was everything that i was dreading

Last night I was cleaning something that put me in clear view of anyone entering the store. Which meant I got a lot of people asking me questions since I was the first person they’d see as they came in. One such couple took me by surprise. When they came up to me I thought they’d be troublesome because they looked like snooty people. Super attractive to the point of looking like models, especially the woman. They asked me the dreaded question. “Are you still selling alcohol?” Here in WI we can’t sell hard liquor after 9 PM, and it was well past that.

I braced myself and told them that. I fully expected them to start yelling at me. But they didn’t. They asked me a second question instead politely. “Is that everything or just the hard stuff?”. In my panic I forgot about that, so I said “Oh, yeah, it’s not all of it” so I took them to the aisle and pointed out the stuff in the cooler, which is not against the law to sell after 9pm since they’re low alcohol content and it wasn’t 12 am yet. They thanked me and that was that. Kind of feel shitty for assuming the worst based on their looks.

Also had a really nice bunch of other customers that didn’t get mad at me when I asked them to repeat themselves due to my partial hearing in one ear, which was also nice.  -Abby

anonymous asked:

I just checked out your bro's blog and soundcloud (good stuff!!!) and I have to ask, is irl-boulder's hair also that curly? :o

Both mine and my brother’s hair is very curly! However, while he, the metal head that he is, keeps his hair long, I tend to have a really short haircut.

I like keeping my hair as drawn here, and sometimes let it grow out a bit like here. Sometimes it grows out longer and it’s absolutely uncontrollable.

I never have my hair as long as Boulder’s because I hate how messy it gets. My style is bed head, i was never the one to brush my hair and when i was younger i’d get natural dreads in my hair, it was awful, i don’t know how my brother has the patience to comb his hair every day lmao

The reason boulder has very poofy curly hair is because I liked that it gave him a silhouette that’s different than mine, since everything else about him is more or less just different coloured me lmao

Boulder actually went through at least four hairstyles!! Originally his hair was very spiky and pointed backwards, then it was the same as flash’s, then it was the same as now but spiky, and then i decided that curls are very me (even if my short hair looks straight), so i just gave him a full head of poof.

I BET YOU DIDN’T EXPECT SUCH A LONG ANSWER BUT THERE YA GO

Medicine

Countless chemicals
thrown
down my throat,
counteracting
the dances of
contortionists
in my synapses.
Each capsule swallowed
shifts the balance
of God
and body:
my stomach blends,
sleep sprints
for miles around
but never touches me,
and dread
grinds its teeth
on the inside
of my veins.
A garden of
snake venom
is blooming in me
and everything
I touch
just so I
can feel somewhat
gray
instead of bruised
but the cycle
of percolated blood
continues
and I become the
hand
I bite
every
single
day
until there is
nothing left
with which to reach
bastard salvation
but misshapen
teeth marks.

Are there some people who are just more draining than others?  

Are there some people who just… always make you feel terrible about yourself?  

Like, not in the way they talk to you, but just… their very presence fills you with dread and makes you doubt everything you know and makes you feel guilty for no reason other than they are THERE in your vicinity?  

What is that?  Is it just toxicity?  Or is it something more?

Social vampirism?  

Happiness vampirism?  

I’m not sure what it is.  I’m trying to figure it out though.  So if you have thoughts, please share them.  

anonymous asked:

Yeah, both ways would kind of suck and I agree that keeping Maggie around without really keeping her would be even worse. But, like I said, it's the CW, we can expect everything.

I know, and I am DREADING this 3rd season.

like, I get excited about the potential I see in it when I read a little bit about what they have planned

but then I remember S02, and that they plan on bringing what’s-his-name back, and that they would like to have superman back (which, I’ll be honest, Superman is always a blessing on the show, because whenever he shows up it servers to push KARA’s story forward, it’s never about Superman himself. But this time they want to bring him back to see how he would react to finding out about the Guardian, and I’m here like, this isn’t the M*n-El show, this isn’t the Guardian or the Superman show, why are you doing this to us?!!?!?)

….excuse my little rant there….>.>

So anyway, yes, I agree with you. We can hope for the best, but being the CW it’s probably going to leave us feeling disappointed ;-;

An open letter to my husband

by reddit user VenomousHeroine

A friend of mine recently bought a second hand laptop from a busy garage sale, the seller said that the thing won’t turn on. Being the nerd that he is, my friend got it working and found a strange letter saved on it. He mailed it to me after I asked him if I could share it here. So here goes:

“Dear Matthew,

I’m writing to you to tell you that I know everything that you do not want me to know. I know you must dread hearing this- especially coming from me, but I really need you to listen to what I have to say.

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Can Tumblr Just Stop

Listen up y’all! Because when it comes to this topic:

Originally posted by blackbeak

I have had it with people saying you can’t enjoy something that doesn’t ‘belong’ to your culture. Apparently you’re racist if you’re a white girl dressing up as Tiana for comic con. Or if you’re wanting to adapt a story from China into a blockbuster movie. Or if you’re trying to cook an ethnic meal even if you have no experience. Because according to Tumblr (and alarmingly a lot of colleges) it’s ‘culture appropriation’ to even be curious about another country. Seriously. I had to write a paper to explain that you can still enjoy Mexican food even if you’re not from Mexico. And people argued with me. My professor argued with me! They all claimed that if you enjoy food from other cultures that you were stealing from that culture! Really?

I see this kind of attitude all the time about media too. Like, people flip out when they see a black girl playing Eponine from Les Miserables. Or when a predominately white school is performing The Wiz. People just jump into blind hate and claim that these performers are racists… but most of the time these performers are doing a role or a show because they love it. Because they connect with it in some way. 

Here’s a quote we all need to read:

“You don’t need to be the same ethnicity as the story you’re watching in order to identify with it. If the story is told well. It [a good story] is about relating to people that you may not necessarily think you’re going to relate to in the beginning, but by the end you’re going ‘That’s me.’ ”

You know who said that?

Lin-Manuel Miranda

AKA:

The guy who wrote In The Heights and Hamilton, which did WONDERS in including people of all different ethnicities in mainstream musicals. AND in the interview he said that he was inspired from when he saw Fiddler on the Roof when he was six years old. Even though he was Puerto Rican and the show was about Jews and Russia- he related to the story about the sacrifices you make for your family. Because that’s something that everyone can relate to.

In other words, a good story can speak to anyone regardless of culture and that’s okay!

It’s okay for a Japanese cast to perform In The Heights. It’s okay for an African American to play Éponine in Les Miserables. It’s okay for people to adapt a J-Pop song into English. And it’s okay for a predominately white school to perform Hamilton or The Wiz.

If people are doing something because they genuinely love it, then there is nothing wrong with that. And this applies to everything!!!

If you’re a white girl wanting to wear dreads in your hair because you think it looks cool- GO FOR IT! If you’re a Korean man who loves listening to Latin music- GREAT! If you’re an Irish kid obsessed with learning Japanese- AWESOME! If you’re British and want to try out for Hamilton- NICE! If you’re an African American who jams out to K-Dramas- SWEET! If you’re an American who has moved to South Africa because you want to learn more about local tribes- THAT’S SO COOL!

Look:

People shouldn’t be guilt tripped into staying in their own cultural norms. I hate it when people say “you can’t enjoy this thing because it belongs to another culture.”

Doesn’t that sound a bit racist? Scratch that. IT SOUNDS A LOT RACIST!

Yo, I can kinda see where the anger comes from. I know there are people who claim to know a lot about a different culture… when they obviously don’t by their actions or mistreatment to those who actually belong to that culture. But there is a HUGE difference between those who are being “entitled” and those who just haven’t learned enough yet. Learning about a different culture takes time! Man, it takes several years just to learn a different language. Much more to learn about social norms and values. 

And if they get a few things wrong… for crying out loud, show some mercy! No one is perfect. Stop with the “all or nothing” mentality. Show some compassion for those who genuinely want to know more about your amazing heritage/culture. 

Because most of the time these people are trying their best to learn! In fact, 99% of the time, they’re self conscious because they know they are an outsider to your thing. But you can teach them. Share your culture. Let it thrive! Give people a chance! If you treat outsiders harshly for learning and enjoying your culture, then you’re harming your own representation. 

THIS KID IS OUT!

Just Autistic Things™:

  • “I’m hungry but we don’t have the incredibly specific food that I wanted guess I’m not eating today”
  • Room is messy but I know where everything is so what is the problem???
  • Hearing Bad Noises in public and trying not to visibly freak the fuck out
  • “I wanna do something but I don’t know what I wanna do and also if I figured out what I wanted to do I probably have too much executive dysfunction to make myself do it anyways.”
  • Wanting so badly to read a book/watch a movie/tv show that you force yourself to even though you’re zoning out the entire time.
  • Feeling a thing turning into a special interest and DREADING what that means
  • People making fun of your special interests and that Silent Pain when you have to pretend to laugh it off because it’s “just a joke” but you really can’t hear criticisms about the things you’re deeply invested in.
  • School/work doesn’t matter as much as special interest does???????????
  • Like why should I be stuck here when I could be researching/reading/watching things about my special interests :/ 
  • People saying “Oh I totally understand what you’re going through, I have a cousin who’s autistic” (EVERYONE has a cousin who’s autistic????)
  • People saying “you don’t LOOK autistic” or “oh I never would have guessed but now that you SAY that….”
  • “I want to do something rebellious but what if I get in trouble??”
  • I’m So Tired™
{PART 21} I Won’t Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU

Originally posted by jengkook

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Genre: Vampire!AU, Fantasy, Angst, Smut

Summary; Just when you thought your night couldn’t possibly become any more heartbreaking; the man you thought you knew turns out to be something you had only ever considered to exist within the realms of nightmares and folklore.

“Perhaps, he didn’t want to be understood, so much as he wanted to be loved. His truth would set her free, but the question remained; would she stay?”

I update this series every Tuesday evening, 9pm-10pm (UK Time)

{Part 1} // {Part 20} {Part 21} {Part 22}

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Reasons Richard II is a relatable character:

  • Just wants to be loved
  • Problematic™
  • Gay 
  • Cries a lot
  • Likes being fancy and having things
  • Self-perception goes from ‘I’m the most beautiful ever’ to ‘I am Dirt’ and back again

Reasons Henry IV is a relatable character:

  • Lingering sense of dread
  • “It seemed like a good idea at the time”
  • Wants the best for everyone
  • Competent but ultimately dismayed

Reasons Henry V is a relatable character:

  • Avoids responsibilities 
  • Uncomfortable family life
  • Just wants to go out and party with his friends is that too much to ask
  • Pretends he absolutely 100% knows what he’s doing
  • Doesn’t

Reasons Henry VI is a relatable character:

  • Bad at everything
  • Sad
  • Wants everyone to be happy (isn’t happy)
  • Does nothing wrong
  • Does nothing right either
  • Didn’t ask for any of this

Reasons Richard III is a relatable character:

  • Monologues about how ugly he is and then gets mad when he’s insulted
  • Doesn’t know how to act normal
  • Jokes about how awful he is 
  • Is actually awful
  • Weird sense of humor
  • Has lots of Ambition

In regards of my artwork Black & Gold:

#wait HOLY SHIT#IS THIS JUST COINCIDENCE OR IN REFERENCE TO THE SONG BY SAM SPARRO#because this song gets a whole new level in connection with Solas#like… religion in general in that universe#I think my mind is being blown right now

@medeadea No, it’s actually not hahah

But! You did piqued my interest in the said song so I searched for it on Youtube and instantly fell in love! I love the whole black tie costume used for the music video so I drew Solas in it.

I hope it’s an appropriate appreciation to Black & Gold by Sam Sparro!

so i was thinking how much people seemed to overlook Lance listening to music in season 1 may or may not be because i always do the same and then this popped out. This takes place sometime during season two. (WC: 1208)


Keith lays down in bed, curling himself against Lance’s side, who is putting on Pidge’s headphones. He breathes in, relishing in the scent of pure Lance

They’re in “Lance’s” room, but in all honesty, it’s both of theirs. Their clothes are both here, they both sleep here, they both brush their teeth and shower here. It’s theirs, and that little word change has never made his heart flutter so often.

But there’s only one thing that Keith is really thinking about. The one thing he always thinks about before they go to bed.

“Hey, Lance?” says Keith, wrapping an arm around Lance’s bare waist.

Lance pauses mid-motion. “Yeah?”

“Why do you always wear those in bed?” asks Keith. He lifts his head, resting his chin on Lance’s chest to face him.

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The Look in Your Eyes

Aries: Got me wanting to come nearer, but standing at a distance in fear

Taurus: Has my eyes melting, my heart beating faster, and only wanting to be in your arms

Gemini: Makes me wanna spill all my secrets, tell you everything and everything about the world and me

Cancer: Screaming in excitement, ready to go anywhere with you, adventuring with the love of my life

Leo: Makes me wanna stomp on my mortal enemy’s face and yell in victory 

Virgo: Makes me stronger. I always wanna be better, smarter, the best version of myself I can possibly be

Libra: Keeps me at peace, living in harmony, and smiling in serenity

Scorpio: Makes my heart hurt in longing. The need for you is insanity

Sagittarius: Draws me in, ready to hold your hand and take on the world with you

Capricorn: Fills me with dread and jealously. I want to feel calm just like your soul

Aquarius: Screams hopes, dreams, and beauty. Your eyes inspire me to reach further than I ever have before

Pisces: Make my heart feel warm and beautiful. You don’t need to say anything to know you think I’m unique and gorgeous

Long Angsty Sterek Fics

All at least 20k words long (by request)

Divided We Stand by KouriArashi

Derek is being pressured by his family to pick a mate, and somehow stumbles into a choice that they didn’t expect and aren’t sure they approve of….

By Any Other Name by entanglednow

He doesn’t know his name, he doesn’t know who he is, and neither does the werewolf he’s on the run with. But he’s pretty sure they hunt monsters, because they seem to be really good at it.

Permanent Fixture by linksofmemories

Derek is Scott’s older brother. Stiles is Scott’s best friend. Derek is falling in love with Stiles. This is a bit of a problem.

Mating Habits of the Domesticated North American Werewolf by lielabell

Derek doesn’t do pining. He doesn’t. So when it becomes clear that Stiles is much more interested in having Derek as a new best friend than a boyfriend, he puts on his big boy pants and makes it fucking work. He becomes the best goddamn friend a spastic teenager could ever hope to have.

Don’t Speak by fatale

The Alpha pack has systematically attacked Stiles and his friends for months, testing their strengths and weaknesses. When one of the Alphas goes after Stiles, he awakens in the hospital and realizes that something’s wrong. Very wrong. All sounds seem to hurt him, he can’t understand what anyone is saying, and when he tries to speak, it’s gibberish. How is he supposed to deal with the fact that he’s lost the ability to communicate with his dad and his friends?

Without his ability to talk, his sarcasm, and his wit, what does Stiles even have left? Enter Derek, the only one who seems to make it better.

Enemy Lines by qhuinn (tekla)

This is the story of werewolf Derek Hale and human Stiles Stilinski: two people who grew up in the same town but completely different worlds, their realities split by the war between men and wolves.

Years later when Derek returns to Beacon Hills, he does it as Alpha of a military pack on a mission to capture those responsible for the region’s resistance. With his main objective, Sheriff Stilinski, out of sight, he settles for the next best thing: his son, Stiles.

Neither of them suspects they’ll need to trust each other if they want to make it out this alive.

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BTS Reaction to You Finding Out They’re With You Cause of a Bet

Requested by @yona–hime; “Bts reacting to you finding out that the reason they approached you was because of a bet even though you’re an item now and they’ve actually fallen for you. I’m in the mood for a bit of angst.”

Note: bless your soul, angst is everything. *credit to gif owners*


Jin ➳ "Is that what I really mean to you?” You questioned and he instantly felt his throat swell, his heart threatening to burst as he looked to you in dread. You had found out that he was with you because of a bet, but little did you know that he was actually in love with you.

“No, I-”

“Save it, Seokjin.” You whispered, not sparing the man a second glance and although he wanted more than anything to engulf you into his arms; he was scared that he would break you further.

Originally posted by aiintnolee


Suga ➳ He let you scream at him, he watched those tears cascade down your cheeks as anger was slowly overfilling you to the core. He did nothing but stare, wanting to say anything or do something but he knew deep inside, that he deserved whatever you threw at him. “Was I only a game to you?” You choked, and something within him shattered.

He slightly dipped his head, giving you his full attention and you froze from seeing his eyes whirl in internal fumes. “Please, don’t ever say that again,” his voice was monotone but you felt the anger interlacing his every word, “believe me when I say this, I truly do love you.”

Originally posted by bangtannoonas


J-Hope ➳ When he saw you from a distance, he ran to you through the empty building with a large smile plastered onto his face, only for you to raise your hand to stop him silently. He was confused, and once you brought up the bet and how he could have lead you on for so long, his smile was no longer apparent as he stared to you apologetically. “I love you,” his voice was weak, running a shaky hand through his hair as he couldn’t bear to look you in the eyes. “And if you leave, it’ll break me..because,” his eyelids fluttered shut, taking a deep breath before looking into your eyes, “you’ll be taking a part of me with you.”

Originally posted by gotjhope


RapMonster ➳ "Is it true you’re only with me because of a bet?” 

His whole body stiffened, eyes filled with horror as he slowly watched your features go from calm to sudden disbelief. He was quick, not even giving you a chance to yell at him as he began to speak in the speed of light — explaining everything to you. “I know you know that I love you,” he proclaimed, grabbing your hand as he began to rub soft circles on the back of it with his thumb. “And all I know is that if I didn’t put that bet into action,” he gulped, “then I wouldn’t have ever been able to call you mine..”

Originally posted by dazzlingho


Jimin ➳ He felt utterly disgusted with himself, knowing it sounded horrible that you were a target splurged in the middle of a bet. Yet, as you screamed to him to tell you why he did it, his eyes were clouding with tears. He didn’t know what to do, never wanting to hurt you but at the same time, he never wanted to lose you either. “I-I..” Sighing, he clasped your hands in his as he brought them up to his lips, pecking them softly. “I’m so sorry, but please, give me a chance.” He pleaded, a tear slowly trickling down his cheek. “I’ll do anything to show you that what I feel for you is..real.”

Originally posted by cowjimin


V ➳ He didn’t know what was worse, you crying at finding out that he was only with you because of a bet or you throwing what he said to you during your intimate times to his face as if it were all lies. He meant no harm, and he knew it was his fault that this bet would soon interfere with his relationship with you. You were slamming your fists against his chest, pushing him back as his bangs covered his eyes like a sheer curtain before he grabbed you wrists — staring deeply into your eyes and freezing you in place. “I could have ignored the bet, but I didn’t, why?” He looked to the side, heartbeat racing as his eyes softened, “easy, because...*gif*”

Originally posted by myloveseokjin


Jungkook ➳ He wished he could have said anything to keep you from walking away in tears, shattered pieces of your heart trailing behind you but he was in utter shock. He loved you so much, he wanted to keep you by his side forever and he only felt pathetic and weak at having crystallized to you finding out his dark and horrible secret. He was indeed a shell of what he used to be, his soul escaping after you to protect you from anything especially himself; and when the boys were worried about his state of mind and asked if he was okay, he could only shake his head no as the tears he tried so hard to keep at bay began to come crashing down. “I need her back..”

Originally posted by yourpinkpill


Masterlist

red tracklist + aesthetics

state of grace: minimalist studio loft in an abstract city, lattes and crosswalks, mosaic broken parts in chester drawers, the stars are falling, impending doom

red: lust, ultimate desperation on a hopeful journey, burgundy sports car, fall in love with strangers, lost somewhere deep in a golden forest

treacherous: intimacy, anatomical love, whisper sweet songs of a similar tomorrow, endlessly driving through midnight winds, compatibility

i knew you were trouble: dread for the human condition, flashbacks and echoes, the dirt beneath your feet, i changed for you, hangovers in the mornings, anguish

all too well: nostalgia, midnight snacks, long drives on amber lined streets, stupefied love, stone bridges in autumn

22: decades night, bubblegum pop and a carton of ice cream, slumber parties in polka dot onesies, youthful bliss

i almost do: succulents on city side window sills, this is everything i didn’t say, i’ll return your call as soon as possible, in my dreams, brink of love

we are never ever getting back together: getting the point across, idc, dancing with your pet, feeling cheeky

stay stay stay: puppy love, fun to the third power, loving your best friend, daydreaming in class

the last time: distant lighthouses, the other side of the door, touch and go, black turtlenecks, final chance

holy ground: broke down story of us, when it was magic, kissing on ferris wheels, balloons and clouds, white noise loving

sad beautiful tragic: train swept leaves, unmade beds, waiting games, lullabies and crimson skies, the last rose petal, an air of melancholy

the lucky one: paparazzi, look what you made me do, the roaring twenties, celebrity tabloids, white bathrobes and cucumber facials

everything has changed: the first day of classes, butterflies and falling leaves, suitcase filled cars, backpacks and a yellow school bus, my missing puzzle piece

starlight: pearl chokers, whales anchors and boat shoes, prom night, white gloves and cigarettes, starry nights on the sand

begin again: headphones in central park, fresh starts, juke box cafés, laughing at the sunday paper, red pumps

anonymous asked:

What is the heaven prom scene??

OH BOY I’M GLAD YOU ASKED

so the original endings for heathers were weird as FUCK

one of the concepts for an ending was everything is the same except martha randomly stabs veronica, calls her heather and then leaves 

it got rejected

dan’s big ending for heathers is the prom in heaven ending

veronica stops jd and starts to leave, but then she thinks about what he told her and realizes he’s right. life is hell, nobody gets along, everything is pointless, etc. so she straps the bomb to herself and stands at the front of the school, blowing herself up which sets off all the other thermals which are still active. the school goes kaboom

it’s a dreadful and tragic ending, but reading the script, i thought it was strange that it was cut! it was incredibly interesting, the dialogue and the staging… but then i realized the movie didn’t end there. there was more. dan wrote MORE. and i made the mistake of reading on

the script depicted a morose prom with a banner that read something like ‘oh the humanity!’. i don’t have the script ON me, but if people are interested, i could type it up here

courtney and one of the boys are feeding punch to their baby. heather duke is dancing like a maniac with a random nerd. ram shows up and shyly hands flowers to heather mac and she kisses his cheek. kurt shows up to prom with the cow that he earlier tipped over. everything is weird.

but it gets WORSE. jd shows up! from what i remember, he slides on his knees, playing an electric guitar. he bops with kurt, does something else with a few other characters, and then he gets to heather chandler. this part i remember very clearly. according to the script, they have a “confrontational dance” and then “swing happily into each others’ arms”. 

there’s a huge group dance that reminds me of a cult. the camera pans up to show martha dunnstock, singing opera BEAUTIFULLY. it pans further up to veronica sawyer, who stands above it all. she smiles and the movie ends. 

IT’S FUCKING WEIRD BUT THIS IS WHAT CANONICALLY WOULD HAVE HAPPENED IF THE SCHOOL BLEW UP AT ALL. NO MATTER WHO BLEW IT UP, EVERYONE DIES AND KURT GOES TO PROM WITH A COW THE END