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Rebirth of the “Son”: the art of Kylo Ren’s redemption

Many would say that The Force Awakens has a rather ambiguous conclusion, leaving the future of its main characters and storyline very open for debate. However, by analyzing the text — or in this case, the film — we can discover potentially eye-opening clues about the future of the Trilogy, particularly in regards to one plot-point: Kylo Ren’s redemption arc.

This meta will focus on deconstructing The Force Awakens by analyzing characterization (behaviour and dialogue) and foreshadowing and symbolism found in The Force Awakens. It will not discuss how he will be redeemed in detail, just the myriad of suggestions that we were left with.

Part 1: Characterization

This first part will deal mainly with deconstructing Kylo Ren’s characterization in the simplest possible manner. I will be analyzing his behaviour and dialogue in the context of the entire movie. Why? Because we must acknowledge every scene and every action in order to give reason to even one.

But first, let’s get a starting definition. Most people would know what “characterization” is, even if they don’t know it by name. The basic deconstruction of characterization is taught in high schools around the world. I’m sure we can all remember reading Shakespeare’s Romeo & Juliet or Steinbeck’s Of Mice and Men as a class and discussing the characters in an academic setting.

A quick refresher:

Characterization is the concept of creating characters for a narrative. […] Characters are presented by means of description, through their actions, speech, thoughts and interactions with other characters.

Characterization is broken down two separate sections: direct characterization and indirect characterization.

Direct characterization involves the author telling us what a character is like. This is generally done through descriptions, or by the characters themselves. Imagine a character saying or thinking that they “like the beach”. This would be an example of direct characterization.

Indirect characterization must be inferred by the audience by interpreting a character’s dialogue, mannerisms, thoughts, actions and interactions with other characters. Imagine a character walking barefoot along a beach, staring wistfully at the water. We can easily infer that this character “likes the beach” without having the character actually make any kind of statement.

This first section of the meta will deconstruct Kylo Ren’s direct and indirect characterization.


We must first start by summarizing Kylo Ren’s background.

“Apparently the awakening was not just for Rey, but Kylo as well. Adam Driver spoke about Kylo and his motivations. Driver said that the character was mainly motivated by the feelings of abandonment from his family.”

“Abrams also added some backstory saying that Han couldn’t stay in one place and that Leia couldn’t stop fighting. His nature as a rogue and her nature as a freedom fighter clashed. Against that backdrop, Snoke targeted Kylo because of his powers and potential. The implication was that in the absence of solid parenting, Kylo Ren emerged.”

— “Secrets of the Force Awakens” Documentary

As we all know, Kylo Ren—once Ben Solo—is the fallen son of Han Solo and Leia Organa. He was seduced to the Dark Side by Supreme Leader Snoke after he was sent to train with his uncle Luke Skywalker. Snoke viewed the young Ben Solo as the perfect focal point of the Light and Dark Sides of the Force. He was being twisted and manipulated from the shadows since childhood, but it appears as though he managed to stave off complete seduction until he was a young adult, at which point something happened. He gave in to Snoke, turned to the Dark Side and left his family in ruins.

However, he was never able to completely extinguish the Light from which he was born.

It would not be unfair to suggest that Kylo Ren is currently the most important character in the Star Wars universe. He has a direct blood relation to almost every previous main character, his betrayal tore apart the Original Trilogy heroes, and he connects every player in the Sequel Trilogy together: the fallen son to Han and Leia, the ex-apprentice and nephew to Luke, the pawn to Snoke, the Knight of Ren, the anti-villain to Rey’s hero, the man who killed Han and left Finn in a coma, and whom Rey scarred with his grandfather’s saber when she almost crossed the threshold to the Dark Side. Rey went from defeating Ren with his legacy saber to hugging Ren’s mother to boarding Ren’s legacy ship to finding Ren’s uncle, who exiled himself because of Ren. It all comes back to one character: Ben Solo.

You must remember who Kylo Ren is and what franchise we’re dealing with in order to even hope to make accurate predictions. Star Wars is first and foremost an optimistic, idealistic coming-of-age fantasy directed toward children. It presents core messages of family, love, friendship, redemption and hope.


Kylo Ren’s garbs in The Force Awakens serve the purpose of imparting vital indirect characterization. He is swamped in black clothing that covers even his face, hands and neck, leaving not even an inch of skin showing. This immediately conveys to the audience that he has something to “hide”, despite the fact that we eventually discover that he is an average human man. He could even be described as shameful, unprepared to place himself in a position of vulnerability, quite literally playing dress-up in his grandfather’s attire.

Kylo’s garments also plainly echo the real-life historic Knights Templar, which certainly begs a few questions about Ren’s upbringing with and indoctrination by Snoke. Alas, this is not the meta for that discussion, but I will leave you with this quote referring to the vows knights had to make in order to be accepted into the order, two of which I find particularly telling with regards to my own personal interpretation of the character.

“Full members of the order took the standard monastic vows of poverty, chastity and obedience.”

Like his fellow character trinity members Rey and Finn, Kylo portrays many qualities that can be attributed to children, particularly young children. He is incapable of controlling his emotions, presenting a seemingly collected demeanor only in the film’s introductory sequence. He doesn’t seem to have a firm grasp on complex human emotion, perhaps because he was never given a proper outlet to explore his more innate feelings, or because Snoke simply did not allow it. He has violent tantrums, his fists are always balled and his eyes always seem to shimmer with tears. He trusts inanimate objects more than real people, he has an obsession with relics, he watches Rey sleep, crouched on the ground, head tilted. There is an air of submission in him, as out-of-place as it may appear.

This is one of the major reasons Kylo often comes across as “weak”. He is an evocative male character, brimming with emotion that seems completely unable to tame. He is not really a man, a child or a monster, he is all three.


In the film’s opening scene, we are introduced to Poe Dameron and Lor San Tekka. Poe is a Resistance pilot who is retrieving a piece of a map rumored to lead to the missing Luke Skywalker. The mission, however, does not go as planned. Poe is captured by the First Order and Lor San Tekka is murdered by Kylo Ren.

The First Order rose from the dark side… you did not.

I’ll show you the dark side.

You may try, but you cannot deny the truth that is your family.


You’re so right.


Above we have the sequence from the final script. Kylo Ren’s response appears to be quite collected, but… why did he kill Tekka? Surely Tekka had seen the map? His mind was ripe for reading; he even could have been a valuable war-prisoner. Kylo Ren had yet to be made aware of Poe’s existence, let alone the fact that BB-8 had been given charge of the drive containing the map. Yet he killed him. Why?

Because this was a man from his past who reprimanded him about his origins, his family. There is even a small smirk visible on Tekka’s face as he converses with Ren, as he chastises him for “denying the truth that is his family.”

These are things we later come to realize bring Ren to a conflicted place, heightening the pull to the Light within him. Although his response to Tekka was swift and cold, the rage behind the action was not fueled by indifference. Hate and love are not opposites, they are two sides of the same coin, and it’s quite clear that Ren is far from indifferent when it comes to his family. This was a personal murder, not a war crime.

The movie illustrates that Kylo Ren only kills when the situation becomes genuinely personal. He leaves Poe alive after interrogating him despite having already retrieved the necessary information. He lets Lieutenant Mitaka live as well, and on Takodana he immediately goes for Rey and BB-8 without engaging in battle with anybody. This is vital indirect characterization. We are meant to infer that, while Kylo has likely killed many innocent people, we as an audience don’t see him kill impersonally. Anything beyond that is speculation.

The first sequence of the film creates an image for the audience. It would be called a character defining moment, and it’s used to great effect. Kylo seems similar to Darth Vader, perhaps with an added youthful edge. This image is quickly torn down as we witness Kylo unraveling. He goes from murdering potentially important war criminals to desperately following his “personal interests” to praying to an inanimate object. Kylo unravels like a ball of string, shedding physical and metaphorical layers until he is left a beaten, scarred, patricidal wreck at the film’s conclusion.


Immediately after murdering Tekka, Poe makes himself known when he tries to shoot Kylo Ren. Kylo stops the blaster-bolt and the two men share a brief interaction that ends with Kylo ordering the Storm Troopers to take Poe on-board. Kylo gives the Troopers permission to annihilate the village — probably one of his darkest and most unforgivable acts. While Tekka’s murder was personal and driven by secret longing, this was something very different.

Yet this scene is followed by Kylo Ren’s first clearly bizarre decision.

Kylo Ren heads back toward his ship. But then he STOPS. Feels something. TURNS AND LOOKS AT OUR STORMTROOPER for a LONG MOMENT. Our Trooper can barely meet his gaze; knows he’s doomed.

Kylo Ren then heads off – passes the FROZEN BLAST, which, after a beat, GOES FREE AND SLAMS INTO A NEARBY STRUCTURE, scaring the hell out of our Stormtrooper.

As Kylo is preparing to depart on his ship, he seems to sense something. A Trooper is disobeying him, refusing to shoot down the villagers. Ren locks gazes with him, seeming prepared to kill him… but then he walks away.

This single moment serves as the inception of the entire adventure. The Trooper breaks Poe free, and together they crash on the desert planet Jakku, where BB-8 has already encountered a mysterious scavenger named Rey.

Ren should have destroyed the Trooper, but he didn’t. Perhaps it could be argued that he just didn’t care about an underling’s actions, but it doesn’t take long for us to learn this:

Kylo researched the Trooper’s title. He knew the Trooper was showing strange “signs”, he knew the Trooper by name, yet he kept the information to himself. Why? Why did Kylo Ren let the Trooper go?

Because he felt compassion for him.

This might seem like a leap to some, but it’s the only thing that makes sense to me, given Kylo’s apparent inner-turmoil about the situation. Kylo also felt something for Rey—as will be discussed below. We know he dislikes the Trooper program (he thinks as much in the novelization, and he subtly tries ot tell Hux that they should be using Clones in the film). We know he hates Hux as well. It only makes sense to take into consideration that Kylo may have consciously allowed FN-2187 to go free simply because he saw himself in the rogue Trooper.

The young women and men who become Storm Troopers in the Sequel Trilogy are stolen from their families as children and brainwashed into serving as killing machines. The process should be ringing a bell in your mind, because it’s remarkably similar to what happened to Kylo Ren.

With this in mind, it should be easy to infer that Kylo may have felt compassion for Finn, and walked away as a result. The single moment haunts Kylo, and we can imagine that he may have battled with himself mentally about whether or not to inform Hux or Phasma about their rogue Trooper. Obviously a side of Ren he would rather deny emerged victorious, because Finn managed to escape, and Ren doesn’t forget it.

The next time Kylo mentions Finn, he uses the term “traitor”. He does this one more time before the end of the film, after he has murdered his father. He screams the word at Finn, who is cradling an unconscious Rey. This is an incredible example of indirect characterization mixed with direct characterization. Kylo Ren isn’t just labeling Finn an “traitor”, he’s using the term to describe himself, hating himself for going through with the ultimate act of betrayal. He punishes Finn in the forest of Starkiller Base, using him as an outlet for his frustration and masochism. He beats his own wounds physically and metaphorically.

“You have compassion for her.” (The Force Awakens novelization)

— Snoke

It is made far more obvious in the film that Kylo Ren feels some kind of attachment to the heroine, Rey. I have discussed this at great length in a separate analysis, but I’ll allude to it here simply for brevity’s sake.

Kylo Ren sees himself in Rey, just as he saw himself in Finn. When he reads her mind, he finds that he relates to her loneliness, her fear and her desperation. Ren’s sentiments of compassion lead him to place himself in a position of vulnerability two times while in Rey’s presence, and both instances are considered iconic in The Force Awakens.

First, he removes his helmet for her in the interrogation sequence. Second, he offers to “show her the ways of the Force” in their final battle. This reminds Rey that she too is capable of channeling the Force, allowing her to defeat him. These are two of Ren’s biggest mistakes, and the implication is they were born out of compassion.


Careful, Ren. That your “personal interests” not interfere with orders from Leader Snoke.

While it is difficult to say what Kylo’s motivations are right now, it’s quite clear that he isn’t Snoke’s loyal puppet. He goes against his orders multiple times. In fact, I would have trouble thinking of a single moment in which Ren does follow Snoke’s plans without fail. He seems to react upon instinct more than anything, doing whatever he sees fit, but there is an underlying idea—as presented by Hux in the above excerpt—that Kylo has “personal interests” in finding Luke that go completely against Snoke and the First Order. This line basically foreshadows Ren’s entire developmental (or unraveling) arc in The Force Awakens. 

Supreme Leader Snoke was explicit. Capture the droid if we can, but destroy it if we must.

Obviously Snoke isn’t particularly invested in finding Luke (he just doesn’t wnt the Resistance to find Luke), but Kylo certainly is. There is no way to know just what he wants from him. We’ll have to wait until Episode VIII for that information.

Forgive me. I feel it again. The pull to the light. Supreme Leader senses it. Show me again, the power of the darkness, and I will let nothing stand in our way. Show me, Grandfather, and I will finish what you started.

This is perhaps Ren’s most obvious “personal interest”. The sequence poses so many questions that have been deconstructed in separate analyses that I won’t waste too much time on it, but the implication here is that Kylo shares certain sentiments with this mask alone. It is his guardian, his relic. It is the only thing in the world he genuinely trusts, and he feels a connection to it, and a shame for not living up to its “expectations”.

Then there is one of the big questions to come out of this film: what did Darth Vader start? I have my own theories that don’t necessarily belong in this meta, but I’ll leave it at this: writers don’t emphasize an ambiguous theme in a villainous character only to reveal an equally villainous motivation. Chances are whatever “Vader started” will lead into the inevitability of Kylo’s redemption.

What girl?

The girl I’ve heard so much about

Ren believed it was no longer valuable to us. That the girl was all we needed. As a result, the droid has most likely been returned to the hands of the enemy. They may have the map already.

Throughout the Third Act of the film, Kylo Ren finds a brand new “personal interest” in Rey. Ren appears to become attracted to and infatuated with Rey as he is in some way seduced by the Light she embodies. You don’t need to look far to see that he treats her differently than he treats any other character.

When he sets foot on Takodana and hears that the girl and droid have fled into the woods, he immediately follows them. When he finds Rey he decides to take her second-hand version of the map and not bother looking for the droid itself, allowing it to fall into the hands of the Resistance. In the interrogation, he removes his mask when she expresses fear, gets way too close to her and fishes through her personal thoughts before even attempting to search for the map. In their final battle, he offers himself to her as a teacher. This characterization is some of Ren’s most unexplainable… and it only makes sense if you accept that he also appears to be attracted to her in some fashion.

“The Supreme Leader believes Ren to be the ideal embodiment of the Force, a focal point of both Light and Dark Side ability.”

— The Force Awakens Visual Dictionary

It is interesting to note that Snoke actually encourages Ren to maintain control over both the Light and Dark sides of the Force that naturally coexist within him, but Ren is completely dismissive of this notion. When he feels a pull to the Light, he expresses to Darth Vader’s helmet that it must “show him the power of the Darkness”. He also insinuates that the battling Forces he commands “tear him apart”, and actually cause him pain of some kind. He wants nothing to do with accepting the Light, which appears to manifest as unwanted link to the life he left behind.

Once more, we can see that Ren is going against Snoke’s desires.

What exactly are all these “personal interests” used to push in the context of the narrative? To create a clear distinction between Kylo Ren and the First Order, to separate him a little from the evilest aspects of the Order. He is his own character, not an extension of Snoke. He places his “personal interests” above Snoke and the First Order on every occasion. That demands a certain level of attention in itself.


The Force Awakens introduces us to General Hux, an important official in the First Order. Ren and Hux share a bitter relationship that seems to echo a sibling-rivalry, with Hux seeming to constantly interfere with Ren’s more paternal connection to Supreme Leader Snoke.

Hux and Ren are given multiple scenes together, and it becomes quite clear that the character exists as a direct contrast to Ren. We are meant to compare their reactions as they are faced with similar orders.

How capable are your soldiers, General?

I won’t have you question my methods.

They’re obviously skilled at committing high treason. Perhaps Leader Snoke should consider using a clone army.

In the above sequence, the film spells out that Ren has nothing to do with the First Order’s indoctrination of child-soldiers. Ren is specifically Snoke’s foot-soldier and a Knight of Ren, not Hux’s partner (as has been discussed, Ren hates the Trooper program). Ren and Hux barely tolerate each other. When you consider the fact that Hux is a twisted, genocidal, power-hungry, sadistic maniac absorbed with self-importance and lacking even a single redeeming quality, it should be obvious that Hux serves the purpose of humanizing Ren, of making him look “better” by comparison.

Hux watches, his eyes WILD WITH POWER AND EVIL.

TIGHT ON KYLO REN as he watches the Starkiller firing.

Hux’s Nazi speech is also entirely his own. Ren isn’t even present on Starkiller Base when the weapon is fired at the Hosnian System. He is watching it from afar, fists clenched. We are given a description of Hux’s eyes, but we cannot know what Ren’s might look like at this exact same moment. He is leaning over the window, watching the weapon fire. It is meant to make us question what Ren really thinks of all this.  

Hux repeatedly rebukes Ren for going against Snoke. He seems to have an innate desire to embarrass Ren in front of his Master. Hux is also fully aware of Ren’s wavering conviction, which makes him all the more dangerous as an antagonist.

Good. Then we will crush them once and for all. Prepare the weapon.

Kylo Ren is stunned by the moment – that isn’t what he meant at all

Supreme Leader. I can get the map from the girl. I just need your guidance.

Above we have perhaps the most telling comparison. Hux and Snoke decide to destroy the Illeenium System—where Leia Organa, Kylo Ren’s mother, happens to be. Ren is completely against the order, and even tries to offer up another solution, but he is shot down as Hux walks away, giving him a snide glower.


Despite being the main antagonist of The Force Awakens, Kylo Ren is a surprisingly truthful character. He only lies once in the entire film, and it is clear at this exact moment that Ren is an absolutely abysmal liar. He and Snoke are discussing the droid, which has fallen into the hands of Ren’s father through a series of odd coincidences. Ren reacts to the news in the following manner:

Kylo Ren reacts with subtle, but real, surprise.

He means nothing to me.

This scene is closely followed by the famous “pull to the Light” sequence in which Ren reveals that Snoke was fully capable of sensing his deceit. Han Solo does not mean nothing to Kylo Ren.

You’re my guest.

Where are the others?

You mean the murderers, traitors and thieves you call friends? You’ll be relieved to hear that I have no idea.

Kylo Ren stops, considers her… then reaches up, unlatches and REMOVES HIS MASK. Rey reacts, stunned. It takes a moment before she regains her own mask of defiance.

When Rey wakes up in the interrogation scene, Kylo doesn’t bother lying to her even once. He could have told Rey her friends were dead, but instead he expresses the truth: he has no idea where they are. He also removes his mask when she reveals her (understandable) mistrust. He is very honest with her.

… You’re so lonely… so afraid to leave… At night, desperate to sleep… you imagine an ocean. I see it – I see the island… And Han Solo. You feel like he’s the father you never had. He would’ve disappointed you.

He’s also open about what he sees in her head, even going so far as to “warn” her that Han Solo would have disappointed her if he really was her father.

I’m being torn apart. I want to be free of this pain. I know what I have to do, but I don’t know if I have the strength to do it. Will you help me?

Perhaps the most controversial example can be found in Kylo Ren’s conversation with Han Solo on the catwalk. As an audience, we should have been able to infer that Kylo Ren never bothers to lie, opting instead for the truth.

This indirect characterization gives us all we need to know to understand that Kylo is in no way attempting to manipulate his father. He goes through with Snoke’s orders for a “personal” reason, in order to be “free of [his] pain.” He truly could not have kill his father on his own, and genuinely expresses to Han that he needs his help. The scene is heartbreaking on many levels, particularly when you realize that Han resting his hand on his son’s cheek is likely the first true human contact Ren has felt in years.


Adam Driver said it himself, Kylo Ren is mainly motivated by what he considers to be feelings of abandonment from his family. His sentiments about his family are complex to say the least, with Ren mentioning them several times throughout the film. As always, Ren reveals far more of himself than he intends to.

“He means nothing to me.”

As we have already discussed, this was proven to be an outright (and pathetic) attempt at a lie.

“Han Solo. […] He would have disappointed you.”

Han Solo disappointed Ren.

“Your son is gone. He was weak and foolish, like his father. So I destroyed him.”

Ren considered his father to be weak and foolish for “something”. Is this the same “something” that caused him to harbour so much disappointment in his family? We can only speculate right now, so I’ll leave it at that.

We must also notice that Ren only starts to cry when Han expresses that “we [Han and Leia] miss him”. Ren’s feelings about his mother are perhaps even more difficult to comprehend than those about his father.

Always remember that Han Solo died as any father should, loving his son, forgiving him, and hping that he can someday find his way home.

An extra layer of intricacy can be found between Snoke and Ren. There is clearly a dependence of some kind between them, perhaps because Snoke was there for Ren when Han and Leia weren’t, using his loneliness to manipulate him. The notion is quite tragic, but we simply don’t know enough about the topic yet.

Part 2: Symbolism, Metaphor and Foreshadowing

Now that we have a clear understanding of the most important facets of Kylo Ren’s characterization, this second part of the meta will focus on the artistic devices in The Force Awakens, particularly the use of symbolism, metaphor and foreshadowing that directly pertain to Kylo’s redemption arc.

Once more, a quick refresher on some important terms.

Symbolism is the practice of using an object or word to represent an abstract idea. An action, person, place, word of object can all have symbolic meaning.

Foreshadowing is a literary technique through which an author hints at what is to come.

A metaphor is a figure of speech that identifies something as being the same as some unrelated thing for rhetorical effect that, usually, provides clarity; thus, the implied conceptual relationship rhetorically highlights the similarities between two ideas.


It was revealed in an interview with Adam Driver that Kylo Ren’s lightsaber and helmet are meant to be a metaphor for his character, that he is “unfinished” and “unpolished” and appears as though he might crack at any moment. It can thus be assumed that, in order to develop, Kylo will eventually have to become “finished”, “polished” and “in control”.

Interestingly, some people use this as evidence supporting the notion that Kylo will never be redeemed, that he will become eviler and eviler until he kills Luke and Leia. Hilarious, I know.  

We must realize that treading further along the path of Darkness would not lead to Ren being “finished” or “whole”. He is the focal point of the Light and Dark, and until he accepts both sides of his being he can never be whole, he can never mature naturally or discover his true purpose. That is the true metaphor behind the saber.



To see we’re LOOKING UP AT A WARRIOR as he is STABBED BY A FIERY LIGHTSABER! He screams and falls to the ground – we FOLLOW HIM, revealing Rey again, now in a nighttime battlefield. She gets to her feet, frightened by what she sees. We PIVOT AROUND HER to REVEAL KYLO REN, and the six other KNIGHTS OF REN, who flank him!

Come back around to Rey, soaking now, as the RAIN STOPS and SUNLIGHT illuminates her – she turns to look – we PIVOT – and see…

A little girl. Rey as a child. She is sobbing, hysterical. Unkar Plutt’s meaty hand holds her thin arm. She is on Jakku, watching a starship fly into the sky, abandoning her.

No, come back!

Rey discovers that she has some kind of connection with Anakin’s lightsaber as she touches it and is thrust into a terrifying Force Back. She sees past, present and future, and is pursued by the only individual who seems to acknowledge her presence in the dream sequence: Kylo Ren. He is the focus of her vision more than anything, which is quite interesting when you remember that the saber (according to Ren) belonged to him at one point. Does Rey feel bonded with the Skywalker saber, or with Ren himself? Only time will tell.

Maz Kanata’s speech to Rey directly following the Force Back is one of the turning points of the film. Maz insinuates that Rey’s family is never returning, and that the belonging she seeks is ahead, not behind.

Dear child. I see your eyes. You already know the truth. Whomever you’re waiting for on Jakku, they’re never coming back. But… there’s someone who still could.

There is someone who still could come back. Rey immediately assumes Maz is referring to Luke, but what if she’s actually insinuating that Kylo Ren can still [come back to the Light]? It would make for a brilliant example of foreshadowing in the long-run.

The end of the Force Back scene is also edited in such a way that it appears as though the little girl is speaking directly to Ren. We hear her say “come back” before the child is revealed, and right after we see Ren approaching Rey on the rainy battlefield.

This notion opens up the possibility that the belonging Rey seeks may lie in the focus of her Force Back, in the true owner of the saber: in Kylo Ren. And who is she about to meet in the forest? Who is directly ahead of her?


“I feel it again, the pull to the Light.”

— Kylo Ren

Kylo Ren is quite the tortured soul indeed. He does everything in his power to quiet the call of the Light—which he literally refers to as a seduction—but no matter what he finds that he “feels it again”.  It seems simple enough. Ren is a Dark-affiliated Force-Sensitive who is in great inner-turmoil as a result of the longing for the Light he can’t seem to shake. However small, it is his greatest foil, his most significant element of characterization.

So what is this pull to the Light? Ren makes it quite obvious that whatever connection he maintains to his family incites it. The mere mention of Han Solo causes him to confess his sins to his grandfather’s helmet. It is a pull to his family, to his old life.

But how exactly does Ren’s “pull to the Light” ultimately manifest itself? What is most representative of the Light in The Force Awakens—or more specifically, who?


Many fans have recognized that Kylo Ren develops an unusual fixation on the heroine after first encountering her in the forest of Takodana. Some have postulated that he has an interest in her power, while others say that he is genuinely attracted to her in some fashion, be that physically, mentally or through the Force that flows between them.

I’m much more inclined to believe the second interpretation, because it takes into account Kylo Ren’s characterization and his context in the narrative. He feels genuine compassion for her, he cannot help but bond with her loneliness and her fear. These are not hallmarks of an individual enamoured by power, but rather, by something far more human. That is why combining the themes of Force-related seduction with romantic and sexual seduction are paramount to comprehending Ren’s role in the future of this Trilogy.

Rey is a symbol in herself. She represents everything Kylo Ren has denied himself. She is a beautiful young woman who is highly connected to the Light side of the Force, and he quite literally cannot help but be willingly seduced by her Light.

“By the grace of your training, I will not be seduced.”

— Kylo Ren to Snoke

This is classic foreshadowing and irony in the vein of Vader’s famous “There is no conflict” or even Leia’s “I would sooner kiss a Wookie”. When a character expresses that he won’t be seduced in this manner in the first Episode of a Trilogy and proceeds to become completely fixated on a woman who happens to represent the Light by which he expresses he “will not be seduced” they might as well be spelling out that they will be seduced. In a manner of speaking, methinks Kylo doth protest too much.

We must also remember that this film concluded with Ren being rescued by Hux in order to “complete his training”. By the grace of Snoke’s training indeed.

“There was too much Vader in him.”

— Han Solo

Too much Vader… but too much of “what” exactly? This is left open to interpretation. Vader was a Sith Lord, but he was also Anakin Skywalker, the man who gave his own life to save his only son, the Jedi who fell to the Dark Side because the Emperor manipulated his undying love for his wife. Just as Anakin was prepared to do anything for Padme, Ren may ultimately be willing to go to great lengths for Rey, regardless of whether or not his sentiments are ever outwardly reciprocated.

This definitely ties into the fact that Rey and Ren’s themes are essentially Across the Stars in reverse.

Rey is under a spotlight, practically emanating light. Her light is extending toward the crouched figure of Ren, who is watching her submissively. Ren can’t seem to take his eyes off the glowing young woman.


Although the new superweapon received a great deal of criticism from fans for being “just another lame Death Star”, Starkiller Base happens to be one of the most effective and blatant symbols in the entire movie. From absorbing a “sun’s” light as power to transforming into a “reborn sun” at the film’s conclusion, the metaphor created is both telling and very artistic.

“It uses the power of the sun. As the weapon is charged, the sun is drained until it disappears.”

— Finn about Starkiller Base

“Snoke is using you for your power.”

— Han about Ben Solo

The comparison here is just begging to be made. Starkiller Base manipulates the “light” of a sun as a weapon. In English, the words “sun” and “son” happen to be the same. This is a pun that has been used throughout English literature and even biblical texts to describe the “prodigal son”. Ren is of course the “son” (to Han and Leia), the fallen legacy who wants nothing more than to subdue the light within himself.

“I am too much I’ the sun.”

— Hamlet

The “sun” and the “son” is a powerful symbol that cannot be used lightly, but it only becomes more obvious as the film progresses:

And just then, the LAST BEAM OF SUNLIGHT streaming through the open hatch VANISHES.

Han actually smiles – and reaches out for the dark weapon – but with the light now gone, KYLO REN’S EYES FILL WITH DARKNESS.

At this moment, Kylo Ren murdered his father. Starkiller Base sucked the life from a sun, casting a shadow across the planetary weapon, and across Kylo Ren. The sun’s death heralded Ren’s darkest act. As hope was lost, so too were Ben and Han Solo. The sun, the son and father fell together.

Kylo Ren is somehow WEAKENED by this wicked act. Himself horrified. His SHOCK is broken only when –

We must also take into account Ren’s reaction to killing his father. If this sounds like someone who has gone Full Dark to you… I think you missed the point of the movie.

Something amazing happens at the end of the film:

The X-wings ROAR OFF, skyward as the MUSIC SOARS, the PLANET IMPLODES – THE SUNLIGHT IT CONTAINS BURSTS FORTH, and as we get further and further distance from what was Starkiller Base, we witness the REBIRTH OF A SUN. Light restored to a corner of the galaxy.

This is about as descriptive as any script is going to get. We witnessed the “rebirth of a sun”. Rebirth of a sun… or rebirth of a “son”?

Poe and the rest of the pilots destroyed the oscillator that was containing the sun’s trapped energy and light. This happened in unison with Rey defeating Kylo in the snowy wood. In a story that surrounds the concept of Light and Dark as two sides of a coin and that involved a sun dying to symbolize the loss of hope as a character violently murdered his own father, having that same sun be “reborn” in a flurry of light is very telling. Kylo Ren was filled with darkness as the sun fell, but after being defeated by Rey (interesting how Rey’s name is also a pun on a sun “ray”) he was “reborn” along with the new sun, his father’s eternal resting place.

And if all that symbolism doesn’t drive it home for you, take a look at this Easter Egg from The Force Awakens soundtrack. Two themes are connected by a horn solo, the moment we hear Kylo Ren’s theme for the very first time in “Attack on Jakku Village” and the exact moment the sun is reborn in “Farewell and the Trip”. The same solo can be heard in both songs, referencing the theme of the reborn sun (or in this case, the reborn “son”).

Go to 4:18

The first version is more ominous, as it is combined with Kylo’s dissonant theme.

Go to 0:46

The second is hopeful and triumphant, and even melds with the Force Theme. The solos are exactly the same, however. This hard-evidence proves to me beyond a shadow of a doubt that the writers intended to have Starkiller Base’s rebirth as a “sun” represent Kylo’s own metaphorical rebirth.


Kylo’s final fight with Finn and Rey is perhaps one of the most artistically significant moments in the entire Star Wars franchise. From pursuing the duo into the icy forest to being branded by Rey, Ren is quick to reveal the results of his physical, mental and emotional unraveling as he engages Finn and Rey in battle. If a viewer has failed to comprehend Ren until this point, Ren’s behavior will go completely over their head.

Finn, Rey and Ren contrast each other beautifully. They were all children who were separated physically from their parents, and who dealt with the emotional trauma of abandonment in different ways. Finn was brainwashed, but maintained a high level of humanity; Rey dreamed every day of her family returning; Ren gave in to the Darkness that was tugging at him. Acknowledging the fact that they are all foils of each other gives their battle so much more emotional impact. They are fighting themselves as much as they are fighting each other, lost souls who may ultimately need each other to find their way home.

“It’s just us now. Han Solo can’t save you.”

The fight begins with this line. Strangely enough, it appears as though he is speaking only to Rey (translations corroborate this). However, it should be clear based on Ren’s prior characterization that he isn’t just stating that “Han Solo can’t save Rey”. In reality, he’s acknowledging the tragic fact that Han Solo can no longer save him.

“That lightsaber, it belongs to me.”

Ren doesn’t acknowledge Finn until after he has knocked Rey out after she attempted to shoot him. Finn takes up the Skywalker saber in order to protect Rey, running at his ex-superior—the man who allowed him to disobey direct orders—with a lion’s heart.


Why would Ren call Finn a traitor once again. Why would any character who just murdered his own father title someone else a traitor? Because Ren isn’t reprimanding Finn; he’s reprimanding himself, punishing himself physically and metaphorically. We already know that Ren saw himself in Finn, and he still does. He beats his own wounds during their fight, filled with self-hate and rage. Ren is grieving in his own way, his emotions causing him to lose all sense of self. He burns Finn, and finally slashes him up the spine, putting him temporarily out-of-commission just as Rey wakes up.

“You need a teacher. I can show you the ways of the Force.”

Rey and Ren’s battle is—as Harrison Ford once said—fantastic visual storytelling. There is so much occurring on-screen that it becomes almost overwhelming to take in.

It begins with Rey catching the Skywalker saber. All the tension leaves Ren’s body as he gazes at her with his old saber in her hands. It should be clear that he does not view this girl the same way he views Finn. While he was furious and masochistic in Finn’s presence, there is something very different in his countenance with Rey.

He is enamored by her Light, totally and utterly fixated. His expression is one of complete awe, and he maintains it throughout the fight.

He chases her through the wood, battling her as he attempts to disarm her. They are perfect opposites, moving in unison, dancing while in the midst of an epic clash. There is certainly a beauty to it, with the red and blue sabers seeming to create a shade of mauve just as Starkiller Base begins to fall apart. A crack appears in the planet, spewing fire just as they cross sabers.

As they attempt to stave each other off above the abyss, they seem to share a moment. It is at this point that Ren offers himself to her, declaring that “she needs a teacher” and that “he can show her the ways of the Force.” It is interesting to note that Ren doesn’t use the terms “Dark Side/Darkness” (as he did throughout the film). Of course he isn’t offering to teach her about the Light, but we are meant to question his behavior. He isn’t fully trained himself, yet he wants to teach her, to run away with her, to be with her?

Rey takes the opportunity to channel the Force for the first time, and suddenly she gains the upper-hand. She starts to chase him, stabbing at his clothes and body. She is as brutal against him as he was against Finn, and when they grasp arms and balance each other’s sabers, there is an undeniable example of symbolism. Rey is burying the dark saber in the snow, and he looks fully prepared to have it extinguished, to be rid of it once and for all.

She overcomes him physically, mentally and emotionally, leaving him scarred on the forest floor. Rey almost taps into the Dark Side, and has to stop herself from killing him, from wiping out the representation of the Darkness that took away her father-figure and first true friend.

Ren’s scar is an interesting shape, curved just like the Yin and Yang symbol. The scar is a threefold symbol of Rey’s connection to Ren, to the moment she almost crossed the threshold to the Dark Side, and to Ren’s duality. He no longer has to wear a mask to be a “monster”.

Ren is left beaten, but the symbolism of the reborn sun tells us that the Light within him has not been extinguished. There is still a chance for Ben Solo, as his mother rightfully expressed to her husband before he performed the ultimate sacrifice.

There’s still light in him. I know it

Leia is not about to give up on her son. When Han died, she reacted to Ren’s suffering more than anything (the cut happens just as Ren seems to realize what he has done). I suspect neither Luke nor his sister would be willing to abandon their living link to Han… their true legacy: Ben Solo.


Episode VII ends with Rey handing “Luke’s” lightsaber back to its rightful owner… but we must remember that this saber may very well have also belonged to Ben Solo. Again, I have to wonder if Rey’s connection really extends to the Skyalkers at all, or simply to Kylo Ren? Only time can tell.

Well… I guess that’s all I have to say on this subject for now. I’ll conclude this meta by making it clear that there is zero foreshadowing pointing toward this story taking any other direction. If the writers are competent and made use of all these classic literary techniques in good faith, then we can be assured that Kylo Ren will be receiving quite the redemption arc in future Episodes.

If not, I’ll be keeping my money.

EDITS: To add pictures/fix spelling mistakes.

Going off the grid: Why more people are choosing to live life unplugged

For people who want to get away from today’s consumerist society, living off-grid can be an attractive option.

Imagine living off the land, producing your own food and energy and getting away from the consumption economy that drives so many of our decisions. For more and more people, off-grid living has become the way to go. Although statistics on Americans who choose to take this route are hard to come by, trends suggest that the number is increasing. Some people do it to be self-reliant or more in touch with nature. Many go off-grid to step away from society. Still others do it because it is the most financially viable option available to them.

“Going off the grid is not a game,” says Nick Rosen, founder of the Off-Grid website and author of “Off the Grid: Inside the Movement for More Space, Less Government, and True Independence in Modern America” (Penguin Books). “It is real life and a real choice for real people.”

Rosen says people go off the grid for a variety of reasons, and they vary how deeply they go off-grid. “You can’t get off all of the grids all the time,” he says. “It’s a question of which grids you choose to get off of and in what way and for how long.” Some people live off the grid part of the year for leisure purposes, taking a few months off from their jobs so they can live in a more relaxed manner. Others get themselves off the public electrical or water systems but still participate in what Rosen calls the “car grid” or the “supermarket grid” or “bank grid.”

Off-grid is green
Book cover for Off the Grid by Nick RosenAlthough a desire to go green isn’t usually the primary driver for people going off-grid, the lifestyle has many environmental benefits. For one thing, most off-grid homes or communities are in places where nature plays an important part of their everyday lives. “You become much more aware of the sun and the wind because you need it to power yourself,” Rosen says. For another, people who are living off-grid do not tend to fill their lives with the same amount of stuff as your average consumer. “We’re all consuming too much. One of the big motivations for off-grid living is a weariness of the consumer society. It’s not necessarily anti-consumer, but post-consumer.”

Off-grid homes also eschew the American tendency toward overly large residences. “We’re over-housing ourselves,” Rosen says. “That’s been very big feature of American society since the ‘50s: The overly large house with the big heating and cooling bills, storing vast amounts of unnecessary possessions.” Although off-grid housing varies in size and scope and energy needs, Rosen estimates that the average off-grid residence uses about 20 percent of the energy consumed by a typical American home.

Another green factor is a lowered reliance on transportation. Although people living off the grid still own vehicles, they use them much less frequently. “You may only need it once a week or once a month,” Rosen says.

Other motivations: Fear and finances
Some off-grid people do it to get away. “Perhaps the biggest motivation at the moment is a loss of trust in the government and the ability of social networks to look after us,” Rosen says. These are people who feel as if society no longer provides the sense of safety that they require.

For others, going off-grid is an economic necessity brought about by hard times. “A lot of the people I met when I was traveling around the States writing my book were people who had to hand back the keys to their properties and find a new lifestyle. In one case they bought some land on eBay and moved themselves into a trailer. And they find themselves living a more ecological lifestyle just by the fact that they’re generating their own electricity and growing their own food, but they were motivated by financial matters rather than by more pure desire to tread more lightly on the planet.”

How much do you really need?
Rosen says most families could go off the grid with as little as a half an acre, “as long as it’s the right half-acre.” Ideal locations would have some woodland, an area for agriculture, enough light for solar power and a good source of water, either a well or a stream. “The era of 40 acres and a mule has been replaced by the era of a half an acre and a laptop and a solar panel,” he says.

But even a half an acre can be a lot of work — too much for most people, Rosen says. “You’re giving yourself a lot to do if you’re running your own power plant, dealing with your own water supply, disposing of your own waste and pulling your own food.”

Instead of going it alone, many people form off-grid communities. “The best way to get off-grid is to go off with others in a group of families, so each have half an acre and share resources and skills,” Rosen says. “One is tending livestock and one is growing vegetables, while a third is looking after the power supply for everybody else.”

The next generation?
Going off the grid today doesn’t mean reinventing the wheel. “The existence of the Internet that has made living off the grid a real choice and a real possibility for so many people,” Rosen says. Websites like his own provide lessons and plans and advice for off-grid living, as well as a sense of community for people who might otherwise be physically isolated from each other.

In addition, some off-the-grid communities are ready for new people to join them. “There’s a huge generation of 1970s back-to-the-land movement people who are now getting pretty old and they’re sitting on these huge tracks of land that can’t be broken up,” Rosen says. These communities are looking for young people to buy their way in. “The idea of land trusts is being used as a way these older people can get some new residents to help look after them and then work on the land or take over part of the land as the older generation dies out.”

Rosen says his own ambition is to create an off-grid village of 300 or so homes in his native England, provided he can find a local zoning board willing to allow it. “I think there’s a huge demand for off-grid living that can’t be satisfied because the places where you’d want to live off the grid are the places you can’t get permission to do so,” he says.

Written by: John Platt

A Treatise on the Nature of the Planeswalkers

I’ve talked at length now about The Nature of Planeswalking and The Nature of the Planeswalker Spark. But what about the Planeswalkers themselves? Are you confused as to what the differences are? Let me clarify. 

The Nature Planeswalking” = A study of swimming. A study on driving itself as an action.

The Nature of the Planeswalker Spark”= A study on the water itself. A study on the car.

“The Nature of Planeswalkers” = A study on the swimmers. A study on the drivers of the vehicles.

This article is about the final and third part of this study. In here, I will talk about who the planeswalkers are and what makes them special. 

As always, this Treatise is founded upon the collection of knowledge from years of studying the source material and through a look at the story telling itself. I ask myself, if I were telling this story, how would I do it? What explanation could I propose that would withstand all the exceptions and possible criticisms? This article takes my findings and presents them.

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Samuel Hollyer (Steel Plate Engraving from a Lost Daguerreotype by Gabriel Harrison)     Walt Whitman, New York City     1854

I sing the body electric,
The armies of those I love engirth me and I engirth them,
They will not let me off till I go with them, respond to them,
And discorrupt them, and charge them full with the charge of the soul.

Was it doubted that those who corrupt their own bodies conceal themselves?
And if those who defile the living are as bad as they who defile the dead?
And if the body does not do fully as much as the soul?
And if the body were not the soul, what is the soul?

The love of the body of man or woman balks account, the body itself balks account,
That of the male is perfect, and that of the female is perfect.

The expression of the face balks account,
But the expression of a well-made man appears not only in his face,
It is in his limbs and joints also, it is curiously in the joints of his hips and wrists,
It is in his walk, the carriage of his neck, the flex of his waist and knees, dress does not hide him,
The strong sweet quality he has strikes through the cotton and broadcloth,
To see him pass conveys as much as the best poem, perhaps more,
You linger to see his back, and the back of his neck and shoulder-side.

The sprawl and fulness of babes, the bosoms and heads of women, the folds of their dress, their style as we pass in the street, the contour of their shape downwards,
The swimmer naked in the swimming-bath, seen as he swims through the transparent green-shine, or lies with his face up and rolls silently to and fro in the heave of the water,
The bending forward and backward of rowers in row-boats, the horseman in his saddle,
Girls, mothers, house-keepers, in all their performances,
The group of laborers seated at noon-time with their open dinner-kettles, and their wives waiting,
The female soothing a child, the farmer’s daughter in the garden or cow-yard,
The young fellow hoeing corn, the sleigh-driver driving his six horses through the crowd,
The wrestle of wrestlers, two apprentice-boys, quite grown, lusty, good-natured, native-born, out on the vacant lot at sun-down after work,
The coats and caps thrown down, the embrace of love and resistance,
The upper-hold and under-hold, the hair rumpled over and blinding the eyes;
The march of firemen in their own costumes, the play of masculine muscle through clean-setting trowsers and waist-straps,
The slow return from the fire, the pause when the bell strikes suddenly again, and the listening on the alert,
The natural, perfect, varied attitudes, the bent head, the curv’d neck and the counting;
Such-like I love—I loosen myself, pass freely, am at the mother’s breast with the little child,
Swim with the swimmers, wrestle with wrestlers, march in line with the firemen, and pause, listen, count.

I knew a man, a common farmer, the father of five sons,
And in them the fathers of sons, and in them the fathers of sons.

This man was of wonderful vigor, calmness, beauty of person,
The shape of his head, the pale yellow and white of his hair and beard, the immeasurable meaning of his black eyes, the richness and breadth of his manners,
These I used to go and visit him to see, he was wise also,
He was six feet tall, he was over eighty years old, his sons were massive, clean, bearded, tan-faced, handsome,
They and his daughters loved him, all who saw him loved him,
They did not love him by allowance, they loved him with personal love,
He drank water only, the blood show’d like scarlet through the clear-brown skin of his face,
He was a frequent gunner and fisher, he sail’d his boat himself, he had a fine one presented to him by a ship-joiner, he had fowling-pieces presented to him by men that loved him,
When he went with his five sons and many grand-sons to hunt or fish, you would pick him out as the most beautiful and vigorous of the gang,
You would wish long and long to be with him, you would wish to sit by him in the boat that you and he might touch each other.

I have perceiv’d that to be with those I like is enough,
To stop in company with the rest at evening is enough,
To be surrounded by beautiful, curious, breathing, laughing flesh is enough,
To pass among them or touch any one, or rest my arm ever so lightly round his or her neck for a moment, what is this then?
I do not ask any more delight, I swim in it as in a sea.

There is something in staying close to men and women and looking on them, and in the contact and odor of them, that pleases the soul well,
All things please the soul, but these please the soul well.

This is the female form,
A divine nimbus exhales from it from head to foot,
It attracts with fierce undeniable attraction,
I am drawn by its breath as if I were no more than a helpless vapor, all falls aside but myself and it,
Books, art, religion, time, the visible and solid earth, and what was expected of heaven or fear’d of hell, are now consumed,
Mad filaments, ungovernable shoots play out of it, the response likewise ungovernable,
Hair, bosom, hips, bend of legs, negligent falling hands all diffused, mine too diffused,
Ebb stung by the flow and flow stung by the ebb, love-flesh swelling and deliciously aching,
Limitless limpid jets of love hot and enormous, quivering jelly of love, white-blow and delirious juice,
Bridegroom night of love working surely and softly into the prostrate dawn,
Undulating into the willing and yielding day,
Lost in the cleave of the clasping and sweet-flesh’d day.

This the nucleus—after the child is born of woman, man is born of woman,
This the bath of birth, this the merge of small and large, and the outlet again.

Be not ashamed women, your privilege encloses the rest, and is the exit of the rest,
You are the gates of the body, and you are the gates of the soul.

The female contains all qualities and tempers them,
She is in her place and moves with perfect balance,
She is all things duly veil’d, she is both passive and active,
She is to conceive daughters as well as sons, and sons as well as daughters.

As I see my soul reflected in Nature,
As I see through a mist, One with inexpressible completeness, sanity, beauty,
See the bent head and arms folded over the breast, the Female I see.

The male is not less the soul nor more, he too is in his place,
He too is all qualities, he is action and power,
The flush of the known universe is in him,
Scorn becomes him well, and appetite and defiance become him well,
The wildest largest passions, bliss that is utmost, sorrow that is utmost become him well, pride is for him,
The full-spread pride of man is calming and excellent to the soul,
Knowledge becomes him, he likes it always, he brings every thing to the test of himself,
Whatever the survey, whatever the sea and the sail he strikes soundings at last only here,
(Where else does he strike soundings except here?)

The man’s body is sacred and the woman’s body is sacred,
No matter who it is, it is sacred—is it the meanest one in the laborers’ gang?
Is it one of the dull-faced immigrants just landed on the wharf?
Each belongs here or anywhere just as much as the well-off, just as much as you,
Each has his or her place in the procession.

(All is a procession,
The universe is a procession with measured and perfect motion.)

Do you know so much yourself that you call the meanest ignorant?
Do you suppose you have a right to a good sight, and he or she has no right to a sight?
Do you think matter has cohered together from its diffuse float, and the soil is on the surface, and water runs and vegetation sprouts,
For you only, and not for him and her?

A man’s body at auction,
(For before the war I often go to the slave-mart and watch the sale,)
I help the auctioneer, the sloven does not half know his business.

Gentlemen look on this wonder,
Whatever the bids of the bidders they cannot be high enough for it,
For it the globe lay preparing quintillions of years without one animal or plant,
For it the revolving cycles truly and steadily roll’d.

In this head the all-baffling brain,
In it and below it the makings of heroes.

Examine these limbs, red, black, or white, they are cunning in tendon and nerve,
They shall be stript that you may see them.

Exquisite senses, life-lit eyes, pluck, volition,
Flakes of breast-muscle, pliant backbone and neck, flesh not flabby, good-sized arms and legs,
And wonders within there yet.

Within there runs blood,
The same old blood! the same red-running blood!
There swells and jets a heart, there all passions, desires, reachings, aspirations,
(Do you think they are not there because they are not express’d in parlors and lecture-rooms?)

This is not only one man, this the father of those who shall be fathers in their turns,
In him the start of populous states and rich republics,
Of him countless immortal lives with countless embodiments and enjoyments.

How do you know who shall come from the offspring of his offspring through the centuries?
(Who might you find you have come from yourself, if you could trace back through the centuries?)

A woman’s body at auction,
She too is not only herself, she is the teeming mother of mothers,
She is the bearer of them that shall grow and be mates to the mothers.

Have you ever loved the body of a woman?
Have you ever loved the body of a man?
Do you not see that these are exactly the same to all in all nations and times all over the earth?

If any thing is sacred the human body is sacred,
And the glory and sweet of a man is the token of manhood untainted,
And in man or woman a clean, strong, firm-fibred body, is more beautiful than the most beautiful face.

Have you seen the fool that corrupted his own live body? or the fool that corrupted her own live body?
For they do not conceal themselves, and cannot conceal themselves.

O my body! I dare not desert the likes of you in other men and women, nor the likes of the parts of you,
I believe the likes of you are to stand or fall with the likes of the soul, (and that they are the soul,)
I believe the likes of you shall stand or fall with my poems, and that they are my poems,
Man’s, woman’s, child’s, youth’s, wife’s, husband’s, mother’s, father’s, young man’s, young woman’s poems,
Head, neck, hair, ears, drop and tympan of the ears,
Eyes, eye-fringes, iris of the eye, eyebrows, and the waking or sleeping of the lids,
Mouth, tongue, lips, teeth, roof of the mouth, jaws, and the jaw-hinges,
Nose, nostrils of the nose, and the partition,
Cheeks, temples, forehead, chin, throat, back of the neck, neck-slue,
Strong shoulders, manly beard, scapula, hind-shoulders, and the ample side-round of the chest,
Upper-arm, armpit, elbow-socket, lower-arm, arm-sinews, arm-bones,
Wrist and wrist-joints, hand, palm, knuckles, thumb, forefinger, finger-joints, finger-nails,
Broad breast-front, curling hair of the breast, breast-bone, breast-side,
Ribs, belly, backbone, joints of the backbone,
Hips, hip-sockets, hip-strength, inward and outward round, man-balls, man-root,
Strong set of thighs, well carrying the trunk above,
Leg fibres, knee, knee-pan, upper-leg, under-leg,
Ankles, instep, foot-ball, toes, toe-joints, the heel;
All attitudes, all the shapeliness, all the belongings of my or your body or of any one’s body, male or female,
The lung-sponges, the stomach-sac, the bowels sweet and clean,
The brain in its folds inside the skull-frame,
Sympathies, heart-valves, palate-valves, sexuality, maternity,
Womanhood, and all that is a woman, and the man that comes from woman,
The womb, the teats, nipples, breast-milk, tears, laughter, weeping, love-looks, love-perturbations and risings,
The voice, articulation, language, whispering, shouting aloud,
Food, drink, pulse, digestion, sweat, sleep, walking, swimming,
Poise on the hips, leaping, reclining, embracing, arm-curving and tightening,
The continual changes of the flex of the mouth, and around the eyes,
The skin, the sunburnt shade, freckles, hair,
The curious sympathy one feels when feeling with the hand the naked meat of the body,
The circling rivers the breath, and breathing it in and out,
The beauty of the waist, and thence of the hips, and thence downward toward the knees,
The thin red jellies within you or within me, the bones and the marrow in the bones,
The exquisite realization of health;
O I say these are not the parts and poems of the body only, but of the soul,
O I say now these are the soul!

–Walt Whitman, “I Sing the Body Electric”  1855

Dean’s Blue Hole is a deep marine sinkhole. It plunges 663 ft from the surface of a bay of the Long Island, Bahamas. The diameter of the mouth of the hole is about 100 ft. If you go deeper the hole becomes wider. The water of the hole is so clear that you can see up to 115 ft under the water. Diving into it can be dangerous without proper precaution. In 2013, a free driver Nicholas Mevoli died during an effort to dive into it to set a record.

marzipanrose  asked:

Heyo! As a resident of Olympia wa, I thought I might add some flavor to your whole cryptids in Seattle thing. Look up the Mima mounds, and the Seattle underground. There's also a whole crap ton of these touristy duck trucks around Seattle? ( they are land/water vehicles that give tours they are super fun,the drivers are pun maniacs) other small stuff raccoons are far more prevalent than opossums,hipsters are everywhere. Also salmon are important. In elementary school we learned about them a lot.

  • The Mima Mounds are definitely a Liminal place where all kinds of Cryptid Shit goes down.
  • probably also full of bodies, this place looks haunted as fuck
  • Those are definitely run by maniacs who are either cryptids or Seen Some Shit, probably both.
  • OK so magic is a natural phenomenon in this Universe, and the Salmon Run is both a vitally important ecological and magical event.
  • ANY water-related magic becomes much more potent, but also more volatile
  • Divining becomes much clearer during various runs.  King Salmon is better for divining the future, but Coho tells the past, and Humpback is good for matters of love and finance.
  • It’s Gary’s busy season.
  • As in, he stops business because he’s Busy devouring fish guts.
  • Its also an important time for wizards (Native and otherwise), who noticed the PNW’s ambient magic decreasing as the Salmon suffered, and did a lot of behind-the-scenes work with the EPA to get those protections in.

Thursday 11th February 2016

Woke up early this morning to get ready for my drivers test.
I had enough time to walk around and water the garden as my parents are away for the week and I’m in charge for the lives of all their colourful darlings. It was so lovely, and seriously good for the soul. The smell of sunshine on wet earth is just delicious.

Anyways accidentally bumped into a spiders web. We both survived the collision although his web was pretty much ruined (sorry 😓) but he got straight back into it, chewing up the dregs of his web to try and rebuild half his house.

Nature is just insanely beautiful.
Earth and ocean. It’s what were made of.

I’m craving getting away for awhile, going somewhere where the ocean and forest are next to each other. Might plan a road trip to Byron or Queensland. 🌱🌴🍃🍀🐝🌺🌊🐬🐚🐠

anonymous asked:

what are your favorite EDM songs?

Some really good house tracks off my iTunes

  • Alesso & Dirty South - City Of Dreams 
  • AlunaGeorge - You Know You Like It (Tchami Remix) 
  • Alvaro & Joey Dale - Ready For Action 
  • Armin Van Buuren - Love Never Came Ft. Richard Bedford (W&W vs Armin van Buuren Remix)
  • Armin Van Buuren Ft. Trevor Guthrie - This Is What It Feels Like (W&W Remix) 
  • Arston, Nicky Romero, Fredde Le Grand - Zodiac Sparks [Animal Riot Edit]
  • Arty - When I See You (Alesso Remix) 
  • Arty Feat. Chris James - Together We Are (Original Mix) 
  • Audien - Leaving you Ft. Michael S 
  • AVICII - Dear Boy  (Original) 
  • AVICII - You Make Me (Throttle Remix) 
  • AVICII feat. Linnea Henriksson - Hope There’s Someone
  • Banks - Warm Water (Snakehips Remix) 
  • Bassjackers - Crackin (Original Mix) 
  • Bingo Players - Buzzcut
  • Bingo Players - Out Of My Mind (Original Mix) 
  • Bingo Players - Rattle 
  • Blasterjaxx - Fifteen (Hardwell Edit)
  • Blasterjaxx - Mystica
  • Blasterjaxx & Billy The Kit - Loud & Proud (Original Mix) 
  • Borgeous - Invincible 
  • Calvin Harris & Alesso Feat. Hurts - Under Control (Original Mix)
  • Claudia Cazacu & Matt Williams ft. Brian Molko - Deal With God (Original Mix)
  • Coldplay - Midnight (Marcus Schossow Remix)
  • Coone - Our Fairytale ft. Chris Madin (Theme of Tomorrow 2013) 
  • Dabin - Ghost Hack
  • Dada Life - Born To Rage
  • Dash Berlin - Jar of Hearts (feat. Christina Novelli) (Club Mix)
  • Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike vs DVBBS & Borgeous  - Stampede (Original Mix) 
  • Dimitri Vegas, Like Mike vs Sander Van Doom - Project T (Original Mix) 
  • Dimitri Vegasi & Like Mike - CHATTAHOOCHEE (Tomorrowland 2013 Anthem) (Original Mix) 
  • Dirty South - Until The End (feat. Joe Gil) [ ONE OF MY FAVORITE TRACKS!!! ] 
  • Estiva - Dinodrums (Original Mix) 
  • Example - Say Nothing (Hardwell & Dannic Remix) 
  • Farplane - We Laugh We Dance We Cry (Blaxx Remix)
  • Fatboy Slim & Riva Star - Eat Sleep Rave Repeat (Calvin Harris Remix)
  • Fedde Le Grand & DI-RECT - Where We Belong
  • Gesaffelstein - Hellifornia [ALEPH]
  • Gesaffelstein - Hate Or Glory [ALEPH] 
  • Gesaffelstein - Belgium 
  • Goodwill & Hook N Sling - Take You Higher (Club Mix) 
  • Green Velvet - Flash (Nicky Romero Remix)
  • GTA - Bola
  • GTA - The Crowd
  • GTA & Henrix & Digital Lab - Hit It! (Original Mix) 
  • Hardwell - Apollo 
  • Hardwell - Dare You Ft. Matthew Koma (Tiësto vs. twoloud Remix) 
  • Hardwell & Dyro ft. Bright Lights - Never Say Goodbye
  • Hardwell & W&W - Jumper
  • Hook N Sling & Chris Willis - Magnet (Original Mix)
  • Ilan Bluestone - Spheres (Original Mix)
  • Isbells - Reunite (Niklas Thal Edit)
  • Ivan Gough & Jebu - Kukatu (Original Mix) 
  • Jayden Parx & Unknown Kids - Snare Machine
  • Jeremy Olander vs Kent - Petroleum (Original Mix)
  • Jewelz & Scott Sparks Feat. Quilla - Unless We Forget
  • Joe Garston Ft. Andrew Farr - Happy Ending (Froxic Remix)
  • JoeySuki & Kill The Buzz - Life Is Calling
  • John Dish - Homme 
  • Junkie Kid - Claps Up (Original Mix) 
  • Kaskade - Atmosphere (Extended Mix) 
  • Kaskade - 4 AM (Adam K and Soha Mix)
  • Kill FM ft. Leah Hayes - Lies (Original Mix) 
  • Major Lazer - Jet Blue Jet (P.A.F.F. Remix) 
  • Major Lazer - Lose Yourself (feat. RDX & Moska)
  • Martin Volt & Quentin State  - Ruins Ft. Jonny Rose (Original Mix) 
  • Mercer - Turn It Up (Tchami Remix) 
  • Nari, Milani and Maurizio Gubellin - Up (Cristian Marchi Remix) [ also another fave ]
  • Nigel Good - Come Home (LTN Remix) [ Another fave ] 
  • Niklas Thal - Ein Einziger Moment
  • Noel Sanger - One More Time (Solarity Vocal Mix) [ Fave ] 
  • Oliver Heldens - Gecko (Original Mix) 
  • Omnia Feat. Everything By Electricity - Bones (Original Mix) 
  • Passion Pit - Let Your Love Grow Tall (Maor Levi’s Starlight Mix) 
  • Preon - Smoke Ft. Carly Lind (Original Mix)
  • Rigby - Earth Meets Water (Vida Remix)
  • Sander van Doorn - Right Here Right Now (Neon) 
  • Sander van Doorn, Dubvision vs Mako feat. Mariana Bell - Into The Light (Original Mix) 
  • Sebastian Ingrosso & Tommy Trash - Reload 
  • Shanahan & OutOfSync feat. Vegas - All Over (Original Mix)  [ Another fave ] 
  • Showtek Feat. We Are Loud! & Sonny Wilson - Booyah (Original Mix) 
  • Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars (Gazzo Remix) [ Another fave ] 
  • Thomas Newson & John Dish - Kalavela (Original Mix) 
  • Tiesto - Red Lights (Original Mix) 
  • Tritonal & Paris Blohm Ft. Sterling Fox - Colors
  • Tube & Berger, Juliet Sikora - Set it off (Original mix) 
  • Wolfpack vs Ale Mora - H.A.M. (Original Mix) [ this one goes so hard ] 
  • Vicetone - Chasing Time ft. Daniel Gidlund (Original Mix) 
  • 4 Strings - This Heart Is Yours Ft. Neev Kennedy (Original Mix)
  • Andrew Bayer - Once Lydian (Original Mix) [ a fave ] 

these ones are trance I think (I enjoy these the most): 

  • Andy Moor & Betsie Larkin - Love Again (LTN Remix) (Andy Moor - Breaking The Silence, Vol. 3) [ ANOTHER FAVE!!!!!!!!!! ] 
  • Armin Van Buuren - Forever Is Ours (Solarstone Pure Mix) 
  • Armin Van Buuren - Turn This Love Around ft. NERVO (Toby Hedges Remix) 
  • ARS - Wonderwork (LTN Remix) 
  • Coldplay - See You Soon (Simon Patterson Remix) 
  • Dash Berlin - Better Half Of Me  ft. Jonathan Mendelsohn
  • Dash Berlin - Go It Alone ( Club Mix ) 
  • Dash Berlin - Go It Alone (Andrew Rayel Remix) 
  • Dash Berlin & Alexander Popov - Steal You Away  ft. Jonathan Mendelsohn (Club Mix) 
  • Depeche Mode  - Peace (Dash Berlin Remix)
  • EDX - Szeplo (Arston Remix)
  • EnMass - So Please (Alexander Popov Remix) 
  • Ferry Corsten feat. Betsie Larkin - Not Coming Down (Dash Berlin 4AM Mix)
  • Jan Martin Feat.  Hysteria - There’s You (LTN Remix)
  • Markus Schulz  - Fireworks Ft. Paul Aiden & Klauss Goulart 
  • Ronski Speed ft. Emma Hewitt- Lasting Light (2K14 Club Mix)
  • Tomas Heredia - Memories Of You 
  • Simon O’Shine - Wuthering Heights 
  • System F - Out Of The Blue (Original Extended) 

let me put some hardstyle: 

  • Coone - 150 BPM Ft. Jim Ferren
  • Dash Berlin - Till The Sky Falls Down (Isaac Remix) 
  • Brennan Heart & Jonathan Mendelsohn - Imaginary 
  • DVBBS & Borgeous - Tsunami (Jay Cosmic Remix) 
  • Frontliner - I’m the Melody Man 
  • Frontliner - Tuning Into You Ft. Seraina
  • Hard Driver - Nature Of Blue
  • Noisecontrollers & Pavelow - Quatre Mains 
  • The Prophet - R3tro 
  • Wasted Penguinz - Anxiety
  • Wildstylez - Back to History (Intents Theme 2013)
  • Rigby - Earth Meets Water (Wildstylez Remix)
  • Wildstylez - Timeless (Full)
  • Yellow Claw ft. Rochelle  - Shotgun (LNY TNZ Remix)
  • Zedd - Spectrum (Headhunterz Edit) 

How about trap? ( I have very few ): 

  • Carvar & Clock - Flare (UFO! Remix)
  • Apashe - Black Gold 
  • Cults - Bad Things (Alex Young Remix) 
  • Empire of the Sun - We Are The People (Yinyues Remix)
  • GTA - The Crowd (Ookay Remix) 
  • Hardwell - Apollo (Psychic Type Remix)
  • Henry Krinkle - Stay (Trapback Remix) 
  • Jakwob  - Detox 
  • Insity  - Higher Than Higher
  • KLP - Down South (Just A Gent Remix) 
  • Knuckle Children x Reise  - The Battle
  • Miguel - Do You… (Cashmere Cat Remix)
  • Milo & Otis - Goin Down
  • Pelican Fly 006 - Mister Tweeks Ice Cream (Richelle Remix) [ this was played in Rick Owens S/S 2013 ‘Island’ Womens show ] 
  • RL Grime - Because of U 
  • Shlohmo - The Way U Do (RL Grime Remix) 
  • Showtek  - We Like To Party (Slander & NGHTMRE Festival Trap Edit)
  • Showtek Feat. We Are Loud! & Sonny Wilson  - Booyah (Party Favor’s ‘Festival Trap’ Remix) 
  • Smookie Illson x Knuckle Children - Out of My Mind 
  • THUGLI - Weyvee
  • What So Not - Touched 
  • Yellow Claw & Yung Felix  - You Make Me
  • Van Toth - Trap For Me (Original Mix) [ more like move for me from Kaskade & Deadmau5 ] 

wow I hope I didn’t forget anything!!!!! 


Lagunas Altiplánicas – San Pedro de Atacama, Chile – HAVANA CLUB GAP YEAR

The amount of tours and things to do in San Pedro de Atacama is endless, and as I’ve said before, really different views and things to do.

This place located at almost 4.200 meters above sea level, shows you yellow valleys, combined with the beautiful reflections on the water, makes the perfect inspiring view of nature.

This was one of my favorite tours, we had an awesome breakfast made by the tour guide and our driver; next to one of the most beautiful views, next to one of the lagoons, we could breathe the fresh breeze of the morning, overlooking the water and mountains.

A moment of peace and happiness, some things you will be experiencing quite often around San Pedro.

This tour is 100% recommended.


Chapter 5 prt 2


” Ahh fuck ” I groaned as Marcus and I bumped shoulders on accident . Holding my shoulder , Jaylin ran over to me full speed .

“ you okay ? ” she asked frantically as I laid out on the grass .

“ Yes mamas I’m okay , if I scared you I didn’t mean to ” I apologized . Ole baby ass look like she was ready to let them tears spring out of her eyes .

“ good ” she sighed a sigh of relief .

Chuckling ,” help me up ” I said holding my hand out . Trying as hard as she could to lift me up , she couldn’t .

“ weak ” I cackled .

“ don’t laugh at me ” she pouted crossing her arms .

“ stop being a lil baby .. I’ll make your ass get out here and play ” I shot grabbing her ass .

“ whatever prick , be careful ” she said before waking off . Watching her all the way until she made it back to the bleachers , Brandon ran dead into me .

“ I said be careful ” she screamed at the top of her lungs . I swear one of these days ima give this girl a heart attack .

“ Shawty must really care for you dude ” Brandon said nudging my shoulder .

“ Yea , she got to ” I mumbled to myself more than anything .

“ Brown and Whitehall , 20 fucking push ups . Give em to me .” Coach yelled . He was on that bull shit today forreal .

Dropping to the ground , I got in the correct position so I wouldn’t pull a muscle and started on my painful push ups . My arms were already sore from weight lifting and this wasn’t making it no better .

” Fuck coach my arms hurt ” I yelled irritably .

“ you cursing now brown ? Give me 20 more . ” he demanded dropping his foot directly in the middle of my back .

Quickly doing my extra twenty push ups , I made sure to knock his foot off my back disrespectfully . Mugging his side profile , I stood in my position .

Wiping the sweat beads from my forehead , I looked out into the stands so see jaylin already watching me while sipping on her mocha frappe .

Smiling at her , we have been here since 2 and it should now be around 4:30. I could have made it to practice earlier but somebody didn’t want to wake up .

When I woke up , she was just getting to sleep . Sucks for her cause we have 3 1/2 more hours out here to go .

Good thing she dressed appropriate . A white v-neck , some navy blue socks and yellow nike slippers with Short basketball shorts & when I say short I mean short but I’m not complaining cause she’s with me .

Licking over my lips , she pulled my ‘La lakers ’ SnapBack further down on her head . That girl was Mitch matched down and she didn’t care .

Waving to me , I waved back letting out a low chuckle at how crazy she is . Blowing me a kiss , I pretended to catch it and place it on my lips .

Readjusting my spandex shorts that lay beneath my football tights , I hissed in pain as my dick twisted too hard . Moving it to my comfortability I was ready to play again .

Watching Michael walk down the field , he was headed in jaylins direction . Balling up my fist , I couldn’t grab a hold of her attention to get her to move down .

“ Brown pay attention ” coach yelled at me . Tearing my gaze away from her , we replayed the first play .

“ down hut set 242 ” I yelled passing the ball to Johnson . Passing it back , I took off down the field . Running into Marcus , I shook Trevis taking it all the way to touch down mark .

Throwing the ball down , my eyes averted back to jay . Michael was now in front of her all up in her face .

For his sake he better not even Try to flirt with her because if she tell me he did , I will break his fucking face in .

Jogging back over to where coach was , he stood with his hands on his hips ” what’s going on ? You basically took off Marcus shoulder ”

“ I don’t give a fuck ” I shrugged . I’m pissed , Im upset matter fact I’m fucking angry that jaylin got this nigga in her ear telling her shit while I’m out here on the field .

“ bench ” he pointed to the bench that sat on the right .

“ No fuck that , I’m leaving for the day . ” I spat . Briskly walking to pick up my bag , I threw it over my shoulders.

He knew better than to tell me what I was going to do . I run this fucking team , no fuck that I Am the team . What I say goes , you don’t like it then you can get the fuck . Bye , no one will miss you .

Without me they suck besides maybe 5 other people , but other than that , this team ain’t shit .

Angrily stumping my away up the bleachers , Michael walked in front me holding his hand out for me to dap . Mugging his hand , I pushed him out of the way and headed starlight for jaylin .

“ What the fuck was that ” I gritted lowly , forehead to forehead . Some of the players was sitting a few rows down and I didn’t want them to hear me .

“ Umm nothing ” she mumbled .

“ You call that nothing ? You got a whole nigga in your face while you’re with me ” I spat scratching at her thigh .

“ I was just talking to a friend ” she whimpered moving my hand away from her thigh .

“ And exactly what the fuck did your friend want ? ” I asked with my hands planted on each side of her .

“ None of your business ” she said quickly covering her mouth because of the bullshit she just let spill out .

“ you are my business , bring your ass the fuck on ” I whispered harshly , yanking her up by her forearm .

pulling her arm away from me ,” Give me your gym bag baby ” she muttered . Sighing , I handed over my bag for her to carry .

I swear she always making an evil nigga like me go soft and want to apologize when she go to doing shit for a nigga and calling me baby .” I’m sorry ” I mumbled in her ear . Wrapping my hand around her waist , she lead the way to the car .

Kissing the left side of her jaw I massaged the spot where I scratched her at . With my 6’11 frame towering over her 4’9 frame I literally had to break my back to rub it .

Lifting my body back up , my back cracked a numerous of times causing me to let out a pleasurable groan .

“ it’s okay Chris ” she finally said making me cringe . I wish this nigga just tell her about his disorder so she could stop calling me his name .

Opening the door for her , she climbed in the passenger seat . Slamming the door , I hopped on the drivers side .

Reaching to the back she grabbed me a water out of the ice chest . Opening it up , she put the bottle to my lips . Chugging most of the water down , she caped it and placed it in the cup holder .

“ why are you so mean to me ? ” she asked . No question is you so good to me ?

“ It’s natural . It’s just me ” I didn’t know how to explain it . I can’t explain myself if she doesn’t know I exist .

“ question for you , why you so good to me ? ” I wanted to know honestly why she was good to me .

“ Because I like you , a lot ” she mumbled . Taking a hold of her hand , I kissed it gently .

“ I like you too ” I lied . I don’t like this girl . I fucking love her ass. I know what most ass holes would say “ how you love somebody this early ?”

Simple , when you feel like you’re being appreciated and not taken for granted or you actually have some one who cares for you and have no shame with admitting that , you begin to give yourself to them & that’s what I’m doing . Giving myself to her .

I’m saying that I love her but I don’t know if she’s actually worth having my love until I take her on a mission with me . The day she shows me she’s my ride or die , then I’ll know for sure the love I have for her is real.

” yo ” I spoke into the phone .

“ We got a situation down at your warehouse ” Jodii said . Rolling my eyes , it’s always something .

“ something like what ” I gritted .

“ we have Duce , you know that nigga that you been looking for ” I could picture him smirking . Hanging up the phone , I made a sharp u-turn .

“ where are we going ? ” Jaylin suddenly asked .

“ Just sit back and ride ” I guess today would be the day I’ll see if I really love her .

What no one know is that I’m one of the biggest drug lords out . I keep my shit on the low , you never know who’s after you . Chris was absolutely against this but it wasn’t his decision , it was mine .


“ wake up baby ” I said shaking her body . Swatting my hands away , she rubbed her eyes trying to gets them to adjust .

“ where are we ? ” she questioned . Opening my glove compartment , I grabbed two 9mm .

“ take this ” I said handing her one . Her eyes widened as I sat the gun in her lap . After a few seconds she tucked the gun in the waist band of her shorts .

“ what is this for ? ” I continued to answer her questions with statements and demands .

“ when we get out this car , hold my hand and stay behind me . If you feel unsafe or threatened at any given time give my hand a squeeze . Do you understand me ?” This shit was serious .

“ I understand ” she nodded her head . Grabbing my hand before I could even reach out for hers , we began to walk go the gate .

Punching in my special code that was by the way her name , the gate opened up . As we got closer to the door the hold she had on my hand became tighter .

“ Breezy’s here ” one of my workers announced . Walking into the lounge room , money was scattered all over the floor . Smiling to myself , that was the type of shit I like to see .

“ you good ? ” I asked jaylin .

“ yes ” she spoke quietly . Quickly pecking her lips , we walked to the back where my sound proof room was .

busting through the doors my eyes immediately fell on Duce who had his ” sidekick ” standing next to him . Jaylin began squeezing my hand as right as she could .

“ what’s wrong with you ” I whispered . With her eyes fixed on the guy next to Duce she muttered something in audio-able

” The guy next to him is my Ex little brother ” she whispered . She looked as if she seen a ghost .

Clenching my jaw , I tried not to think of her having anyone before me . Mugging this little sidekick nigga , I though about offing his shit as well .

” Nice to see you again Duce ” I smiled evilly . My nerves were getting bad at the fact my girl was holding on to me for dear life , scared for her own as if this nigga was gonna do her something.

” Fuck you breezy ” he spat , spitting out blood in the process .

I just love when My guards Bok & Rue follow the procedure . If I’m looking for someone and you find them , you beat they ass to a bloody pulp . Don’t kill them , just get me ready for me .

“ I wouldn’t be talking reckless if I were you ” I chuckled as the spikes on the chair went straight through his wrist .

“ I talk how the fuck I want talk play boy ” he said spitting his blood in my face . My smile was replaced by a permanent frown .

” that’s so disrespectful , you know that ?” I questioned circling around his body. Using my under shirt to wipe my face , I contemplated on making him suffer some more or not .

Looking at jaylin , watch me in anticipation , I decided to put her to the test .” come here baby ” I smirked reaching out my hand for her to grab .

Slowly walking over to me , she grabbed a hold of my hand ” yes ” she muttered softly .

“ where’s your gun ? ” I asked . Pulling it out of her waistband , she held it up for me to see .

“ you see that guy right there ” I pointed to Duce .

Nodding her head , she took a look at his friend . Now you suppose to be his friend but you ain’t even trying to help him . It’s not like he’s tied up or anything , he’s just standing their .

“ yes ” she mumbled .

“ kill him ” I ordered taking the safety off the gun . With shaky arms she shook her head no as fast as she could .

“ Jaylin don’t do it ” the little side kick finally spoke up .

“ who the fuck are you lil nigga ? ” I questioned walking closer to him .

“ bitch my name Carlos & jaylin I swear to god if you pull that trigger he’s gonna come after you ” he warned with a pointed finger .

Bending it back ,” that’s a threat to her young blood ? “

“ it ain’t no fucking threat it’s a promise ” he spat .

“ Jaylin shoot him ” I yelled .

“ you better not jaylin ” Carlos warned .

“ Fucking do as I say ” I barked . Aiming the tool to his head she pulled the trigger . Closing my eyes
All of his blood and brains splattered across my face .

Dropping Carlos to the floor , I walked up to jay . Wiping the tears with my two thumbs , I hugged her body tightly .

“ stop crying baby ” I whispered in her ear . Holding on to my shirt , she cried into my chest . At least I know she’ll ride for a nigga . Ain’t no regular female gonna shoot somebody cause I said so , they gon snitch on my ass .

“ Clean this shit up ” I spat . Walking jay out of the sound proof room , I carried her upstairs to my spare room .

Sitting her on the bed , I walked into the closet. Scanning over the woman’s wardrobe that I kept for when we did auctions , I pulled a random nike shirt from the hanger and some white jeans .

“ here ” I said handing jaylin the clothes . Sobbing uncontrollably , she took the clothes out of my hand and began to strip .

Dropping her shorts to the ground , she stepped into the jeans and pulled them up . Ripping off her shirt , I had a perfect view of her breast that lay beneath her lace bra .

“ why did you make me do that ? ” she asked after a great moment of silence .

“ I wanted to see if you would ride for me ” and also see if you’re worth giving my love to , but I didn’t say that part . She probably would have thought I was crazy .

Chuckling ” so you had me to kill someone to show you that I’ll ride for you ?” She questioned with her hands on her hips .

“ I needed my clarification ” I shrugged .

Scoffing, she picked up her previous outfit and threw it away . ” well now you know ”

“ who was that Carlos guy & why was he taking to you like that ?” My whole demeanor began to change .

Trembling , her eyes started to water again .” That’s my ex little brother . He’s gonna tell mark where I am . Chris I tried to get away from him forever just to have peace and I don’t know how much longer that’s going to last ” she cried into her hands .

Prying her hands away from her face, I looked her deep in her eyes .” Listen to me . As long as you got me , you’re safe okay ? I put this on my life I won’t let anyone hurt you okay ?”

“ you promise  ?” She muttered running her fingers through my curls .

“ I promise ”


“ You think this a game ? Get the fuck in the house ” I growled shoving her towards the door .

“ August stop pushing me ” she whined trying to push me back .

“ nah you want hit me , it’s my turn . Get the fuck in the house ” I yelled . Slightly jumping at the bass of my voice , she was shaking putting the key in the door .

Walking in , I kicked the door closed with my foot . Taking my jacket & shoes off at the same time I was in nothing but jeans and a shirt .

“ get the fuck up the stairs ” I spat . Shaking with fear , she kept her feet plastered on the ground not attempting to budge .

“ ima have to shove you again ? You like when I put my hands on you huh ? Iight ima show you ” I gritted nodding my head walking over to where she was .

“ August don’t push me ” she mumbled trying not to cry .

Shoving her , making her body jerk forward ” nah , you can’t follow simple directions I said get the fuck up the stairs deshay ”

Getting her dumb ass up the stairs , I pushed her into her room and onto her bed .

“ you got 5 minutes to get undressed . When I come back up here you better be in nothing but ya bra and underwear . Think it’s a game , ima make it harder on your ass ” I spat walking out the room .

Jogging down the steps , I went into my ” cars secret stash ” and grabbed my metal handcuffs & my 100 box gold magnum condoms out of my glove compartment .

“ Ima need about 6 of these ” I mumbled out loud .

Looking down at my watch , 5 minutes was up . Her ass better be undressed . Walking up the steps , I opened her room door .

“ some one finally listens ” I smirked . Nothing in her face changed , the fear was permanently on her face .

Watching her watch me , I pulled off my shirt and my jeans leaving me in nothing but my boxers .

Grabbing my handcuffs from the dresser , Lexxii looked up at me with wide eyes .

“ gimme your wrist ” I mumbled . Without hesitating she gave me her wrist . Hooking both cuffs to her wrist , I cuffed them to the bed . Only way she was getting out of the bitches was if she had the key .

“ August what are you doing ? ” she asked , voice trembling with not knowing what I was about to do .

“ ima about to take all my anger out on this pussy ”

Getting on top of her , I kissed her lips roughly which she immediately joined in on . Tugging on her bottom lip, I kissed from her cheek bone down to her neck .

Every part of her neck , that I knew was her spot due to the low moans she let slip out her mouth I bit hard .

“ Shit August ” she hissed . At this point I didn’t care . I was just so angry with her . For not letting me explain , for hitting me over and over and over and over .

“ take this shit off ” I gritted ripping her bra off .Taking her left boob into my mouth , I used my hand to pull on her right nipple .

“ Mmm” she breathed out .

Slapping her right boob,” shut up ”

After showing her left the right amount of attention , I switched to the right and treated it like I did the other .

Sitting up , I observed the redness all around her nipples and upper part . Scooting down , I pulled her thong off from between her legs .

I admired her pussy as if it was a god . So pretty and pink . Shit was wet as fuck too .

“ Better not hear one thing come from your mouth ” I spat lowering my face to her love box .

I let my finger gaze her pulsing clit , while I devoured the shit out of her opening . Using my tongue to spread her lips , I dug my face deeper into her ocean .

“ Fuck baby ” she moaned out . Pulling away I sent a hard slap to her pussy causing her to scream .

Smacking it again” I said I didn’t wanna hear a thing ”

Going back , to what I was previously doing I sped up my pace while plunging my fingers inside her pussy as if it was a screw and my hands were the screw driver .

” August ” she panted as she came hard in my mouth and all on my fingers . That didn’t stop me from drilling my fingers inside her tight hole .

“ I can’t take it ” she yelped out trying To catch her breath .

Deciding to be lenient and go easy on her I slowly pulled my finger out of her pussy , hearing a Popping sound once they were all the way out .

Standing up , i pulled down my boxers revealing my rock hard dick . I contemplated on going raw or if I wanted to use a condom out of the 6 I took from downstairs .Shaking my head , I went with no condom .

I stroked my dick for a bit , while staring at her juicy wet pussy . She was wet as hell for a nigga .

“ August please ” she plead , feening for me to get inside her .

“ please what ” I grunted as pre cum shot out the head of my dick .

“ please fuck me ” she moaned watching me . Positioning myself between her legs ,I got into a comfortable position before allowing my head to reach her entrance .

Looking down in her eyes , they continued to read fear but also lust .

Putting my hands on each side of her hips , I lifted her body to where her lower half wasn’t touching the bed .

“ I’m finna beat the fuck out this pussy ” I growled ramming my dick deep into her shit causing her to cry out .

“ shut that fucking shit up ” I groaned .

“ August you too deep ” she whimpered .

Continuing to Ram in and out of her , I slapped her thigh as hard as I could .

“ fuck up ” I growled going faster .

“ Ahh fuck ” she cried loudly trying to control her breathing . Pulling out , I Laid her body flat on the mattress .

Positioning myself to where we were face to face , I plunged back into her and hammered her shit.

“ yes baby yes ” she moaned tilting her head back .

Gripping her neck tight , I pulled her face back up .

“ don’t you dare look away from me ” I grunted .

“ you hear me ?” I asked slapping her thigh .

“ Yes daddy ” she cried out in pure pleasure .

Uncuffing her hands , I flipped her over to where she was face down ass up .

“ hands behind your back deshay ” obeying my command , she put her hands behind her back . Cuffing them back up , I guided my dick back to her entrance .

“ Ooh fuck ” I groaned as her love box soaked my dick . I was about to murder her shit .

Pulling out , I pushed inside her as hard as I could .

“ damn it ” she cried out cumming all on my dick . I could feel her hot juices sliding down my thigh .

Smacking her ass ” shut the fuck up , you gon take this dick ”

She had her fun and now it’s time to have mine .

“ you wanna hit me huh ?” I said smacking her right ass cheek .

Reaching under her to grab her nipple , I squeezed it with a lot of force .,” Thought it was cool to send blow after blow to my face ”

“ I’m sorry daddy ” she moaned out .

“ I don’t wanna hear that shit now ” I yelled .

Pulling her hair I Yanked her head back , causing her neck to crack .

“ go harder ” she moaned . She was enjoying this shit . Doing as my woman asked I went harder , something she couldn’t take .

“ fuck August not that hard ” she yelled out . Slowing down , I pulled out of her . She was now on the top while I was on the bottom .

“ ride me ” I growled .

“ I can’t with my arms cuffed ” she mumbled .

“ you can and you will ” I gritted slamming her down on my dick , which made both of us moan out loud .

“ Shit ” we said at the same time as she moved her hips backwards and forward .

“ go harder ” I grunted

Kicking it up a notch , she bounced harder on my dick while her titties flopped in my face .

Clenching her walls around my dick made me weak .

“ Fuck don’t do that shit ” I moaned in her ear bringing her face closer to mine .

Scratching up her back , ” Fuck Alexis , I said don’t do that ”

I had nails too , I knew her shit would be on fire soon .

“ August baby , Ima cum ” she panted

“ You sorry for hitting daddy ?” I asked wrapping my hands around her waist to slam her down .

“ I’m so sorry ” she moaned .

“ you gonna let daddy explain hisself next time ” I grunted .

“ Yess ”

“ yes what ”

“ Yes baby ” she cried softly as she released for the third time .

Feeling my nut build up , I slammed her down faster . Right as I felt it on the tip , I pulled out and signaled for her to open her mouth .

“ Shit ” I grunted as I shoved my dick down her throat .

“ Mmm ” she hummed sending vibrations shooting through out my dick , causing my nut to spill down her throat .

“ Ahh fuck ” I grumbled , waiting for my dick to finish releasing it’s juices .

Pulling out of Her mouth , I turned her around and took off the hand cuffs .

“ you learned your lesson Alexis ?” I asked .

“ yes ” she spoke quietly .

Lifting her wrist to my lips , I kissed each one two times each before pulling her close.

“ Wanna go out tonight? ” I asked in a raspy voice .

“ Umm sure but to where?” She asked curiously

“ Wherever you wanna go it don’t matter ” I mumbled into the crook of her neck.

“ Ok I’ll think of something let just take a nap for now” she yawned .

Kissing her forehead ” Aight ” I said drifting off to sleep.


Tossing and turning in my bed , I had a nightmare of mark beating on me . Wiping the tears that managed to fall from my eyes I grabbed the water that sat on my nightstand and downed it .

Using the napkin to wipe my mouth , I was wishing Chris was here to hold me . I felt like crying but I refused to let my tears drop . How could someone not in my life anymore still manage to hurt me ?

My nerves were at an all time high at the fact Carlos could possibly go back and tell mark about my where abouts . Praying that he didn’t , I rolled over to check my phone .

3 missed calls from Chris and a txt message from Mikey . Opening up Mikey’s txt first , I’ll just call Chris afterwards .

Scanning over the txt he was basically asking me out on a friendly date Saturday night . Smiling to myself I shot him a quick txt saying ’ sure why not ’ . I hope Chris doesn’t get upset .

For some strange reason I have a feeling Mikey is going to try and catch feelings but that’s not what I want .

I wouldn’t want to hurt him in the long run because I just know that I’m going to be stuck on Chris no matter how much I try not to .

See the way my emotions is set up , when I start feeling a guy I some how become attached and that person be the only one I have eyes for . .

My mind drifted off to how Chris could be really mean and threatening some times . It’s like he wants to be bothered when he wants to and when he doesn’t he’s so mean to me . I never under stood it .

Today he showed me a side of him I never thought existed . Surprisingly I wasn’t traumatized or in shock . I was comfortable . Comfortable with killing someone’s child . Sad , I know .

Placing the phone to my ear , it rang a few times before he picked up ” hello ” his deep voice blared through the phone .

“ were you sleeping baby ? ” I asked sitting up against the headboard .

“ Yea ” he groaned into the phone . Smiling his sleepy voice was turning me on .

“ you want me to ca-”

“ No , I been calling you since I dropped you off earlier . I needed to hear your voice ” he barked .

Jumping from his sudden outburst , I scratched at my arm anticipating his next choice of words .” What were you doing ?” He questioned .

“ I was sleeping ” I stated truthfully .

“ I should have staid so I could have slept with you ” he groaned out loud .

“ you should have , I needed you ” I mumbled squeezing my eyes shut so I wouldn’t cry .

“ needed me how ?” He asked frantically . I could hear him moving around , probably searching for shoes and a hoodie .

“ I just needed you to hold me ” I cried .

“ stop crying , I’m coming baby okay ? ” nodding my head as if he could see me , I hung up .

Getting out the bed , I trudged over to my bathroom . Staring at myself in the mirror , my eyes were blood shot red . Rinsing my face with cold water , I used the drying towel to pat all over .

Walking down stairs , all the lights were off . Hmm Lexi must be sleeping. Oh well , she about to wake up until Chris gets here .

“ Lexiii” I yelled opening her door to my surprise I revealed a naked august & Lexi under the sheets.

“ Give me a sec jay. I’m coming ” she said groggily

“ Oh my bad” I said looking at Lexi with sorry eyes as I backed out the room.

“ Let me find out they fucked. ” I said laughing a little. Her walk will confirm it.

Hearing the doorbell ring , I ran down the steps . Swinging the door open , Chris was standing there with his jaw clenched ” you been talking to that nigga ? ” he questioned .

Scrunching up my face ,” what nigga ” Slamming the door , he looked at me as if he wanted to kill me .

“ you gonna play dumb and lie to my face now ?” He asked with a bitter chuckle .

Pulling his body into mine I was trying to avoid answering his question . I just wanted him to hold me for god sake .

“ just fucking hold me ” I snapped . Lifting my body up , he carried me to the couch . Plopping down with me in his lap , I cuddled up against his chest . I could honestly get use to this .


Burying my face In my hands , I can’t believe jay just walked in & seen us like this. Trying to get out of bed I felt august pull me back.

“Where you going? ” he growled tightening his hands around my waist .

“ I have to pee & I’m going talk to jay”

“ Aight ” he said in a groggy tone while releasing me.

After I finished peeing & washing my hands. I walked towards the living room too see none other than jay and Chris watching tv .

“ Ahem ” I said letting my presence be known.

“ Hey ” jay said looking back at me. Chris looked at me and sent a head nod my way before hiding behind jays wild curls .

“ uh uh rudeness you better speak ” I joked .

Chuckling ” waddup Alexis ”

“ What it do lil sis ” I asked with a chuckle as she traced Chris tattoos .

” Nothing much ” she stated simply

“ Gotta be something for you to come in here screaming my name and chris is here ? Yea something’s wrong ” . I said. I caught her smiling big.

“Okay so it must be something really really good. ” I smirked .

“ Yea it is ” she squealed like a little girl.

“So talk” I said sitting down , getting comfortable .

After jay filled me in on how her and Chris has been these few days , I couldn’t help but to smile big & be happy for her.

Now at a certain point I was upset because he had her do something utterly dangerous , but shit if she wanted to prove herself to him then that’s what she had to do . I still feel like she’s leaving something out tho .

“But enough about. Me. What about you ” jay said shifting in Chris lap .

“ Uhh what about me ” I said playing dumb.

“ You know what I’m talking bout. ” she winked .

“ No I don’t think I do. Sounds like someone needs a nap.” I laughed.
Causing her to join in.

“Girl stop playing with me you know exactly what I’m talkn bout. ” she laughed nudging Chris shoulder .

“ Well yes if you must know.
Me & august had sex. ” I said . Chris looked at me with a big smile while wiggling his eyebrows .

” How was it “ jay squealed

” Girl It was amazing. “ I said smiling thinking about it .

” Well good cause you needed some good zick. “ She said causing me to gasp & giggle.

” I’m not finna play with you “ I laughed let me getting up from my previous spot . Walking up the stairs I decided I needed to take a shower.

Walking into my room I saw august look like he was peacefully sleeping

I must have been in awe for a minute cause I heard him say”Stop starin ma it’s rude ya know”

Chuckling ” my bad it’s just you looked so peaceful ”

” Yea yea “he said waving me off . sitting up he motioned for me to come to him.

” Yes “ I said walking over to him

” You figured out what you wanna do yet? “ He asked pulling me into his lap

” Not really but we can go shopping" I suggested since I couldn’t think of nothing else .

” That’s it? ” He asked

“ Yea ” I nodded pecking his lips

“ I’m finna get in the shower tho ” I informed getting up from his lap .

“ Can I join you? ” he asked walking behind me with his manhood slinging around

“ Yes I should have some gym shorts and a tshirt or hoodie and sweats you can wear” I said pointing my dresser draw .

“Aight but then we gotta go to my place so I can change. ” he mumbled .Nodding I turned the shower on waiting for it to warm up before hopping in.

Grabbing two big towels I sat them on the counter before hopping in the shower with august right behind me

Feeling his erection being pressed in the back of me I already knew what he wanted. More sex .

” Can I get in my shit ” he grumbled rubbing my clit.

“ Yess” I moaned out, tilting my head back .Feeling him deep inside me I couldn’t help but moan out in pleasure. Oh god this man knew exactly what he was doing.

“ Aww fuck right there baby” I moaned as he hit my gspot. All that could be heard through out the bathroom was the clapping over out skin .

“ Fuck Alexis ” He groaned .

“ I-I’m gonna cum baby ” I moaned loudly resting my head against the glass door .Rubbing my clit as he slammed in and out of me was sending me over the edge.

” Cum for me ” he said slamming in and out of me with no remorse.My legs shook viscously as I came all over him.After going at it for about a hour we finally washed up and got out the shower .

“ Here ” I said handing august the gym shorts and tshirt.Taking it out of my hand he quickly put them on

“ You good? ” he asked.

” Yea why you ask?”

“ Cause you still standing there in yo towel I thought maybe you was tired” he shrugged .

” I was just thinking about what ima wear ” I uttered .

“ Just throw something simple on ” he stated

Smacking my lips ” it’s really not that easy”

Chuckling “well us men don’t have these problems ”

“ Well be glad and Chris is here by the way” I told him slipping into some fresh undergarments .

“ Ima go holla at him right quick and then go home to change ” he said getting up.

” Okay Can you tell jay I need her help ” I asked nicely .

” Yea baby be ready in like a hour ” he said disappearing down stairs.

A few minutes later in walked jay , stretching her tiny body out . “I heard you needed my help finding a outfit? ” Jay asked smiling widely .

” Yes I got a few ideas but I don’t know what to choose ” I whined .

“ oh shut up miss whiney pants , I got this ” she chuckled pushing me out of the way . Taking a seat on my futon , I watched in amazement as she ran all around my room piecing an outfit together .

By the time she was done , I had a very cute yet simple outfit laid out across my bed . ” nice ” I mumbled .

Nodding her head , she sent me a thumbs up . Slipping into my high waisted jean shorts , I pulled my bustier over my head . Adjusting it in the back , I put on my nike socks , followed by my Nike Wedges .

“ where did you find these shoes ?” I asked her as I got ready to apply my makeup .

“ I forgot but I have to talk to you about something ” she said in a serious tone .

“ what’s up ? ” I said giving her my full attention .

“ I may have lied ” she murmured .

“ lied about what jay ? ” jaylin never lies and when she do , it’s about something serious .

“ I may have told a itsy bitsy teany lie about being a virgin to Chris ” she rushed out in a whisper but I heard her , heard her perfectly clear .


Walking downstairs I saw lit bit and chris cuddled up on the couch ” Wassup y’all ” I said letting my presence be known .

“ Hey aug ” jay said while chris sent me a head nod.

“ Jay Lexi say she need your help” I told her .

“ With what??” Jay asked curiously .

” A outfit for tonight” I stated .

” Well where are y’all going she say she just wanna go shopping but I think ima take her out and officially make her mines ” I said smiling at the thought of finally being taken .

Smiling wide ” I think I know just what she should wear ” Jay said rushing up the stairs.

” Never thought I’d see the day ” chris said.

“ See what day? ” I asked confused .

“ they day that you’d make it official with someone ” he simply stated sparking up a blunt .

” Well I’m really feelin shawty and I think she’s different I just wanna give it a chance with her , ya know ”

Nodding his head ” well you need to get out of here and go get ready nigga” checking the time it was 6:45.

“ yea you right , I’ll catch you later fool” I said dapping him up . Walking out of the door , I called up my nigga to make sure he had very thing set up for me .

I decided after we go shopping we can go to this lil place I rented out for us to watch movies while we eat . I hope she like it , I spent over 4 grand renting that place just for us to have a couple hours to ourself but for her it was worth it .


“ Yo Alexis , we gonna be late ” I raised my voice slightly as she eyed this Michael kors purse . Letting out a frustrated sigh , I took the purse out of her hand and carried it to the cash register .

“ would this be all sir ? ” the lady behind the counter asked .

“ Yes lady speed it the fuck up , I got places to be ” I spat .

“ I’m sorry sir ” she apologized ringing up lexis bag .

“ $2,477 is your total ” she said with slight attitude . Pulling out three stacks , I threw it at her face .

“ keep the change ” I muttered grabbing a hold of Alexis hand . Basically pulling her out of the mall , we sped walk to the car .

“ I could have bought my own purse you know ” she said with attitude .

“ girl the fuck in the car , I bought it too late ” I shrugged unlocking the doors . Scoffing she got in and slammed the door .

“ watch my shit girl ” I growled smacking her bare thigh . Ignoring her whines , I pulled out of the parking lot and sped off to our next destination .

Arriving in no time , I walked over to Lexi side and opened the door for her ” thanks ” she smiled fixing her top . Interwinding our fingers , I led her inside the movie and dinner all into one .

“ Mr . Alsina glad you can make it ” my good friend Paul said while waving to Alexis .

“ glad I could make it to ” I smirked eyeing Alexis .

” follow me ” he ordered . Letting him take the lead , we walked behind him into this over sized movie theatre . Picking a random spit for us to sit at , I pulled out a seat for her then for myself .

“ hello Jeffery , your waiter for this evening ” our waiter introduced himself .

” Hi Jeffery ” Lexi smiled with a slight wave .

“ what can I get you yougins to eat ?” He asked untying his tie . Laughing loudly , this nigga was ghetto as fuck .

” let me get two sprites . Your biggest entree of hot wings uhh a side of fries and for desert you can throw in a cheesecake ” I said ordering something I knew both Lexi and I would like .

“ Coming up shortly my nigga ” he dapped me up . Sliding him two hundred dollar bills , he walked away with a big smile on his face .

“ This marks down number 2 ” Lexi said as the usher started to play our movie for the night . I wanted to go for a horror comedy so I chose haunted house 2.

“ Number 2 what ?”

“ date number two ” she chuckled in a duh tone .

“ oh yea yea , your right & there’s plenty more to come ” I assured . Humming she directed her attention to the gigantic screen .

Two full people , 3 movies & one cheesecake later , Alexis and I were both ready to pass out but I couldn’t go to sleep just yet . Not with out asking her first .

“ Lexi ” I tapped her butt .

“ yes ” she hummed turning towards me . Propping my elbows on the table , I waited a minute or two before opening my mouth again .

“ I got a serious question for you ”

“ what is it ? ” she asked with a slight smile on her face .

“ Will you be my , us know girlfriend or whatever ? ” I asked . I was nervous as fuck but I wasn’t showing it .

“ Finally , yes yes I’ll be your girl ” she squealed throwing her hands around my neck . Kissing behind her ear , my phone vibrated in my pocket .

Pulling it out , ’ work ’ in capital letters flashed across my screen ” hello ”

“ We need you at the warehouse now ” Jason yelled into the phone before the line went dead .

It’s always something !

The Bus Stop

~Based off this artwork~

Nobody can say for sure who started it.

If one went back to the beginning, the signs could point to the Impala: the stupid car had broken down, forcing Cas and Dean to take the bus on their explorations for the case. Or, if the blaming of inanimate objects isn’t reliable, one could blame Mother Nature for making it begin to pour rain as they waited for the bus home. And if blaming the elements isn’t up to par, it could be argued the bus driver, or one of his many passengers, could be blamed for making the bus late.

But it’s none of their faults.

The situation simply was what it was, Dean swearing softly as they began to get soaked. Suddenly, he was no longer wet. Dean looked around, confused, as water seemed to pour down around, and yet, not on top, of him. Noticing Cas, who had seemed to shift significantly closer, it clicked.

“Are you using your wings?” Dean asked, feeling intensely aware of the increased closeness.

Cas nodded. “You seemed…ill at ease,” he paused, looking at Dean’s uncomfortable expression, “I am sorry. I placed your dryness above your need for personal space.”

“Nah, it’s good,” Dean said, drawing closer to try to ensure maximum dryness. His fingers brushed against Cas’ and instantly, Dean felt a flush spread across his cheeks. Neither of them spoke, though both slowly found themselves leaning closer, noses bumping until—

Nobody can say for sure who started it, but that day, together on a public bench in the pouring rain, Dean and Cas missed their bus.

I Sing the Body Electric

I sing the body electric,
The armies of those I love engirth me and I engirth them,
They will not let me off till I go with them, respond to them,
And discorrupt them, and charge them full with the charge of the soul.

Was it doubted that those who corrupt their own bodies conceal themselves?
And if those who defile the living are as bad as they who defile the dead?
And if the body does not do fully as much as the soul?
And if the body were not the soul, what is the soul?

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Murder Murder

Ophelia had just had her first date with her husband in a while, some cheap wine and delicious Italian food at a restaurant that had just opened. It was such a beautiful night, the moon glowing brilliantly in her love’s emerald eyes. So naturally, she wanted to go for a walk before they got back in the Impala to go have wild sex in an abandoned parking lot.
Holding his hand tight, she heard someone cat call her as they drove past and she had to contain Dean from yelling.

She pulled him to the park to watch the moonlight reflect on the pond water, maybe sit in the grass or just have sex there.

Halfway there, the same car drove past /again/, this time, the driver honked obnoxiously as the passenger made a V with his fingers and licked between it.

Eventually the car slowed to a stop.

“Dean, this doesn’t feel right, let’s go back to the car.”

But they were already getting out of the car and walking towards them.

“Dean, please.”


Peter slid into the back of the taxi, holding two gigantic coffee cups, his eyes barely open as he passed one to Killian. “As promised. Plus a shot of that vanilla syrup you swear is too girly but that you really like.” He breathed out slowly and stretched his limbs as much as he could in the tight space. He was sleepless by nature, but that still didn’t make it fun to stay up for almost two days straight. But it was worth it…Killian couldn’t admit that he wanted him, but at least he could admit he cared. Peter smiled sleepily to himself.

He pressed his side gently against Killian’s, tentative at first, testing the waters. “You are more than okay, you know.” Peter said softly, too low for the driver to hear. “I meant that.”