want the old you back

  • Tony: Do you remember your name yet?
  • Bucky: No.
  • Tony: Well, you know, you could just give yourself one. Just pick one. Whatever you want.
  • Bucky: I like Winter.
  • Tony: Really? You don't want to know what it was? You don't want your old life back?
  • Bucky: No. I want this one.
  • Tony: Just Winter, huh?
  • Bucky: Just Winter.
Almost midnight thought..

We were texting… & it felt so different. It wasn’t the same. I changed, he changed. He once said “you aren’t the girl I loved so much, I want the old you back!”. Well I have changed, I was totally lost for a long time. I’m still a little bit, but I know who I am now & I will be the best version of myself. That’s my plan, that what I am working on so hard everyday. But he’s just not the man that I loved so much.. he’s just not himself anymore. He’s not the sweet, kind man that once covers me with the blanket to protect me from the world, or the one that takes a selfie with an alley cat, or the one that avoids going to the toilet just because I slept on his tummy.. he’s cold. Not just to me, even to the ones he once called his friends. I don’t know what happened, but this is not what I want. I was so happy that he wrote back, but this feelings I once felt when he wrote… they weren’t there. I don’t know what that means…

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.
You claim to love her, inside and out, but the only time you call her beautiful is when it’s 3 in the morning and I’ve already turned you down.
—  girls tell each other everything, c.j.n.
We throw around the word never likes its nothing but a small rose petal. The word never is a doubled edged sword. On one side it says ‘I will never leave you’ and on the other it says ‘I will never love you.’
—  The Word Never
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It’s finally done!!

Funny thing is that I doodled this comic out on valentine’s day and just never did anything about it. But then recently I got a bunch of followers who liked my cheerleader+nerd girl ideas so I thought I’ll finish this comic out for you guys!

Also they have names now!

Valerie (cheerleader) and Emma (nerd). I want to think of an official series title for them but nothing is coming up at the moment but I will eventually!