You’re trying so hard to be something for God, that you fail to see what He’s trying to be for you. He’s trying to be the love you’re searching for, the one who meets every spiritual longing, the one who accepts you and receives you. Let God be the one He’s trying to be in your life.
Until we have met the monsters in ourselves, we keep trying to slay them in the outer world. And we find that we cannot. For all darkness in the world stems from darkness in the heart. And it is there that we must do our work.
Williamson, Marianne. Everyday Grace: Having Hope, Finding Forgiveness And Making Miracles.