wanting to belong

ARIES: I heard that somebody with icicles in their chest once told you that spring was only for people that know how to be wanted but they were lying. Hardly anybody takes care of honesty the way that you do and somehow that’s still a surprise. Take the weight of your insecurities and lay them to rest underneath a gravestone. When wildflowers grow from what you buried don’t bother to pick them. They’ll always be there. Don’t you know what it’s like to come back to things? 

TAURUS: The peach pit on your dresser has been sitting there for years and it’s okay that you can’t throw it out yet. Okay that you can’t put it back into the fruit and unbite all of the soft and the sweet and the “maybe this time it’ll be different” that leaked out onto your fingers on the nights that your teeth feel too used to be desired. Wash your sheets and dry them outside. Lay underneath the clothes line and listen. Unclench your fists. Rewrite the grocery list.

GEMINI: It isn’t your fault that not everyone can swallow the parts of you that have sharp edges. You’ve been spending too much time forcing yourself down the linen aisle when you should be finding the nearest comic book store. There’s a reason superman is nicknamed “man of steel” and you deserve all of the iron-throated hearts that you can find. Invest in a metal detector. Don’t be ashamed of what you find.

CANCER: The way you bare your chest to the world is terribly brave and I don’t want you to continue feeling responsible for the people you’ve kissed that have taken advantage of that. Skin-deep damage does not make you unlovable, it gives you new perspectives. Don’t apologize for the ways you have tried to survive this. You’re better than the fires you’ve walked through and the storms you’ve caused. Suck on a peppermint until it loses its flavor. Name the taste after your last heartbreak. Now spit it out.

LEO: Your chest caves in whenever you think about the past and nobody’s ever told you that everything is temporary. Well, honey, I have some news for you. Start checking the mailbox again before the neighbors start to worry. People still want to stain paper with your name and martyring yourself over words is something you’ve become too talented at. Take a break, now and again. Burn the television set if that’s what it takes. Air out the smoke and look into a mirror, admire how powerful you seem as you step out of the haze of what’s gone.

VIRGO: Oh, baby, you’ve made mistakes and you’ve drained the bottles but you’re not the only one who’s felt like this. I know that it’s hard to let yourself feel these things but you have to try, you have to let the light in. It’s so dark in the room you’ve been using to store your regrets and your pallor has become a reflection of the ghosts you’ve been taking orders from. You were made for the sun. Let it kiss you without repercussion. Allow yourself to kiss it back.

LIBRA: So maybe you dropped too many pennies down the wishing well and now your wallet is nothing more than negative space. So maybe you forgot who gave you that good advice that one time and you’re still beating yourself up over it. Go ahead, admit to your faults. Set a place for them at the table and scold them for being late. Eat their portion and kick them out. Being familiar with every side to your geometric personality is not something to be ashamed of. Remember the angles, and keep moving. People like you are not meant to stand still.

SCORPIO: I think that your ears were made for listening to things that break. The shattering of a vase. The cracking of a heart. Does it ever get exhausting to be so awfully aware of how things sound when they forget to function? Nobody expects you to take every smashed hope and piece it together on your own. You are not a bottle of glue no matter how much you feel disaster sticks to you. I promise. You don’t have to carry that toolbox around, anymore. It looks heavy. Set it down.

SAGITTARIUS: You have your father’s mouth and consequently have dreams where you’re ripping it from your face. Somebody told you once that you were inadequate and now there’s a bruise on your ego and you can’t seem to stop touching it. Why are you so obsessed with how long it takes to heal? Why are you so afraid of letting people see you cry? Take off your armor and let your skin breathe. There’s still time to be okay with the idea of loss. You’re not too late. You’re not too late.

CAPRICORN: Stop using the word pathetic whenever anybody asks you to describe yourself. The people that hold you accountable for the abuse you’ve endured are the ones that turn away whenever they see it. You don’t need them, you never did. Can you feel that prickling sensation running up your arms? It’s tomorrow knocking and it wants to show you something beautiful. Let it. You’ve handled tragedy, surely you can handle tenderness.

AQUARIUS: You’ve been fucked over so many times it’s hard not to see yourself as a hotel room on the outskirts of town. Dark red bedsheets and rusty doorknobs and a lampshade that hasn’t been touched in a decade or two, this is where you lie and try to erase the memories from your naked body. You don’t want to belong to anybody almost as much as you don’t want people to believe they’ve changed you. They haven’t, you know that right? No matter how many people hike up mount everest it’s still a mountain. It’s still bigger than what’s stepping on it. It still keeps its name.

PISCES: You’ve become so good at sacrificing yourself for the possibility of something worthwhile that your body looks more like an altar than an assortment of bones. If this is your church I hope that your god looks like your nine year old face whenever somebody asked what you wanted to be when you grew up. I hope your prayer sounds like an exhale and that your choir sings in harmony and that every donation tastes like honey. Don’t forget to bow your head every once in a while. Remind yourself of your feet. Of how fast you’re able to run.

—  APRIL HOROSCOPES, 2/30, Caitlin Conlon

Hobi: Ahh coming, coming! ~

Hobi: Ah hey Chim Chim, what’s up?

Hobi: Eh handsome guy you say? Coming my wa–

Hobi: — ?

Both: !!!!!!!!!

Hobi: !!! HOLY SHIT – hey dude I gotta go – CALL YOU BACK LATER!!!!!!! *abruptly hangs up*

@ask-chimchim

Voltron actor AU where everything’s the same but Voltron is a live-action TV show and the paladins are actors:

  • Their names are the same in real life. They go by different names in the show. 
  • Keith and Lance still have a “rivalry.” Red and Blue didn’t originally have it, but when the cast first met and the directors saw how Keith and Lance interacted, they wanted to write it in. 
  • Shiro’s arm is still a prosthetic, although the scar is fake.
    • sometimes the makeup crew forgets the scar. literally no one notices until it’s the end of filming
    • “Shiro…” “Huh?” “…they forgot the sca–” “are yOU FUC–”
  •  Shiro, Keith, Lance, Hunk, and Allura all do their own stunts. 
    • Pidge is only 17 and their mom won’t sign the waiver for them to do their own stunts. 
  • No one really knows how their little production company was able to afford hiring Allura, who’s a big time actress and super talented.
    • they eventually find out that she’s a giant mecha/space nerd and came to /them/ asking for a role and willing to do it for free
  • No one really knows if Coran has a script or if he was told to just say whatever
  • Lance calls Keith “Red” so often that Keith thinks Lance has forgotten his name
    • he hasn’t.
  • The paladins, Allura, Coran, and basically all the actors boycott after season 2, demanding retribution for the way they wrote Hunk and Lance’s characters. 
  • Hunk has an engineering degree in real life.  
  • Matt isn’t Pidge’s real life brother, but when they first meet it goes something like: “baby sister!” “big brother!” and they end up inseparable.
    • Pidge’s mother is known for calling Pidge at work just to talk to her son, Matt 
  • Hunk and Shay’s on-screen chemistry was actually a real thing. Shay was cast at the same time that she was working in the costume/design department, so they’d known each other since the show started. 
    • they’re dating now
  • Every time Lance’s character hits on Allura’s on-screen Lance spends five minutes defending Blue’s character after filming 
    • “he just craves attention, okay? he just wants love!! he’s smart and beautiful and wants to belonG”
    • despite this, Lance is basically his character minus that shoddy writing in season 2
  • Keith and Lance have their own shipping fanbase. It starts out with just their characters, but then Some Mysterious Person starts taking candids between sets and posting them online and klance is born
    • it’s Pidge. Pidge runs five fan accounts. 
    • the pictures are super incriminating, but no one shows them to Lance or Keith
    • there’s a betting pool on when they’ll get together
  • Keith gets super into his roles and ends up genuinely upset after filming the scenes where the princess reacts badly to Red being part Galra. 
    • Allura gives him a 15 minute hug after
  • Bonding Moment Discourse is actually a thing. There was a prop malfunction on set while they were filming and the directors told them to stay put, so Lance ended up being Cradled for a solid half hour.
    • later, they find out that they could’ve moved and just chilled for that time, instead of actually holding each other.
    • “I get it Keith, I get it. You just wanted to hold me. Who doesn’t amiright??”   

Now that I’m on an ableism-education spree, I might want to add this to the list.

To all able-bodied cosplayers:

Let me make clear, first and foremost, that cosplaying as disabled characters as an able-bodied person is okay. Just like cosplaying white characters when you’re POC or vice versa, is completely fine.

What is not okay, though, is using devices to aid these disabilities for your costume. If your desired character is in a wheelchair, please don’t use a wheelchair if you’re able-bodied. Because you’ll take up unnecessary space and get special treatment that you do not need from other people. I don’t care if the wheelchair is essential to the character. If you are able-bodied, don’t use one. Just walk.

If your desired character uses a cane, make sure you only use it for pictures and walk normally in public any other time.

Let me try to see if this metaphor works: If you’re white, it’s not okay to change your skintone to match a POC character (blackface ain’t cool yo), so please do not pretend to be disabled just to accurately cosplay a character, either.

Our disabilities are not a costume, they are cold, harsh realities. And our devices to help aid these disabilities are not props for your entertainment.

Aries Venus: They want to feel providing, strong, sexy, and confident with their partner.

Taurus Venus: They want to feel safe, comfortable, and stable with a partner.

Gemini Venus: They want to feel elated, connected, and open with a partner.

Cancer Venus: They want to feel needed, reassured, and loved with a partner.

Leo Venus: They want to feel special, admired, and happy with a partner.

Virgo Venus: They want to feel appreciated, needed, and stable with a partner.

Libra Venus: They want to feel loved, adored, complimentary, and content with a partner.

Scorpio Venus: They want to feel wanted, passionate, sexy, and deeply intertwined with a partner.

Sagittarius Venus: They want to feel excited, free, and inspired with a partner.

Capricorn Venus: They want to feel supported, providing, stable, and committed to with a partner.

Aquarius Venus: They want to feel accepted, belonging, supported, and mentally stimulated with a partner.

Pisces Venus: They want to feel loved, emotionally connected, and cherished with a partner.

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There was a time before the Pocket Mortys craze when C-382 and D-416 actually got along pretty well. 

the private you
  • applies to both Moon and IC. the private you, but also a deep part of you. it's possible that you can relate to it more than any other signs because it's a deep part of you, it's your foundation
  • Aries IC/Aries Moon: needs independence from loved ones, so isn't always present. this need isn't obvious though. quick to react. privately wilful and sexual. wants to explore all things and all desires and not hold back. inwardly feels separated from everyone. intense feelings dominate but this is not obvious, feelings often kept hidden. secretly wants to be alone, might feel bad for admitting it so just does things alone anyway. not afraid to act by itself.
  • Taurus IC/Taurus Moon: privately very stubborn and resistant, and privately needs comfort in all things. wants to have beautiful things and comfortable things, but in private, comfortable settings (i.e. they might pretend that comfort isn't a priority for them to not seem like babies, when really it is). privately lazy and loving. rarely change their lives once it is in a settled pattern. emotionally blunt.
  • Gemini IC/Gemini Moon: wants to have an intellectually stimulating open house system. inwardly feels bipolar and changeable. cleverness is kept private, as are all their thoughts. interested and observant of everyone but doesn't make this known. usually do not express emotion and tend to intellectualise just about everything.
  • Cancer IC/Cancer Moon: whatever they own will be held very closely. wants to belong to a close-knit circle so close that they consider themselves family. tends to protect and take care of. inwardly is an emotional mess and nostalgic but this is kept private. feel a lot, but rarely express a lot. sensitive to anything from their past. easy to express simple emotions like joy, but not easy to be vulnerable and show anything deep.
  • Leo IC/Leo Moon: wants to be the entertainer but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels special and creative. ego can dominate but is kept private (i.e., you'll deny that feelings or ego dominate) the full extent of your creative gifts may also be kept private, but you inwardly feel very creative. needs to feel regal and august.
  • Virgo IC/Virgo Moon: very helpful and competent, but privately. domestically refined, secretly critical. very perfectionistic and usually doesn't express emotion. wants to be of use to people but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels inadequate or that there is always more they should be doing.
  • Libra IC/Libra Moon: strong desire for companionship and tend to not enjoy being alone. ask people constantly for advice on what to do. wants to share and be relational, but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels sensitive and indecisive. needs to feel equal, i.e. the woman who must feel equal to a man, and vice versa. secretly diplomatic and a peace-keeper. struggles with comparing themselves to others.
  • Scorpio IC/Scorpio Moon: when emotions hit they are powerful and they feel chaotic. often emotionally dramatic. wants closeness and intensity but pushes people away at the same time. inwardly an emotionally troubled person, tends to hold onto intense hatred. struggles with emotions and whether to act on them or not. despite this, their intensity is only shown to their loved ones.
  • Sagittarius IC/Sagittarius Moon: feels like they are able or wants to travel and leave home in the blink of an eye. needs to feel free. emotionally irresponsible and will reject whatever does not give them freedom. wants to explore cultures and the world, but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels rootless and lost. constant searching.
  • Capricorn IC/Capricorn Moon: dislikes being shown affection unless they initiate it. needs to feel respected. emotionally responsible and capable. wants recognition but in private, comfortable settings. ambition is strong but can be kept private. inwardly feels serious and does not find it easy to spontaneously express joy or sadness. usually this does not bother them as they prefer to keep to themselves.
  • Aquarius IC/Aquarius Moon: often feels pressured to express emotion but just can't fake it. needs to feel free and respected for their knowledge and unique traits. wants friendship and kinship. platonic love dominates over romantic. inwardly feels rootless, empty and fiercely resistant. wants to be open and ridiculously funny and eccentric, but in private, comfortable settings.
  • Pisces IC/Pisces Moon: no emotional boundaries. wants connections that feel special and glamorous to fulfil their own need for something that is so otherworldly. often escapes reality. compassionate and sensitive, but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels like a lost soul, so clings to fleeting things that allow them to escape.
  • I've also found that planets in the 4th house, and Moon aspects to planets can apply here too. i.e., Neptune in the 4th house can relate to the Pisces IC/Moon. Jupiter in the 4th can relate to the Sagittarius IC/Moon, Mercury for Gemini and/or Virgo, etc. Moon-Pluto aspect can relate to Scorpio IC/Scorpio Moon. Moon-Uranus aspect can relate to Aquarius IC/Aquarius Moon.
  • Examine your IC, 4th house and Moon to explore who you are deep down.
  • The IC sign is the foundation of your entire chart.
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Mermaid moodboard : Mermaid + minimalism

In a war of waves, she was just another sailor lost at sea. - Eira S.

You want to know what I love most about the development of Kaneki and Touka relationship. It went from Touka not wanting anything to do with Kaneki

Basically telling him he isn’t wanted and doesn’t belong anywhere

Slowly warming up to him

Putting herself in harms way to rescue him

Making a home for him

Becoming his lover and a source of comfort for him

I just love seeing where their relationship started and where it is now. It really come a long way.