, and we got into a fight. I knew it wasnt him who did anything. But I  didnt see him pushing her away either. I was just too heartbroken to reason with anything. And we havent spoken since. He tried while at school. But I didnt give in.

I tried my best, but I just couldnt resist sneaking glances at him. Both of us played with our food. I took ocassional bites to satisfy my mother, who was eyeing me from across the table.

Just as I was about to put the spoon to my mouth, I felt his hand on my knee. I dropped my spoon and it hit the plate with a loud clang. Several guests looked up at me, and Mum was glowering.

“Alright there, sweetheart ?” she asked in a sickly sweet tone.

I nodded, and I felt his fingers tighten around my knee. I bit my lip, not knowing what to do. I grabbed my goblet and took a big sip of water.

His hand slid up.

Thank god for the elaborate and frilly table cloth !

“Sirius, dont you dare !” I hissed at him, swatting his hand away.

He smirked again.

An old wizard sitting next to Sirius’ father Orion Black, asked him something. Sirius turned to face him, and spoke. His fingers were still stroking my thigh, and it was sending shivers down my spine. I put a hand over his, and squeezed it, to stop his fingers from moving. He continued talking with the man, as his fingers slowly intertwined with mine.

I missed this boy. I missed the way he touched me, and said my name. I missed everything about him.

As I felt a heaviness in my heart, he moved his hand again. My stomach did flips at that. I knew this wont go well here.I held his hand again, and moved it away from my leg.

I got up.

Excusing myself, I almost ran out of the dining room.

It was my first time in his house, so I didnt know where to go. I just went up the stairs, and found a door that opened into a small balcony. I stood, with my hands on the railings, breathing heavily.

I didnt know how I managed without him for this long. I couldnt do it anymore. I needed him. I needed Sirius Black.

Just as tears began to sting my eyes, I felt a pair of arms around my waist, and Sirius’ scent filled my nostrils. He pulled me against his firm chest, kissing the back of my neck. I just held his hands to me tightly, not wanting him to let go.

“You’re bad Sirius Black” I said.
“You’re so bad”

“Im sorry, Princess” he said, and turned me around to face him.

“Forgive me”

He leaned forward to kiss me, and he lifted me off the floor. I pulled away, hearing some footsteps.

“Someone will see us ” I said, looking over his shoulder.

“Come on” Sirius said, taking my hand.

We ran up the stairs. And he opened a door, pulling me in with him. And I immediately knew it was his room.
Before I could actually take a look at it, he pushed me against his door, and kissed me again.

“Owww” I said against his lips, making him laugh. He moved his lips down to my neck.

“Sirius ! Our parents are downstairs !” I said, pushing him away.

“So what ?!” he said, grabbing me again.

“No !!” I said as he came forward again.

He stopped, and pouted.

“Where have you been ? Did you even bother to write to me ?!” I asked.

“Im sorry Y/N!” Sirius said, looking defeated. “I didnt know what to do ! You wouldnt even look at me ! Besides, homes been hell -”

I knew what it was like for him, and I felt bad for being so hard on him.

“Please, Y/N?” Sirius said, takng my hand in his, and kissing it.

“I missed you, idiot” I said, hugging him.

Sirius smiled and pressed his lips to mine again. His hands arms came around my waist, pulling me closer to him.

“I love you, baby” he said, kissing my nose.
“I love you too ” I said, smiling.

                               * * *

I stood in front of his mirror, fixing my hair, as he sat, watching me.

He strolled towards me slowly, with a sad look on his face.

“ I dont want you to leave” he said, standing behind me, with his hands on my waist. “Lets run away”

I turned around and kissed his cheek,laughing.

“We might have to” I said, and put on my shoes.

“Just a month more till school starts” I said, and went to the door. “Love you, Black”

                                * * *

“Where have you been, Y/N !” Mum hissed as she saw me.

“Umm…bathroom” I said, shrugging.

“Come here ! There is something important” said Mum, grabbing my arm and leading me into the dining area.

“Found her, have you ?” Walburga Black was speaking to my Mum.

“This is her” Mum said, giving me a little push.

“Hmm” Walburga said, as she touched my cheek, trying to bring out a smile. “She is perfect !”

I stood staring at Sirius’ mother.

“Ah ! There ! SIRIUS !” she bellowed, making me jump. I turned to see Sirius looking at us with wide eyes.

I was sweating now. Shit, have they found out about us ?!, I thought, my heart racing.

Sirius came to us slowly. He looked at me cautiously.

“Mary, I hope you’ve met my son before, Sirius ” Walburga said, and Mum nodded, smiling at Sirius.

I felt another hand on my shoulder, and turned to find my Dad, smiling down at me. Why were they all so happy ?

“I think its time to tell them, Orion.” He said. Sirius’ father nodded and looked at his wife.

“Well, we have decided to join the Y/L/N and the Black family ” Walburga began. “And as the two of you are so well suited for eachother…”

Sirius and I stood frozen.

Is this for real ?!

“The wedding will be soon after your education at Hogwarts is complete !” Mum added happily, smiling at Walburga.

Sirius and I exchanged glances, still unable to react.

Walburga came forward to hug me.

“Welcome to the family, Y/N” she said, struggling to bring about a smile.

Sirius finally smiled as my parents embraced him.

“I think this is great !” Mum exclaimed. “We have so much to do now !!”

Just as our parents began their own conversations, Sirius looked at me.

“I cant believe it ” I said.

He laughed.

I had to join in. Sirius put his arm aound me, kissing my forhead.

Maybe this wasnt such a bad party, after all.

hey babygirl || theo raeken

word count: 2830

warnings: season 6 spoilers and adorable theo

prompt: none

author’s note: posted before, but my old blog was deleted, so now it’s on here!

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Hi OK, so here’s a real kicker and I’m truly sorry for doing this but I really have no other option. I honestly have no idea how to go about this either but I need your help desperately. My family has never been rich..we’ve always lived paycheck to paycheck and even then it’s been hard sometimes. I remember growing up and us losing our car a couple times or not even having enough to pay for food or the house bill. Bottom line it’s always been tight.

 ANYWAYS im sorry I don’t wanna burden you with a sob story but this past year has been super hard for some reason. Im not sure what it is but we can just not seem to get ahead and I hate seeing my family suffer so much. Seeing my 12 year old sister worry about bills getting paid when she should be worrying about kid stuff. Or her worrying about if the car is going to get taken away. Their only way of transportation is my mothers car atm and we’re behind a few payments. Honestly just one away from losing it. We don’t even have enough for groceries or to pay off the loans we’ve had to get.

Im truly sorry about this post and even asking for help. I really didn’t want to and I know I might get shit for this..Im sorry. But if you could..even if it’s not much donate to my paypal.  Again im so so sorry for this and even if you can’t donate if you could spread this..that would honestly be such a huge help. My paypal is: paypal.me/poolbrop

Heartbroken

I woke up to a call around 4AM that we lost my stepdad to a heart attack.

He was the best father I could have ever asked for. He made my sister and my mom and me SO happy and loved and made us in to a REAL family. His approval meant the world to me and there wasn’t a future milestone in my life that I didn’t imagine him being a part of. I just don’t know what we are going to do without him. We got to spend 16 incredible years with him but it’s just not enough.

I love you Steve.

I’m staying with my mom for awhile so she won’t be alone. You probably won’t be seeing much of me online for some time.

Hold your loved ones tight. You never know when they’ll be gone.

anonymous asked:

I know this is gonna sound really irrational but I strongly dislike Henrik at this point. Which makes it incredibly hard for me to rewatch the last season. Idk what it is...he just seems really show-off-ish and quite vain and immature kinda. Yeah...I don't know what to think. But my opinion about him has changed drastically the past couple of weeks. Obvs this is just a feeling I have about him, seeing as I don't know him personally. But yeah.

HELLOOOOOO ANON!!!!

Urm, okay that’s …. each to their own opinion, I guess?

But, hear me out, I know I might not be able to change your opinion, and that’s not what I wanna do. You have your own opinion and judgement on things, and that’s cool! But, if I may, I’d like to put across my thoughts.

Here’s the thing. 

Henrik’s a 21 year old, normal, average guy. Just like everyone else is. He’s a guy that has a lot of friends, is in a happy relationship with his partner, that he and his partner both choose to be active and public regarding. He has a job and loves his family and loves spending time with the people he is close to, and sharing all these special moments on his social media. Those moments aren’t for us, they are for him, and his loved ones, to laugh and joke over and fondly remember. 

Henrik is not Even. Even is not Henrik.

At 21 (and I am saying this because I myself am 21, hence I know what being 21 feels like, in the now, in the present moment), you wanna live life. You wanna be active. You wanna have fun. You wanna go out often and make memories. You wanna post about it on your social media. You wanna do all those things. You wanna buy expensive shit. You wanna wear expensive shit. You wanna be a little reckless. You do have moments where you are vain. You mess up and you make mistakes. And then you learn. And you mess up again. And then you learn again. You wanna have fun! But then, you wanna also have days where you wanna lounge in comfy wear and chill out. You wanna have days where you go out with your family and/or loved ones and chill out.

He’s literally, living life, right now. He’s happy! He’s enjoying life so much right now, and he wants to share that. We must remember that his socials are not for us fans. They are for him and the people he is close to. We just happen to follow him because he portrays Even, a fictional character that we love. We therefore cannot push our perspective and our expectations and ideologies on Henrik, a real life human being, because he is his own person, with his own real life, filled with real people and real relationships.

And I feel, sometimes, people forget that distinction. And it’s super important that we remember this distinction. We are not allowed to have a say in what Henrik, or Tarjei or ANYONE from the cast does, because that’s not in our place to say. They can do whatever they please. We cannot idolise the cast as being these “absolutely perfect people” that meet all the criteria we have for them and that tick off every box on our checklist. We can’t do that to ANYONE, whether that’s in the Skam Cast or … any other person in the world! That’s toxic. That’s a very unhealthy way of thinking. That becomes controlling. 

We each have our own lives, and everyone chooses to live life differently. Some people prefer a quiet lifestyle, a quiet presence. But some? They like being active, they enjoy social media, they enjoy connecting! Both choices are completely okay. We cannot be policing around people, celebrities or not, about what they should or shouldn’t do. 

We don’t know Henrik. His social media doesn’t tell us the full story about him, therefore, we have no right to judge. Your social media is just ONE aspect of your identity, and your identity? That is a culmination of so many different things and people and backgrounds and cultures and beliefs and values and influences that make up who you are. 

A month of AUs - June 3

A/B/O verse Hanzo discovers he’s pregnant and worries about his ability to be a decent parent.

(Heads up, there may be a number of days in the A/B/O verse or variations of it, because while I CAN come up with 30 distinct AUs… I do not necessarily feel like writing a scene for all 30 of those distinct AUs)

Staring down at the stick in his hand, Hanzo feels like the air has escaped his lungs. It takes him a moment to remember how to breathe, his hand falling to the bathroom counter to keep him upright.

He thought he’d been prepared for this possibility. As soon as he’d recognized the symptoms he’d considered all avenues. Pregnancy… pregnancy was not the worst possible thing anymore. He wasn’t on the run. He wasn’t being hunted. He even had a mate. He’d lived with Overwatch for three years now, been with Jesse McCree for the past two years. Overwatch had returned to being a legal entity not long after he joined, and the protection that came with it made life almost easy.

He thought he’d be okay with the possibility of being pregnant.

He wasn’t.

He doesn’t realize he’s sobbing until a knock on the door pulls him from his thoughts.

“Darling? You okay in there?”

He’d nearly forgotten McCree was waiting in their room. For a second, Hanzo considers not saying anything. Then he looks at the window and contemplates escaping to the roof.

Eventually, he stands and opens the bathroom door.

McCree is standing there with his hand still poised to knock. He takes in Hanzo’s appearance before noticing the red tint to his eyes. “Oh, Hanners…”

Hanzo falls into his arms before he can say anything else, not crying, but refusing to look up at his husband’s face. “It’s positive. I’m-. We, are having a child.” He can feel the stutter in McCree’s chest as he inhales, and his grip around Hanzo tightens.

“You mean it, babe?”

Hanzo can’t speak. He only nods, holding back another sob now at the guilt from how excited McCree sounds. Of course he would be happy. McCree had brought up his wish for children so many times since they had begun their relationship. He had never pushed, never asked for them to settle down, but Hanzo had known anyway.

With a gentle kiss to the top of Hanzo’s head, McCree leads him over to the bed, pulling the smaller man down onto his lap, arms curled around each other.

“So what’s the plan then?”

“Hm?” Hanzo asks, still refusing to look any higher than McCree’s chest. “I suppose we will have to see Dr. Ziegler to schedule appointments. See Commander Amari about-… about my pregnancy leave.”

“We don’t have to-”

Hanzo ignores the interruption, pulling away slightly as McCree’s closeness begins to feel like it is suffocating him. “I must inform Genji, see if he can steal our tombs from Hanamura to ensure our child bonds with his dragon without incident. I will of course be unable to go. I will be unable to train as well. Commander Amari will need to find another sniper, leaving our teams vulnerable-”

McCree does the only thing he can think of to stop Hanzo’s rant before he begins to panic. He puts his hand over Hanzo’s chin and forces him to look up. “Han. It’s okay. I need you to breathe.”

He does, heart racing and head feeling faint as if he hadn’t been breathing at all this entire time. “Jesse…”

“You’re panicking, darling. Wanna tell me why?”

“No…”

“Let me rephrase that. Tell me why.”

It’s not really an order. If Hanzo did not want to discuss it, he could remain silent. But phrasing it as an order gave him an out. Gave him the opportunity to talk frankly and not feel as if he were being weak by wanting to share his fears. So he puts his hand on McCree’s shirt, playing with a button as he gathers his strength.

“I do not believe I should be a parent.”

McCree tenses at the admission. “And why’s that?”

There are so many reasons. And he lists them all. His mother and father were terrible examples. The elders were hardly the basis for a good family dynamic. He doesn’t know the first thing about children. He grew up thinking murder was a part of life. He tried to kill his own brother as adults. Oh, and that one time when he and Genji were small, when Genji came down with a flu and Hanzo thought he was faking and pushed him out into the snow.

He began his training when he was still a child, barely old enough to consider attending school. Would he be a bad parent for not wanting their child to train as diligently? Wouldn’t that just be setting them up to be hurt or killed, unable to defend themselves?

And what about school and education? Discipline? Could he stop himself from raising his hand against his child if they acted out? Should he do that? He read that it was wrong. And he was terrible with his words. What if his child grew up thinking his father hated him? What if-

“Darling, I had no idea you felt that way.”

Of course Jesse would cut him off from those thoughts just as Hanzo was beginning to have them. He was a good man.

“I did not know I would feel this way.” Hanzo admits after a long moment. “I thought I was prepared. I thought I would feel… excited? I am not sure.”

“Well, why did you think you’d be excited?”

For the first time, Hanzo placed his own hand on his stomach, considering the small group of cells that were growing there. Why had he wanted to try for a child with Jesse? “… I wanted a child with your eyes, your smile. I wanted to see a miniature version of you in my arms, with you smiling at us.”

He can feel Jesse’s smile against his hair before the other man speaks. “You know you ain’t the only one with fears, Han.”

Hanzo scoffs, but allows Jesse to continue.

“I ain’t even know who my dad was. And my ma died when I was just a kid. I don’t know the first thing about how a parent is supposed to be outside of movies and TV. Even when Fareeha was visiting the base, she was usually hanging with me and Reinhardt, not her mom. I remember Ana would keep her artwork and call her during missions, but I don’t remember much else. And you ain’t the only one with insecurities either. I have ta quit smoking right now if we’re going to do this. And recalibrate my arm so I don’t crush nothing when I get mad or distracted.”

Something in his words catches Hanzo off guard and he finally looks up at his husband. “I am not sure why I assumed you already knew all about child rearing, but I did.”

“I don’t even know how to change a diaper, honestly. Or where to buy them.” He makes a face and suddenly goes pale. “Oh my god. What do babies eat?”

“Jesse, I am sure I will be capable enough to feed our child.”

“Yeah, but what about when you’re on a mission? Do we just get formula or something?”

Hanzo falls silent.

It takes Jesse a moment to realize. “Han? Did I say something wrong?”

“No.” Hanzo assures him. “I just… I assumed that I would no longer be welcome on the team. Would I not be a liability?”

“Well, I ain’t goanna say I want you out there in danger, but that ain’t no different from when you go out on a job without me. I suppose it’ll be up to you and Mercy as to when you go on leave. And I guess I just assumed you’d be wanting to get back into things right away. I know ya don’t like being cooped up and I don’t mind staying behind sometimes. Long as you keep yourself safe.”

“It seems we have both assumed many things about each other.”

Jesse can’t hide his smile. “Seems like. So, how are ya feeling about all this now?”

Hanzo shrugs once, then gently raises his first to meet Jesse’s eyes. “I still have concerns over my ability as a parent but… perhaps, we can, as you say, figure things out on the way.”

Jesse grins. “And hey, worst case scenario, I’m sure the team would be more than happy to help us out.”

Hanzo hadn’t even considered asking their teammates for assistance, but he finds the idea warming. Their team is their family. Of course they’d help.

Hesitantly, Jesse slides his hand down to Hanzo’s belly, placing it over Hanzo’s own hand.

“So… this is really real.”

Gently, Hanzo entwines their fingers together.

“It is.”

A short SwanQueen/SwanMillsFamily oneshot. Their four year old daughters stumbles across Henry’s storybook where she sees a picture of the Evil Queen causing her to push Regina away and leaving Emma to pick up the pieces. Fluff. I don’t own Once or any of its characters. Apologies for any mistakes. Hope you enjoy :)

Emma frowns as she walks through her front door to hear screaming. Admittedly, it’s not an odd noise in their house. Between the four year old, the teenager and their newly acquired dog (just one at the moment but knowing Regina the next time she visits the animal shelter, there’ll be more), the mansion is normally filled with noise.

It’s that noise that Emma loves. Silence reminds her of loneliness and rootlessness. Noise, even if it is shouting and sometimes too loud, is the marker of family. When she walks in to hear a chorus of hello’s or to a house filled with laughter, it’s a reminder that she is loved and a part of something truly remarkable to her – a family.

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anonymous asked:

What they call "creepy obsession" was at worst emotional dependency. The poor guy was just starved of affection and I can see why he never was able to forget his childhood friend. It really bothers me because emotional dependency is not a crime. It's not even creepy or disgusting, It's a symptom of affective deprivation. I mean, of course his love was not healthy but can we just stop considering a mental illness "creepy". It's insulting for real people who have the same emotional issues.

yah basically

like it’s one thing if snape is from a happy home and has a loving family and a lot of friends and a lot of emotional support and still latches on to lily, but considering how completely starved of affection he is (with, at most, his mother as emotional support and even that is debatable) it’s a little rough that we constantly paint his relationship with lily as ‘obsessive’ and ‘creepy’

like. i was that kid a lot bc i had pretty extreme social anxiety and i had a LOT of trouble talking to strangers, so i would watch kids for a little bit just to get some idea of what they were like before approaching them. and i had a lot of intense friendships when i was a kid bc i just didnt HAVE very many friends, so the ones i did have i latched onto pretty hard. so it’s hard when snape is portrayed as this obsessive creep for the way he acts as a kid when it’s really clear to me that he’s just… awkward and lonely and starved for affection. 

and that’s how it is when they’re teenagers too - like lily is, as far as we can tell, snape’s only friend. of course he’s attached to her? and yeah, that’s definitely not healthy to make one person your everything (tho these same antis probably do have ships like that bc it’s super characteristic of het ships in media today but like…. w/e lmao) but that doesn’t mean it can’t be understandable or even sympathetic. or that it’s malignant either - unhealthy doesn’t always equal violent or toxic even. 

so yeah, the way people talk about snape’s relationship with lily makes me actively uncomfortable in many aspects, bc so much of it is a refusal to see their relationship on platonic terms at all, as well as some neurotypical bias. 

So, honestly...

If Dean and Castiel aren’t romantically involved, I’m fine with that. So so fine with that. Because let me tell you, the bond they have is invaluable, it runs so deep, it’s silent conversations and hoarse “where’s the angel” in purgatory and it’s “I’d rather have you, cursed or not” when they feel like they have nothing left but eachother. It’s love. Of course it’s love. A deep, unique, and infallible bond. It doesn’t have to be romantic for it to be valued. Hell, Dean hardly trusts anyone, doesn’t call someone family easy. And yet here Cas is, an angel, a broken, broken angel pieced back together by a broken man and his brother and it’s real. They love eachother. It is so real and maybe it is romantic, maybe it isn’t. But either way, they value it, we value it.
Destiel makes a lot of people very happy. Sometimes it can make us frustrated, because of all those looks, longing glances, “I’m not leaving here without you"s and subtle touches. But let me tell you this.
It is canon that they have eachother. As family, as best friends, as potential soul mates of sorts. It is canon that they love eachother. “Everyone you love will be long dead. Everyone except me.”
Hang onto that. Hang onto that and onto happiness.
Castiel, I think, a lot of people identify with. Someone who doesn’t quite fit in. Somebody searching for purpose.
It is important to know that you have a purpose.
Dean and Cas and Sam and every character we love has a purpose, makes us happy cry and write fanfic at 2am.
Dean and Castiel have something special.
“Dean and I do share a more profound bond. I wasn’t going to mention it.”
Never forget that.

And btw, of course I’d prefer them not to queerbait and leave blatant hints that they never live up to. Of course I’d prefer bisexuality and same sex relationships to be valued and loved on the show. I just…I’m too invested right now and it hurts I want to live in a world where gay relationships can be given the same credit and value as straight ones, I want to see a world completely equal. It’s just sometimes, for a little while, I need to let go
TDA Theory: Marktina is Endgame (and i cry) (also i defend my precious child kieran)

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Ok, let me just start this off saying that I am probably one of the more … invested shall we say in the Kierark ship. Kieran is my favorite character (of the TDA ppl, not everyone, we’re not going that far…) and I just want my baby to be happy. However, after reading (and rereading) LoS and scrolling through tumblr, I’ve realized that Kierark, as much as I love them isn’y going to make Kieran happy. It is an unrequited and unequal love. Now, believe me this doesn’t mean that I don’t still love them and want them to be together, I do. However, based on what happened in LoS, I don’t have much hope. 

Here’s the truth, I have a terrible feeling that Cassie’s gonna kill Kieran off in QoAaD. The devestating truth is that I, an avid angst reader, obviously have an odd love for pain, but i also have a hard time allowing myself happiness (when it comes to stories anyways). So, seeing as though we seem to be moving in the Marktina direction, I’m preparing myself for the worst. 

Now, I can sort of cope with Marktine (not really, it still hurts) but i can ignore it if my child kieran is happy. I am completely and entirely aware that a polyamorous relationship between the three of them is not possible. Kieran doesn’t WANT to share Mark. He’d just rather do that than lose him. However, as we see, he doesn’t want to be manipulated anymore. Mark has every right to feel how he feels. I understand that sending Mark those acorn messages telling him that the Blackthorns taking him back wasn’t real was not in Mark’s best interest. However you have to seriously think about it from Kieran’s perspective. 

He doesn’t understand how Mark could choose family over the hunt. Kieran wasn’t raised in a happy family like Mark. The ONLY person who ever showed him any affection was Mark. You have to understand that with the loss of Mark being threatened, Kieran would be willing to do anything and everything before he loses him. This is in play again with the polyamorous thing because he doesn’t want to share, he’d just rather do that than lose Mark completely. 

So clearly, Kieran is much more in love with Mark than he is with him. This will never end well in a polyamorous relationship. The way that it looks like QoAaD is going to happen, my money is on Marktina as the endgmae. 

This however, doesn’t completely mean that Kieran will die. I just have no hope because I don’t want to wallow in pain in case it happens and I need to be prepared. So, let’s just assume that I’m correct and Marktina’s endgame. Logically (at least to me anyways) this means one of two things for Kieran. 1) he dies (NOOOOOOOO) or 2) he becomes the unseelie king. I know that you could probably make 3) he gets someone else or 4) he moves on and everything’s fine, but honestly, I don’t think Cassie would do that. So, my gut is telling me that he’s gonna die, but i sort of LOVE the idea of Kieran becoming the Unseelie King. ALSOOO Cassie never mentions things just to skirt around them (like the whole parabatai monster thing, that’s DEF gonna happen. creds to polandbananasbooks for making me think this way). In Lady Midnight, there is mention of gaining power over fae by taking their symbol of power. For example, for the Seelie Queen, it’s her crown. I haven’t read LM in like, a solid 9 months so I can’t really remember what you have to steal from the Unseelie king, but I still think that it counts. Next, when they want to replace the King with Adaon, they look at Kieran first. Of course he refuses, 1) because of Mark (but assuming that Marktina’s happening, this isn’t important) and 2) he just honestly doesn’t want to. What he wants doesn’t really matter though, and I think that it’s TOTALLY likely that he may take the throne from his father.

Say the King theory happens, tbh Kieran would probably either get a new partner or be super bitter. Honestly, I think I’d really like him being bitter. He’d have a soft spot for the shadowhunters, but also despise them at the same time. This would make him super interesting if he were to show up later (Assuming that the previous assumptions are correct of course). 

Honestly, I just want Kieran to be free from this relationship before it becomes even more of emotional abuse than it already is for him. Thanks for reading my rant. Don’t get me wrong, being fully aware of the pain that Mark causes Kieran and Kieran causes Mark, I’m still a Kierark shipper (bc i can’t help myself, leave me alone). And Kieran is my absolute favorite character, so I’m sort of REALLY hoping for this Unseelie King thing to be right. 

Ten Years (Part 4)

Summary: AU. When a major account is on the line at work, reader is forced to revisit some old connections at her ten year high school reunion for a chance at success. Will she let the past consume her, or will she see the future in her grasp?

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x reader

Word Count: 3,215

Warnings: language, sarcasm, fluff, mentions of past cheating

A/N: I scrapped the original chapter four in favor of this one in which I went a bit overboard. Two more chapters to go, including this one, before the reunion. It’s trying to write itself, I can’t stop it. :) Also sorry if there are errors, I’m super sick rn.

Part: 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8

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