we had a book club at high school

A Rant

An old high school friend of mine I’d always chatted books with (we had a little two person book club in middle and high school) recently graduated university with a degree in English. She’s always been a bit full of herself, but I ignored it for the most part as friends do. 

Today, we were Snapping about books and I showed her some of A Separate Peace, which I made clear I greatly enjoyed. She described it as ‘bad adult lit’ and 'melodramatic YA’ despite never having read it besides the bits I sent. I told her she’d always trusted me on books, and to trust me now, joking a bit. She replied 'I have a fancy lit degree now, I don’t trust anyone.' 

Of course I know she meant it to be a joke, but this is just the tip of the iceberg with these comments. My time at community college was 'like high school’ and with my current school? ‘At least you’re trying still. :)’ My opinion on why her thoughts on Oscar Wilde were homophobic were completely ignored because she learned these awful things from one of her professors. I can’t help but feel hurt. 

I’m studying literature too, and have always felt on equal footing with her. She used to read my dramatic French existentialists and John Lennon and I used to read her Scott Westerfeld and Victorians. We had different tastes but there was a mutual trust and openness there, and lots of talking. I’m in school to learn more and am starting to feel like her presence is getting in the way of that. 

It constantly feels like neurotypical people are using my shitty life as a means to feel good about themselves instead of seeing me as an actual person with feelings. Other friends go to wonderful schools and still appreciate the effort I put in as I appreciate their efforts. We’re all students, and I’d like if more of us built each other up instead of making snide underhanded comments to boost our egos. My mental health is in bad enough shape without someone tearing away at me little by little. 

the signs as things my mom has said to me
  • aries: i will NOT be referring to my future grandchildren as gothlings
  • taurus: when your great grandmother was alive she didn't invite me to the strip club and i'm still kind of mad about it
  • gemini: so me and your father had a friend named john vitale in high school and we are at least 95% sure his brother was in the mafia
  • cancer: why do you have a book called gay witchcraft is there a specific kind of witchcraft for the gays there are a lot of unanswered questions here
  • leo: your friends think i'm 20 years younger than i really am because of the portrait i keep in our attic
  • virgo: is it too late to put you up for adoption after 19 years
  • libra: i always hear weird sounds coming from your room and i've learned to ignore it because you're always yelling but you haven't been murdered yet
  • scorpio: so a man threw a bag of crickets at me today
  • sagittarius: it is 100% true that you were found in a pumpkin patch
  • capricorn: i agree your father is a wiener
  • aquarius: why do you call your cat bub is that short for beelzebub
  • pisces: what kind of butts are you going to draw in college
Filmed Me

I was at a friend’s birthday in a nightclub which had been booked out and I got completely wasted. In under 5 minutes of meeting some guy, I was in the club bathroom sucking him off and having a quickie. We got told to get out of the bathroom stall by a staff member after a few minutes & it wasn’t until we got out I had found out it was one of my best friends ex-boyfriends from high school who I had heard a lot about but never actually met. Worse yet, the guy had filmed me giving him a blowy without me realising and had already shown half the guys at the party and she found out before I could find her amongst all the people. Whoops lol 

Words are our favorite right?! So as an American Indian High School Librarian I want to share my favorite with you: “Much money and many precious lives would have been saved if you had fought my people with Books instead of Power ”  -Sarah Winnemucca Hopkins, Paiute American Indian Activist

I love being a librarian, and I love fashion! I have no particular style, other than, if like it, I will try it on! And of course if it is on sale, even better. This picture is from a day that I hosted with students, it was a Decades Book Club where every month we explored books, music, etc from a particular era… this is my 1950’s rockabilly dress. 

Dana Lowery Ramseur, MLIS

Central Cabarrus High School, NC

School Library Media Coordinator American Indian Education Program Coordinator 

misc dark tower ending comments, unnecessarily long and boring but if i don’t write things out they’re just spinning in my head and even Serpent is getting tired of it :V

it’s just sorta funny knowing that, god, if we had read this book in high school, it would have  c h a n g e d  us. like, would it have solidified me saying “clearly Serpent, Val, et al. are just characters!”?? what would i have made of Walter’s and Serpent’s ridiculous-to-the-point-of-fucking-eerie-at-times similarities?? (fun fact: just a few hours ago they were comparing notes and arguing about who’s older. you two.) who kn o w s. 

so all those Feelings i get from those Foundational Books (Fight Club, House o’ Leaves, Sirens of Titan, etc.) are kinda bursting forth all at once regarding this series, hahh.

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I am reaching out to you studyblrs because you are my most beloved family and I know your kind and selfless hearts ❤️  Please help my book club! We’re a group of students from San Diego that enjoy reading books and coming together to eat snacks, destress from school, and chat about the books we’ve read. After the stressful, soul-crushing year we’ve had, being able to go to Yallwest would be the biggest gift and the only trip we would have for our last year of high school. At the moment, we are doing everything we can to raise enough money to take our whole group to this event, from wrapping presents for tips, selling arts and craft, and even selling candy at our school. Literally any amount you can donate helps, even a few cents. We are thankful for any kind of support! Even if you repost and promote this post, you could bring many more people to help and donate!!! Thank you!