we brought this upon ourselves

Hyomin’s full interview for High Cut May 2017 issue

Q. T-ara debuted in 2009 so now you’re going on your 9th year as a girl group. How does it feel putting behind all the times you spent together and preparing for your last album?

Honestly, we didn’t know the news would come out first. We were discussing T-ara’s future just amongst ourselves when suddenly we saw the articles so it somehow,,, felt like we can’t turn back now. “Ah it really turned out like this,” this is how we felt. But deep inside, we thought “since there’s still time left, we have to wait until then to really know.” When we saw the news articles, we shared lots of messages like “I feel strange” in our group chat.

Q,You must have talked a lot regarding the group’s future amongst the members.

We all know that nothing good comes from us splitting apart. The things we have achieved so far, it’s a waste…. anywho, we all cherish T-ara all the same.

Q.But why can’t you be together anymore?

We all want to stay together. But now we are all old, and it’s not like we can force each other to choose the same path. Each of us wants something different as well. However, regardless of which company we are in, I hope we can meet up between ourselves again later. We talked about this before, that’s what we are hoping for. To be honest, reality still hasn’t hit us yet.

Q.The fans and the public will probably feel sad about the timing (of your breakup). Because T-ara had so many ups and downs yet still kept promoting steadily and always achieved good results. Even recently, new evidences surfaced about the bullying scandal, in which T-ara used to be drawn as the ‘perpetrators’, and people started having a new perspective about it as well.

It’s very ambiguous. Lots of time has passed and we started feeling indifferent about it, we can’t even be sure if we had any bitterness deep inside regarding that scandal. We don’t feel relieved that “the truth was revealed,” not at all, we simply hated that it was brought to light again. Because there are lots of such perceptions about T-ara… because we always stay quite or try to be careful but then people start talking about us.

Q.Wouldn’t it be even more sad for the fans that you’re disbanding now after they have sticked together with you all through such crisis?

Our fans is the saddest part about this. Our fans had it tough too. For us, it’s something that we brought upon ourselves. Because we know well about our naive and immature actions…whenever we get criticised or go through difficult times, I believe it would have been difficult for our fans to confidently say “I’m a fan of T-ara.” We want to repay back our fans even if just by a little, we all feel the same about this….that’s partially why we carried on until now. Of course, we also carried on for the sake of our families and ourselves as well.

Q.We heard that you’re very close with your fans.

Yes, there are lots of fans whom we know their names and faces. Our fans are way more mature than we are. I don’t know how to feel about saying this but if I was a T-ara fan, I would’ve switched to another group long time ago. Rather than being thankful for certain words from our fans, we were just very thankful that they treated us as if nothing happened. That’s why… (Hyomin became speechless here).

Q.It must be very upsetting.

Yes. We feel very…. Since 5 years ago, we didn’t have any special goal. But even then, not a single member said that she doesn’t want to do this anymore, we just carried on altogether. We came this far just relying on each other (the members) so it’s a shame (to let go now). (Hyomin started tearing up). We talked about this a lot as well. I think it’s only right to keep going until the end. Because if we were to quit we would’ve quit sooner, and if we didn’t want to do this any one of us could’ve have quit earlier but not a single one of us did.

Q.During T-ara’s peak days, you had lots of schedules that you couldn’t sleep more than 2 hours a day. There were lots of different talks about T-ara, but no one can deny than you were a hard working team. Is there anything you want to praise yourself for when you look back on the past 9 years?

Um….the fact that I became able to just accept and adjust in any situation. In the past, whenever I am put in an unpleasing situation on or whenever something bad happens, I can’t accept it and just get sad by myself but now it’s different. Maybe because I got older as well (laughs).

Q.Have you ever thought that if you can fix just one thing about that situation, everything would’ve turned out better. Have you ever had such regrets about the issues in the past?

“I should’ve held it in,” this is what I thought. We all were so young. 

Q.In a past interview, you mentioned “I look up about myself a lot. I know even the rumours other people don’t know about myself.” Do you still do this?

It’s not that hard. I think I became indifferent. Rather than getting hurt over negative talks, I instead gain strength from the small supporting words or positive mentions in between the lines. The public and the netizens wouldn’t just criticise someone who has no fault. People’s criticism wouldn’t turn into praises all of the sudden, so it’s easier that I change, myself. That’s how I thought. It’s important to recognise the problem, that’s why I look it up. I think things changed way more positively through time. Although there were still much more negative situations than positive while promoting in T-ara

Q.Through the time you promoted in T-ara, what is the period time you felt the happiest to the point where you want to go back to it?

I want to go back to our debut days. The youngest days of our group promotions. (laughs).

Q.On 30th of July, 2009 you debuted through <Radio Star>, I watched it live and I still remember this vividly; Kim Gura’s dumbfounded face when he said “Why are you debuting like this?”

We were fresh out rookies back then so no one even knew our names or faces. All of the MCs were dumbfounded. They told us to introduce ourselves first, they were like “Who the hell are you?” (laughs). We even had a phone call with Kwangsoo CEO during the broadcast. 

Q.It was such a one-of-a-kind debut. You were probably even more nervous than on stage.

Of course. It’s a period of time in which one gets nervous over anything. We also were very embarrassed when we saw the script, we thought “who comes out on TV first then introduce themselves (for the first time).” We felt that we must introduce ourselves well so we even practiced doing talent shows for each other. We couldn’t just sing and dance only, so we divided roles between us just like in a school play; Boram unnie did cartwheels, I did musical, Jiyeon did board smashing, and so on. We wanted to show something new.

Q.Do you want to debut in the same way even if you go back in time?

If I had the choice, I do want to do that. It’s a very big opportunity for a rookie. Actually, we want to go on <Radio Star> one last time before disbanding. We did voice out our desire to do that but we can’t be sure if that will happen or not. 

Q.Let’s talk about your future. After your last album promotions, you have to slowly start preparing for your solo activities. 

There are no plans at all yet.

Q.You don’t have anything you want to do either?

There are lots of things I want to do but…I don’t think it’s the time to do what I want to do. I want to do something I can be good at or learn something new. I have lots of interests in videos and pictures so I want to try travelling alone. I have never travelled alone before. I have lots of fears, also my parents don’t allow it.

Q.Wouldn’t it feel lonely?

During a point of time I used to feel lonely when I’m not dating, but I think I feel way less like that now. I’m my parent’s only child but I still know how to play by myself. The time I spend alone feels lonely yet fun too. Just because I have someone by my side doesn’t mean it will fill up my loneliness or eliminate the hollowness in my heart.

Q.You’re already 29. It’s a point of time where women commonly start having lots of different thoughts.

I don’t think much about it. I was rather depressed last year because it’s the last of my 20s. But this year, it’s already April before I know it. Each new year, I always have something new I want to try but I don’t think I have anything in particular this year. I just enjoy doing what I want to do from time to time and also rest in between. I don’t think this is right…I will be jobless after T-ara disbands. (laughs). It’s a point of time where I have to start doing something but I just can’t think of anything. I think I’m being the most idle I’ve been my entire life. To think about it, I used to plan a lot when I was younger. 

Q.You worked so hard all that time so I don’t think it’s a bad thing to rest a little now. 

I think like that sometimes too. I believe it’s a good thing that my anxiety is gone. We used to have so much schedules but then suddenly none so we now know how to be grateful for having work to do. 

Q.What kind of group do you want T-ara to remain to your fans?

(Hyomin paused to think for quite a while). There are probably many people who think “T-ara are such persistent kids”, I’ve been grateful just for this alone. I really wanted to continue doing this until the end while hearing ‘persistent’. If I have anything to wish for, I want to be persistent again together with the members. Although no one knows when. 

Q.What do you want Hyomin to be remembered as?

I don’t have anything in mind. I’m grateful even if they just say “She does work hard.” 

HYOMIN ASKS, TAROT CARDS ANSWER.

Hyomin: This might not be T-ara’s last album…but anyway, this so-called “last” album, will it turn out well?

Answer: This card refers to ‘me’ of the past. It shows that you had lots of thoughts and worries, but even so, you kept your balance and tried your best to work hard. The card that refers to the current you shows that you’re still maintaining your balance. You are maintaining your balance between your past experiences and the positive influence of your future. At last, the card that refers to your future shows that you will have something to gain even in the midst of a stressful situation. It means that even though you might not be necessarily happy, you will still gain something even in the midst of concerns and worries. It means that you will get stronger and will gain new possibilities in the future. You can say that you will have a successful fruit-bearing.

Hyomin: Does this divination sign apply both on me and our team?

Answer: This divination sign applies on the person picking up the card. But of course, since the question is about a team album, it will take an influence on that too. 

Hyomin: Will my solo endeavours turn out well in the future? 

Answer: This card means that you can be either the superior or the assistant. It means that instead of being confident of the things you have achieved so far, you will start having the desire to try something new. This card that shows a person hanging upside down means that you will start viewing your job in a different perspective. The other card means conflict. You will have a conflict between the thing/job you have done so far and the new thing/job you will be doing.

Hyomin: I’m 29 now. I’m curious about my fate that will approach me in the future. 

Answer: The two cards you have picked have the same meaning. One means new news coming to you and the other means letter. If we were to interpret this, it means that someone will confess to you. This card means someone will passionately and enthusiastically ask you out. It’s a person who has known you for a long time. They’ve been faithful all along and never had a change of heart. But even so, you will still hesitate. Because the feelings you have for that person are close to friendship. Looking at the card, that person will confess to you very soon.

Alexander of Edom

Yeah, I’m so behind wtih posting, but I have many ideas, and hopefully, I’ll manage to write the remaining stories for Malecweek 2017.

Day 4: Greek Mythology.

Alec as Helen of Troy

Magnus as Prince Paris.

Jace as Menealos

Ragnor as Prince Hector

Asmodeus as King Priam.

Summary: There were legends about Alexander’s beauty, as he was the most beautiful man on Earth. After Magnus was promised by Aphrodite to have Alexander as his own, he goes to New York to meet the man. They fall in love with each other and Magnus takes Alexander back to Edom with himself, stealing him from Alexander’s husband Jonathan. 


There were legends about the beauty of Alexander of New York. Ebony black hair of his was fitting his pale, almost porcelain skin. But the most beautiful treat of his were his striking electric blue eyes, that gods themselves envied him. Gods were falling into his charms, but Alexander never returned their feelings.

He never returned the feelings of his own husband, Jonathan of Idris.

Alexander was married off when he was barely sixteen, as the eldest son of King Robert of New York. Jonathan, son of Valentine, who was defeated in the great war against the people of Downworld.

Magnus, the Prince of Edom, had heard about the beauty of the young consort. He had been in love with the legend of Alexander, so much, so he was dying to meet him and have him as his own. Especially after he was promised to have him, after he stated that the most beautiful goddess was Aphrodite. Athena and Hera offered him trivial things, but Aphrodite offered him what he craved the most. A beautiful man, that everyone would envy him.

When his father, King Asmodeus, had sent him and his older brother Ragnor to take part in the New York’s festive, Magnus was beyond happy. He could finally meet the promised beauty himself.

He was here in New York for two weeks already, letting his older brother to convey in talks with Jonathan and his comrades, while Magnus was flirting discreetly with his husband.

Alexander turned out to be more than a pretty face. He was an angel, a sad angel trapped in the horrible situation.

“I hate him.” Alec admitted, lying next to Magnus in his chamber. “You have no idea, how many times I tried to kill myself. But his people are watching me closely.”

“Oh, Alexander… come with me then, to Edom.”

“Are you insane? Jonathan’s wrath will follow us anywhere.” Alec brushed Magnus’s naked chest. “I can’t let him kill you, Magnus. You’ve brought a little of happiness into my misery.”

“We leave at the morn, hide yourself on the ship before the sunrise.” Magnus told him, giving him a pleading look. “I love you, Alexander and I cannot leave you here with the brute.”

“I love you too.”

When the morning came, Magnus went under the deck to his cabin. As he closed the door, he was met with a dark clothed person, sitting in the corner of the cabin. He reached to his belt for a sword, but before he could attack, he was met with the most beautiful blue eyes he had ever seen in life.

“Alexander,” he smiled honestly, engulfing the man in his arms.

They were sailing seven days already, before Magnus told his brother about their guest.

“We must sail back to New York, Magnus. He can’t stay with us.” Ragnor was shouting at them. “Do you have any idea, what you have done? Jonathan’s wrath will fall upon the whole Edom. You had taken his husband, Magnus. This means war. Kassandra was right, when she said you would be the reason of Edom’s falling.”

“I love him.” Magnus admitted, taking Alexander’s hand in his. “Like you love Catarina. I love Alexander.”

“And I love Magnus.” The other man spoke softly. “I do not love Jonathan.”

Ragnor looked at the two before him. He knew that Jonathan will now come to look for his husband. He knew that the other man wasn’t stupid. He must have seen how Magnus was courting to his husband. Foolish Afrodyte, who had promised Magnus the most beautiful man on the Earth. Ragnor wasn’t the one to curse gods, but now, he wanted to curse the goddess of beauty herself.

“Please.” His brother pleaded.

“We must pray to the gods to help us, when Jonathan comes for him.”

The grand parade celebrating the return of Princes was held two weeks ago, when they came back to Edom. All people of the city were cheering, as their carriage was led through the main street leading to the palace. Ragnor was smiling and waving at the people, returning their greetings. And so were Magnus and his newly lover, Alexander.

“My sons.” Asmodeus greeted them in the throne room. “My old heart is happy that you came back home. Ragnor.” He kissed both cheeks of the older prince. “Magnus.”

“Father,” he spoke, kissing the hand of his father. “This is Alexander.”

“Alexander of New York, the legends of your beauty are real.”

“He is Alexander of Edom now.” Asmodeus looked at the two and saw the love between them.

“Welcome, my child.” He kissed Alec’s cheeks as well, welcoming him in the family. “May Edom be your new home.”

“Thank you.” Alexander bowed his head to the king and let himself being led by Magnus to his chamber.

“What is he doing here?” Asmodeus asked Ragnor, once his youngest left them. “Ragnor?”

“Magnus loves him and Aphrodite promised Alexander to him.” The King sighed at the words of his other son. “Father, we have to prepare. Jonathan will come for his husband. I am certain that he will not come alone.”

“You fear that Kassandra’s prophecy will come true?”

“I fear that we have brought upon ourselves not only Jonathan’s wrath, but as well as whole Idris, New York, London and other countries.” Ragnor explained. “I would ship him back to him, before it will be too late, father.”

“Your brother loves Alexander, and we shall respect that.” Asmodeus grabbed Rangor’s hand in his own and squeezed. “Edom is powerful. We can fight just fine for years. We shall not dwell at the upcoming, instead we shall celebrate your return and the new love of your brother.”

9

“Word can never express the true horrors that our people have suffered, The bloody scourge that we brought down upon ourselves. Instead, dear foes, let us show you with deeds.”

-The proclamation of woe, delivered by the Sorrowsinger prior to the commencement of “The Fall of the Eldar”-

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More than a thousand years past, a great calamity was visited upon this world. Across the sky, a terrible blackness spread till no light could be seen, and then descended, seeping into the very hearts of men. Thus was he sorely afflicted, and his ways perverted. Chaos was in all places all at once, and myriad creation was destroyed.
Avarice reigned supreme, and civilization was thrown into a lawless struggle for wealth and power─the mighty taking as they saw fit with complete disregard for nature and fellow man alike. Evil begat evil and ripened unchecked, taking on the sickly sweetness of rot, near to bursting and rank with the promise of decay.
It was then that the Twelve, grieved by the corruption and sin that had gripped their creation, decided to purge the world of its evils with a cleansing deluge, proclaiming: “Behold the power of pure water!” And thus began the sixth of the Umbral Eras.
There is a moral in this story for those wise enough to find it. You see, it was we mortals who brought the great flood upon ourselves and our world, having left the gods no recourse. And so if our faults ushered in an Umbral Era in the past, then our strengths can prevent the coming of another in the future.
—  The very first in-game mention of the Sixth Umbral Calamity; the War of the Magi and the three city-states which participated in it are only indirectly implied.
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MIT Computer Scientists Demonstrate the Hard Way That Gender Still Matters | WIRED

“We’re 3 female computer scientists at MIT, here to answer questions about programming and academia. Ask us anything!” we wrote for our Reddit Ask Me Anything session last Friday. And then, boom:

“Why does it matter that you’re female?”
“Why did you put gender in the title?”
“Why should your gender matter if you’re talking about research?”

Dozens of questions like these were interspersed with marriage proposals and requests to “make me a sandwich” in our AMA. We had intended for the AMA to be a chance to answer questions about what our lives are like as PhD students at MIT’s Computer Science and Artificial Intelligence Lab (CSAIL), and what we could do to get more young people excited about programming.

The AMA became, to borrow one Reddit commenter’s phrase, “a parody of what it’s actually like to be a woman working in a STEM field.”

As computer science PhD students, we were interested in fielding questions about programming, academia, MIT CSAIL, and how we got interested in the subject in the first place. As three of the few women in our department and as supporters of women pursuing STEM [Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics], we also wanted to let people know that we were interested in answering questions about what it is like to be women in a male-dominated field. We decided to actively highlight the fact that we were three female computer scientists doing an AMA, to serve as role models in a field that’s less than 20 percent female.

As it turned out, people were extremely interested in our AMA, though some not for the reasons we expected. Within an hour, the thread had rocketed to the Reddit front page, with hundreds of thousands of pageviews and more than 4,700 comments. But to our surprise, the most common questions were about why our gender was relevant at all. Some people wondered why we did not simply present ourselves as “computer scientists.” Others questioned if calling attention to gender perpetuated sexism. Yet others felt that we were taking advantage of the fact that we were women to get more attention for our AMA.

The interactions in the AMA itself showed that gender does still matter. Many of the comments and questions illustrated how women are often treated in male-dominated STEM fields. Commenters interacted with us in a way they would not have interacted with men, asking us about our bra sizes, how often we “copy male classmates’ answers,” and even demanding we show our contributions “or GTFO [Get The **** Out]”. One redditor helpfully called out the double standard, saying, “Don’t worry guys – when the male dog groomer did his AMA (where he specifically identified as male), there were also dozens of comments asking why his sex mattered. Oh no, wait, there weren’t.”

As for the question of whether we brought this treatment upon ourselves by mentioning our two X chromosomes, it is well known people give women on the internet a hard time whether they call attention to their gender or not. And as one redditor says, “Gender neutrality and a push for equal rights is prevalent precisely because men and women have fought for it to become a topic of discussion.”

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We have been receiving your emails, tweets, and posts regarding us not responding to the allegations brought upon Front Porch Step.  While we have been planning to disassociate ourselves from FPS for several days, we have been working very hard behind the scenes to book our own tour so we are not left stranded for the spring.

We, Have Mercy, in no way condone the alleged actions that have come to light over the past week, and hope that message above all is clear to our fans. Safety in music, and life, should never be risked for selfish decisions. We were incredibly excited at the opportunity to hit the road this spring, and that is still our top priority.

Over the coming weeks, we hope to have news about a new tour with Head North and other trusted friends.

Thank you for your patience and understanding.

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(extremely personal post, these are solely my experiences with being transgender and I in no way mean to say that everyone’s experience should be the same or even similar to mine in order to be valid)

Before I knew I was trans, I had looked up on google “I don’t recognize myself in the mirror” more than 50 times in the span of 10 years. Before I knew I was trans, I told people I wasn’t a girl but was too afraid to say I was a boy because I felt like that was abnormal, and I thought I had to be normal. Before I found out I was trans, I did not know I was real. I felt like my entire life was planned out for me, and I felt like my body was just a physical aspect of myself that was there to be born, live, and then die. Before I knew I was trans, the only part of myself that I felt comfortable with was my mind. I developed a complex where I thought “being yourself” was wrong because all my life I was just living by some dumb path that was set out for me. I started asking others if it was normal to not recognize yourself when you looked at your reflection. I started to be so scared that I didn’t recognize my own body that I thought I wasn’t supposed to be there at all. I was so disconnected from the reality of who I was as a person that I thought everyone around me was just as fake as me, and that they were playing along just like me, and I hated it. It got to a point where I would lock myself in my bathroom and stare at myself for hours, turn on the faucet, and tell everyone I was taking a really long shower. I had body image issues, I wore jackets that were two times my size and I could never wear shorts because I felt like I was weird, and my body was weird, and I was faking everything. I used to get excited when my voice got deeper and my parents told me “you’ll have a high voice one day, it’s alright” when what they didn’t understand was that I loved my deep voice. I had a plan to kill myself the summer of the year I turned 13.

Then one day, I thought it would be cool to dress “like a boy” and put my hair up in a beanie. My best friend also thought it would be kinda cool to do, and so we tried it out and my confidence level skyrocketed. Slowly I started easing my way into this new “style” at school. At a school dance, my friends asked me why I was dressing “so weird” and the first thing that came from my mouth was “I am a boy”. At the time, I didn’t know the word, but a good portion of my friends were very involved in the community despite me not being as invested. My friend mentioned the term to me, asking if I was “transgender” and I admitted that I had never heard the word. I went home after that night and looked up the definition, which is when I finally felt like I wasn’t a complete weirdo. I felt real. I finally understood why everything I had experienced in my childhood was so difficult to find on the internet, and I learned the word “dysphoria” which well described a large portion of my feelings up until that point regarding myself, my identity, and my body. 

I cut my hair  at the end of 8th grade. When I looked in the mirror, I felt like I knew that I was the one staring back at me, even if it was just the slightest bit more than I used to. 

Around the beginning of 9th grade I got my first binder. It was a good few sizes too big for me, but I made it work. It ripped a lot but I was satisfied with what I had, and I took it upon myself to learn how to sow in order to fix it up when it got too old. I stocked up on clothes like cargo pants and band tees, mostly because I didn’t want my parents knowing.

At the end of 9th grade, my mother hacked into my personal Facebook account and read exchanges between my friend and I. She acted very accepting although later that year I learned that she really wasn’t. Although I had told her in the past about my depression and anxiety, she acted as if it was all new information, as if I hadn’t told her I was suicidal and needed help, and as if she hadn’t told me that it was just a “teenager thing” and I would grow out of it. She got me a counselor. Despite that, later in the year she couldn’t seem to help herself about making jokes and comments about my body and the fact that I did not present or identify as female. There are a lot more details on this section that I’d like to keep private.

The summer leading up to 10th grade, I came out to my dad. I felt weirdly comfortable, to a point where I tried to make myself cry so that there wouldn’t be so much silence. My dad said that he was glad I trusted him with that information, that we are all born differently, and although it would take some getting used to, he accepted me and still loved me for me. 

So my question is, if transitioning clearly helped my health, made me more comfortable, diminished my dissociation, helped me focus on friendships, made me so much more comfortable with who I am, and made me feel like I was normal like everyone else, why do people still shame that? Why do people still believe that it’s a negative thing when it HELPED me overcome so many hurtles pertaining to it, and answered so many questions, to the point where I reconsidered my suicide and made me realize that most of the world wasn’t faking their personality, and that I had the ability to help others with struggles I have had? Why do people  push and push to try to convince others that it’s just some made up issue that we have brought upon ourselves to gain attention? I can look in the mirror now and say “This is me, and I look good”. Why is that such a bad thing to some people? Before people judge someone, they should look into the experiences of that person and the topic they are commenting on. The reason validation is important is that if I never had found out that I was transgender, I would be dead right now. I’m still pulling through, but it’s been my main drive as to not die, because I realized that I was myself and I wasn’t just roaming through the world as someone else’s character.

But anyways, that’s just my experience with it.

16061) I hate how WE suffer from the eating disorders absolutely the most, but we're blamed and stigmatized and have guilt place upon us as if we brought it upon ourselves. I'm tired of feeling guilty and like I am the problem.
Blood thirst

Why was blood necessary for the atonement of sin?

Why Couldn’t an Almighty God just choose to forgive?

Why did it take death to restore life?

Why did it take the ultimate injustice to justify the unjust?

These are all valuable questions that I think all Christians should know the answer to. They engineer the core of our belief and help us to fall in love all the more with Jesus our Savior. Here are some answers. Not all the answers, not the perfectly articulated answers, not the comprehensive list of answers but best I can do within myself.

The Switch off: So first of all, it would appear that God was blood thirsty, that he was upset and wanted to kill something to ease his anger.  Colossians 1 teaches us that this is not the case but that the goal of the cross was a blameless presentation of a sinful people. Jesus switched places with us so that we could live while He died. Sin was killing us already. So Jesus took the sin that should have killed us upon himself and died the death that we should have died. Could God have forgiven us of our sin without Jesus having to die? Well yes. In actuality he did. Romans 5:8 says that God forgave us while we were still sinners. But here is what would have happened: Had we just been forgiven and not cleaned, we would have still been obliterated in God’s presence because his holiness would have consumed the sin that still rested upon us. so God did to Jesus what His presence would have done to us had we try to enter it unclean. Absolute devastation.

Death has rights: Romans 6:23 says that the wages of sin is death. Romans 6:16 says that we are the slaves of those whom we obey. Jesus had to die because when we sinned we gave ourselves legally over to death as slaves. Had God simply overrun the rights of death to keep what it had gained, He would not be a perfect and just God worthy of eternal worship. This had to be a covert operation to win back what death had a rightful claim over it. Jesus death was not only to satisfy God’s wrath but most importantly to create a legal transaction of winning our souls back from their rightful owners. God wasn’t the one that was blood thirsty, sin was, however it would appear that God was blood thirsty because of how happy He was to oblige. His happiness was because WE were His prize.

Jesus’ death makes us the type of people worthy of life: This is the perfect system to make us the most desirable people possible to spend an eternity with. Without the death of Jesus could we still spend an eternity with God? well probably not because of all the aforementioned reasons however for the sake of argument lets say yes. However even if we could spend an eternity with God as sinful creatures, we’d still be bound by our sin, and would consistently choose it over Him because of how corrupted our thoughts were. Jesus’ death bore the chains of corruption that we brought upon ourselves causing us to be rightfully free to choose God if we wanted to. And we get to choose Him out of love and gratitude for what He did for us on the cross. Would you want to spend eternity with liars, murderers, thieves, and idolaters? Good well neither would He.

He is a perfect display of humility: What other God would become one of His creation, and then submit to die at the hand of His creation it order to redeem His creation. Only 1. Jesus  the Christ son of Yahweh the one true God. Jesus’ death wasn’t just atonement it was pursuit. Hebrews 12:2 says Jesus went to the cross willfully with joy in His heart to show us how far He would go to save us and display His love.