I am Cyndi.
I am a 35 year old autistic adult.
I will not shrink or change who I am to make others happy.
There is no “normal” woman hiding behind my autism. I am me, autism and all.
Being autistic has shaped every atom of my being. Everything from how I move to how I experience my emotions.
You can’t take autism away without killing me.
I stim shamelessly in public. I have a lot of sensory issues and difficulty with transitioning between activities. My overstimulation threshold is extremely low, so I’m almost always stimming in some form or another.
Sometimes I have meltdowns– some of them involve screaming, some are crying and some are self-injurious. Yeah, I punch myself in the head or bash my forehead against things.
I can talk reasonably well, but the words I say are often simpler than my thoughts. Speaking requires me to engage a lot of brainpower, though you can’t see the effort because it’s only palpable to me. Typing uses a lot less brainpower. I’m better at expressing myself in writing.
I am who I am and it’s not my problem if you don’t like it.
Autism Speaks wants to erase me and others like me from existence. Autistic people who can’t speak or make their communications understood by wide audiences are especially vulnerable to the hate and negativity this organization spews about us.
You are a hypocrite if you say “be yourself!” while supporting an organization that says “but not like that. We have to fix you first.”
Autism Speaks devalues autistic peoples’ lives. Why support that? So don’t.
Don’t wear blue on April 2nd. Don’t light it up blue. Don’t go to Autism Speaks walks unless you’re there to protest against the organization.
Don’t support Autism Speaks.
#boycottautismspeaks #actuallyautistic #walkinred