wanting to leave but you know you cant

neil and andrew’s first kiss is so important

it’s andrew giving in to an impulse he’s been fighting off because he knows deep down kissing neil would not be anything like kissing roland. because he cares about neil and he hates it but he knows that there’s no turning back now

it’s neil figuring out that he really does want this but still unsure if it’s worth the risk

it’s andrew saying ‘tell me no’ and neil not saying anything because he’s kind of in the middle of a crisis and he wants to kiss andrew, he doesn’t want to say ‘no’ but he can’t say ‘yes’ yet either

and it’s andrew pushing neil away even though he doesn’t tell him ‘no’ because he didn’t say ‘yes’ either and he knows that even if he had neil isn’t in any state of mind to be able to give consent

that kiss on the roof is the start of everything and andrew is terrified of falling but he’s really too late to stop it 

I just want to get out of here. I want to call you and tell you everything that’s wrong and i want you to tell me that its going to be okay. I need you to tell me its going to be okay.
  • ryan in fanfiction: my heart is broken. the only things have left are my writing and internalized homophobia. all i can think about is that twink brendon urie and how much i hate myself.
  • jon in fanfiction: does anyone want some flip flops and/or weEeED?
  • spencer in fanfiction: ryan,,, i will always be there for u,,,, my whole life platonically revolves around u,,,, where is my personality? my own character traits?? who knows. i am only here to support u ryan
  • brendon in fanfiction: i am QUEER and i am HERE who wants to come have GAY SEX. except you CANT because im TOO HOT FOR YOU me and my HUGE GAY ASS are LEAVING
The 100 - John Murphy - Jelly Legged

please do a murphy smut where he has such rough sex with y/n she cant walk the next day and the boys (bellamy, jasper and monty) tease her :p 

Warnings: smut + probably swearing. 


“I want everyone in this god damn camp to know you’re mine.” Murphy growled between kissing your neck making you moan quietly. You loved it when Murphy was rough with you. It wasn’t his regular go out and beat someone up rough though. He’d never actually hurt you, it was just down to the fact that when Murphy got rough and passionate: the sex was so so good. 

He continued leaving hickys on your neck to show everyone in camp the next day exactly who’s property you were. Swiftly, you began you unbuckle his belt and unbutton his trousers as he tore you vest top over your head ripping it ever so slightly. As he took your trousers off, his fingers moved down to your heat and he drew rough circles around your clit making you whine and moan for him.  

“Murphy…” You groaned arching your back up in desperation for him. 

“What was that?” He asked grinning slyly. “I didn’t hear you.“ 

“Murphy, fuck me please.” You begged loudly as he thrust a finger inside of you and moved it in and out slowly making you wetter and wetter by the second. 

“Better.” He growled removing his boxers as you were in no fit state to do it for him anymore. He reattached his mouth to your neck and roughly thrust himself inside you making you cry out in ecstasy. He was big and gave you little time to adjust before moving in and out of you increasing the speed. But you didn’t care. It was wonderful. 

You moved your hands to his hair and began tugging it slightly and playing with it as his hands moved over to your breasts and began running his fingers over your nipples making you moan loudly. You could feel your orgasm approaching. It was getting closer and closer. 

“FUCK. MURPHY!” You cried out not caring if anyone could hear you as you reached orgasm. It was like an explosion in your lower abdomen. You’d never felt it quite as much as you did then and, as he pulled out of you, you could see your legs trembling. 

Both of you feeling incredibly satisfied lay down on the camp bed you shared and you fell asleep with his arms around you and your face buried in the crook of his neck.


The next day, you woke up next to him and decided to get up and get dressed. He swiftly dressed and left promising to save you a seat at breakfast. You sat up and threw on you underwear and shirt which was sat on the end of the bed and put on your trousers which were on the floor next to you. You had one of the smallest tents out of everyone hence why you got camp bed privilages. So you crawled over to the entrance where there was little room to stand and poked your head out of the entrance on all fours. Looking out you could see your two best friends Monty and Jasper walking with Bellamy to where breakfast was being served. 

“Hey guys,” you called out to them. “Wait up.” They walked over to you as you ungracefully crawled out of your tent. 

“Heard you had fun last night.” Jasper laughed as you looked up at him. 

“What?” You asked. 

“Don’t deny it. The whole camp heard you yelling out Murphy’s name last night. I’d be surprised if the grounders didn’t.” He chuckled winking at you. 

You sat there blushing for a second and tried to stand up. As you got up, you found your legs collapsed underneath you and were too weak to get you back up again. 

“Shit.” You mumbled. 

“Wow so you did have a good time last night.” Monty chuckled as you sat on the ground glaring up at him. “I didn’t realise it was that good.” He added as the three boys laughed at you. 

“Guys shut up. What do I do; I can’t walk.” You said angrily. 

“Blame Murphy for that one.” Bellamy laughed. You gave him a look of death and he stopped laughing and scooped you up bridal style in his arms. “Come on then. Let’s find Murphy for you.” He said carrying you over to where Murphy was sat as you blushed furiously and giggled slightly to yourself. 


AN: hope this is okay for you guys, I’m going through a Murphy phase at the moment. I love him! Hope you all are enjoying the holidays and if not hope this brightens them up for you. Stay safe! :)

yoooo??? im so fucked up over killing stalking chapter 15. yoonbum tries to get help but no one cares.like he fought instead of being in denial and in a Stockholm syndrome kind of state. he knows sangwoo is abusive and yet he cant leave. hes trying so hard to run away but then he hears sangwoo singing he remembers all the times sangwoo showed him kindness or affection. it plagues his mind and thats so realistic. getting out of abusive relationships is so difficult when youre attached to that person and you cling onto the warm memories overlooking how horrible the abuser is thinking maybe they wont be like that but one minute they love you and the next they hate and hurt you. yoonbum starts crying wanting sangwoo to stop singing and keeps on repeating he doesnt love sangwoo anymore. hes fighting against the love he felt when he first met sangwoo and the love he felt when sangwoo would love him back. Hes so strong and i love yoonbum i love how realistic the emotional aspect of killing stalking is i relate a lot to yoonbum i understand how it feels to love someone who hurts you and just reaps the benefits of the relationship leaving behind a lot of trauma. i love yoonbum.

Mystic Messenger Watchdogs (2) AU

if my boys were in DEADSEC


  • doesnt even know how to hack
  • Seven pretty much forced him into it
  • brings the rest of the RFA food and coffee when they need it
  • also does lots of PR shit for dedec/the dedsec app
  • probably runs a dedsec twitter/facebook/insta
  • owns 10 different cell phones
  • the RFA is always on his ass about how easily anyone could find out his information at any time
  • and he’s just like LEAVE ME ALONE I WANNA BE A NORMAL BOY
  • always trying to talk everyone out of doing potentially life threatening ops
  • they never listen
  • “are you guys sure about this?”
  • “cant we just…stay inside today?”
  • i did not sleep enough last night to deal with this


  • specializes in graphic design for dedsec (like sitara!)
  • Yoosung has to run every instagram post he wants to make be Zen first
  • “Yoosung, you cant post that. it doesnt fit our aesthetic”
  • “Jumin, you cant wear that. it doesnt fit our aesthetic”
  • “no one even knows i work with dedsec”
  • “it doesnt matter. you have to completely immerse yourself”
  • he can never just build something, we has to make it look badass, too
  • if he has nothing else to do he’ll just do some graffiti in the hackerspace
  • also catch him around town spray painting “dedsec” all over whatever he wants
  • always annoyed


  • does she sleep?
  • does she eat?
  • no one really knows
  • Yoosung and Seven have this theory that she just lives in the hackerspace, like she never goes home and just sleeps there
  • her work space takes up an entire corner of the room, but its actually very neat despite what you’d think for someone who drinks 8 coffees a day
  • constantly running through data and trying to figure out what the next step is for dedsec
  • about three times a week Zen will find her asleep at her work space and he honestly doesnt even wake her
  • “hey can you get her up? i need to check on what she found out yesterday”
  • Zen shushes Seven
  • “hey, you got all day to ask her about that shit. let her sleep for a goddamn second”
  • “alright, alright, geez…”


  • uses his money to fund dedsec
  • prefers building shit over sitting at a computer
  • once built an electronic collar for elly that monitors her mood/health status
  • also, brings elly to the hackerspace all the time
  • always in trouble with his dad because he’s constantly missing those “dinners” he’s supposed to go to
  • angst
  • uses the fact that he’s a public figure to cover up any shit that dedsec starts
  • lets the use C&R computers for elicit activities
  • his father is so mad


  • actually does live in the hackerspace
  • carries a backpack everywhere
  • god a big ass work area with like 5 monitors
  • when Jaehee works out what the next step for dedsec is, Seven actually makes it happen
  • the hands and feet of dedsec essentially (marcus)
  • stealing cars is a regular thing for him
  • running from the police is also pretty common
  • Zen sees Seven every single day, and every time he greets him with
  • “eeey you didnt get arrested yesterday, nice!”
  • and they high five
  • if Seven passes you on the street, he probably wired money from your bank account
  • and you should probably hang up the phone, cause he can hear that too
  • the reason Yoosung is growing grey hairs


  • always makin bots and shit
  • probably build fighting robots
  • reigning champ. of course,
  • always asking Seven to build a robot so that he can FIGHT IT
  • “stop designing those killer bots and make something useful, will you?”
  • “fine…..asshole”
  • because of Saeran, theres always some little bot roaming around the hackerspace
  • or flying
  • without them Seven wouldnt be able to do his ops
  • once he designed a bot whos only purpose was to pick up things from above, like a crane
  • he stole Jaehee’s coffe once and almost died
  • he took Yoosungs phone right out of his hand once (and laughed for 10 minutes straight)
  • also took Jumins screwdriver while his back was turned, then sat and watched as Jumin looked around the room for it in confusion, asking everyone if they knew where it was 


anonymous asked:

Please don't ever stop making Supercat edits, they're amazing! I love them and I love you, you wonderful human :)

hi! Thank you for this message! I love making them and I truly get so happy knowing that there are others that enjoy them as much as me!… and lookit, there seems to be a good bit of hatred coming at us these days and I don’t understand it at all (why cant we all just ship whatever we want to ship … leave us alone ffs).… but yeah, it’s going on and there’s really no way I know how to combat it other than to just stay happy and confident in what I ship and adore. So, yep, I’m gonna continue to make Supercat things because I see so much wonderfulness in their relationship and what Cat and Kara mean to each other. And the hateful folk can shout absurd things at me as much as they want, but I’m still gonna open photoshop every night and make Supercat things because

Fall AUs
  • You pass my house everyday on your walk home from school/work and you happened to pass by just as I was jumping into the biggest pile of leaves you’ve ever seen
  • We live together and I cant stop fall decorating every inch of the apartment and you’re getting pretty sick of finding miniature pumpkins mixed up in all your stuff but you let it go because you love me
  • You own a bakery and before 2 days ago I didn’t know it was possible to fall in love with a pumpkin pie
  • We go pumpkin picking with our children and you keep trying to get them to choose the really pretty ones but our baby wants the small brown one with the dent in it’s side so guess which one we’re getting?
  • You answer the door when im trick or treating and at first you say im way to old to be doing this but somehow I convince you to come out and join me
  • Alright i’ll admit it, I might have went a little far with the pumpkin spice, you said it was cute at first when I was sprinkling it in your coffee or mixing it in with the cake batter but now im seasoning everything with it and you’ve had enough
  • You have a black cat and i have an orange tabby, and our cats fell in love behind our backs so I guess we’re in-laws now.
  • By the time i make it to the coffee shop every morning theres only one pumpkin muffin left and you always beat me by just one spot in line and get it first. But not today, muffin stealer.
  • Im wearing like 6 sweaters on top of each other not because im cold but just because I love sweater weather and couldnt pick just one to wear. I see you freezing your ass off on a park bench in just a t-shirt so i give up some of my beloved hoodies for you.
  • You want to read our children spooky halloween stories before bed tonight and that’s fine but you better not come crawling to me when they cant sleep  
  • I throw the best halloween parties and you’re new around here so I decide to invite you but you were not prepared for how aggressively in to halloween I am
  •  I buy couples halloween costumes for us and you said you didnt care what we go as but you start rethinking that when i come home with netflix and chill costumes
A little misunderstanding

Washington: To get the people that I need, I’m asking you to be my right-hand man.

Hamilton: Treasury or state?

Washington: *what is Hamilton whispering? I cant hear him* I know it’s a lot to ask…

Hamilton: Treasury or state?

Washington: *why does he want to talk about the treasury and the state?* To leave behind the world you know…

Hamilton: Sir, do you want me to run the treasury or state department?

Washington: *lol I was just asking you to proofread my letters and organize my calendar in colors. O shit he thinks I meant making him secretary of state or treasury. OMG I’m panicking. This kid has been through enough, and I don’t want to be an asshole. OMG* Treasury!

Hamilton: Let’s go

Washington: *What did I just do*

Confession time
But every night when I’m alone with my thoughts
And you have to leave me for whatever pesky things the day throws at you
I think about you, yes, I can never not think about you
But I envision your hands over me, ever inch of me
As we fumble with each other after waiting so long
Finally getting what we’ve wanted after so long
But never knowing where to go or what to do first
Hands fumbling, indecisive mouths wandering, tasting, exploring
That’s my idea of heaven, I cant help but wonder what yours is
And I’d be lying if my hands didnt try to pretend to be yours at times

anonymous asked:

Hi thr Dee . Ive been follow ur blog for almost half year now. Checking ur blog is like my daily routine ady. And i just want you to know that, thank you so much for writing so many good stuff . I really really really enjoy every of ur story and i know 500 words cant really express what i feel so ya i will just leave it here. Have a good day and dont get stress ~

Who is this cute!? Thank you for being here for that long, wow! You’ve been here almost since I started this blog, that’s so long!! Thank you :*

i just want someone to love me the kind of love that you cant imagine not spending time with me or the kind of love that makes you stronger. when i leave you miss me, like as if you know when im there you may be better. i know that when people lose me they cry or maybe miss me but id never leave if i was shown what i needed to be shown. im not a bad person i only want good for the ones i love but lately to love anyone has been hard. but he is my team he is part of me and i dont know what we are and i dont know what we will be or if he will even be there in my future but what i know is that some people gravitate back and need eachother for a reason now im not saying i know why but i do know that some people balance eachother out and work well together in the craziest ways and trust me no one can ever change that no matter how hard they ever try.
—  team

i hate it so much when im clearly upset and pushing someone away and they literally just leave?? like.. nobody ever wants to say “hey i know you dont really wanna be alone so im not gonna leave and im gonna make sure ur okay and happy before i ever do have to leave you by yourself” am i really not worth doing that for?

✩ old magcon bios!!,,!✩

bios bc i’m too busy to make layouts lol UH, THANKS FOR 1K FOLLOWERS, I LOVE Y’ALL SO MUCH ♥♥ I hope you have a good day/night/idk x

like or © @factordallas 


can someone just tell me why matt is so perfect

there’s nothing else that makes me more happier than jack edward johnson

why do drugs when you can do jack gilinsky?

when life gives you nash grier, run, very fast and do not look back

remembem u cant jugde me for be a taylor girl, only God can do that and damn!!!!!!111 I think i’ll go to hell

i only like food, sleep, and aaron carpenter

i just want mahogany lox and more anything

i always feel so confused when i see shawn’s photos i LOVE or i HATE him?????? i don’t know i don’t care just leave me alone

carter is an idiot, i cry for him everyday, i feel for him but i can’t stop because i love him so much

cameron’s laugh is my everything

mama i’m in love with jacob whitesides


o aaron nao comeu so minha bio, comeu minha felicidade vontade de viver, vida social etc

vampira emo gotica e nas horas vagas sofro por matthew espinosa

se vc acha que depois que eu conheci esses cara da magcon eu perdi minha vida social vc esta certíssima 

shippo jox mesmo e se reclama shippo seu pai e meu pai e faço fanart deles trepando

mahogany lox followskkjjjkj,, brincadeira :/

[capeta’s voice] isso vadia continua com essa sua vidinha lixosa de magcult que quando ela acabar vou estar te esperando na área vip do inferno

acabou pq to com preguiçakkkkljj, amo vcs.


Edd- There, that’s the best I can do.

Tord- Thank you, Edd.


Tord- Edd, we need to talk.

Edd- I know its not great, I’m not a doctor. The last time I got a black eye, this is what Tom did. I don’t know if that’s right, but he was trying.

Torm- That’s exactly who we need to talk about. I think… no, I know we need to get rid of Tom.

Edd-Get rid of Tom..?

Tord- Yes Edd, he needs to leave this house and stay out.

Edd- N-no, I cant kick Tom out.

Tord- Why not? This isn’t the first time someone has gotten hurt from him.

Edd- Tom is a good friend, I’d even call him family.

Tord- I’d call you and Matt family too. I don’t want him to hurt anyone else, especially you edd. If making Tom leave means that you’ll be safer, then I’m willing to do that.

Edd- … I-I-

Tord- Edd, he gave both me and you a black eye, and broke my nose last time. I know he hurt your wrists too. Tom needs to leave.



Ngg i think I’ve been setting my tumblr wrong this entire time? I think everyone else set their artblog as the sideblog except me lmao I use this blog as my main and my artblog and i didnt really quite grasp the implication of doing that and does that really matters? >_>

And I’m upset that I can’t be active on tumblr as much as I want to because tumblr app keeps crashing whenever I scroll down longer than 20 seconds and I don’t have internet connection for my PC except by mobile tethering and its slow af I cant load anything haha :( so I often just upload stuffs and go, I’m really sorry :((((( Please know that I love every single one of you who has been so kind in leaving notes, reblogging, supporting, and being so kind and sweet to me. I recently hit 2000 followers and I really didn’t think I would go this far omg :“”“) Thank you so much!!! You’re all so awesome!!! By the way I’m currently designing a thing for next convention I’m going to (Shonen Jump Only Event) and I might be holding a giveaway by the end of the month so pelase stay tuned to it!!! Tho I still can’t decide which social media I will use to hold the event (Oh and while I’m at it feel free to scream with me on twitter it’s @/disaciah!!!) So yea How did this post went from account maintenance to rant to gratitude post to giveaway announcement to socmed shotout in split second geez now yall can see what a mess my train of thought is

Just love...

 “ On the darkest days I think of you. Every time your gone I feel as if im missing that one piece. Your love for me and my love for you is the strongest love youll ever feel. No one can replace you and no one ever will. Even if we do argue, we know its just what every couple will do. Ive loved you  from the day we met and it will always stay like that. If you ever leave me then i know i cant go back. I know ive made many mistakes, but i did them to keep you mine. Every mistake we made was just a sign of how far we will go to keep our love sealed. I dont care if others dont like us together,  I dont care how much they try and keep us apart, Nothing will bring us apart, our love for each other want be effected. I love you and always remember this, No one can surpass you, You are the one for me, and You always will be the other piece to my heart. I gave you the key to my heart, and you gave me yours. We both know we can count on each other. Im willing to do anything to keep you protected, i know you would to. Your smile is the only thing i want to see, it hurts to see you sad, I am just so used to seeing you as the happy person ive known since the begining. You are the one who has changed my ways, i havent been the same ever since. You are the one who spread the first smile across my face. I love how you encourage people to achieve there dreams. You tell others to never give up, to get back up and try again, to never give up. I have so many secrets i want to tell, but they will only hurt our relationship. Ive kept the secrets for years and i havent told you, i never will have the courage to. Everyone has secrets, but mine cant be told. The secrets are what keep us together. You are special to me and always will be. If we do ever split, then i will never be able to find another like you. You have helped me from the start, to feel love, to be able to do things i was never able to do.You helped me achive my dreams, and i hope ive helped you achieve yours. “


(( @axvwriter ))