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Onision: “My fans need to respect my right to have opinions” ……then proceeds to attacks fans (or anyone) who voices opinions contrary to his own.
Also Onision: “People shouldn’t allow their emotions to interfere with their opinions or when debating with others, only facts should matter”… (This one is my favourite) routinely goes on an overly emotional/angry rants, resorting to name calling (ie., you’re a retard) because they don’t agree with him.
Every year at this point I swear I won't do it

And every year at this point I am doing it! I think they call that insanity or stupidity. Either way I am cranky, everything hurts, I am running out of time and I just don’t want to work on this project anymore.

I don’t even think anyone realizes how much work I do on this stupid little thing for my clients.

I swear next year I am not doing it. She says while ordering a “I am not with stupid, I am stupid” t-shirt.

Ah it’s just one of those days where everything is stupid and I’m not even sure I want to be happy because that’s not me and everytime I try to be okay, I just… miss myself or something. But I’m not allowed to feel this way because who doesn’t want to be happy? That’s fucked up.

I feel a little bad about the lack of content here lately, but… I just haven’t had the drive I used to have for this project. It may seem silly to say that after only a few weeks of neglecting it, but I’ve been working on Supernovas to some extent for hours a day, nearly every day for the past eight or nine months. I’ve been going at it pretty much full throttle. So to not have even touched it for four weeks seems like a long time to me.

Anyway, among other things, I’m currently being treated for severe anxiety, and I was definitely contributing to it myself by trying to go so far wth this comic… I know I make jokes about pushing myself too far and I never seem to be able to stop myself from doing so, but I really didn’t realize how much I was pushing myself until I actually, truly stopped. Even when I had no inspiration or motivation, I was still forcing myself to push forward with the comic, and now that I don’t have that anxiety driving me, I find I’m a little lost.

The point of this is… I want to get back in the swing of things with this project, but I don’t know when that’ll be. Waiting for the inspiration to hit could take who knows how long, but at the same time, I know I can’t force it, now more than ever. I’ve thought about going in a different direction - maybe tackling a different story arc, although I’d hate to leave the current one unfinished, or doing some fun, not strictly canon side stories? Maybe shine a spotlight on Neel and Crenna for a bit? But I really don’t know what I’ll end up doing, if anything at all.

Anyway, sorry for the whingepost, just wanted to give a little explanation and say that I hope to be back with some more Supernovas soonish!