I’m sorry for everything that i have done to hurt you. please know that it was never my intention. i have always been such a kind soul to those around me. you were the most innocent girl i have ever been with. two years. i can’t keep pretending i don’t love her anymore. i can’t keep pretending that you and me are both happy in this relationship. you know we aren’t. I’ve just become so used to being with you and saying that i love you.. its like a habit now. a bad habit. I’m your worst habit and you will only get worse from here if we stay together. please leave me. but please don’t leave me.
There are times when I find myself needing to talk to you. I don’t think it’s so much because I still love you. Although I have a sneaking suspicion that I always will. No. I find myself wanting to hear your voice because no matter how it ended, whatever you did or didn’t do, it doesn’t change the fact that you were my best friend. In the end you’re the only person who knows me better than I know myself. And in these moments, when all I really want is to have the comfort of you being there, I just… It just makes me really, really miss you. That’s all.