wants to be you

Just something quick I drew to thank @shukketsu-hai @gabi-2 @katesenpai @aphani-taeya @chubsthehamster @oddrayofmoonlight @cherry-blossom-wish, and everyone else who liked /those asks/, for the moral support! (ง •̀_•́)ง Just as it has always been for my content, I won’t falter, TodoDeku will continue on! 

Your rebellion against societal beauty standards doesn’t have to be only during protests. Eating and dressing the way you want is one of the best ways to still protest society. Do these things and you will feel liberated.

- daily body positivity

I’d cut my soul into a million different pieces just to form a constellation to light your way home. I’d write love poems to the parts of yourself you can’t stand. I’d stand in the shadows of you heart and tell you I’m not afraid of your dark.
—  Andrea Gibson (via sensualquotes)

i have had approximately seven people submit this to my blog and I feel attacked

“The Family Man” X-Files Edition.  A take on a Mulder family Thanksgiving.

I am not an AU fanfic person.  I tend to skip over them, because I want to read about the Mulder and Scully I know and love within the context of the series I know and love… Yes, I am a narrow minded little square, you are correct.

But hypocrite that I am, I have actually had an AU fic idea knocking about in my brain for months - whenever I see an AU fic post on my feed it’s like BAM! REMEMBER ME?!

But the AU part drove me mad, so I decided to come up with a way that made it not AU.  So… I will just word vomit it out, and hopefully it will go away!  Here’s hoping.

So the basic premise is taken from the film The Family Man.  If you haven’t seen it, basically Nicolas Cage is a very wealthy and successful businessman who wakes up one day to find his life has completely changed.

I can’t remember if it’s an angel or a spirit or something, but an entity of some sort changes one thing about his life and wants him to see how different his life turns out as a result.   The change is that instead of leaving his college girlfriend years earlier (played funnily enough by Tea Leoni), they stay together and get married.  The result of that one change is huge.  In this new life he has two children, a family home, and he’s not a wealthy businessman, he’s a salesman.  Between the two of them, they earn just enough to keep them all afloat.

He hates it at first, and tries his hardest to get back to his old life, before realising that he actually doesn’t want that life anymore - he realises he doesn’t need all the success and power and money, all he really wanted was love - and so when he is returned to his old life, he tracks down his college girlfriend and the film ends.

So my X-Files twist on this, is that Mulder is also given the chance to see what his life would have been like with one single change… That change is if his sister hadn’t been abducted.

Mulder wakes up to find himself back at Oxford years earlier.  He is packing to return home to Massachusetts for thanksgiving.  He remembers this day vividly, and that going home again was awful - his parents divorced, both living alone.  He couldn’t get back to Oxford fast enough.

But this time is different, he gets a call from Samantha who is calling to make sure he is definitely coming home this year, as he never comes home for the holidays.  Mulder is stunned - doesn’t have a clue what is going on.

But decides he won’t find out staying in England, so he gets on a plane back home.

He knows he can’t contact Scully, because at this point in time, he and Scully do not know each other yet.  He’s on his own trying to work out how to get back to his life.

He comes to realise that in this universe, his sister was never abducted and his parents never divorced.  He sees them happy and still in love - living in their family home.  It’s heartbreaking to see what he never had.

Then he learns that his sister is in medical school, and will be bringing her best friend home with her because her father is in the navy and is stationed overseas for the holiday season and had nowhere else to go.  

Oh you fucking know what’s going on here now, don’t you.

Yep, Samantha Mulder went to med school and befriended one Dana Scully. 

Mulder can’t help himself, and decides to indulge his curiosity, so puts trying to get back to his old life on the back burner to spend time with not just his sister, but this young Dana Scully - the Scully he never knew.

He finds himself feeling drawn to her; this younger, freer, less guarded version of his partner.  They spend more and more time together and over the course of the holiday.  

Then Samantha points out to her brother that he’s in love with Scully.  He denies it, but she tells him she can tell - he’s looking at her like he’s known her all his life - she’s never seen him look that way with anyone.

As New Year rolls around, Mulder realises he is in love with Scully - not just this young Scully, but the Scully he knows - his partner.  As the countdown for the new year approaches, he moves in to kiss young!Scully, but suddenly everything goes black.

He wakes up in his apartment, back to his old life.  Was that just a dream?  He isn’t sure.  He immediately calls Scully.  

It’s such contrived nonsense, I know… but the idea of this has been tormenting me!  Also, these picture helped me along.