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Here’s some of the most amazing and invaluable advice you’ll most-likely ever get from one of my good colleagues and legends in comics/gaming, creator JOE MADUREIRA. It’s what i’ve been preaching to you aspiring artists since i arrived on DA, but i think his POV says it perfectly:

*WARNING: SOME MATURE LANGUAGE*

“DO YOU REALLY WANT TO BE A SUCCESSFUL ARTIST? 


Or a successful WORKING PROFESSIONAL?



Believe it or not there is a difference. I’m not usually a soapbox type guy, I don’t like instructing people, and I think I’m a terrible teacher. But hey, it’s Friday and I’m in a strange mood. So here goes:

I’ve noticed that a good number of my fans happen to be aspiring artists themselves. This is for all you guys. I get asked constantly: "Where should I go to school?” “What classes should I take?” “What should I study for anatomy?” “What pencils and paper do you use?” “Should I be working digitally now instead of traditionally?” “How do I fix my poses? Learn composition? Perspective?” “When am I going to develop my own style?” “Who were your influences?” “Teach me how to draw hands!” The list goes on…

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Here’s the deal. All of that stuff *is* important, and it may nudge you in the right direction. A lot of it you will discover for yourself. What works best for one person doesn’t work for another. That’s the beauty of art. It’s personal. It’s discovery. DON’T WORRY ABOUT ALL THAT CRAP!

Instead I’m going to answer the questions that you *SHOULD* be asking, but aren’t. These are things that have only recently occurred to me, after doing this for 20+ years. These things seem so obvious, but apparently they elude a lot of people, because I am surprised at how many ridiculously talented artists are ‘failing’ professionally. Or just unhappy. The beauty of what I’m about to tell you is that it doesn’t matter what field you’re in or what your art style is.

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In no particular order:


1) DO WHAT YOU LOVE. If you are passionate about what you’re doing, it shows. If you’re having fun, it shows. If you’re bored, IT SHOWS. Some guys are able to work on stuff they have zero interest in, and still pull off great work, but I find that when I do this my motivation takes a huge hit. And Motivation is key. Money is not a great motivator. It’s temporary like everything else. And honestly, I’ve gotten paid the most money for some of the shittiest work I have ever done. That may sound awesome, but it’s not. And here’s why…

2) You MUST stay Excited and Motivated. Have you noticed that there are days you can’t draw a god damned thing? And some days you feel like you can draw anything? It’s 4am but you don’t notice because you are in the ZONE. Your hand is racing ahead of your mind and you can do no wrong?! Maybe it’s some new paper you got. Or a new program you’ve been wanting to try out. Or you just found some amazing shit on DeviantArt, or watched some movie that just makes you want to run straight to your board. This relates to the above because while it is possible to involve yourself in projects you aren’t excited about—maybe you need the cash, or think it will look good on your resume, whatever it is—it’s not going to last. You need to stay fresh. Expose yourself to new things. New techniques. You should be getting tired of your own shit on a fairly regular basis. Otherwise other people will.

3) Check your Ego. If you think you’re the shit, you’re already doomed. You may be really, really good at what you do, but there’s someone better. Sorry. There’s always plenty to learn, even for us old dogs. So when I meet young upstarts who have this sense of entitlement, or a know-it-all attitude, I just have to laugh. Some of the biggest egos I’ve ever witnessed were from people who have accomplished the least. Meanwhile, most guys who are supremely talented AND successful, and have EARNED the RIGHT to have an ego and throw their weight around, don’t. Why is that? It’s because…

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4) RELATIONSHIPS ARE IMPORTANT. This may be one of the biggest lessons I’ve had to learn. Early on, I didn’t value my relationships with people. Creatively or otherwise. I felt like I didn’t need anyone’s help and I could figure everything out on my own. Let’s face it, many of us become artists because we are reclusive, social misfits. We’d rather stay inside and draw shit than go outside and play. We like to live inside our own minds. Why not?! It’s awesome in there! And sometimes we don’t want to let other people in. But like I said—you can’t do it alone. I can honestly say that as much as I try to stay current, as much as I try to push my work and draw kick ass shit that will excite people, I would not be where I am today if it weren’t for all the other people I’ve met and learned from along the way. Guys who pulled strings for me. Took risks on me. Believed I was the right guy for the job. You need to manage your relationships. You need to network, and meet people. Drawing comics is still a pretty good place for reclusive types—but if you want to work in big studios—Making games, Films, animation, basically any other type of job on the planet, you’d better start making some connections. Be likeable. Be professional. That doesn’t mean be an opportunistic ladder climber. Fake people lose in the end. Be yourself, but be professional. It’s no secret that when people are hiring, our first instinct is to bring in people we know. It’s human nature. I don’t like unknowns, even if their portfolio is awesome. If we have a mutual connection, if they have great things to say about you, you’re in. If you have AMAZING artwork to show, and I call your last employer and they tell me what a pain in the ass you are to work with, you’re done. Talent and skill only get you so far. I am literally amazed at how often I meet guys that are total assholes and think they are going to get anywhere.

5) Here’s the BIG ONE. The greatest obstacle you will ever have to overcome IS YOURSELF. And the Fear that you are creating in your own head. Stay positive. Stop defeating yourself. There are artists I know that are so damn good they make me pee my pants. I look up to these mofos. I study their shit and I want to draw like them. And they are almost NEVER working on their DREAM project. And—big surprise, they aren’t happy in their job. “Why NOT?! WTF is WRONG WITH YOU?!” is usually my reaction. And the answer is almost always “The market isn’t great right now” “Other stories/games/comics like mine don’t do very well” “The shit that’s hot right now is nothing like mine, It’s just going to fail.” “I’m not sure I’m good enough.” “I need the money.” “Too Risky.” “I tried it before and failed. ” It doesn’t matter what words they use, they are afraid for one reason or another. I know. I’ve been there.

But here’s the deal. YOU NEED TO TAKE RISKS. Guess what? YOU ARE MOST LIKELY GOING TO FAIL. If you want it—REALLY want it, that won’t stop you. You will learn A LOT. My good friend Tim constantly jokes about how I jump out of planes without a parachute and worry about the landing on the way down. You may think that I’m lucky, that it’s easy for me to say because I’m already successful, that I’m in a different situation than you all are. But it’s not true. Risk is risk, no matter what level you’re at. If you’re already successful, you just take even bigger risks. But they never go away. Everything in life is Risk vs. Reward. Not just in your career. LIFE. You’d better get used to it.

I didn’t know what the hell I was doing when I got into comics. I left the #1 selling book at the time ( Uncanny X-men ) to work on Battle Chasers during a time when 'Conan’ was about the only fantasy comic people knew. And no one was buying it. I wanted to work in games, so I started a game company. I had NO IDEA WTF I was doing. I just wanted it, really bad. We tanked. It failed. No big surprise. But the people I worked with got hired elsewhere and rehired me. I started ANOTHER game Company. We had 4 people and a dream, and some publishers wouldn’t even meet with us, because their 'next gen console’ teams had 90+ people on them. I literally got hung up on. “Stick to handheld games, it’s smaller, maybe you can handle that…” one MAJOR publisher told us. I don’t blame them. But we didn’t let it stop us. Thank god we didn’t listen to them. Vigil was born. Darksiders happened, AND we got to make a sequel. It stands shoulder to shoulder with the best games in the industry, and the most elite and experienced game dev studios in the world. How is that possible?!!! Hardly any of us had even worked on a console game before. I’ll be honest, I was thinking we would fail the whole time. I just didn’t care. If I had to play the odds on this one, I’d bet against us.

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Why am I telling you all this shit? This is not me patting myself on the back. It’s just stuff that has somehow only dawned on me recently when it’s been staring me in the face for so long. I feel like I need to wake you guys up!!! I’ve been limiting myself. I’ve gotten afraid. I’ve taken less risks. I saw my career going places I didn’t want to go. I wasn’t happy and I wasn’t excited. And I’ve realized, that all that stuff I just talked about is the reason I am where I am today. Not because I have a manga style, or I draw cool hands, or there’s energy in my drawings, or all the other things people rattle off to me. There are other guys that do all that same shit, and do it better. And amazingly, those same guys constantly tell me “Man, I wish I could do what you are doing.” “SO DO IT!!!!!” PLEASE listen to me—because I want you guys to make it. I want to look to one of you people for inspiration some day when it’s 2am and I need to keep drawing. Stop worrying about all the other stuff—the pencils, the paper, the anatomy, all that shit. It will only get you so far. You’ve already got most of what you need. I hope this helps some people. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for all the support over the years. You are all one of the greatest motivating forces in my life and my career. Sappy but true. Ok, let’s go draw some shit!!!“

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School can be exhausting so these are my ways of dealing with stress and I’m, obviously, not an expert, but it helped me.

Take a bath

Get a bath bomb, shave your legs, and just relax in the warm water

Get an adult coloring book

I can’t tell you how much getting a coloring book helped me with stress. When I have free time, or a free class, or I just feel like coloring, I get my coloring book and just start.

Draw / doodle

Have a sketchbook where you can draw little things, or even big things. Draw random stuff that comes to your mind to free your thoughts. If you are bad at drawing, don’t worry cause it’s your private thing and you don’t have to show this to anyone.

Paint 

Same as drawing but this time instead of just a pencil, use watercolors or ink or markers, whatever you want and have. Create a masterpiece and if you like it pin it on your wall to remind you that you can do great things!

Do some origami

You have a ton of YouTube videos of how to do some basic origami. Fold your paper and enjoy your finished work.

Stretch 

After a study session, stretch from head to toe. You will feel better because blood will easily come to your brain and you won’t have any back pain for sitting too long.

Exercise

Every day, at morning or at night (or both if you are available) do some exercises for 20-30 minutes. If you are not that into exercising, you could dance with some up-beat music like nobody is watching.

Go for a quick run or ride a bike for 5 minutes

It will boost your energy and you will go outside and see the actual sun, or even clouds. Fresh air is really important for your health, so are little things that boost your energy. 

Listen to music

Maybe you are listening to music while studying, but listening to music while doing nothing else is also great. On the ride on the bus/train or whatever you’re taking, get some headphones and jam to your favourite music.

Take a nap

You come from school exhausted and you know you need to study, but it’s really hard for you to focus, just take a nap. Or if you are studying for 3-4 hours straight for that test tomorrow or writing a extra long essay - take a nap. 15-20 minutes is enough.

Get a diary or journal and write it down

Recently I started again writing into a diary (I haven’t done that since I was 12-13) and I can’t tell you how much better I feel after writing my thoughts down on paper. For me, writing with a pen/pencil instead of typing had me more focused on actually freeing my thoughts, but if you want to type you can. Also, it is funny to read some of your daily entries after a couple of years.

Meditate

Lay on your back, or sit on a comfortable chair, close your eyes and just breathe. Try not to think of your work, or problems and just breathe. If you are religious, you can also pray.

Clean your room

Clear room = clear mind. Having a nice and tidy room helps me more to focus and not to think of the mess surrounding me. Also, cleaning can be calming and stress relieving, if you focus on cleaning instead of your thoughts.

Drink a glass of water

You will be more hydrated and feel much better. So just drink your water.

Eat a fruit

It’s healthy and sweet, what else is there to say about?

I hope some of those help you. Keep in mind that you, obviously, don’t have to everything everyday. Doing a few of these will really be beneficial for your mental health and your body.

Sending much love to you all, V. ❤

anonymous asked:

I've been drawing for nine years now and have gotten considerably better since I started, but I find myself still struggling to get things right like facial features, bodies, and, my biggest problem, hands. This coming Spring I'm going to college for animation and illustration, but I just struggle so much that it makes me wonder how I could ever be successful in that area. I really want to do this, but I lack in many resources (I have a box of old crayolas and all of digital art is done on (1)

Don‘t worry, everyone struggles at first, mostly if you’re self-taught. I’m sure at college they’ll teach you the basics of drawing again before starting with more specific stuff (at least that’s how it worked at the school of comics)
But if you want to know some basic exercises I was given for human bodies and facial features, here there are:

the first thing to do is simplify figures, instead of starting drawing the body with anatomy right away, think of it as geometrical shapes put together


For the head there are these structures that might help you

For the hands, believe me, even the most expert artist on the earth has difficulties in drawing them.
But as the other parts, it helps to make a geometrical structure before

I do this

I’m not really that good at drawing hands but that’s the principle of it.

As exercise for human bodies and gestures, photos of athletes are really useful,

study their gesture drawing mannequins over photos

You can do the same exercise for faces and hands.


KEEP IN MIND THAT THESE ARE EXCERCISE TO DRAW REALISTIC BODIES.
STYLE COMES AFTER.
You can take all these “shortcuts” and modify the proportions to have the type of figure you want.


As for the equipment, I think if you want to go for animation you need at least a computer and a drawing tablet… For traditional illustrations you can use anything really

mxvampirepunk  asked:

No matter what I'm feeling your dragons always lift me up (I LOVE DRAGONS, gonna be one in the after life) I'm currently really ill with essays due in, could you draw one please? It would really motivate me? (Don't worry if not, you're a human being, you may have other things on! ^^)

You won’t get any help from this one but good luck and get better soon!

anonymous asked:

Rfa+v and Saeran reactions to mc breaking her phone or something and she doesn't answer for over a day. Thanks also I really like your blog!

Thank you so much!! 

Yoosung

- At first, when you don’t respond to his ‘Good morning!’ text, he doesn’t try to think much of it. Sometimes you slept in later than him!

- But you ignored his ‘Good afternoon!’ texts…And even sent a call of his to voicemail.

- Panicking, he started messaging Zen a bit.

- Did he forget something? Was he acting really bad? Was he being too clingy??

- After Zen calmed him down just a tad, he told Yoosung that you phone probably died.

- He tries to think that’s the answer, that he didn’t fuck up the only relationship he’s ever been in, but as it gets darker and darker out, with nothing from you, he Panics.

- He’s pacing in his house, trying to get Seven to answer his phone while holding his tears back, when you open the door.

- Before you can even explain your phone’s battery had died, he’s running to you full of apologies and hugging you tight

- When you finally calm him down and finally get through to him he didn’t do anything, he feels embarrassed by how panicked he had gotten, but your sweet kisses help him wash away those feelings

Jaehee

- Jahee probably wouldn’t panic as badly. At least it wouldn’t show.

- She thought you overslept at first, missing any alarms, and that’s why you hadn’t shown for work yet

 - I mean the two of you weren’t living together, so she hadn’t seen you since the cafe closed last night

- She can handle the cafe on her own, with the help of a few employees that were already there, but she is an anxious mess all day. 

- Accidentally bumping into things, nearly dropping cups, almost spilling coffee on herself.

- As the day draws to a close, she’s nearly sweating. She wants to call the police, but she knows Seven would be able to help better.

- She’s just about to hit his contact when she hears her name being called, and when she turns around your arms are instantly around her.

- After explaining you managed to sleep most of the day away, phone dead, her worry turns into small and gentle scolding since it’s apparent you’re overworking yourself.

- She’s so relieved that you’re safe, though you are going to get a small lecture about how to properly take care of yourself.

Jumin

- He usually has set times to call you through the day. If you don’t answer, you’re quick to shoot him a message when you can to explain why.

- So at first, he doesn’t think much of it. He saw you in bed this morning, and after the rough night the two of you had, you probably were sleeping in a bit.

- But once it hits past noon, and the chef reports that no one answered when he tried to bring food, Jumin is slowly hitting ‘Panic Mode’

- What seals the deal is when he calls Driver Kim to make sure you didn’t go somewhere, and he reports that he’s just driven for Jumin that day

- So after one meeting that was very difficult to focus in, he alerts Jaehee he’s taking a longer break to check up on you

- When he gets to the house and you’re gone, it takes a lot of talking from the RFA members to not call the police.

- Because, lets face it, if he wanted to, he would have the whole area looking for you in seconds.

- So he waits a bit, setting a time for himself to give in and call, while Seven is checking any CCTVs of the place

- But all of that gets interrupted when you come through the doors, a shy smile on your face

- Guess who managed to forget her phone at home when an old friend wanted to hang out?

- Jumin frowns for a bit, but he can’t stay upset or even become close to mad- He just hugs you tight and asks if you can try to remember to bring it with you next time, or at least get Driver Kim to take you somewhere.

Zen

- It takes him a while to notice, due to how busy he always is at work. 

- On breaks he’s always sending you a message, full of hearts and possibly a selfie or two

- And you send the same texts back to him, and he’s set for the day!

- But when it hits his last break and there’s still no answer from you, and everyone reports that you haven’t been on the chatroom all day, he Panics.

- He tells his director he has an emergency, and that he has to leave asap

- Thankfully, they were close to being done, so the director let him go without any fuss

- As soon as he’s out, he hightails it to your place, running a few stoplights on his motorcycle.

- Once there, and once he remembers where the spare is, he busts in and calls your name

- No answer and he panics even more, until he sees you sleeping in the bedroom, a basket of used tissues near you

- Oh… He forgot that you mentioned you felt sick yesterday.

- When you sleepily wake up, he calms down and explains why he’s there, and after you weakly laugh, starts shedding his jacket.

- If you’re sick, then you definately need some loving care, right?

Seven

- It would be hard for him to panic about the situation.

- When you leave in the morning to run a few errands, he doesn’t think much of it, just assumes you’ll be back later.

- But through the day you’re not even responding to his texts! Not even the funny ones with the best memes.

- Or even his very worried ones

- Once it gets pretty late in the day, he’s looking at CCTVS all over the place trying to locate where you could be

- He’s not really hacking much anymore, but he still has some people after him occasionally.

- He’s so caught up looking for you, that he doesn’t even notice when you eventually come in. You even said hello and he responded!

- Quietly you flick his head, and that pulls him out of it pretty quickly. At first he asks why you hit him, and then remembering you were gone all day, he practically nearly breaks your back with how strong his hug is.

- Eventually you explain you accidentally left your phone home, and that’s why you weren’t responding to his jokes.

- He fusses about losing his touch since he couldn’t locate you on the CCTV, and when you glance you just laugh

- He was looking for yesterday’s date, and that’s when he realized that it was monday, not sunday. 

- You weren’t going to let him live that one down.

Saeran

- At first when you don’t answer, he just shrugs it off. Sometimes he didn’t have a chance to respond to your texts, it was normal.

- But usually you…did..Around lunchtime. You always asked if he had ate. And if not, then you would suggest going to eat together

- And today he was really hoping to do that…

- But he let it slide, trying not to be too clingy. 

- Then again, he couldn’t let it last all day. When your phone sent him straight to voicemail, he panicked. 

- He checked the CCTV and found out you hadn’t even left the house yet, so he was quick to ‘borrow’ his brother’s car and drive out there himself.

- He spent a bit outside of your door, trying to make sure this was an ‘okay’ thing to do, but eventually he let himself in

-… Only to find you asleep on the couch, phone dead, and a game controller in your hands

- He scoffed a bit, noticing a new game case on the coffee table, and it wasn’t hard to figure out you had another ‘all nighter’ with a game.

- Though, since it was pretty late in the afternoon, he woke you up, lightly scolding you and telling you to get up so the two of you could eat.

V

- He would try his best to be patient about the whole situation

- He noticed this morning you were gone out of the house, but your phone was left under the pillow

- He needed to be trusting, to not worry. He had this happen several times before you, he could learn to deal with it again

- But he was so anxious the whole day.

- He wanted to send you sweet messages, to ask you how you were doing, if you were having fun

- But your phone at home meant it would be pointless

- But…He could leave sweet messages anyway, right? That wouldn’t be too bad. 

- So every time he worried, every time he noticed how late it was getting, that’s what he did. It didn’t wash away his anxiety completely, but it did help.

-Late at night, when you finally walked in, realizing you left your phone at his place instead of his, you were greeted by a tight hug.

- He was so worried about you, even if he wished he could avoid showing it

- But you just apologized and laughed a bit when he seemed a bit embarrassed.

- After a few more hugs and kisses, you left with your phone in tow, not noticing the cute messages until you got home

- It really did made you smile, and you were quick to send a few of your own.

Awhile back I asked what animals you guys would like to see me draw, and don’t worry, I didn’t forget about that, I’ll get ‘em all eventually!

@lotsandlotsofbirds wanted to see more fish… just kidding, they wanted to see birds of course, which happen to be one of my favorite things too!  The bird I picked today is a wonderful chubby dumb flightless bird called a Kakapo and they are delightful!  They look like they don’t really ever know what’s going on but they’d lie and tell you they did to make you feel better

Interview: Mark

Today we’re joined by Mark. Mark is a phenomenal visual artist who specializes in digital art. They’re mostly into drawing, although they are working on some video game design and do craft work on occasion. They also draw the most gorgeous pride dragons. They’re work is remarkably beautiful, brimming with color and detail. It’s very clear Mark’s an incredibly talented and dedicated artist, as you’ll soon read. My thanks to them for taking the time to participate in this interview.

WORK

Please, tell us about your art.

Umm, I draw things? XD Mostly I like to focus on digital drawing, but I also do some craft work and other things here and there for fun. Right now I’m working on a few different projects, the main ones being pride dragons (and eventually other pride animals), as well as working with a close friend on some game design.

What inspires you?

Anything and everything really. Other artists, movies, books, music, nature, friends… I can’t really pin inspiration down on any one thing.

What got you interested in your field?  Have you always wanted to be an artist?

I’ve been drawing pretty much as far back as I can remember, so it’s been an always thing that never went away. XD Honestly I can’t imagine NOT being an artist in some fashion.

Do you have any kind of special or unique signature, symbol, or feature you include in your work that you’d be willing to reveal?

Not really? Nothing that I’m aware of at least.

What advice would you give young aspiring artists?

(Sorry this part is going to be a tad long.)

1. If you wanna art, then art. Do it because you want to do it.

2. Some people are gonna be assholes. It’s pretty hard to avoid running into them. It sucks and it can be super disheartening, but *don’t give up*. I’ve had my art featured on “look how shitty this art is” sites and have gotten some nasty comments that made me feel super close to giving up entirely. But in the end, I’d refer you back to point 1. If you want to art, *then KEEP DOING IT* Do it because you enjoy it. Do it for you, do it for the people who DO enjoy it.

3. You’re not going to improve overnight, but that’s ok. You’ll have good days and bad days with art and sometimes you might feel like you’re not getting anywhere, but as long as you don’t give up, you WILL improve over time.

4. Going along with that, try not to compare your art to others’ art. You need to compare you to you. Look at some of your old art compared to new stuff. Can you see improvement? Doesn’t matter if it’s just a little or a lot, improvement is improvement! Everyone goes at their own pace so don’t be discouraged if you’re not getting to where you want to be right away.

5. I love stylization. It’s fantastic. All sorts of cartoony styles and what not. But I will say, regardless of how styled you want to make your art, it’s best to learn from life first. If say, you learn how to draw dogs, study real dogs and realistic dog art, because then stylizing them later on will be WAY easier and produce better results.

6. TOTALLY experiment with different things! Maybe you’ll find something you like, maybe you’ll decide you don’t like certain things. But at least after trying you’ll know. Step outside your comfort zone, don’t worry if you can do something “good” or not. Just have fun and play with it! Wanna draw cars but think you can’t manage mechanical things? Draw some cars anyway! You have to start somewhere.

7. While you shouldn’t compare yourself to other artists, it can be nice to look around at numerous other artists’ styles and methods for inspiration. Many artists will make tutorials about their processes and techniques or general art advice and these can be super valuable learning tools. (Just remember of course to be respectful and never steal someone else’s work.)

I could probably go on and on, but I think that covers the basics. XD

ASEXUALITY

Where on the spectrum do you identify?

I am hella ace. XD Not demi or grey or anything. As for romantic orientation, I’m still figuring that out.

Have you encountered any kind of ace prejudice or ignorance in your field?  If so, how do you handle it?

Sort of? In general I usually don’t get any of that stuff with just posting art and what not online, though I have had some not so cool things happen in person because of being ace. I don’t want to go too in detail. One of the people who did and said some nasty things is an artist as well, but reasons for their behavior were more on a personal level than because of anything art related. (Though they did rip off a bunch of art related things from me…) Handling it can be hard sometimes, but I’m lucky to have super supportive friends, and the ace community seems to be pretty awesome and supportive as well. Lots of nice positivity posts and comments going around.

What’s the most common misconception about asexuality that you’ve encountered?

That it’s not real and aces are just lying or are late bloomers. Also that ace people are doomed to be forever alone or they’re only able to be in relationships with other aces.

What advice would you give to any asexual individuals out there who might be struggling with their orientation?

It can be tough, I sure as heck have some hard times accepting it sometimes. But anyone out there struggling, remember that you are NOT broken or alone! Asexuality is totally a natural thing, it’s NOT something new (we just are finally starting to learn more about it and bring that information to light), and it’s not something to be ashamed of. Whether you want a romantic relationship, or just good friends, or whatever else, there are definitely people out there who will accept you for who you are and who won’t try to change you. (And don’t put up with people who think they can change you or that you need to be fixed. That’s a load of BS.) All you aces are totally awesome as is!

Finally, where can people find out more about your work?

I post most of my work on my Tumblr account: http://markaleb.tumblr.com/

And I’ve started putting up a few things on a RedBubble account: https://www.redbubble.com/people/markaleb?asc=u

Thank you, Mark, for participating in this interview and this project. It’s very much appreciated.

anonymous asked:

where do u find/look 4 backgrounds my guy? im so bad @ backgrounds ): aside from that do u also have any background tips?

TIPS FOR DRAWING/DOING THE BACKGROUND THING:

  1. Honestly you just gotta go for it, Sometimes things in art aren’t easy and backgrounds can be one of um but hey! that’s okay, the more you do the more you learn the better you get!
  2. experiment with different stuff to figure out what works for u! i have a secret love for photography and weird patterns, so i do a lot of that! 
  3. don’t worry so much about being ‘good’ at backgrounds just go for it and Do what u want, u got it
  4. here’s my media fire with some of those scrapbook page textures uploaded! there’s only a few right now, but i’ll try and upload more omg
  5. here’s a little tutorial of how i do that lace-doilie thingie: 

I HOPE THAT HELPS SOME FRIEND GOOD LUCK GO DO SOME COOL BACKGROUNDS

give me stevebucky dealing with their ptsd together

  • steve whose hands shake when it starts getting colder even if he is a human furnace, who’s scared of ice and the chill not only because of the valkyrie but because of long winters spent in bed with bucky at his bedside and the threat of dying under their skin, their nails, embedded into everything
    • bucky who’s the first person to really, fully see it, who notices and turns the heat up and doesn’t look at him strange, because yeah it might only be a little chilly but bucky hates it too

  • bucky nudging steve awake at 4am with trembling jaw, saying, “nightmare” and steve just shuffling farther against the wall, because he likes being pressed in and bucky doesn’t, likes having steve at his six and clear sightlines
    • bucky telling steve, “hey, honey. it’s been three days since you’ve slept, want me to watch over you while you nap?” and steve does a sweep for bugs before he settles onto their too-small couch, and he only gets forty minutes of sleep before he’s shaking himself awake but bucky strokes his hair and tells him he’s proud for it
  • accommodating each other and understanding each others triggers: bucky hates hairdresser chairs, so steve starts learning how to do nice hairstyles and how to trim longer hair. steve hates hospitals and it’s not unavoidable, not in their line of work, but bucky never leaves him alone for a second in there, gets him out as soon as possible.
    • bucky can’t handle tightness at his wrists; steve holds onto the tips of his fingers only. steve can’t have his head under cold water, bucky starts carrying an umbrella everywhere just in case

  • jokes at 4am when they’re running on pure hysteria because they’ve swept the apartment, the entire floor, twice now and they still don’t feel right, crawling out of their skin. bucky cocks his gun and steve makes a motion at himself and suddenly they’re laughing and it’s not funny, not really, but for a moment they’re not thinking and it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay
    • bucky starts keeping notebooks and diaries and he never does the whole cliche “dear journal” thing but he does write down his thoughts so he can go over them later in a better state of mind. steve draws a lot more, draws with his feet in bucky’s lap and on his hands and anywhere. bucky steals a few doodles and shoves them into the pages of his notebooks that worry him most 

  • they aren’t cured, won’t ever be, probably, but it’s easier and they’re coping and they’re together and that’s more than they ever thought to want, to need, to ask for 
    • (and some day bucky’ll let himself sleep against the wall and another day steve won’t want to tear his skin off in the cold and some day, some days, most days, they’re doing alright)

It is so hard to be an artist’s friend. 

They’ll disappear for hours while they’re working, and emerge tired, but full of a satisfaction you don’t truly understand because you’re not experiencing it fully for yourself. 

They’ll hate themselves and their work. A lot. Maybe they won’t even tell you how much, but oh, you can make an informed guess. How they deflect compliments, apologise for imagined flaws, feel ashamed of showing you just what they’ve been creating. You have to sit with them and tell them it’s not all trash, don’t worry, I still love you.

They’re constantly searching for something. They can’t just be. Neither you, nor they, know what they’re searching for. Maybe it’s a new subject to draw, or write about, or photograph, maybe it’s that feeling of satisfaction, self-love, that always seems to get further and further away.

You support and love them with your whole heart, though, you want them to do better, feel better, to keep excelling. You know how wonderful they are, and even if they’re the most confident person in the room, you know they’re still a little sensitive about the things they produce. Though you seldom tell them this, you love what they create. It resonates with you.

But it’s still frustrating, being an artist’s friend. They’ll ask you to read their newest poem, or share their art, or comment, and you have your own life to deal with. That’s okay, everyone’s busy. Your friend needs to understand this. Sometimes you just feel a bit lazy. It’s a lot of effort to leave visible comments, to share, to subscribe. And it’s fine–your friend knows you care, they don’t need to see it on a screen. 

Artists can be so frustrating. 


But just imagine how frustrating it is for an artist to spend hours and hours producing works that they love, but also hate a little bit, because all they see are flaws and failures and ‘I-could-have-done-that-better’s, hoping against hope that what they’ve put so much effort into–days, sometimes even weeks and months–isn’t ignored, forgotten about.

Because every creator knows that deep down, nobody actually cares. Everyone’s got their own thing going, and unless they’re famous, unless they’re relevant, nothing they create will matter to anyone. Harder than the act of creating is the act of making other people care about their work. Making other people want it. 

It’s at this stage that many artists tend to give up. 

Creative fields are difficult already. Please support your artist friends. Share, leave comments, buy their art (if you have the means). You may encourage them in person, you may support them without even making it obvious, and that’s important, but it doesn’t matter unless you do it where it counts. They may have spent 5 hours working on one drawing, or one poem. You can spend 5 minutes leaving a public comment or pressing the share button. It’s a very small gesture, but I assure you, they mean everything to your artist friends. 

Gyve.

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Member - Hoseok x reader

Genre - Angst, Fluff, Implied smut

Word count - 8.5K

Summary - On the occasion of your best friends wedding and high school reunion, you happened to meet once again, one of the richest heirs of the country, famous fuckboy Jung Hoseok.

While the world saw him as a cocky arrogant person and you, as a confident, strong woman, only the two of you knew the scars that were hidden, and things you both were unable to fix.

Only the two of you could see right through each others facade.

But could you and Hoseok finally break the gyves holding you back? Or were you the ones who shackled each other in the first place?

Originally posted by leojuseyo

The music was still blasting in the speakers when he reached out for his third drink on the night that was still young, holding hundreds of possibilities. Hoseok looked away from the crazy dancing crowd at the woman who was giving him company.

Her vision was fixed on the dance floor, a drink in her hand, while the other played with her hair that was in waves, draped over her shoulder. Hoseok couldn’t help but notice, among all the women who were here, how simple yet alluring she looked. She was fitted in a slightly shimmering black dress that was hugging all the curves of her body till her mid-thigh. Even with a turtleneck and sleeves that extended will her wrists, making her too covered for a cocktail party, she looked stunning, making it harder and harder for Hoseok to look away from her. She wasn’t drinking much though, not even attempting to mingle, and from his experience seeing different types of women in clubs all these years, Hoseok knew she was the kind who had to be physically dragged out of the house to party. He wondered what she liked. Books? Maybe drawings? She was doing some sketches when Hoseok had met her last night. Or maybe she liked adventure. Whatever it was Hoseok wanted to know and it surprised him as well.

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OK, so I chose Hanahaki (nudges this post) and sweet lotor because, there isnt enough kind lotor in the tags and I n e e d soft squish prince before I go to bed, it’s just,, a must. If you guys want to give me some sheith/keitor/sheitor prompts please refer to this post or drop an ask (keep things sfw)! (pictures undercut)

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I have a thing I want to get out. 

I hear people say all the time “I can’t draw.” Or “I wish I could draw.”

i say BULLSHIT

Yes you can. You can totally draw. It might look bad. It might be absolute crap. But hey, you drew. And if you keep drawing, you’re going to get better. That “practice, practice, practice” is a huge part. Don’t just practice though, play. Play, explore, have some mcfreaking fun!!! Look up other artists, look at professionals, look at fellow tumblr users. Trace their art and get a feel for how they do it (but do not claim as your own, they worked to do that, just like you’re working now. respect that). Ask other artists what brushes they use, check out tutorials on YouTube, draw a simple smiley face in the origins of your textbook I don’t care.

Push yourself out of your comfort zone. Don’t like a certain art style? Create something in that style. Just do it. Think something looks impossible? Try it. If you don’t like it, set it aside, try it again later. Make that same thing in a different style/with a different technique. DO IT FREAKING BLINDFOLDED. (this could get messy, especially with paint but it’s really fun) Don’t hold yourself back

Another thing, don’t be a perfectionist. Its hard not to be, I know, but things won’t look exactly the way you want them to be. If something is out of place, don’t worry about it too much, just keep drawing. 

Accept that you’re just not going to like those first drawings. Accept that you’re going to get better with time.

If you hit a low spot and don’t believe you can do it, I’ll do it FOR YOU BECAUSE YES YOU CAN, I BELIEVE IN YOU. YOU’VE GOT SO MUCH POTENTIAL AND I WANNA SEE YOUR WONDERFUL WORK.

Note: Thank you so much sweety! You are an angel! <3 Like always I will be doing this in 3 seperate posts. Here is first the Vixx version. Also I decided to leave the ending somewhat open but leading the way to a happy ending as requested.

Short backstory:

You have been together with him for a year soon. Everything seemed fine for so long, he was nice, funny and always seemed to know how to make you smile when you were feeling down. Now however he was different. He was gone untill late, barely talking to you and when you asked him about it he`d answer you with short annoyed statements, almost angry. You had tried talking to him more than once but he wouldn`t listen. This is what made you draw your conclusions and you decided it might be better for him if you dissapeared. So packing a small bag with your most needed belongings you ran away.

N

He had a bad day and the only thing he wanted to do was take a shower and go to sleep. He went into the bedroom presuming you were asleep but when he found the bed empty he was confused. He called your name but when you didn`t answer he walked around the flat just to find that you were nowhere to be found. He`d be worried to no end knowing you`d never just go out without telling him where and when. Thinking you had been kidnapped or worse he wouldn`t hesitate to order his men to look for you. When they finally did after several hours and brought you back to the flat he`d be hugging you in no time, asking where you went and checking if you had any injuries. After explaining that you ran away he was about to be mad but then you`d explain why, his anger would dissolve and he`d be left feeling nothing but guilt. He`d take your hands promising that he`d change and would ask you not to leave him.

“I was worried sick for you y/n. You can`t just dissappear like that. I promise you I will be here for you more often. We can work this out together. Don`t just leave. Please stay with me.”

Leo

Dealing with idiots and criminals who didn`t seem to be able to use their brains all day was draining. He`d come home in another one of his rather bad moods already expecting you to either be asleep, which would save him a lot of energy, or mad and in his head he`d already be preparing what to say so you`d at least stop bothering him. He wasn`t proud of his behavior lately but he`d make up for it as soon as this deal was done. Or at least that`s what he thought. However now he was sitting on your shared bed with your letter in his hand and an empty flat. His mind would be clouded by anger for a long time before it finally sunk in that this was in every way his fault. He had screamed at you in annoyance whenever you had tried to tell him he needed a time out. He had called off any plans of eating dinner together leaving you to eat alone, if you ate at all, he wasn`t sure. It all came crushing down on him and in this moment he`d be running outside to sit in his car, driving around the whole city, not caring about speed limits as he was searching for you. His calls would go straight to voicemail and his texts were unanswered when the sun rose over the horizon and he`d finally find you about to enter a cab. He`d run out of his car, call your name before before standing infront of you and with red eyes and bags underneath he`d let all of his feelings out.

“I know I have been horrible lately. You deserve so much better than me but I am selfish. I don`t want to let you go, I love you and I need you with me y/n. I don`t expect you to forgive me for the things I have done but please, stay with me. I swear I will treat you better from now on.”

Ken

Despite his busy schedule he had noticed that his behaviour towards you had been rather harsch lately and that you had tried talking to him. Your timing however has always been so wrong as you had catched him at some of his worst days. This day had been good though and so he wanted to surprise you. On his way home he had bought a bouquet of flowers and planned a rather romantic evening but his planes shattered as soon as he stepped through the door and found your letter saying that he`d probably be better off without you constantly distracting him. He cursed under his breath remembering these very word leaving his mouth in a fight the two of you had a few days back. He wouldn`t even try calling you knowing you wouldn`t take the phone and would drive straight to the place he presumed you`d be at. Finding you sitting and crying on the bench on the beach side where you had shared your first kiss he`d be gentle when approaching. He would sit beside you before enveloping you in a hug, kissing the top of your head, whispering how sorry he was.

“I`m so sorry y/n. You aren`t distracting. I was mad that day. I know it wasn`t right but I couldn`t control myself. But I will try from no on. Y/n, I will change for you. If you let me I will make you happy again.”

Ravi

His job is demanding and he knew he could seem intimitading sometimes but he had never thought of you as useless or a burden. If anything you were the only thing keeping him sane. He thought you knew that but it seems he had really neglected you too much. He knew you needed a time out so he gave you 2 days to cool off, always knowing where you were through the gps in your phone. He had also sent some of his men to watch over you making sure you were safe at any time. He spent the time coming up with things with which he could show you how much he really loved you, and after 2 days he had finally found what he was looking for. He made sure to look his best but not like a man of the mafia but like the man you had fallen in love with. He knew flowers or any other physical gift would mean nothing to you so he didn`t bother with those things at all. You found yourself on a rooftop. The men bringing you there had dissappeared and Ravi was standing before you now. He saw you starting to apologize feeling even worse that you thought you had to apologize for it when it was his fault. He wouldn`t even let you finish your sentence, speaking up in a gentle and loving tone. 

“Y/n, you have no reason to apologize. I was too blind to see how stupid I was to neglect the most important person in my life. You are neither useless nor a burden to me. You keep me grounded whenever I feel like loosing my mind, and you`re doing it so easily and loving like I was the only person you had ever loved. I see now that through my behaviour I almost lost you and I never want that to happen again. So y/n, I want you to stay with me forever, as my best friend and my wife.” *he`d kneel down and show you the ring he had bought, the ultimate prove of his love*

wow well this excalated quickly

i know the gif doesn`t fit perfectly but the mood in this one tho

Hongbin

He`d be about to walk into your shared flat when he saw you, bag in your hand, messy hair and tear stained face. He had come home early this evening as the deal hadn`t gone the way he wanted it to. Infact this whole past month had been stressing to no end. He had lost a lot of money and now you wanted to leave him. It was too much for him, not even noticing how sad you looked he`d push you up against the door, his hands turning to fists where they lay on either side on your face. He`d ask you if this really was it, not giving you any time to explain yourself. 

“So you`re just gonna leave like this? After all we`ve been through together? You wouldn`t even tell me directly? Am I that unimportant to you?”

And that`s when he noticed the tears on you face. His anger would dissolve completely as he understood the reason why. He`d remember how he had treated you this last month and realise how you must feel. Not he was the one feeling unimportant, it was you. He`d step back before falling to his knees infront of you, the stress, the anger, the fear of losing you would come crushing down on him and he wouldn`t be able to hold back his tears. Taking your hands in his and kissing them gently he`d guide you to sit infront of him before letting go of everything he had piled up inside of himself.

“I am so sorry y/n. I was too blind to see your pain. Too blind to realise how you slowly slipped through my fingers. But I`m holding on to what is left and I will do anything to make you happy again. Don`t leave me. Without you I will go crazy. Come with me. Let`s go away somewhere for a while, just the two of us and sort things out. Don`t give up on us.” 

Hyuk

He`d come home and would sense something was off instantly. Usually you`d come up to him asking him if he needed anthing and how he was feeling to which he`d usually answer by brushing you off quickly, not wanting to bother you with his problems. Walking into the kitchen he`d find the note you had left him. He thought you knew the reason for why he kept to himself and didn`t talk to you about it but it seems he came off as uninterested and annoyed. Not even finishing it completely he`d already be running out the door on his way to the bustop. Your shared flat was placed quite a bit from the city for protection, so the only way from it, other than by car, was by bus. When he arrived at the bustop it was empty but checking the timetable he found out the bus you must have taken hasn`t been gone for too long. Driving as fast as he could he could catch up with the bus before stopping it by parking his car in the middle of the road. He`d drag you out of the bus before telling you how sorry he was.

“Y/n you have to believe me when I say that it was never my intention to hurt you. I was trying not to be a burden but by that I made you feel like one. But y/n, you`re nothing less than a blessing in my life. I mean you don`t really want to leave, do you? And I don`t want you to leave. So stay with me. I love you.”

Note 2.0: Alright so this became way longer than I thought it would haha. It became a bit uneven with the lengths of these reactions but I hope you don`t mind that. Some of them were easier to write than others so please bare with me :)

First drawing in a Danganronpa series I’m doing centered around flowers/plants.  Here is Aoi Asahina from the first DR game.

Tbh, I’m not super pleased with how this turned out, at least the extra elements in the background and the flowers themselves.  Granted, I haven’t been feeling like myself for the past week and a half or so… that’s probably the main reason why I’m a little grouchy about this drawing.  No need to worry about me though, I presume it’ll only be a few more days before I begin to feel better again…that’s usually how this sort of things works, for me at least. :)

@xiil3gendary​ Here’s your completed Asahina, Nate.  It’s not much, but I hope it can put a smile on your face. ^.^  @jinjojess​ I’ll be drawing Junko next.  I hope I am not too obnoxious.  You guys both put in so much hard work for your audience and community, it’s probably not super original or special or anything, but I want to thank you both for making me feel so welcome in the community.  Your videos always brighten up my day, and I plan on sticking around even after NDRv3.  Keep being awesome! 

A note in general to everyone about my art and this series in particular, I don’t mind if any of you guys share my art or use it elsewhere on the web as long as you give me credit.  Also, like I said, I’m drawing Junko next, but I have no idea who I’m going to draw after that.  Feel free to suggest any character from DR, SDR2, NDRv3, or Despair Girls (there’s a couple I might draw from the DR3 animes, but I’d like to stick to the games to start out with).  It will be first-come-first-serve…I literally have no preference as to who I draw.  I really only dislike one DR character, and I hope to end up drawing them anyway, so take your pick!

Big prayer request!

Alright. So, it’s time for me to be open about something that I haven’t mentioned to any of my close Christian friends. I’ve honestly been feeling so ashamed that I was afraid that I’d disappoint them. I’m writing this on here to ask for strength and healing during this time.

Well, here it is.

So, about a month ago my boyfriend, let’s call him Blake,and I broke up. Our break up tore me apart. 1. Because I thought he was the one that God picked out for me, and 2. Because I made some bad decisions in our relationship that I deeply regret. When I was about 12 or 13, I promised myself I’d stay pure until marriage. Now, here I am at 19 and during my relationship with Blake, I had premarital sex with him.

Yes. I know. The Bible says multiple times NOT to do this. Believe me. I’m having a really hard time forgiving myself right now, and I can’t even begin to explain how dirty and worthless I feel. I know what I did was wrong, and I wish that I could take it back. I really really do.

I loved Blake. A lot. So when we ended, I was destroyed. Still am. I didn’t realize it, but in the back of my mind, I had been holding on to the hope that we would get back together. Why? Because things didn’t end badly between us. He wanted to end things because he felt a strain on his relationship with God. He’d felt so before we started dating. I know a lot of you are going to think that this is a lie coming from him, but I know him well enough to know he isn’t lying. He’s never lied to me before, and I know he really cared about me, so I have no reason not to trust him. The other night, we were talking, and I got my heart broken all over again. He had asked me if I found anyone nice. When I told him no, he said “well you will”. He doesn’t want to get back together. So yeah…

The funny thing is, it was actually an answer to prayer. Just not in the way I expected it. I had been praying that he would draw near to God again. He had been drinking once in a while, plus our sexual sin, so I really wanted us to come together in Christ and repent. So in a way, it worked out. He seems to be a lot better, and we’ve been praying for each other. A small shred of me still hopes that we’ll get back together, but I’m really trying to focus on God right now, and not worry about that. Because if it’s really meant to be, God will work it out in His perfect timing.

Right now, all I ask of y'all is to pray hard for me. I’m being heavily attacked by the devil, and he is filling my head with all sorts of bad thoughts about myself. Nasty, worthless, wasted, slut, unforgivable, disgusting, dirty, used. These are all things that have filled my mind, and I really need prayer for strength and self-forgiveness. I would really appreciate lots of prayers right now.

@womanintheword do you think you could spread this for me?

joannethefujoshi  asked:

Hey! This is my first ask ever so I don't know whether I'm doing it right XD but I just wanted you to know that you're art is amazing! I'm 16 and I want to be an animator in the future but what I draw currently is not perfect. So if you could give me some tips on how to be a better artist, I would truly be grateful! ( ´♡`)

Ah! :D
You are doing fine, do not worry about it ^w^
An that’s s awesome!!! o3o
I wish you much luck, animating is so cool but takes a lot of hard work for sure!!!
Honestly, the best and only advice I can ever give is to just try and draw everyday basically :D
Skill comes from practice, and even when it’s hard and you’re not feeling inspired, the best thing you can do is keep going :3
If there’s any classes available to you for animating or art in general, I def recommend trying them out as well! 
And then just
HAVE FUN!!!
Draw things you think are interesting, look at tutorials and speedpaints online, be an active learner, reach out to resources that seem promising o3o
YOU’RE GONNA BE GREAT!

Savages (3)

Bucky&Steve x reader

Warnings: swearing, angst, stress, threesome(s), graphic male-female and male-male sexual acts

(I’m such a tease) 

Originally posted by natpekis

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Summary: As a high-end fashion designer you’re living an extensively comfortable life. When your relationship of six years ends, you’re not too happy to see your newly-ex on the arm of another woman directly after; which is part of the reason you don’t mind running in to two men, who seem to have some exciting plans with you. As a woman who always gets what she wants, you immediately recognise men who are used to that exact same thing, and you’re more than happy to be the one to put them in their place.

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