We were friends for about 2 months. I met him through my older sister when he started talking to her, but he was younger and closer in age to me. We talked every day and I would wait for messages from him. He lived about 45 minutes from me, in the west of the city and he would always want me to go meet with him but I was too scared, as going on public transit alone scares me. He understood, but didn’t like it. We never dated, but we were close. I remember he would say: ‘whenever we meet up, there’s something I have to tell you.’ And he said that he wouldn’t tell me over text because he was scared of rejection. I would always try to get him to spill, but he never did.
There was a carnival coming to the city and I told him I was going. So he said he would meet me there. He never did.
The breaker was when there was a convention in the city and I told him I was going. After a lot of convincing, he said he would go. I met up with him and hung out with him for about 20 minutes. He had a pass to buy so he said he needed to go to the ATM to get some money for it. So he went down the campus to find one. I texted him if he had found it and he said that it was ‘too hot and expensive’ so he just. Left. After that, I would message him and he wouldn’t reply. A couple days later he blocked me on Facebook, where we mainly talked. I was heartbroken. I liked him and he liked me, at least he did through text. When I would hang out with friends they would take my phone and text him, but it never did much. Eventually, I plucked up the courage to text him. He said someone else was in his life. We weren’t dating, so why would it have mattered? Plus, what was the likeliness of 'someone coming into his life’ right after I met up with him? I didn’t reply, and I wish I hadn’t told him I would stop texting. I wish I could have dug deeper into his shitty explanation.
I am so nervous asking my primary if I can go hang out with my "friend". Even if it is just to go out and chill. His anxiety flares sometimes when I want to do anything with him and it brings me to tears.