watching them is like watching all of my expectations


For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. Its energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter. You must feel the Force around you; here, between you, me, the tree, the rock, everywhere, yes. Even between the land and the ship.


Seriously don’t know what’s funnier. Ikoma getting thrown onto the train, or him being cradled in Suzuki’s arms as Ayame shakes her head and smiles.

I really believed that we could’ve been great. We have so many things in common, especially passions like music and our faith. I already talk to all your family and they know me quite well. I was ready to stay with you through everything and listen to every single thing that burdens your heart and I knew that it wasn’t just because I was curious but because I genuinely wanted to be there for you and hold you through it all. We could’ve spent lazy Sundays in watching movies that we both love and probably both end up falling asleep. We could’ve spent summer nights near the beach playing the guitar and singing the songs we admire and watched the sunset together. We could’ve went to supermarkets and bought all the sweets money can buy just because we were craving them. I wasn’t expecting any thing big or fancy dates or presents, nothing like that. I just wanted to share my passions with someone who understands and whose eyes light up to the same things that mine do. But most of all, I just wanted to be your shoulder to lean on and to be the one you trust because I was sure that no matter how many times my heart gets broken, I could never hate you. Whenever I see you posting something sad I always get the urge to try and make you feel better, even if I’m feeling like shit because of our situation. This is something that I never understood. Some may call it love but I think it’s hard for me to admit this because I don’t really believe in it anymore. This may be the reason why it’s so hard for me to let go. Where am I going to find someone who has this much in common with me and is still a decent person inside? But in the end I guess I was never enough and you were always searching for something more. Maybe I was too broken or my anxiety telling me that no one really loves me was too overwhelming and maybe this made you think that I didn’t appreciate you. I don’t want to act like the victim, but whenever I fought with you, it was because I automatically expected more from you because my feelings were still there and I didn’t have any control on them. If you wanted me you would’ve just said so because you probably knew why I was acting the way I was because of tumblr. I guess that’s just a part of life? Believing that something is meant to be so much that it overwhelms you? That maybe you invent everything in your mind and you’re so sure of it that it feels real? I don’t really know. I’m sorry that my anxiety made you feel bad about yourself, I never meant to make you feel worse. I guess by time I’ll move on and maybe just maybe I’ll find someone with the same passions and they could handle my occasional jealousy, short temper, anxiety and all the other countless flaws. I also hope that you find someone who will take care of you and even though they may not understand you immediately, they never stop trying to.
—  Constant thoughts brought into one paragraph
  • People: ya know, it took multiple viewings of Civil War for me to really get into it. If you give it another watch you realize things you didn't noticed before. The little things I picked up on afterwards really got me thinking.
  • The same people: god, BvS was so confusing. I only watched it once but why wasn't everything clearly explained to me? Does DC expect me to think about the movie after I've watched it?
116: One and Done

This is pretty long, but I’m leaving it all in. If you want to skip to the end, I will save you the trouble: I am done with this show. I am not coming back for Season 2.

Boy, do I wish I felt differently. Boy, do I wish this show was good. Boy, did I try to like it. But, alas, it’s not to be.

If I lower my expectations to a Lifetime movie, I can enjoy this episode. Thing is, I don’t watch Lifetime movies. And I don’t watch them for a reason. I shouldn’t have to lower my expectations that far to enjoy something, anything, but especially a story I love so much.

I’m going to try and be fair here because I do see what they were trying to get across.  I really do. I’ve read all the good reviews and even posted some. My reaction was still my reaction.

The Good

Anna Foerster’s masterful direction. She is brilliant. She can make a heard of coos look like Shakespeare. Every shot is noticeable for its beautiful composition and attention to detail. Scotland has never looked more beautiful than through her lens.

The escape. Except for Claire standing in the road in Dolce & Gabanna pants and no discernable breast support, it was fantastic. Rupert’s line about the tea was great. This is where Ron Moore and Ira Behr are at their best. Stay in this zone guys.

The continued threat to Claire. I’ve got to hand it to them. They did improve the text by explaining that Jamie continually submits to keep BJR distracted and not send troops after Claire. I have heard in forums people trash Jamie for not just breaking BJR’s neck as soon as Claire leaves and they did a great job clarifying why he could not do that.

Jamie’s return and smile. Dammitt Heughan! You are the only reason to watch this show. My only moment of happiness in this show was that brief smile at the end. 

The first rape scene. It’s hard to say I liked it, but it was masterfully done by the actors. The thing I remember most was Jack making Jamie spread his legs slowly and the shame on Jamie’s face. The slowness and the gentleness were excruciating to watch. Sam Heughan is incredible.

Sam Heughan. Even when I thought the scene was preposterous, he was great in it. He moved me emotionally every time.

The Bad Judgment Overall

Everything I dislike about this episode and this season comes down to bad judgement – specifically, Ron Moore’s bad judgement. He doesn’t seem to understand the balance required to make this story coherent and get the point across: great love overcoming great evil. 

He’s so enamored with rape and violence that he didn’t get that he was supposed to emphasize the bravery and dignity of Jamie and Claire, the power of their love, and their recovery together. This is Claire’s shining moment and he blew it.

You don’t have to adapt everything word for word, but you should get the main point right in one way or another and they didn’t even try, from what I saw.
Ron likes to gorge himself on the less important things while shortchanging the essence of the story.

Again and again, he doesn’t know where to stop to make the point and it killed the story and the show. Some prime examples:

  • Episode 6 (Ira), 30 minutes of invented soliloquies and amputations, but no time to show Jamie staring Black Jack down in front of the crowd after the flogging, which is what really set Jack’s pursuit of Jamie in motion.
  • Episode 8 (Moore), some Frank OK, but 40 minutes?! No time to show Jamie and Claire falling in love and happy, which sets the relationship for the rest of the book.
  • Episode 11 (Moore edited), OK a witch trial, but 40 minutes?! And then the scene at the stones was rushed and confusing. People still don’t know why she chose him based on the show alone.

So here we are, at episode 16 (Ira and Moore), two rape scenes after a sexual assault in the last episode. That was one too many. There was no time made for the healing, the kindness, the gentleness, and the compassion that define this part of the book and are the essence of Jamie and Clare … and, you know, that pesky little thing like the whole point of the story.

The lack of time argument is crap. You make time for what matters, but you have to know what matters. I don’t think Ron does and so he has twisted a painful but beautiful part of Outlander into torture porn for reasons known only to him. I’ve heard him say in interviews that sexual violence was so graphic because he had to get to “the truth” of the story. That’s funny because I wasn’t aware that the truth of story was brutal rapes. 

The truth of this story is the power of selfless, unconditional love to heal anything and how much strength it takes on both their parts. What mattered to him was violent rape. Not love. Not recovery. Not the triumph of the human spirit. And he couldn’t be more wrong.

This episode was full of bad judgement calls that I find unforgivable. 

Abusing the Abused With Emotional Blackmail

In the book, this is Claire’s finest hour. Claire is the embodiment of love as described in 1 Corinthians 13. 

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love does not shove a trauma survivor around and yell in his face to force a confession for purely selfish reasons. It might be understandable given how dire the situation is. I might do it were I in her shoes. The real Claire did NOT. 

In the book, Claire never asked him anything about what happened. She doesn’t need to. She knows. They all know. She allows him to speak because he needs to and listens with love – even though she really doesn’t want to hear it.

  • It’s what makes her great.
  • It’s what shows you her strength.
  • It’s what maker her a hero. Some heroes have capes. Claire wears the mantle of selfless compassion and unconditional love.
  • It’s what makes you forgive her for any character flaw she has or will have in the future.

In the show, she seems to be possessed by the anti-Claire who’s using her mouth like a sock puppet.

At the beginning, Jamie starts to talk about his experience twice:

  • The first time, she gets uncomfortable and changes the subject.
  • The second time, she says nothing, but it’s clear she doesn’t want to hear it and was about to change the subject.

She then spends the rest of the episode angry that he won’t talk and resentful that he won’t heal fast enough. They wrote her dumb enough and heartless enough to ask Murtaugh why Jamie wants to kill himself and he actually has to explain to her what she already knows. Then, she still refuses to understand.

Wow. Don’t bowl me over with her loving kindness and intelligence. Please. It’s too much. 

This is not Claire. This is a selfish woman obsessed with her own needs who needs a lesson in love and compassion from Murtaugh. Murtaugh!!

In the climactic scene, she shames Jamie into confessing by yelling at him and shoving him around. So, let’s assess: she shuts him down when he tries to talk at the beginning and then bitch-slaps him into a confession at the end. Pick a lane lady! 

This scene is not inspired by love and not because she’s strong. She’s letting her fear take over and making her desperation more important than Jamie. It’s selfish and cruel. She’s not going to bat for him, she’s beating him up and he has been beaten up enough – on her behalf. 

What was this supposed to be? An episode of Scared Straight?

Then, she threatens to kill herself with him if he doesn’t snap out of it. That’s emotional blackmail and it never healed anyone. It’s too selfish and manipulative to have any healing power. 

  • You promised me.
  • You have to be there for me.
  • You are the only thing that makes sense to me.
  • If I kill myself, it’s your fault.

It’s not about you Claire! Book Claire knows this and never pulls this crap on Jamie. 

I hope none of you are never hurt badly enough to need a book Claire and get a TV Claire instead. I have and I did and I don’t talk to those people anymore. 

This is so far beneath Claire and the spirit of the story that I can’t forgive it and I can’t put the book down. The show gave us the opposite of the book. The OPPOSITE.

Adjustments for the constraints of the visual medium and time is one thing and understandable but filming the exact OPPOSITE of the character and the relationship is unforgivable. 

I am used to them destroying Jamie’s character. There are so many bits in this episode that are the antithesis of the King of Men, but I’m going to whistle right past them because I’m used to it. Why even bother? 

Destroying Claire’s character this way stunned me. The writers pretty much removed her kindness and compassion and loving gentleness all season long. I thought it would come back here. I thought maybe they were saving it all up but that was giving them too much credit.

Honestly, this is the worst part of the episode for me. This healing is what makes the whole book worth reading. It’s the payoff for all the pain. It’s Claire’s ascent into true power and heroism …. And they made her a scared, angry, selfish bitch. Unbelievable.

(For those of you who think the violence was justified because of the conjuring incident, you need to go read this chapter again. Never does she yell at him and demand a confession. Never does she mistreat him and think of herself first. Even in the guise of Black Jack, she is gentle with him. He attacks her and then we don’t really know what happened because Claire doesn’t really know what happened. The violence is all self-defense and induced by opium.)

Jamie “Rousing”

This whole sequence was so wrong and so preposterous that it didn’t move me emotionally. They were trying to capture Jamie telling Claire that the worst part of the abuse (and what’s making him want to die) is that it:

  • Aroused him to the point of erection (and possibly orgasm)
  • Put her in his mind the whole time while he was doing it so that he can’t separate sex with her from rape by BJR

Jamie should have told this to Claire with quick flashes back. The whole scene should not have been filmed. It was a gratuitous time waster. Again, bad judgement. What matters here, really? Jamie’s devastation and shame. 

We should hear him tell it so we can see that and feel that. To me, Sam is the best actor on the show. He would have knocked this out of the park. What did we gain by seeing this full-on except more horrendous images we can’t erase?

The following list describes the parts would have been horrendous if it wasn’t for the fact that they made no sense whatsoever

Jamie hallucinating it was Clare. Why on earth would he ever do that? Do torture victims sometimes hallucinate that their spouses are doing it instead of their abuser? Are we supposed to assume that Randall drugged him? This is so random that it lost all its power. 

Randall liking that Jamie thought it was Claire and using it. Randall wants to break Jamie by using his love for Claire against him, not use it to get laid. He would be angry that Jamie thought he was screwing Claire. He wants Jamie to know that he, BJR, is arousing him and comparing it with Claire just to torture him. Randall didn’t want to see Jamie enjoy it. That’s not what a sadist does.

Jamie confusing anal penetration with sex with Claire. Since when does anal penetration feel anything like sex with a woman? I don’t remember Claire messing around with his anus. And even so, there is no way to confuse the two sensations no matter how delirious you are.

Jamie being aroused by anal rape. Excuse me. This is not even PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE. Anal sex hurts at first. Even between consenting adults who are doing it for … well, an attempt at pleasure. We just saw the violent anal rape of a virgin. They showed the table shaking and how terribly painful it was. Jamie’s anus was brutalized and bleeding. Any kind of penetration after that would be very painful – lube or no lube. 

There is NO WAY a man recovering from an anal rape that brutal - especially when he was a virgin in that respect – would feel pleasure – even if he was masturbating. That pain of the penetration would take him right out of it. And to add stoopid to stupid, he tells Claire that he responded because it felt so good to not be in pain. This is when the show officially jumped the shark.

Yes, men sexually abused are often aroused by forced genital stimulation by hand or by mouth. Blood rushes to an area full of nerve endings and the response is purely physical. There is no shame in it; it happens to women too. Nerve endings are nerve endings and the body is built to respond in some way when that area is stimulated; it can’t be helped. 

Oral or manual stimulation is the only believable way for Jamie to have felt pure pleasure from what he could possibly think of as his wife (even though that angle makes no sense as I described above). To make matters worse, they showed him not responding to forced genital stimulation earlier. Are they trying to make him seem bisexual? WTF?!

And don’t give me delirious, nobody is that delirious without a hallucinogen or a roofie.

[NOTE: While working on this blog, I have since learned that some people actually found this arousing. Not perverts; regular fans who post normally cogent responses. I am shocked. However, it pointed out to me just how badly they handled this scene and just how important it was to get it right. They confused when they should have clarified. ]

Jamie’s Attempted Suicide

Jamie would never attempt to kill himself. He says so more than once that it’s a mortal sin and BJR “damned him in life and would not do so in Heaven.” Jamie wastes away and wants to die, but he would not take action to kill himself. 

Healing In No Time

I’ve already mentioned that they didn’t give enough time for healing and the horror of Claire’s emotional blackmail and abuse. The worst part of it was that it worked – instantly. Jamie suddenly snaps out of it. A slap fight and some emotional blackmail and he’s healed. Just like that. Wow.

If only I had had counselors bitch-slap and threaten me, I would have gotten over my own abuse so much faster! Ron should write a book and go on Oprah Super Soul Sunday! 

The Ever So Funny Sexual Assault

Angus sexually assaulting Claire when saying goodbye while everyone stands around and laughs.

Was that supposed to be funny? Stop trying to be funny. You suck at it. In such a dark episode about sexual abuse, they have Angus sexually violate Claire and it’s all supposed to be in good fun? 

Make a joke about literally ANYTHING ELSE! You tone-deaf asshats!

Could their judgement be any worse? Well, these are the people who thought it was OK to have Jamie grab the boob of a teenage girl in the same episode where he beats his wife, so I shouldn’t be surprised.

Here’s a tip: Stop pretending this is a feminist show. You have no idea what it means.

Making It An Ensemble

The biggest mistake of the whole season but especially this episode. Trying to make what belongs only to Jamie and Claire a group effort. It is not. And it steals even more time just to give the McKenzies something to do.

Even worse, all that flashing back and forth between characters makes Jamie a non-entity and shows tremendous disrespect to the survivor in the other room. Instead of Jamie’s dark night of the soul, we see all the people who supposedly love him complaining about why he won’t heal fast enough. Wow!

And there seems to be a never-ending stream of people lecturing Jamie that he’s wrong to feel what he feels and what he should be doing to get better for other people’s sake. They all seem to have gone to the Claire school of healing: berate the victim till he snaps out of it.

This material is so far beyond the ken of Mr. Moore and Mr. Behr that it’s stunning.

The “Happy” Ending

What was that – 3 minutes? They talk about Culloden on the boat. Culloden!! I heard Ron say in an interview that the healing was done and it was time to move on. No Ron, you just don’t care. Otherwise, you would know the job wasn’t even close to being done and it’s not the time to talk politics.

Jamie and Claire are obviously still fractured and disjointed on the boat. They have no ease with each other. Claire is so unsure of them and him that she’s terrified to tell him she’s pregnant. 

  • In the book, this is joyful and loving and a rebirth for the two of them.
  • In the show, it’s a fragmented, fearful mess.

Another OPPOSITE for your list if you’re keeping score.

The Final Judgement

What it comes down to is this:

  • Do the bright spots overcome the egregious errors?
  • Does Sam Heughan working his magic make up for what they’ve done (and will continue to do) to Jamie’s character?
  • Do those pangs I have when they come close make it worth all the rest?


All season, there were only two difficult scenes they did right: the wedding and the beating. In fact, they improved on the book in both. For me, two is not enough. When it comes to what really matters – the stones, Lallybroch, Wentworth, and the abbey – their judgement is just too bad to trust. And I can’t whistle past it and pretend it’s okay.

I gave them 16 hours to prove themselves and what they proved is they don’t deserve the benefit of the doubt.

I have read reviews hoping next season will be better regarding Jamie and Claire. It won’t be. Ron has already said there will be more Frank in Season 2 just because he likes having Tobias on the show. When I’m right, I’m right. 

Diana Gabaldon may trust them with the story, I don’t and I’m done.

I love all the converts to Strange Magic. 

The people who are like “I saw this on my dash and it looked cute! Glad I gave it a watch!”

Or the “This was on TV and I have no idea what I just watched but I love it!” 

and the “Wow. I really expected not to like this, but it surprised me!” 

But my absolute favorite kind of people are the

“This movie is stupid and I hate it it doesn’t make any sense I’ve wATCHED IT TEN TIMES IN THREE DAYS I’VE LOST CONTROL OF MY LIFE”

Top five ships you’ll go down with no matter what.

I was tagged by hisbanshee, thank you so much honey <3 

  1. Stydia: I don’t even know what to say about them without turning this into a 10k post. Literally my #1 ship, never have I ever shipped two people more than my soulmate/detective babies, I mean I shipped them before I even watched this freaking show and I have a feeling that 2016 will be our year! (If so I will die and all of you can tell my mom to give you anything you want from my things, you’re welcome)
  2. Olicity: THEY ARE CANON CAN YOU BELIEVE! When I first started watching Arrow and shipping them (like I literally watched 2 seasons in 4 days while on vacation what) I honest to God never thought we’d come this far! They are so in love, have a healthy, admirable relationship and I don’t believe for a second something with a permanent effect has happened to Felicity! If you ask me I expect a s05 wedding lol
  3. Skyeward: And then there are these assholes. At first I thought I shipped the uber cute relationship between the tough guy and his quirky rookie but nope, Jes Wheedon had other plans. Painful ones. I am probably never watching AOS again, and I think it’s safe to say that my tragic ship will not be endgame, but as disappointed and bitter as I am I will never stop shipping them, crying over them and hope that in some other world they are still playing battleship and getting that damn drink.
  4. Bellarke: Don’t even get me started on these idiots! You have two people who gradually go from “I could cut your hand off if I had to” to “Come with me ‘cause I don’t like you so you know that makes sense” to “I can’t lose you too”!!! You have them running in each other’s arms, tearing up when they are separated, EVERYONE sees how much they mean to each other and oh yeah right, THEY’D LITERALLY DIE FOR ONE ANOTHER!!! No, Bellarke becoming canon would be completely irrational guys I know, yet here I am and here we all are and if Rothenberg knows anything about good writing they will be endgame in time.
  5. Lucaya: I don’t know what went wrong in my life that two middle schoolers from a Disney show are on this list but I have zero regrets. They are like the yin and yang, they balance each other out. Where Maya is dark Lucas is light and the other way around. They are literally the cutest babies in the world with their teasing, heart eyes, banter and concealed feelings. I do believe they’re endgame, anything else would be poor writing, and I can’t wait for the scenes where Maya Hart makes her huckleberry of a boyfriend give her piggy back rides, go to art museums with her and keep him away from trouble, while he supports her art and dreams, makes her feel like she’s never alone or unwanted and lets her laugh at him because he just loves her laugh so damn much.

I tag llydiastiles lydamartin hollandobae rongasm mssweetserialkiller and everyone else who wants to do it :)

My anime summer season watching list ~ ♥

Anime summer season officialy started for me. All anime that I wanted to watch this season had their first episodes and even second ones too! I don’t think that I will manage to complete all of them, but oh well! We will see.

Originally posted by gurikajis

Akagami no Shirayuki-hime

Actually it suprised me. Heroine is really promising character, not shallow nor weak. I expected some boring harem like heroine, and I am glad that I was wrong. 

I really like background colors, I can’t find a word describe it, but it looks really nice. Characters designs at first looked same and boring, but when I watched second episode It didn’t bother me to much. 

Well… It’s relaxing series.Good way to start Tuesday’s morning

Originally posted by phantom-nox

Somebody wanted shounen that actually looked like some kind of shounen ai but not really? Well then.

Aoharu x Kikanjuu

That was cringy, that heroine (yes heroine, that blond boyish girl) gave me that cringy feeling. Uch… I gonna watch it as BL. Why? I don’t know… Gonna do that until other two main characters realize that that blond is actually a girl. 

Action scenes look over a top, because… Well damn. Tables crashing, ground breaking and etc. I think main heroine is long lost Shizuo Heiwajima’s sister or even daughter (lol)

Gonna watch it… Because I want to know in which episode they gonna to understand that this little boy is actually a really strong girl. 

Originally posted by heichou-and-taichou-smiling

Durarara!!x2 Ten

Yay! I’m so excited for this! Character’s last season (or last round) were given such character development and interesting situations that this season must to tell! I’m enjoying this DRRR! season like always ~ ♥

By the way opening and ending songs aren’t that bad as some people say, those songs set a more serious mode for series. Well at least that’s my opnion. 

Originally posted by juhzou

and guess which series is my favorite this season. Yes, indeed it is.


Relaxing mood, battles, interesting characters, two guys who go to “adventure” each episode… I missed those kind of shows, with that kind coloring and plot. 

And wow, they even have character that I never seen before. A deaf. That’s interesting indeed. Ah. I like character designs very much, they all look somewhat diffrent. 

You should watch if not watching already ~

Originally posted by phantom-nox

God Eater

I watch this only because they have diffrent style and coloring. Just for that. Plot looks like Owari no Seraph or Attack on Titan like, wait no. Not a plot… but a main character. Just gave me that kind of feel really. 

OST, character design and artstyle is good, would be nice if plot was too. 

but I don’t expect much from this series.

Originally posted by kyoto-animation

Joukamachi no Dandelion

I just need something cute, situation comedy with many characters. I found just right one anime. I don’t  expect much from it either, but oh well. At least this series is enjoyable n_n 

Originally posted by yukinepng

Junjou Romantica 3

Somehow I skipped second season, not that i feel like I lost something (lol)

Well… Hello drama of the season, I will have headache. Hooray! Or maybe not.

Originally posted by bardmain

Kangoku Gakuen Prison School

I bet with a friend that I gonna finish this series. And hey it’s actually pretty nice comedy with nice characters’ expresions and coloring. 

This anime even has cute little crows. Yay. I thought that this anime is gonna be real torture to me, good to know that it’s not ~ n_n

Originally posted by rintaroukyouma


Fanservice. MMORPG. *sigh*

Why do I even watch this? Because this anime is the Madhouse work.

Well at least main character is skeleton. 

I really doubt that I gonna finish this series. 

Originally posted by webegofyou

Ranpo Kitan: Game of Laplace

I seriously didn’t liked designs…it’s really cute and not dark at all. I thought that Madhouse like designs would be better for this kind of anime, with kind of shading and style. But when I finished second episode, I am really glad that they have designs like this, because all this mystery is just silly. 

Well… But first murder was artistic, like in Hannibal.. Somehow I felt like I saw this kind of murder somewhere else, but I guess it was just dejavu. 

Opening visual style is really something! You should watch it.

Originally posted by infiniterhapsody

Rokka no Yuusha

That’s my second favorite of this season.

I like designs, story, characters and animation. One thing that I don’t quite like is CGI monsters, but I can understand why they’re CGI… Besides they are not that bad….(well they are) 

Characters can be really good! They have so much potential! If this series gonna be stereotipical harem I gonna cry a river! -_-

Originally posted by batokusanagi

Kurayami Santa

It’s unique style. It has animation and live action real footage. I found it interesting because it even gives a real facts about that time. 

Tho, I’m not sure if it will have more episodes this season. It would be a shame if such expermental work was canceled.

Originally posted by mizuneru

Makura no Danshi

Not much plot…. Pretty bishounen just speaks with you like explorer dora and gives you space to answer to the screen. 

Gonna watch this because… Bishounen and besides it’s only 5 minutes long. This will be my goodnight story for Monday’s nights. 

A Non-Spoiler Mockingjay Review- Why You Need To Watch It, Right Now.

Full disclosure right here and now- I really disliked Mockingjay in book form.

I don’t know why. To me, it seemed crowded, and desperate to convey information, and lost the slow thunder of the previous books in an effort to show as much as possible.

And more full disclosure- I never fully warmed to the Hunger Games franchise.
Appreciated? Sure, I liked them well enough- I’ve watched director’s commentaries and all. They were solidly executed, they were watchable, they were a nice addition to my reading experience- but they could not reach me.
So when I was persuaded to go watch Mockingjay Part 1 (screenings of Frozen were booked up), I expected little but Jennifer Lawrence’s beautiful acting.
And I got so much better.

I know what happens in the books. I know what’s to come.
I spent half the film covering my mouth in sheer horror and amazement.

Mockingjay Part 1 is a testament to the strength of a director who has been given a film that does not need to be driven on action, and thrives on it. While the past two films focused on a far more simplistic drive inamongst underlying tension, this film brings that underlying thread to the fore; every beautiful scene of character from the past few films are now the near-entirety of said film. And it is glorious.

You will see a lot of Jennifer Lawrence, who this time is truly allowed to give the most nuanced performance of the franchise, and the most harrowing. She takes moments of silence and fills them with emotion with little more than a few hastily murmured words- she takes a scant moment of comedy and without a sound takes it to a far darker place. Her weapon is her mastery of expression and now she is given reign to put her skills to good use, she takes the opportunity with a passion that engages without need for words.

You will not see a lot of Josh Hutcherson. And this is a good thing for the plot. But oh, how you’ll wish you could see more. Jennifer Lawrence has always been towering in acting ability and Hutcherson has in the past seemed to flounder next to her skill. But now? I would argue one has surpassed the other. Hutcherson arguably gives the most electrifying performance in this film in only, at most, five minutes of screen time. And those five minutes are all that are needed and less than you’ll want and that is for the best.

A few characters are woefully underused- Sam Claflin’s Finnick gets less time than you would hope, and Woody Harrelson’s Haymitch gets less time than he deserves. Natalie Dormer’s Cressida is underutilised in her role- but frankly, until Dormer gets her own film, that’ll be my opinion.
But these characters do not get underused merely by lieu of less screen time- they pale under the beat of a drum far larger than any of them.

The real craft of this film- the real, true selling point- is the scenes of rebellion and destruction amongst the districts, the tension and the unrest that permeates the film in harrowing detail. It is a display of sheer scale that most films never manage and do not try to. A scene that sticks in the mind, and a scene I will not spoil other than referring to it as the “dam scene”- this is the finest moment of the film, harrowing and poignant, set to a score that would elicit tears, a scene of beautifully tragic chaos.
This scene was not in the books. It does not involve any major or minor characters known.
And this makes it the better.

Mockingjay Part 1 is not like its precursors.

Because it surpasses expectation.

Just finished watching She was Pretty and Sassy Go Go, and i’ve literally devoted the past month watching them, and investing all my FEELINGS into them. WHAT DO I DO NOW!!! 

She was pretty is basically has a  “metamorphosis” character, whose pretty unappealing and insecure in the beginning of the story. The storyline is based off her relationship with a childhood friend who moved away, and he comes back (looking hot af) looking for her in the present when theyre like in their late twenties. 

On the real tough, this drama literally blows away all your beginning judgements and expectations of the storyline. You think this character does this, and they do something totally different. Its a storyline that’s really refreshing and interesting. Big plus, Choi Siwon (from Super Junior) is in the drama and he plays a pretty important character and HE IS SO SEXY in the drama (for my followers who love men with scruff) Also, they do give a lot of fan services for the OTP (which is a big PLUS) 

Sassy Go Go is a high school drama that has the whole typical two sided rivalry between the smart kids and dumb kids. They really go into each of the (MAIN) characters lives and execute a rivalry between peers and best friends pretty well. Its also really refreshing and does not entirely focus on love but more of the relationship and development of all the characters throughout the series. Its only 12 episodes but its really good, and Kim Yeol is a pretty great main male character (Hes honestly too OP).

Sorry if this is totally unrelated to my blog but it’s so good and it’d be a shame if my other kdrama lovers who follow me don’t experience the GREATNESS of these two dramas and i hope those who end up watching it enjoy it just as much as i did, and i’m definitely putting those two on my favs list! 

*Side note: I know some people didn’t enjoy She Was Pretty because of how much injustice Siwon’s character had, but some people have to understand he was purposefully a side character for a reason. 

I Guess They Lie Too

I do not know the author and can not attest to its validity.

“I’m a well-known American film actor and I’m a closeted homosexual.

I will not reveal who I’ve worked with or what I’ve starred in obviously, as I don’t want to be identified. I love my career, and I know I would lose my leading man status if I ever came out. I feel terribly guilty about many different things.

First of all, I feel like I’m misleading my fans. I know a lot of women watch my movies to watch me, and part of that is fantasy, and I feel like it’s all based on a lie. They do a lot of market analysis in Hollywood. I get told about which demographics I do well with, and I feel like I’m misleading so many people, or letting them down.

I am dating another well known personality, and we’ve been publicly together for a while now. I know she expects to get married, the press expect us to get married, but of course this would be a great disservice to her. Truth be told I think she knows. She is a wonderful woman and a wonderful person and I don’t deserve someone as loving and trusting in my life, and I truly do love her, but I’m not in love with her, and sex with her, despite her beauty, is difficult for me.

I also feel terribly guilty because I know there are so many gay kids out there and I feel like by not coming out, and not providing that public display of being gay and being successful I’m letting them down. Public figures like Ellen DeGeneres coming out when I was younger made a huge difference to me, and I feel like I should be paying it forward, but I’m too afraid of my whole life being ruined.

I’ve only told a few people. I’ve been with two men since my career has started. Both have been, thankfully, very discrete. My two best friends from before I became mainstream know, and have been supportive. I’ve told two gay actors who have come out because I trusted they would keep it to themselves, having been in the same position. They were comforting and told me to do what I needed to do, but it didn’t assuage my guilt at all. I tested the water with my agent, who basically told me “F*ggots don’t make it in this town,” and then went on to basically explain that he would never represent a gay man because the effort versus the money just makes it not worth it to him. It frankly terrifies me. I just wanted to get it out there.”

*Reddit disclaimer: Reddit has confirmed the IPS of the poster is in California. However they will not disclose anymore information other than that for anonymity.

Rick deserves so much damn love for the simple fact that he really doesn’t have to be anyone’s leader. He doesn’t/didn’t have to lead anyone but his family, but he does it anyways and he takes on all types of shit just to keep them safe. Yet people still shit on him, for what? “Because he’s not the same” Wow, did people really expect Rick to still be Officer Friendly after ALL the shit he’s had to deal with? Like, I’m convinced that people that say they don’t like Rick because “he isn’t the same”, skipped over most of the show, most of their journey throughout the apocalypse. They probably watched season 1 and skipped seasons 2,3 and 4 and watched season 5 until now. Anyways, my little rant is over.

anonymous asked:

Hi!! Thanks so much for all of your Scarlet Heart posts. They really helped me come to terms with loving the characters that I did despite much of the established fandom voices hating it. Question: will you be watching Hwarang?

Thank you for reading them. I’m really glad you got something out of them.

As for your question about Hwarang…yes, it’s on my watch list and I will give it my customary 3 episode chance when I have the time. However, I’m watching it with no expectations. I like the cast, but I’m not head of heels in love with the cast like I was with SH:R’s. And I'm  a little leery of fusion sageuks after the disappointments I had with Mirror of the Witch and Moonlight Drawn by Clouds, which both fizzled out on me. As for the premise, it doesn’t seem like anything I haven’t seen before. But I’m a sucker for reverse harems, so the more of those elements are in play the happier I’ll be. We’ll just have to see what happens.


I really liked what I saw of Moana. As expected the boys couldn’t make it the entire film and elected me to take them out of the theater - so eventually I’ll have to watch it all. People keep talking about a Crab and I didn’t see a Crab…

I thought it clever (and devious) to mish mash Polynesian cultures/myth which turned the film into a personal seek-and-find; it’s one of those pro and con choices that I imagine will divide people watching, understandably so.

Overall it didn’t help with my homesickness.