One of the things about Glitch working, even if only part time, is that I feel kind of useless. Like, I’m on disability and shit and I have a lot of anxiety about working, but just it makes me feel lazy and no good.
I know the whole depression and chronic pain and sleeping a lot hurt my working options and I don’t have many skills which make me desirable to employers. I’m just some poor 20 something who is very bad at math and is scared of people and who, at times, can’t stand for more than 5 minutes without feeling like I’m gonna throw up or pass out. Just the whole growing up being told people who take money from the government are good for nothings and my depression finding any way to make me believe I’m a piece of shit, kind of make me feel stuck and like I’m a lazy leech.