No, I Will Not Go Out With You.
It’s not necessarily that I don’t like you, I just don’t want to be in a “relationship.” I don’t want us to be like most of the couples I’ve seen. The ones where one doesn’t even want to spend time with the other one, despite the fact that they’re going out. The ones they flirt with other people, while going out. The ones were they seem more sad & alone than they did before they started going out. The ones where they cheat on eachother. The ones where they regret going out with the person, but stick with them because they don’t want to hurt their feelings. The ones where they don’t even like the person, they’re just in a relationship to be in one. I dont want us to be fake. I want you to LIKE me. I want you to want to spend time with me, not feel like you’re obligated to. I want us to last more than two days. I want to laugh with you & talk to you & I want to get butterflies when I see you. I’m not saying that I want you to love me, cause I know I probably won’t love you either. WE’RE YOUNG. I just want you to like me, is that asking too much? If we’re going to go out, I want us to like eachother. Why be in a relationship when you don’t feel anything for the other person? It’s bound to end in disaster. I know we won’t be together forever & that we’ll have fights, but I want to atleast look back on our time together & say that for the most part, I enjoyed it. Maybe I’m just doubtful because I’ve never been in a relationship before. Honestly, that’s most likely the reason. I just don’t want to waste my time with someone that doesn’t really want to be with me. I don’t want you to turn out to be a jerk. A mistake. I don’t want to feel more alone than I already do. I don’t want to get hurt… But with relationships, you tend to always do.
I’m just not ready.
Sincerely, the wimp.