wasting life away

Thanks for letting me spew. Sometimes I need to get the words out once in a while. A reminder of past mistakes, a hint to the future not to do what I did.

I let 15-17 years of my prime life waste away obsessed with how these women hurt me. Dont let that happen to you.

Take life by the horns and ride it. Never look back, live in the moment but keep the future in your head too.

Never give up, never surrender.

  • Me@3am: Wowee, I sure should go to bed!
  • Me 5 minutes later: I hate school. I have so much work but I'm so stressed that I'm calm and don't do any of it til the last minute. Also, I'm never going to get a job and I'll be forced to live at home forever wondering what I should've done in my life to prevent this from happening. I will lose all my friends, and have nobody that truly loves me all because I'm wasting my life away doing nothing.
  • Me@4am: *peacefully asleep*

vent

Feb. 9, 2017

I can waste my life away if it meant I’d find the truth eventually. I can lose everything as long as I find myself. I can break these wings, but you’ll never stop my mind from taking flight. I’ve been up all night. I’ve been sorry all day. I’ve been a fool for you. I’m still searching for gold on the blue ocean floor. I’m an hour away from where we last knew– I still trip over old news– lately my emotions are just bad news. I’m your local paperboy with my paper heart making paper art with paper people in my paper town with my paper frown and my paper crown.

Evermore

Summary: Loosely inspired by the song “Evermore” from Beauty and the Beast. Bucky had it all planned out. He spent days planning the perfect proposal - the perfect proposal for the perfect girl, but things don’t always go according to plan. 

Word Count: 1,731

Warnings: Angst


Originally posted by trevanterhodes


Bucky fidgeted with the velvet jewelry box nervously, pausing every now and then to glance back at the door to his apartment. Any moment, Y/N would come walking through, her warm smile lighting up the apartment. Hers was the smile that somehow managed to steal into his melancholy heart, the smile that melted the layers of frost and gave way to spring, the one that nurtured the tiny, fragile seeds of love little by little until they blossomed.

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Everyone in yoi: waaaaaah Victor pls come back to skating Yuuri is a pleb and ur wasting ur time and life away all we care about is ur career!!!!!

Me: listen up here, fuckers, ur gonna let my husband do whatever he needs to do in order to be freaking happy

do you ever wonder if Simon is doing okay? If he’s staying hydrated or whether he’s happy today? Has he had a scone recently? When’s the last time he hugged his boyfriend? Then do you realise that he is just a fictional character who has never even existed and you’re just wasting your life away, thinking about someone who isn’t real because yeeeah I do that a lot.

  • person: what do you want to be when you're older?
  • my brain: a person who wastes their life away obsessing over fictional characters and screaming over gay ships
  • me: idk maybe an animator or something

Oh boy. Storm Atronach Crates have arrived. I’ve never much cared for random chance loot, but I suppose I’ll have to buy one. For science.

Oooh, but hey, it’s Pacrooti! I’ve missed you, man. You never write me anymore. Seriously, it’s been years.

Ah well. Just give me something shiny and we’ll call it -

Right. That’s… certainly a lot of stuff I have no use for.

…Thanks, Pacrooti. You charlatan.

seeing people knowing what they want, pursuing it and accomplishing stuff in their lives while you’re stuck in limbo for years now feeling completely hopeless and knowing very well you’re just wasting your life away

I am sick and tired of people telling me
that I need to move on
from the boy I am in love with
because I am hurting over the fact
that he doesn’t love me back,
that he is just a friend,
that I am wasting away my life,
that I am not enjoying it to the fullest,
that I am not giving myself or someone else a chance,
but how do I explain
that yes it hurts to not be loved back,
yes it hurts to just be friends
with someone you are so madly in love with
but I am not wasting away my life,
I do whatever I am supposed to do,
I do whatever I want to do,
I am not always this depressed over him,
I do have friends,
I do have a life which is boring
but at the same time exciting and good
and that trying to be good enough for him
even when I am not and won’t be
has made me a better person
—  Isn’t love about trying to be your best self for someone even when you are the only one in love, even when the love is only one person’s, even when they don’t love you back // JustScribbledWords
I am sick and tired of people telling me
that I need to move on
from the boy I am in love with
because I am hurting over the fact
that he doesn’t love me back,
that he is just a friend,
that I am wasting away my life, 
that I am not enjoying it to the fullest,
that I am not giving myself or someone else a chance,
but how do I explain
that yes it hurts to not be loved back,
yes it hurts to just be friends
with someone you are so madly in love with
but I am not wasting away my life,
I do whatever I am supposed to do,
I do whatever I want to do,
I am not always this depressed over him,
I do have friends,
I do have a life which is boring
but at the same time exciting and good
and that trying to be good enough for him
even when I am not and won’t be
has made me a better person
—  Isn’t love about trying to be your best self for someone even when you are the only one in love, even when the love is only one person’s, even when they don’t love you back // JustScribbledWords