war time

For the better

Draco still can’t believe his luck. He doesn’t know what he did to deserve this. In fact, considering everything he’s done in the past, he doesn’t deserve any of this. Yet, here he is, three years after the war, happy and content. At least theoretically.

Like most nights, Draco clutches his blanket and stares at the ceiling. Sleeping has been difficult. Not because of the nightmares. They’re not completely gone, but it’s much better now. No, it’s because his chest won’t stop hurting.

He slowly turns his head to gaze at the sleeping man beside him. Draco flinches as his heart gives another painful squeeze. He stretches out his hand and carefully buries it in the mop of black curls, relishing the softness. Harry makes a pleased sound in his sleep and his lips curl up ever so slightly. Draco presses his own lips into a tight line.

Sometimes he feels like his heart is going to burst from all the happiness he feels. It’s like his body can’t cope with it, because it doesn’t know how. He’s never felt like this before. But most importantly, he doesn’t deserve this beautiful and kind man, sleeping next to him.

He still doesn’t understand what made Harry want to go out with him. He even initiated it. And now they’re living together. Draco still has a hard time showing his feelings. How can he be open about it, when he’s so conflicted and doesn’t even know what to feel most of the time? It’s hard to just accept the happiness and the way Harry seems to love him so freely.

Draco thought about ending it numerous times. Harry could do so much better than him. Not that he would ever admit that out loud, but it’s true, Draco thinks sadly. But he is far too selfish to give up on Harry.

When Draco brushes his fingers against Harry’s cheek, the other man stirs and knits his brows together.

“Can’t sleep?” he mumbles without opening his eyes.

Draco smiles at him.

“It’s okay,” he  whispers. “Sorry for waking you.”

Harry takes Draco’s hand and interlaces their fingers. He scoots over to him and buries his face in the crook of Draco’s neck. He inhales deeply and lets out a contented sigh.

Draco feels that familiar squeeze in his chest again. He wraps his arm around Harry and plants a kiss on his hair. In this moment, he vows something to himself. Not a day will go by without him trying to make this beautiful man in his arms as happy as possible. He will do everything in his power to show Harry how grateful he is that Harry chose him, for loving him, for making him want to be a better man. But how?

On the outside, he’s still as haughty and snarky as ever, but his friends keep telling him he’s changed. For the better.

He apologised to Granger and Weasley, but he knows he can do better and he’s determined to do so. Not only for Harry’s sake, but also his own.

And that’s when Draco realises, the only way he can make his boyfriend truly happy, is by being happy himself. 

It won’t be easy. He can’t just stop feeling guilty and undeserving. But he hopes he will get there someday. He can’t erase what happened in the past, but what happens in the future, that is up to him. He’s grateful he even got the chance at having a future, let alone with Harry.

So yes, Draco thinks again, he will do everything he can to make Harry happy. And that, apparently, starts with him admitting he is truly happy himself.


(Dedicated to @starshaping, who always lights up my day 💙)

INFINITY WAR JUST BROKE THE FUCKING INTERNET MOVIE STUDIOS TAKE NOTES THIS IS HOW YOU HYPE THE FUCKING PEOPLE

TDPL 10,000 HITS Celebration! ~ Scene 4.1: Reunion.

It’s a week late, but like I said, this feels right. A little over a year ago, I posted the first snippet of what became The Dark Path Lit by Sun and Stars. Now, I’ve got 3 chapters posted, working on the fourth, and I’ve already reached 10,000 hits. So as a thank you for sticking with me and/or joining me this last year, here’s the edited, updated, and expanded first snippet. Scene 4.1, aka Reunion:

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anonymous asked:

i am so upset would it KILL ben to be an ounce more supportive like would he physically explode bc he acts like it

i know, i know. it’s getting somewhat exhausting to watch him like this, anon, and yet i suppose at least he’s now treating both the ladies and caleb in equal measure: total stressed out jackassery.

  • Me in real life: "we as a society focus too much on romantic relationships. friendship, familial love, these are just as important. Not to mention the heavy pressure on young people to get married. There's nothing wrong with being aromantic and asexual. You can have a fulfilling wonderful life without romantic or sexual love!"
  • Me watching a tv show, reading a book/comic, or watching a movie: "THEY'RE GONNA BONE!!!! THEY'RE IN LOVE!!! FIGHT ME!!"
  • Disney: We can't have like... A canon gay main character. That would disrupt our viewer base too much!
  • Nickelodeon: Just... Sneak it in man, make it subtle. These kids are smart they'll figure it out. Release comics and stuff dude. Get on it.
  • Cartoon Network: JUST FUCKING GAY IT UP BRUH, MAKE EVERYTHING GAY! Steven Universe? GAY! Amazing World of Gumball? GAY! Adventure Time? HOLY FLAMING JESUS BALLS YOU BETTER BELIEVE THAT'S GAY! YOU GET A GAY, AND YOU GET A GAY. GAY ALL ROUND!