with these things there’s no telling
you just have to wait and see
but I’d rather be working for a paycheck
than waiting to win the lottery
besides maybe this time is different
i mean i really think you like me
Quand des militantEs te suivent jusqu’au bar où tu prends un
verre, te forcent à en sortir et te frappent parce que tu dénonces un de
leur camarade violeur. Tout en t'expliquant que tu “dessers la cause féministe” et que “de toute façon, illes ont décidé que X c'était pas un violeur”
I was never one of those “wait and see” type of people. My impatience always made it impossible for me, I’m positive somewhere along the lines this has made me seem pushy, needy…what have you. But, I was recently put in a situation that is now testing me (or it could be me testing myself) to see if I can actually wait around and let life take it’s course without any input.
What I’ve recently gotten myself into would be better left alone, but my problem is I need to fix it, I lose sleep at night if something is off balance, weather it be a relationship, or just my mood in general. So, I go and try to fix a situation, when all everyone needs is a little bit of space. I don’t like space. I like routine, and once a routine is in place, I like to keep it that way. So, when one needs space, it’s difficult for me to remove myself from the routine and occupy my mind some other way.
In short, if I go on trying to fix something that’s just not right at the moment, or just confused, I’ll never have the outcome I imagine and I sure as hell will never be happy. This is now a challenge for myself to test my patience and only time will tell what will come of it.
None of this is proof read, just my thoughts escaping me.
When somebody tries so hard to shut you out, but lets someone who obviously has ulterior motives in…..I got dirt, bitch. I got dirt like a freshly turned farm field. However, since it does include the innocent I shall keep silent. It’s just funny is all. Actually hilarious. Mwahahaa.