As much as I love Happy!AUs (and I LOVE Happy!AUs), sometimes I have to wonder what Anakin would really be like in them. Like, what is Anakin Skywalker's personality without SOMEONE throwing Trauma™ at him 24/7 since the day he was born??
One of the things that makes writing Happy AU’s so interesting, in addition to the fact that No Skywalkers Are Harmed, is the fact that you end up having to write about what Anakin is like without a crisis. With time to sit down and breathe and think about his trauma, you get to see him fully meltdown and then the people around him, the people who love him, get to realize how very Not Okay he is.
Just because an AU is happy doesn’t mean there isn’t problems in it. When I write Anakin in happy AUs its often with him in pretty intensive therapy and heavily medicated, which helps him become someone who can actually have downtime and not become a wreck because there’s no clear thing he’s supposed to be doing and no one to tell him what to do.
Being happy is hard when your entire background and mental makeup is fighting you every step of the way. When your trauma doesn’t come with a schedule or even clear steps on what makes a bad day a bad day.
At the core, very little changes about who Anakin Skywalker is when he’s not having a crisis constantly. He’s still compassionate, rash, friendly, loyal, sarcastic, great with his hands, bad with complex social interactions, funny, melodramatic, quick to take things too personally, a follower, passive aggressive, and madly in love with Padme Amidala. The thing that changes the most is that when something happens, he has better ways of dealing with them and a better support group. Because of his medications, he’s also better able to mentally juggle his life and not get overwhelmed by anything that’s happening to him at any given moment.
Would Anakin have bad days when all he wants is to yell and scream and throw things at the walls? When all he wants is to lay in bed and he can’t stand to look at his family because he doesn’t deserve them and he’ll get them killed or they’ll be taken from him somehow? When all he wants is to vanish? Of course he will. But he’ll actually have people around him to help him through his bad days and they’ll have the necessary tools and knowledge to do so!
Getting help and learning how to cope with your trauma, bettering yourself so you can be the best version of yourself, doesn’t change who you are at the core. It makes you a better you.
Anakin Skywalker with no medication and no therapy is Anakin Skywalker. Anakin Skywalker heavily medicated, seeing at least two therapists twice a week, with multiple doctor’s appointments in the span of a week is Anakin Skywalker.