want a new world

Okay so, anyone who’s like “BLUH BLUH Belle is a bad Disney Princess because she wants more in life even though people are working are hard why can’t girls just shut up and be content bluh bluh” can MEET ME IN THE FUCKING PIT. (Using the 1991 movie for ref here, since I haven’t seen the live-action. Maybe live-action Belle is shittier.) 

Like, yeah, she’s a flawed human being who tends to be so lost in fantasy worlds that she doesn’t recognize what’s around her beyond a judgey surface glance. The whole POINT of the movie is both her AND the Beast are learning to see what’s beautiful beneath the surface. She doesn’t get handed a new world because she wanted it real bad–she had to learn, first, to be less judgmental of things that don’t fit her fantasy book ideal. ONLY THEN does she get what she wants.

But you know what she DIDN’T have to learn, because it WASN’T a flaw? She didn’t have to learn that just because someone else is suffering worse than you, you should accept your lot in life. She put up with ZERO of the Beast’s shit, even when she knew he was cursed. He had it bad, but he was being an asshole, so she refused it, because she knew he could be more, and better.

There’s a HUGE stigma, especially around girls, that wanting more than what you have is inherently selfish and bad. Girls shouldn’t have wants–don’t you see that that people around you are trying to feed their families?? Who are you to complain??? Do you think that person struggling to survive is a worse person than you, then???? Girls are CONSTANTLY expected to give up their dreams to raise children, to help others, to not make their boyfriend feel jealous, to cut themselves down, to be lesser, lesser, lesser. Dream of less, don’t reach so high, just surviving is okay. 

Belle is a great Disney Princess. Yes, she’s flawed. She’s idealistic, she’s judgmental, she’s weird, she’s impulsive and occasionally outright mean. But she knows what she wants, she works hard for it, she takes no bullshit. She doesn’t forget her roots–she risks her life to save Maurice–but she doesn’t blindly accept them, either. She GETS MORE IN LIFE. 

The Alliance fleet caught napping, an intrepid German raider makes their escape. The Charlemagne damaged and the USS Longstreet in flames, the Saturnine March would be ruled by neither crown. Mars grows hotter.

Something new. I wanted a painting for Spacecraft of the First World War to have a battle scene that looked more like a flight to the Sabbat. I’m constructing my paintings a little differently these days.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.