walther ppks

Let he do what he wants, he’s entitled

I’m sorry for what I’m about to say.

Remember the shots in TLD where we see someone firing a gun? What do they mean?

Well, it all comes down to who was holding the gun.

This is a Walther ppk, Norbury’s gun in TST. We’ve got meta on how neither Eurus nor Vivian Norbury could be holding it. So, whose hand is it?

To me, this looks like the hand of a man.

And this man has long-sleeved dark coat.

So, from the two facts, we can deduce than the one holding this gun, a  Walther ppk, James Bond’s gun, the same gun that killed Mary Watson… is Sherlock.

“Let he do what he wants. He’s entitled, I killed his wife.”

And that gives a new flavour to these three scenes:

  • John in the beginning of TLD is having a nightmare of Sherlock killing Mary;
  • The gun scene when Sherlock is talking to ‘Faith’ shows Sherlock holding and firing a gun as he’s talking about suicide;
  • Eurus, is actually a side of Sherlock, and her ‘shooting him’ also means that a part of him did.

Please, forgive me. I want to be wrong.

The Smoking Gun

This is just a brief post on the guns that we repeatedly saw throughout series 4. The “smoking gun” was a major theme of the series - it was even in the title credits. 

That screen cap is from T6T, and it shows a smoking handgun, which (obviously) indicates that the gun was just fired. 

There has been a lot of discussion about this smoking gun. Who’s gun is it? Who is firing it? Who is being shot? Etc, etc. 

I don’t think the smoking gun is much of a mystery.

I’m fairly convinced that the smoking gun is Norbury’s gun. 

Now, I also think that the majority of what we see in Season 4 is mind palace. So it is possible that someone other than Norbury is shooting that gun in reality. And I also think it is possible that someone other than Mary is being shot. 

However, I noticed something else that I think is very interesting. 

This is from the scene by the water, when Sherlock is talking to Faith and he has his little acid flashback:

That’s not Norbury’s gun. That is a Sig Sauer of some sort, a compact one. Probably a P228. 

Here’s the next frame:

That is the same Sig pistol, in the instant after it was fired. At this point, the recoil has pushed the slide to the rear to eject the shell, but the recoil hasn’t carried into the shooter’s arm. 

Here’s the final frame:

This is a millisecond later. The recoil has pushed the pistol back and upwards, and the slide has closed. 

Conclusion? That is a Sig Sauer being fired. 

Who has a Sig Sauer? 

Eurus. 

Ok. So Sherlock’s vision of the sig lasts for about three or four frames. It is very, very quick. After the frames of the sig, we get the following very clear image:

Interesting. 

Then we see this:

That’s the Norbury gun again. 

It’s also the same gun that we saw in the cold open to TLD, the one floating above John’s nose:

Now, here’s the thing about that gun. I’ve seen numerous references to that gun being a Walther PPK, “Like James Bond carries.” 

That’s not a Walther PPK. 

This is a Walther PPK:

That’s the gun Mary is holding to Magnussen’s head in HLV, and the same gun she will shoot Sherlock with in a few moments. 

That gun is a Walther PPK (with a silencer). Like James Bond. 

Norbury’s gun isn’t a Walther PPK. 

Norbury’s gun, the gun we see smoking repeatedly throughout season 4, is a CZ 82 (or 83, same gun, different caliber). 

On screen it can be tricky to tell the CZ 82 from the PPK, but if you pay close attention to the trigger guard, you’ll see that the CZ guard sticks out. It’s rounded in the front, very large, and sort of odd looking. 

It’s most noticeable in this shot:

The image is a bit distorted, but you can see the trigger guard is quite different. 

Now look at the smoking gun again:

See that weird, gigantic trigger guard? That’s Norbury’s gun. 

Okay… so what? Norbury murdered Mary. That’s a pretty big deal. Of course everyone keeps thinking about the gun. 

Well, I don’t think Norbury’s gun is what is important. I think what is important is the tiny little flash we get of Eurus’ gun being fired. I think that little flash is reality breaking into the fantasy we’ve been watching since series 3. 

I’m leaning more and more towards the “corrupted memories” theory that @finalproblem has been writing about. 

If you watch the riverside scene with Sherlock and Faith/Eurus, it almost seems like the combination of talking to Eurus, holding/throwing a gun, and thinking about loss triggered the memory of a compact Sig Sauer being fired. 

But then what happens? We see the briefest glimpse of a sig being fired, and then we get a blindingly clear vision of the London Aquarium. In daylight. 

And then we’re back to Norbury’s smoking gun. 

Almost as if the aquarium and norbury’s gun are pushing the memory of the sig out of Sherlock’s mind. 

And this is when Sherlock starts to have some sort of fit or something. He’s suddenly in pain, screaming. 

The we get three frames of an image of a needle filling with what appears to be black oil.

Sherlock collapses:

Incidentally, this is not the last time we’ll see Sherlock collapsing in conjunction with a black oily or inky substance:

That’s pretty much all I have for now. I do think this supports the idea of memories being corrupted, or more likely, being overwritten. 

You know, like a dog?

The Surgery of "His Last Vow": Agra’s killing shot

Summary

In Magnussen’s office, Agra intended to kill Sherlock.

“The bullet is foolish, the bayonet is wise”.

It seems that Alexander Suvorov was good in “surgery”.

In this paper, I discuss mostly medical aspects of Sherlock’s wound and give some information in forensic medicine and ballistics. In the final part, I consider a possible motivation for the assassination.

Anatomy of heart and liver

A human heart is located in the middle of a chest, diagonally from right to left.

The liver is under the heart on the right. The heart is covered slightly by the lungs (pink).

Male nipples are at the level of the fifth rib, sometimes, slightly above or slightly below it. If we draw a line between the nipples, we cross the heart at its widest part.

When we breath, the diaphragm moves up (exhalation) and down (inhalation), and the position of the heart changes slightly.

A heart is covered by a special sac called pericardium. The pericardial sac has two layers. It encloses the pericardial cavity, which contains about 25 mL of pericardial fluid.

Similarly, lungs are placed in a double-walled sac called pleura.

Vena cava inferior lies behind the liver.

Anatomy of Sherlock’s wound

Wellingtongoose (http://wellingtongoose.tumblr.com) considered this picture:

(http://wellingtongoose.tumblr.com/post/74878096422/why-mary-did-not-intend-to-kill-sherlock-and-why)

This picture was imagined by Sherlock in his Mind Palace.

It is not a reality.

Wellingtongoose concluded that the bullet had hit the liver and vena cava inferior. However, to reconstruct what had happened, one should consider not only the picture, but also anatomy of the wound, physiology, clinical symptoms, and actions of the doctors.

I have found an X-ray of a young male. What can we see on this X-ray? The white areas are the heart, liver, and bones. The dark areas are lungs.

Let us put this X-ray on Benedict’s chest.

Fits rather well.

Now, let us put it onto the body in the mortuary.

The bullet hit between the heart and the liver. The wound is very serious, taking into account concussion and necrosis of the tissues. In this case, the bullet could pass through the liver and injury the vena cava inferior.

Such is indeed the case in Sherlock’s Mind Palace.

What has really happened?

In the movie, we can see two real situations. First, in the ambulance:

Second, in the intensive care unit (ICU):

Let us superimpose the ambulance photo onto the ICU picture.

We can see that the wounds coincide very well! There is the same wound in the ambulance and ICU!

Let us put the photo in the ambulance onto the picture in the mortuary:

We see that the

real wound is located higher than the imagined one.

Look at the X-ray, superimposed onto the ICU photo. This is the key point of my investigation!

The wound entry hole is in the area of the HEART!

Agra shot in the heart. Do we need any other evidence of her false “surgery”?

However, Sherlock did not die. This fact can be explained as follows. The bullet hit the edge of the sternum and slightly deflected to the right, brushing the edge of the heart (see the picture).


In this case, the right lung was injured, but the liver and vena cava inferior were intact.

Therefore, the diagnosis is as follows:

The penetrating gunshot wound of the thorax, injury of the pericardium and the right lung, bleeding in the pleural sac (hemothorax) and pericardial sac (hemopericardium).

It is a very impressive “surgical safety”, isn’t it?

What has happened to Sherlock?

Therefore, Sherlock lost consciousness after a minute or two, and after 15–20 minutes, there occured a cardiac arrest.

In case of injury of vena cava inferior, Sherlock is assumed to die because of an acute massive blood loss (500–1000 mL).

It means that:

1) The heart had stopped, because it had nothing to pump. The law of physiology says: a “dry” heart cannot work. An electrocardiograph would register asystole.

2) It is necessary to refill the blood vessels by massive infusion into 3–4 large veins (central and/or peripheral).

Look at the picture in the intensive care unit:

We can see only two infusion systems in the cubital veins. Perhaps, the doctors did not see the massive blood loss?

3. The hole in vena cava inferior makes impossible the reanimation without surgical operation and sewing up the wound.

That’s why vena cava inferior is beyond the scope.

See the final ECG:

It’s not asystole. There are four variants of cardiac arrest, namely, pulseless ventricular tachycardia, electromechanical dissociation, fibrillation, and asystole. Asystole is a straight or wavy line at the ECG.

Sherlock had no asystole; he had small-wave atonic fibrillation. His heart was not really dead, but it could not beat. A defibrillator, by the way, is not effective in this situation.

What reason can be for cardiac arrest?

I think,

because of blood in the pericardial sac (hemopericardium).

Between two layers of pericardium, there is 25 mL of fluid. Let’s suppose that the bullet had partially plugged the hole, and blood from damaged vessels of the pericardium began to flow inside the sac. When the blood volume achieved 150 mL, the cardiac tamponade occurred. The heart became trapped in the swollen sac and stopped.

So, the cause of death is cardiac tamponade.

In case of cardiac tamponade, cardiopulmonary resuscitation is ineffective without removing blood from the pericardial sac.

Is it possible for Sherlock to come to life by himself? Perhaps, when the doctors “pumped” the chest, the bullet shifted and opened the hole in the pericardium. Blood started to flow out, at some point, the living heart (it was not dead) could beat.

Other versions may be concerned with heart trauma.

The right lung was wounded, no doubt, hence, Sherlock had hemothorax (blood in the pleural space).

Treatment of hemothorax suggests the surgical operation via minimally traumatic access — right anterolateral thoracotomy:

If there was a gunshot

abdominal wound (liver and vena cava inferior), the doctors had to cut off the abdomen in order to treat the damaged tissues without no exceptions! In this case, we could see laparotomic cut.

Sherlock in the intensive care unit:

there are no laparothomic stiches.

However, we can see the bandage under the right rib.

Quod erat demonstrandum.

There is the thoracic wound

treated via right anterolateral thoracotomy.

A patient should suffer from strong pain (morphine is needed), but after the adequate surgical treatment, our Sherlock could stand and walk with strong painkillers.

Dead or not dead?

Sherlock had cardiac arrest; it was not a clinical death, taking into account that CPR (cardiopulmonary resuscitation) was provided at once.

Nevertheless…

CPR performed by skilled doctors provides the brain blood flow at about 35% of norm, the coronary blood flow at 25% of norm.

It is generally believed that successful CPR “starts" the heart within the first 5 - 10 minutes, after that period the possibility of irreversible brain damage increases sharply. However, there were cases, when after 30 minutes of resuscitation, the patient recovered without apparent consequences for the brain.

Since modern technologies allow to maintain the circulation almost without end, doctors in ICU have the specific set of rules, concerning the ascertaining of death. There are two cases, in which resuscitation should be stopped and a person is considered to be dead:

1) Brain death;

2) When CPR is ineffective within 30 minutes.

“Sherlock” presents the second variant, because Sherlock’s brain is not injured. Therefore, the doctors performed CPR for at least 30 minutes + the time in the ambulance.

Michael Jackson was resuscitated for an hour, before they ascertained the death.

In “Sherlock”, all the doctors took an official decision that the patient was dead.

Agra is a skilled assassin

From the interview with Amanda, we know that she had James Bond’s Walther PPK, 7.65.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Walther_PP

This is a special police pistol for effective fire at short distances.

A cartridge for this pistol: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/.32_ACP

Blunt bullets are very effective to “get stuck” inside the target, transferring all the huge kinetic energy and damaging seriously the tissues. Sherlock was thrown back, and the bullet remained in his body.

Agra had the gun with a silencer. However, the silencer does not reduce completely the sound of the shot. In order to shoot silently, Agra was to reduce the amount of gunpowder. This explains the fact that a) the bullet ricocheted off the sternum, and b) Sherlock was not pushed to the wall, and he just fell on his back.

She was taking aim with a straight arm. Unlike Sherlock, who was aiming, bending the elbow and holding it by the other hand. Such a pose says that he was ready to stand a while and talk.

The pose of Agra suggests that she had no time to talk. This is a very threatening gesture that Sherlock had to recognize.

A bullet from her pistol punched a hole in the coin.

Therefore, Agra is a skilled shooter with a dangerous gun, she knows how to shoot and kill.

Targets for training of policemen and military men are made schematically, to avoid the feeling that you’re shooting at a human being.

Here is an example of a training target:

The shot in heart (red “apple”) gets “five plus”, exactly in the center of the target. By the way, the zone around the red “apple” gets also "five”, that shows the seriousness of the wounds of chest and abdomen.

So, Agra was taught to shoot at the center of the chest.

Where is the real surgery?

In the “empty house”, Sherlock offered the idea of “surgery” to protect himself and John. John, who saw the medical documents in the hospital, did not believe, but accepted “the game”. An interesting fact: during the scene in the “empty house”, the music track “Lie in Leinster Gardens” is playing.

At 221b, Sherlock did not suffer from bleeding. Morphine has ended, and Sherlock lost consciousness from the pain with a dramatic performance. Not fatal, he would come to himself immediately after intravenous morphine. I think, John guessed about it, so did not rush to help in the first few seconds.

Where is the actual surgery?

Just before the shot, Sherlock started to make a step to the left. He began to get up and move to the left. The “target”, therefore, shifted slightly to the right and down. At the distance of 1,5 – 2 meters, the shift could be up to 1,5-2 cm. See above — only 0,5-1,0 cm separated him from the death.

Here was the actual surgery!

In the movie, we can see that the bullet from the silencer went down a bit, it is a real thing.

Remember that Sherlock is a very skilled professional. In "Belgravia”, Sherlock is a master of the technique of knocking the gun from the killer. When Agra raised her hand, I think, Sherlock had no doubt about her intentions. He tried to persuade her, but without success. Agra came to Magnussen to kill Sherlock. Sherlock saved himself by this little movement.

 Assassination or not assassination?

The shot in the heart, thoracic wound, heart injury, lung injury, cardiac arrest. The conclusion of the forensic examination is formulated as “severe bodily injury”. I think, Agra should be arrested for attempted homicide.

Possible motivation for the assassination

Agra was the missing sniper from Estonia or Dyachenko. She was hired by Moriarty to keep Sherlock at gunpoint on the roof and kill him if Sherlock would not jump. Sherlock staged the performance not for John, but for his personal sniper. The jump of Sherlock saved him from Agra’s shot.

After Sherlock’s “death”, Agra stayed close to his friend. All these years, Sherlock did not hide from John, but from a spy near him (from Agra).

At the beginning of the “His Last Vow”, the “employer” (Moriarty? Moran?) demanded to fulfill the order. Sherlock took the case of Lady Smallwood. Agra found out about it from Janine and used it as a trap for Sherlock. She came to Magnussen, pretending that she was going to take her documents from the blackmailer. She knocked Janine and the security guard to delay John. She used the perfume to lure Sherlock upstairs. She dressed like shinobi, who were skilled assassins. She shot in Sherlock’s heart and left. However, Sherlock succeeded to survive, though severely injured.

In “empty house”, Agra went to complete the assassination, because Sherlock had become her enemy, and the order remained unfulfilled. In order to protect himself, Sherlock came up with the idea of “surgery"and took John with him.

John, being a very good military doctor, did not believe in “surgery”, but agreed.

Perhaps, the information on the flash drive, which was to break John, was this: the contract with the employer about the assassination of Sherlock.

Why didn’t she shoot in the head? She could be ordered to "burn the heart out”, or the employer may want Sherlock’s head or his skull (Sherlock Holmes had Billy skull, and Sherlock’s name is Billy, Moriarty would want to have such a “friend”).

Interesting, when Sherlock and Moriarty were talking on the roof, there was a

heptagonal glare on Sherlock’s head (like the heptagonal coin). This is discovery of my friend, Vega-216:

All other glares elsewhere are octagonal.

Conclusion

The case of Agra has completed. As a doctor, I has offered the diagnosis. As a spectator, I have no doubts that Agra had committed a crime. Was she really forgiven by Sherlock and John? Maybe, we’ll see it in the fourth season.

Thanks to everyone who has read it to the end!

GUNS AND WORDS
  • Russia: What do you want? I have Beretta. Or a nice Walther PPK, same as your James Bond! No crease in jacket.
  • England: I’m British, Ivan. We try not to use guns.
  • Russia: Then what you use?
  • England: Usually a stern word or disapproving look does the job.
We were Gods - Chapter 3

Lost in the Woods; a song about Artemis

The day she goes mad-
No.
All right.


She remembers she liked to hold Apollo’s hand; little clumsy fingers solid intertwined with her own delicate ones.
People tend to forget that they’re twins, separable only by gender.
She remembers all the times they’ve curled around each other with her head tucked under Apollo’s chin and his hands caressing the soft fabric of her cotton shirt.

“They’re one,“ her mother used to say and “They know each other’s soul.“

Sometimes they communicated in words and gestures only, almost as if they had their own special language.

Apollo said sun and she said moon.
Apollo said Hamlet and she answered why Shakespeare when we can watch a mother tear her son apart every day.
Eventually Apollo said hunt and she said death.

She never answered after that again.

She should have known, that some things were not meant to be.


There’s a fist fight going on at the schoolyard. Artemis knows it, before she sees it. Sometimes she feels as if something pulls her magically, an invisible thread she can’t cut. It’s Apollo, of course.

Asterion pulls her brother off the tangled pile of limbs and hands and fists.
Bruised lips, heaving chest, solar flares in his eyes.

“What the hell is wrong with your brother?”
Someone shouts at her. It’s Hermes.

She turns her head in slow motion, soaks in all the little details around her - worried glances, Medusa’s wild hair, Ariadne’s hand on Asterion’s shoulder - her eyes rest on Apollo’s face.
He’s troubled. Mad. Wild.

She doesn’t know.
She doesn’t know.


Artemis is a wildfire.

She’s a force of nature and she burns and singes and blazes.
There’s gasoline in her veins and smoke in her lungs.
A heart of a flame, ash on her skin, smile sharp and cutting.

Touch her and you’ll burn.

Fire, has always been her element.

After all, in order to rise, a phoenix always has to emerge from its own ashes.


Sometimes she walks through the woods alone to breathe free.

There’s something utterly serene about yellow burned sun rays that try to cast their hazy blurs through the thick canopy of reddish leaves.

Sometimes she screams.

No one stops her after all.


The day she goes mad-
This mission has been complicated.

It should have been a standard kill job, but the target had been slippery and surprisingly well trained.

Artemis sighs.

The mission has been clear: kill.

But Artemis watches the soft dark curls that fall into Callisto’s eyes, how the girl brushes the single strand behind her ear and bites down on the soft pink cushion of her underlip in concentration.

Artemis is poised and, if she wants to, she could take the shot. She has done it before, to other girls, other men in other cities. A bullet in the head, a knife between the ribs and the girl would just be another body in the river, floating out with the tide.

The finger around the trigger twitches - Callisto turns around, chest heaving, eyelashes fluttering shut.

The mission resets abruptly. Objective kill: override. New mission: protect.


“Technically it wasn’t on fire,” Apollo says and pushes the metallic, shiny lighter back into his jeans pocket. Artemis snorts and watches the flames soaring around the building.

She turns around abruptly, tugging a sleek Walther PPK between the rim of her jeans and her back; the metal cools her skin in an instant and she takes a deep breath.

When she turns around, Apollo still looks at her, his smile razor sharp with cutting edges.
Perilous.

“Of course it wasn’t on fire”, she says and opens the door to her car, “You completely blew it up.”

He doesn’t deny it, but takes his place in the passenger seat.


At times it feels as if her head would split in two.
Constantly torn between how people want her to be and trying to figure out who she wants to be.
She wants to kiss boys and make them cry.
She wants to kiss girls and make them love her.
She wants to love brutal and fierce, yet vulnerable and easy.
She wants to climb and hunt and run wild and free and get into fights.

She simply wants.

Sometimes, that’s already too much.


The Day she goes mad -
she can’t pull the trigger.

She wears a black, well-worn leather jacket that makes her shoulder look broader than intended, her hips narrow and slim; the bright, shiny Rouge Allure lipstick from Chanel on her full lips glistens in the sun. She drags a row of perfect white teeth over it but it doesn’t smudge.

Orion leaves the gas station with a packet of Wrigley’s Extra chewing gum and a bottle of coke. His jaws are chewing fast and hard and she observes the way his muscles work, how his throat glistens in the sun from a fine layer of sweat that reflects the bright sunlight.

“Should we let him know we’re on him?” Her brother asks bored from the side, his feet dangling from the hood of her black, shiny Volkswagen GTI. A cigarette dangles between his lips and Artemis observes the way the red glimmer in the ash flashes bright vermillion before it dies back to crimson again. The ash rains down on the sandy road.

“Now”, she finally breathes and turns around, the weapon steady between her delicate fingers, “Where’s the fun in that?”

Opportunity!Alfred pt.3

-Parents were part of English mafia

-Always had a fascination with expensive things but his parents were rich so they showered him with everything he wanted

-Decided to stay out of the mafia life when he was 15 when he met his half brother Mathieu (brother from a different mother)

-They attended the same boarding school

-Arthur, his full blooded brother, went down the mafia path and eventually became the right hand man to the head.

-Alfred and Arthur were always really close

-Alfred’s parents died from a mob hit when he was a senior in highschool

-Money was given completely to Arthur as their parents cut him completely off. They couldn’t have any ties to Alfred after all.

-Arthur paid for Alfred’s college and housing, and just about anything he asked for.

-Lives comfortably but not very extravagantly as he doesn’t want anyone to know of his ties to the mafia, especially since his brother is the right hand man to the head.

-He doesn’t need to work but still does anyways. He works at a coffee shop as a waiter/barista.

-Is fully aware of the territory lines in the city but soon starts to cross over them even though Arthur repeatedly to never go into them

-Has a thing for carrying two guns with him at all times. One in his bag and one in his boot (or wherever he can fit it)

-The one in his bag is a .357 S&W Magnum or a Colt M1911 .45 ACP (depends on how he feels that day) and the one on his person is a super tiny Walther PPK.

-He got the Walther PPK because James Bond had it and he’s a nerd

-When he first saw Ivan he was hiding behind a dumpster.

-Alfred took a liking to Ivan and started tracking his movements so he could find the perfect moments where he could “coincidentally” be in the same area as Ivan and he could take a notice of him.

Undercover

Fandom: James Bond

Pairing: Q x reader

Warnings: swearing, guns, violence and fluffff

Disclaimer: I do not own the James Bond books or films

Word Count: 3453

A/N: Bleh, I turned into a bond girl after watching Spectre last week. I re-watched Skyfall like twice and now I think Q is the most adorable human being on Earth…the troubles of being a fangirl. Btw this takes place in the middle of Skyfall. (Sorry if it doesn’t make much sense, in the timeline.)

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You’ve been working for MI6 for roughly five years now. The whole incident with Raoul Silva was quite devastating, especially since you were caught in the crossfire of the explosion at the ‘old’ MI6 headquarters. You weren’t seriously injured, but a bang to the head and a few days in bed was what you got. Other people…weren’t so lucky. Six of your colleagues were dead, you could clearly see the grief in everyone’s eyes. You only came back a few days later to be greeted by M and…someone you haven’t met before. “Ah, 00[n]. Great to see you are back on your feet again.” M greeted you with the warmest look she could muster. “Pleasure to be back to work, Ma’am.” You replied almost instantly. “This is your new Quartermaster…you’ll report back to him with your equipment after completed missions.” Suddenly M’s phone went off, she looked down at it… “Looks like I have to take my leave…meeting with the Prime Minister with Tanner.” You rolled your eyes at this, “Good luck with that Ma’am.”  The prime minister can be a bloody bitch sometimes. But what prime minister isn’t…I’m here to protect the queen and her country. M left the room and I was left with the new quartermaster, who was busy typing away on his laptop.

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Bad Memories aren't getting better but in them they still live

There was a time back in the late ‘80s and early ‘90s when I was in a self inflicted dark place. I initially thought I was just toying with the darker side, the shadowy parts of life you’re supposed to avoid. Then I realized it was much easier to slide down than to climb back out. I reached a point where I wasn’t sure if I’d make it out alive, and mostly didn’t care. Sort of like I’d written myself into a real life shitty story that was maybe what I deserved anyhow.
Music probably saved me. Not because what I heard resonated at some level that told me other people felt the same things. No, it wasn’t that simple. It was more a matter of losing myself in a song, both the power of the music and the world of the lyrics. Also it formed a soundtrack for the crappy personal movie I was playing a part in. Certain music fit bad nights and my confused mind perfectly. Among that music-
“Shine” the EP by Mother Love Bone
“Ultramega OK” and “Louder Than Love” by Soundgarden
“Dirt” and “Facelift” by Alice in Chains
“Bleach” by Nirvana
“Houdini” by Melvin’s
and everything by Skinny Puppy and Sisters of Mercy.

It’s odd. There’s some solidly bad memories attached to that music. Listening to “Louder Than Love” while cruising Southfield, Ferndale and Berkeley looking for a crack dealer who had ripped off $600 from a friend. Listening to “It Ain’t Like That Anymore” right before going into the apartment of a girlfriend on the night she took three shots at me with a Walther PPK.
Hearing “Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns” in my friend’s car after getting bailed out of jail. Strangely though, I’ve still loved and listened to that music. For some stranger reason, as the singers of those songs have died, the dark memories come back instead of all the others. It has nothing to do with youth or wanting to be young again. It really doesn’t. I think rather it’s, as crappy as those memories are, in them the singers are still alive. The potential for more great music exists. No more. Now Chris Cornell. Voices of ghosts. Only in my shitty past do they still live. I don’t like remembering then, but it’s how my head works.

Rest in peace Chris. Loved your voice, loved your music. You helped keep me alive once.

A GUN META

My brother is amazing and a genius

THE GUN MYSTERY: WHAT GUN IS THIS?

WE ALREADY KNOW BECAUSE MY BRO CAN RECOGNIZE GUNS FROM THE FRONT FOR SOME FUCKING REASON. BUT FIRST ELIMINATIONS. 

John’s gun: Sig sauer p226 

(this is a p220 bc I couldn’t find a 26 but according to my bro it doesn’t change front)

John’s gun eliminated 

Euros/ East Wind’s gun: Sig sauer 220 or 226 

(You cant see which because the only visible difference is the colours of the gun, we know John has a 226 because we have shot’s of it written on the gun. Knowing Moftiss it’s probably the same type. Mirrors mirrors) 

Euros/ East Wind’s gun eliminated for the same reason John’s gun was.

“Mary’s” Gun: M9 Beretta 

We see it here without silencer. (Also, Ajay’s gun is a glock and also can be eliminated, that thing’s front is as square as it can be) 

“Mary’s” gun eliminated 

ALSO: 

MORIARTY HAS ALSO A BERRETA IF YOU WANTED AN OTHER LINK TO “MARY”

Moriarty’s gun eliminated

SO WHAT IS THE GUN THEN? 

Same gun different shot if you needed a reminder. 

This a Walther ppk

See those fucking nibs on the bottom and the one thingy on the top? This is it my dudes, thank my brother. 


WHY IS THIS A BIG DEAL

  1.  THIS IS JAMES BOND’S GUN MOFTISS YOU FANBOYS
  2.  wikipedia: “hence better suited to plainclothes or undercover work”
  3.  Dutch wikipedia: “Very popular under spies, guards and bodyguards” 
  4. Polizeipistole Kriminalmodell is the PPK thing, it was used by police in Germany, I don’t know if there is some connection here but sounds interesting?
  5.  Some other fun facts: Adolf Hitler killed himself with this, and Elvis had one too. 

BUT ONE OTHER GUN HAS NOT BEEN ELIMINATED YET. 

THIS IS A WALTHER MOTHERFUCKING PPK OMFG. IT IS LADY NORBURY’S GUN. 

SO WHAT DOES THIS MEAN FOR OUR THEORIES?

I think it confirms our theory that what happened in the aquarium is not how it really happened.

Look at the effects, the framing, the bullet. This is over the top, a story. The flashbacks are how it really happened.  

This could be a tfp foreshadow. We will see the real story. If I’m right this could mean that the whole aquarium scene is confirmed false, including mary’s “redemption” arc and her amazingly realistic death. *kuch*


I’m not well versed in meta world so I hope someone who knows all the reality theories can do something with this! Forgive me for tagging you while you don’t know me (If you want me to remove your tag please say so!), I just hope to get somewhere with this. I don’t remember who came up with the unreliable narrator meta’s but if you do please tag them! Maybe this helps/supports their meta! 

(I got most of the t6t and tld scene pictures from @impatient14‘s meta about the gunshots in the season. I found those while researching pictures for the meta, it was not intended as a meta copy, this all just started because my brother recognized the flashback gun and into the rabbit hole I go)

If you could give feedback/tag people who could, it would be greatly appreciated! 

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Walther PPK/S

Famous German made semi-automatic pistol chambered in .32 ACP, it is a variation of the original Walther PP. The PPK/S was born from the absurdity of U.S gun laws that began to require imported pistols to meet certain specifications and earning enough points to be importable. Walther meshed the PP’s frame with the PPK’s slide and barrel, making it 1.8 ounces heavier and earning enough points to be imported. This point system is also why the Glock 25 and Glock 28, the first .380 ACP Glocks, were never imported and sold in the U.S. (GRH)