violet you are my favorite

                  ~*Stanford Pines: The Violet Knight*~

anonymous asked:

Top 10 sentai suits design.

This one is one I’ve been thinking about for a while since I got it in my inbox. There are a lot of possible answers to this but I wanted to hold off until I caught up on some others and give it a bit of thought. Now that I’ve had the time, here we go!

10. Ryu Commander from Uchuu Sentai Kyuranger

This is going to be the most recent entry on the list and places this low because of that.  That said, I love this look.  I have always been a sucker for the long coat look on tokusatsu heroes going back to at least Shinken Red’s Super Mode and Kamen Rider Wizard, both designs I adore.

When you add violet, which is my favorite recent edition color, to the mix, you have a suit that REALLY hits my sweet spots for awesomeness. Plus, you make it dragon-themed and that just pushes it over the line to being one of the ten best ever.

9. Dragon Ranger from Kyoryu Sentai Zyuranger

Sticking with Dragons and extra Rangers for a moment I can’t let Burai’s hero outfit go by without adding it to the list.  He started the trend of taking the look of the original heroic suits and adding to them (in his case the chest protector and added gold bands) to the design to make the sixth hero’s outfit something really special. His is also just a great take on the general Zyuranger costume theme and his shade of green is particularly appealing to the eyes, vibrant and rich but not pastel or too dark.

8. Starninger from Shuriken Sentai Ninninger

I am not the biggest fan of the series Shuriken Sentai Ninninger but I am a fan of Starninger, especially his ridiculous outfit.  This may be because I live in Texas and am an American and Starninger’s cowboy rock star outfit is exactly what I expect the rest of the world to think of when they come up with a Texan hero.  Built in cowboy hat?  Check!  Lone Star faceplate? Check! Faux fringe on the faux poncho?  Check and check!  I also love the balance between gold, blue black and red with the gold being primary and everything else used as accent.  It’s a great look and I can’t help but love it!

7. Heart Queen from J.A.K.Q. Dengekitai

One design element of Sentai costumes I don’t think gets used enough are capes.  I love them but more about that later.  Of call the old-school pink heroines, I think Heart Queen has the best costume.  I love the sash across the shoulder to the hip that meets up with her belt, I love the yellow cape that gives a nice color contrast with the rest of her costume, I love the heart-emblem faceplate on the helmet and I really love the four colored triangles on the shoulder.  Each one represents a member of the team and functions as an anchor point for the cape.  Love that design element and I love designs that run diagonally across like that sash/utility harness.

6. Kyoryu Violet 2 from Zyuden Sentai Kyoryuger

Two of my personal favorite design elements come into play here, the across the chest diagonal design and the color violet.  I really like the Kyoryuger costume designs and somehow, I like the new ones from the South Korean/Japanese co-production Power Rangers Dino Force Brave/Zyuden Sentai Kyoryuger Brave even more with their addition of white accents for the helmets and areas on the uniforms.  However, none of those are violet so I ruled them out. This is a nice design and I really like the helmet with the dinosaur teeth and raised areas for eyes plus the little fins on the lower side to suggest the flippers of a plesiosaur.  That little armored shoulder bit suggesting a dinosaur eye just completes the look

5. Vul Eagle from Taiyo Sentai Sun Vulcan

If you can’t have a cape, I saw go with a scarf.  Yes, it’s more well known as a Kamen Rider costume flourish but I think it works for Sentai as well. Vul Eagle makes this list because I love how simple and iconic his costume is. The white and red color balance is great.  His yellow sun disc stands out on his chest and looks great.  But what really does it for me is his helmet.  The design might be kind of simple but I love the look of it with the huge golden eagle in the front and the yellow accents around the visor suggesting wings.  It’s a really great look.

4. Dekared from Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger

This is another costume I like for the helmet design. That’s not the only reason but it’s one of the first.  I like the police lights on the side of the helmet, I like the way the visor narrows in the middle and sweeps up dramatically to the back.  The visor shape reminds me of the headlights on a Nissan 350Z (which came out about the same time). The other thing I really like about this costume is the way the number designation is done with it being integrated into the left side of the costume and leaving one arm red and the other arm black,  I have a thing for asymmetric costume designs and this one is just fantastic.

3. Gokai Green from Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger

I really, really like the outfits from Gokaiger.  They pirate theme mixed with a Sentai costume really works with the flared boots, hat-like helmets, high collars and colored coat over a black undersuit just creates a unique look that I really, really think is one of the best designs in the last 10 years. So, why Gokai Green?  I like Green. It’s a good color when done right and Doc’s heroic costume is just the right shade of green to strike my fancy.

2. Akaranger from Himitsu Sentai Goranger

This may seem a pretty easy choice and it was for two reasons. 1) It’s the original Red Hero outfit and set the standard for what Sentai heroes look like. 2) It has my favorite design element of all time for a Sentai costume, that short cape. I love the way capes of that length move in battle and how easy they are to flourish dramatically without having them get in the way or drag like a long cape would. I also just love his thigh holster and high collar.  It’s a classy look that’s really passed the test of time.

1. MagiRed from Mahou Sentai Magiranger

Once more with the capes!  I love capes on Sentai outfits as I just said and I think the capes on the Magiranger outfits are just perfect.  I’m going to go with their original, non-powered up forms because I just think the outfits are better before the added on bits and changes.  The lines are clean and sleek, the material is nicer than the simple cloth used on Akaranger above and the helmet design works much better for me.  In short, good costume design is Magic!

  • nooreva AU in which noora is a firefighter and eva is an accident-prone barista
  • noora is a regular at eva’s coffee shop, and they meet on eva’s first day
  • eva is like “o holy shit pretty girl” the moment she sees noora, so naturally she knocks over her coffee cup
    • “fuck i’m so sorry, i’m just nervous cause it’s my first day, so…”
    • noora responds graciously, smiling encouragingly, making eva’s heart beat a little faster. “it’s no problem at all. i’m not in a hurry. my work is literally just across the street.”
    • “at the firehouse?” “yeah.” “wow, that’s really cool! firefighters have been my heroes ever since i nearly burned down my house when i was eight. i mean, i don’t plan on burning my house down anytime soon, but—um..”
    • “i’ve got your back just in case you do.” noora takes her coffee, leaving with a smile and “see you around.”
  • closing time at the coffee shop. eva is wiping down counters and doesn’t notice knocking down a stack of filters into the roasting machine. until it starts to smoke and the alarm goes off.
  • noora and the fire crew—sana, vilde, and chris—answer the call right away. noora laughs fondly when she sees the klutzy barista from earlier
    • “i guess your plan to not burn the house down didn’t quite work out.”
    • “lucky for me, you’ve got my back.”
    • the fire crew cleans up the charred mess. eva tries not to panic, realizing she could get fired for this—on her first day, to boot
    • noora asks her what’s wrong, and when eva tells her, noora just smiles slyly. “who said we were going to tell your boss about this?”
    • “really? you would do that?”
    • “yeah. it’ll be our secret.”
    • “oh my god, thank you so much, i owe you—“
    • “don’t mention it. i’ve got your back, remember?”
  • for the next several days, when noora shows up to order coffee. she and eva trade knowing smiles
  • they pick up a rhythm of playful banter. eva shares silly stories of household mishaps—anything to make noora laugh
  • eva gets to know the rest of the fire crew too, since the coffee shop and fire station are in such close proximity. eva learns from sana that noora broke up with her girlfriend willa a few months ago, which brings on a jubilant internal celebration. she immediately wants to ask noora out, but it’s hard to work up the courage–what if noora doesn’t feel the same way? so instead, eva just focuses on hinting that she likes girls too, saying things like “violets are my favorite flower” and “have you seen hayley kiyoko’s new video?”
  • then comes the day when eva accidentally sets a fire in her house. honestly, this girl should know not to leave on her curling iron. but this is eva, the most fire-prone girl in town. her smoke alarm goes off at 2 am, and as fate would have it, noora answers the call
    • “oh my goodness, you truly do have the worst time sticking to your plan.”
    • eva smiles, shivering from being outside in her pajama top, as noora drapes a blanket around her shoulders. “it must be your fault—you’re too good at having my back. if you left, then i wouldn’t have a safety net, and i’d stop setting fires.”
    • “oh no, i won’t leave you. what would i do if you burned to death? who would make me smile over coffee every day?”
    • eva is super-aware of noora’s hand still resting on her shoulder, and all of a sudden, she can’t hold back anymore
    • she blurts out “do you want to go out with me? i mean, would you like to have dinner sometime? like together?”
    • noora smiles her signature red-lipped smile, the smile eva fell in love with the very first day they met. noora gently squeezes eva’s shoulder, and she responds, “i would.”

special shoutout to @skamofmylife and @closetlesbianvilde for beta reading! ilysm phoebe and alex ❤️❤️❤️

After hours of searching through my house for all my year books, I was able to dig up some adorable photos of Violet Chachki from grade school. For many years now I have been really close with so many staff members of the the grade school and high school Jason (Violet) went too, and I would go and visit the school and I remember Jason. So, I’m sure you could imagine how surreal it felt to watch him win my favorite TV show. Violet if you somehow end up reading this, I want to let you know that the staff members I know are so proud and happy for you. We all are so proud of you. It’s so inspiring to know that the kid I would occasionally pass in the hallway ended up being Americas Reigning Drag Superstar. violetchachki

tigerliliesandcherryblossoms  asked:

Petunia, Violet & Rose please :)

Thank you!

petunia: who is your favorite character to write for? why?

I have to say Bucky. I like exploring all the different people he’s been throughout his arc, and generally I can identify with a lot of his character traits, so he feels close to me. But I have to admit that writing Bucky from Steve’s point of view is also one of my favorite things ever.

violet: do you read a lot?

I read a lot less than I used to, but still try to finish several books a year, plus reading fanfiction, hahah. I like books, and I’ve tried to consciously make an effort to read more of them lately.

rose: which of your works is your favorite? why?

Uhhh this is hard. I’m incredibly fond of Mesmeria, but also my RBB fics (1,2), and the bitch series are definitely on top of the list.

flower asks for fanfic writers

anonymous asked:

can you give me the songs to your playlist

1. Love a nigga~ ELHAE
2.Too Deep~ DVSN
3.Losing~ H.E.R
4.Get You~ Daniel Caesar (my Favorite song)
5.Violet~ Daniel Caesar
6.Red Bone~ Childish Gambino
7.With me~ DVSN
8.Crew~Goldlink and Shy Glizzy
9.Skrt~Roy Woods
10.Dangerous~ Roy Woods
11.Redhot Chilli Peppers~ Roy woods and Majid Jordan
12.First Fuck~ 6LACK
13.Free~6LACK
14.Never Know~6LACK
15.That Far~ 6LACK
16.Run me Dry~Bryson tiller

Nothing's fine, I'm torn (part 39)

This chapter gave me Harry feels so Harry girls beware. The ending is only a few chapters away, so don’t miss out. Other than that, I hope you enjoy this chapter because I worked REALLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYY hard on it. Anyway, enjoy and have a goodnight/good morning to you. Ilysm cuties 💕💕💜 also, I know it’s tiring going to the ask box and typing in stuff but a few seconds of your thoughts on the chapter would be so much appreciated!

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Y/N’s POV

Liam’s once bright smile has he entered the room sets into a deep frown, centering his eyebrows in the mid of his forehead. I know that’s not what he wanted to hear, but I can’t lie to Liam. Not when it’s something as serious as this. I can’t help but instantly regret telling him though, he’s still so hopeful and I am still willing to give him that chance.

“Liam, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said anything.” I sigh putting my head down. I need to learn to be more sensitive, especially towards him.

“Hey, don’t apologize,” he places two fingers under my chin slightly raising my head to meet his brown eyes of his. They look broken and sad but he’s wearing a small grin that warms my heart. “I asked you to be honest with me and that is exactly what you did. I can’t expect you to stop loving Harry when it has only been a few days. Love just doesn’t go away like that. Granted, a lot has happened in a few days but I don’t blame you. I promised once that I’d wait until you were ready and that promise still stands.” He smiles widely holding my hand in both of his. Why does Liam have to be so sweet? This just makes it even more complicated. It hasn’t been an hour since I have been awake and already I have two men declaring their love for me. Though I’m still skeptical about Harry’s supposed love.

That kiss meant something, I know it did. I wanted him to keep going, I wanted it to happen no matter the consequences. I know better though, I may still love Harry but I can’t forget or forgive him for all he has done. Not only to me, but Sofia. Poor Sofia, when she finds out what her brother did it is going to break her, she’s been through a lot. We all have been. Sometimes the things we have been through takes a toll on us and it drives us to do stupid things. Which in the end, is not worth it. More people end up hurt and no one is benefitting from it.

“Thank you Liam. I promised you too that I’d give you a chance and that still stands as well. I could see myself falling for you, it wouldn’t be that hard,” I smile at him. His grin grows even wider, taking my hand in his and planting a small kiss. Just half an hour ago, Harry and I were mercilessly kissing each other, ready to rip off our garments and now here I am reassuring Liam of his chances. Definitely still a fucked up situation.

“Oh, I almost forgot,” he announces. Reaching for the small bouquet of flowers and stuffed teddy bear from the table. He holds them out in front of me with the cutest pout and puppy face ever. “I got these for you before I came in here. It’s not much but hopefully it’s enough to show how happy I am that you’re back.” I take the flowers and teddy bear from his hands. Smelling the beautiful scent the flowers give. They’re violets and daisies, my favorites.

“Thank you Liam,” I lean to kiss his cheek. He visibly flushes not even bothering to hide his childish grin. We sit in silence for a few minutes, it’s not an awkward silence but more of a peaceful quietness. I think it’s just to take in the fact that I’m back and I’m safe again from Marcus’ manhandling and Andrew’s overall mental health. A soft knock appears on the door, both of our heads snapping towards it. My stomach clenches thinking it’s Harry but quickly relieved when it’s the doctor and nurse.

“Miss Y/N, I see you’re finally up. How’re you feeling?” The doctor asks.

“Still a bit tired but better than I have in days,” I respond with a full on smile. Liam stands taking a few steps behind to let the approaching doctor examine my estate while the nurse checks my vitals.

“Alright just follow the light with your eyes,” he instructs with his mini flashlight. I do as I’m told, following the light as instructed. “Your pupils are back to normal, and the drug has left your body by now.” He smiles reassuringly.

A sigh of relief washes through me, pulling a real genuine smile. “Thank you doctor, really.” I turn my smiling face back to Liam who mirrors my facial expression. I still feel tired and weighed down, but I guess those are just the after effects.

“We’ll keep you here overnight just to make sure everything’s alright. You’ve made quite the impressive recovery miss Y/N. You’re a strong, young lady,” he shoots me a dazzling smile that compliments his hazel brown eyes, “other than that, I don’t see why you should not be able to go home tomorrow.” I squeal with excitement, not being able to contain it. Heck, like I even wanted to. I finally get to rest on my own bed, relax in the comfort of my home.

He gives Liam and I a nod, turning to the door but turning back holding up a finger, “by the way your dinner will be brought up soon.” With that, he and the nurse walk out closing the door behind them. In this day of unfortunate events, this news makes up for almost everything.

Liam returns to his original spot, his smile not seeming to fade one bit.
“You get to go home Y/N, how exciting is that?” He crouches slightly, holding my hand in his once again.

“Very,” I smile widely. “Though I’m not hungry, my appetite needs to go back to normal before I can eat anything.” A deep scowl overtakes his face like if I’m crazy for not wanting to eat. I haven’t had a proper meal in days, let alone eaten in days at all.

You would think they would keep me at least well fed but that was maybe hoping for too much. There’s not much to expect coming from them. How crazy is it that just this morning I was still in that musty old warehouse and now I’m here, surrounded by people who are caring for me. I was so close on giving up hope, but I held on to that small hope that I would be saved. Yet, Harry’s the one who saved me. He found me and brought me here and yes I am thankful that he did but there’s that grudge of knowing his past taunting me, picking at me in a mocking way.

“Nonsense, you have to eat. You haven’t been well fed, you need the energy babe,” he says encouragingly. I playfully roll my eyes, not bothering to argue with him against it. I do need to eat if I want to stop feeling like absolute crap. We continue talking for what feels like half an hour when a knock appears at the door. I keep thinking it’s Harry and it makes me sweat. He hasn’t come in here since we kissed which is odd, but that is what I wanted, right?

“Come in,” Liam says for me. The door slowly swings open to reveal the boys, oh my. Zayn, Louis and Niall come in with a large array of flowers and a giant teddy bear that Niall carries. I giggle at the scene in front of me as they struggle to put down the big objects. I feel so enthralled, that is so sweet of them.

“Y/N, oh dear. We just got the news today babe,” Niall says gently embracing me in a warm hug, followed by the other two boys following his actions. “I’m still in disbelief, this is insane.” They all have very distraught looks etched on their handsome faces. I don’t like it when people feel bad for me, their expressions make my heart ache.

“It’s okay, I’m safe now,” I try sounding as positive as I can manage. Facing them with a half smile. “I’m happy you guys came. It truly means a lot.”
They all take a seat on the small hospital bed, giving me sad pouts with sad faces. I’d tell them to stop but it’s actually too dang adorable.

Sighing with a relief of contentment, I’m feeling a lot better than I did earlier. I don’t know why I’m feeling disappointed that Harry hasn’t come into my room, I’m just so contradicting. I’m supposed to be mad at him and hate him yet here I am whining over him not coming into my room. This is what I wanted, and me wanting him in here is not helping at all. I can still literally feel his soft lips on mine, the way they moved, the way he took control over the whole thing. The way he was so dominant over controlling my tongue made me ache for him. The thoughts wander around in my head, questions too. What if he were to lock the door and continue what we were doing? I was so deeply into it, I doubt I would’ve stopped. ‘Not like you wanted to’ my subconscious remarks. She’s right, but if it would have happened, I know just how much I would have regretted it. But just the way he pressed himself against me and rocked himself on the inner part of my thigh was enough to send me nearly over the edge.

I still wonder if he’s thinking about it too, like I am. I’ve blocked out all the noise surrounding me. I see the boys talking amongst themselves while I get lost in my train of thought. I can attempt to push those thoughts away, they’ll just eventually find their way back into my head.
I’m snapped out of my deep, thoughtful thinking by another knock coming into the door. Thank goodness, I needed something to distract me from myself.
A lovely older looking nurse comes in with a tray with what looks to be food. In the last few minutes, I have managed to gain somewhat of an appetite and it actually smells good for being hospital food.

Harry’s POV

After my very much erotic encounter with Y/N, I decided I needed a breather. I needed to walk and clear all the shit in my head. You never really realize how much things can take a toll on you until it becomes too much. She wanted space so I gave that to her, but I owe her an explanation on the whole Sofia story.

I need to gather the right words and how I’m going to put it to her about Sofia Simmons. The girl who I befriended and then fucked to get what I wanted. I promised to leave that past behind me but it came back so sudden, I haven’t even had the time to think straight. It’s all happening so fast. However, Y/N deserves to know the entire truth from me as well. If it’s the last thing, the last bit of hope that I have for Y/N to see that I love her, then I’ll take it.

I’m not going fuck up anymore, at least try not to. I’m doing this for her because she deserves it, we both deserve it. Now that I have had the proper time to think, I will go for it.
Walking in again through the familiar doors of the hospital, I make my way straight to her room.
I knock gently with my knuckles, opening the door slowly to reveal that all of the boys are here. The bright smile she had soon faded as she saw my lean body stand in the doorframe.

“I need to speak with Y/N,” I say lowly. I think I’ve made the awkward tension in this room grow big, gazes being traded amongst each other. “Please.”

Liam seems uncertain. Clenching his jaw while his steely gaze is directed towards me. I don’t have time for his ridiculous scolding. “She’s eating,” he says calmly.

“Liam, no Harry’s right. We need to talk.” I’m slightly taken aback by her calm behavior. I would have expected her to refuse and tell me to go away but this is different, way more different. She wipes the corners of her mouth with her napkin. The boys all stand, wishing her a goodnight. Liam looks at me with hard eyes, a burning gaze when he turns to give her a kiss on her cheek on the very fucking corner of her mouth. She too was caught of guard. I know he did that just to spite me but if only he knew. He brushes past me, slightly nudging my shoulder with his. I roll my eyes turning my attention back to her. She takes little bites of her food looking like she can barely keep it down.

I knew those bastards weren’t feeding her well. I watch her make small movements, her eyes never looking up to meet mine. She looks a bit better now, I just wish I could climb into bed with her and cuddle her in my arms. “Look at me,” I say softly. She doesn’t respond, instead she just releases a breath of air, fiddling with the food on her plate. “Y/N please baby, look at me,” desperation clear in my voice. I stand at the very end of her bed, eyeing her body sprawled out on the bed.

She finally does, but her eyes are sad, broken almost. It’s not the same sparkle I used to see in them before everything came tumbling down. “I’m not your baby, Harry. Please don’t call me that.” Her voice slightly cracks though she’s quick to cover it with a cough. “So you want to talk, talk then. Or are you planning on assaulting me with your mouth again?”

I tense up noticing her hostility. I know she’s mad about it but there is no way in hell she can deny that she did not like it, I know she did. If I mention it to her she’ll get even more mad so I’ll refrain from saying anything. “Don’t, please don’t lash out on me. I came here to talk about Sofia Simmons. You wanted to know my side of the story, so that’s what I’m going to do.” She pushes the small tray of food away from her, adjusting herself on the bed. It looks like that’s all she’ll eating for now. I should urge her to eat but she’d scold me for it.

I take a chair from the side and pull it next to her but not too close so she doesn’t get mad about it. I can’t believe I’m about to revisit my past, but for this girl, I’d bring back anything. My eyes keep darting back to her beautiful pink lips that I got to savor earlier, and it’s so fucking hard for me to not do it again. She’s so god damned beautiful she doesn’t even realize it. I could not think it was possibly but every minute of every second she keeps on getting even more stunning. I’m really madly in love with her that even just thinking about her drives me insane. Whatever it takes, I will pull at all stops to win her back.

“Harry,” her sweet, soft voice snaps me away from my trance. God help me find a way to get through this without her detesting me anymore than she already does. “Tell me everything about Sofia and how it all started.”

My leg begins to shake involuntarily, breathing heavily. It’s not so much the nervousness of telling her the story, just her reaction. I look up at the awaiting, beautiful girl in front of me to answer all of her questions.
“When I was 16, I thought I was a little badass. It’s true that I slept with girls for my own entertainment,” I gulp, scared to look at her if she’s wincing. Luckily, she’s not. She is paying attention to my every word, like she always does.

“When Sofia came to my school, I thought she was beautiful. Long hair, perfect body, she was almost flawless, almost. The day I saw her, I knew I wanted her. Didn’t care what I had to do, just knew that I was going to make her mine. So one day I went up to her to try to get to know her better and she was really guarded, very closed off indeed,” I pause shortly before continuing. I hate having to bring this up but I must. For once Y/N is not staring at me with a scowl on her face. It is expressionless, but I’ll take that over frowns setting on her.

“Anyway, I knew she was going to be hard to crack. So befriending her was on my checklist. After a while of finally gaining her trust, we became inseparable. I had only met and seen Andrew a few times, he was barely around so I figured having sex with her would be easier. You know, without the whole protective brother thing,” shame laced in my voice. Sitting here, revisiting my past to the girl I’m in love with seems pretty fucking delusional, what isn’t though? I wait to see any signs contort from her but none so far, for now. I know once I get further into it she’s going to be even more disgusted with me.

“How did you get her to give up her virginity to you even though you both weren’t in a relationship?” She curiously asks. I was dreading that one but I knew it was coming.

“The night she invited me over, I thought that was the perfect opportunity. We watched movies, fooled around until I got on top of her and kissed her. She didn’t hold back. The kiss got extreme and one thing lead to another and.. It wasn’t that hard. She was in love with me and I was fully aware of that, I used it to my advantage,” my voice fades noticing the frown and disappointed look on her face. I think it’s all hard for her to take in, I’m sure she wanted it all to be a lie but this is the truth. I just wish I could erase it all so I can stop hurting her. Intentionally and unintentionally, it needs to stop.

“Did you know she became depressed after everyone started calling her names? Harry, she tried taking her own life because it became too much for her,” her voice cracks, she’s crying again. Fuck, every time I’m near her, she sheds tears because of me. I don’t know how much of this I can take. Though her words leave me rattled, I didn’t know Sofia attempted suicide. Did it get that bad? Because of me? Holy shit, I ruined Sofia. I didn’t know it was that bad. My heart sinks, leaving me almost speechless.

“She didn’t..” She shakes her head no knowing what I was going to ask. She wipes away tears from her eyes. They look tired. So fucking worn out.

“Harry, do you regret what you did?” I think about her question for a few seconds. I know the correct answer is for me to say yes, but I’d be lying. I do feel sorry but I know that if I didn’t realize that I needed to get my shit together, I would keep doing it. I slowly shake my head, explaining to her why I don’t regret it.

“It’s kind of crazy how Sofia’s story and mine is kind of similar. Ironically it involves the same guy that we fell in love with, but slowly tore us apart,” he words seething into me. I hate hearing her say that but she’s right, fuck is she right. But I don’t want her to think she’s repeating Sofia’s story because she’s not. I love Y/N, I didn’t love Sofia.

“But I love you Y/N. I don’t know how many times I have to say it to you, but I love you.” I bravely take her hand in mine, kissing it over and over again. My eyes begin to prickle with water, forcing them back but they push through. “You have no idea how much I love you. You are beautiful, smart, witty, sarcastic, naïve, stubborn, weird, did I mention stubborn?” I place my hand on her cheek, feeling the warmth of it spread throughout my hand.

“And above all that, I fell in love with you because of who you are. You have everything Kendall didn’t have and never will. It took so.much.shit for me to notice it, but I’m here now and I’m fighting for you Y/N.” She then sits up, taking my hand in hers. She wipes the small tears away from my face with her small hands. They feel so soft against the stubble of my facial hair.

“Even if we wanted to make it work, destiny doesn’t want us together, Harry. Lets face it, you and I weren’t meant to be no matter what we feel for each other. We have both been through a lot because of this, we’ve endured too much. Harry, you and I just are not meant to be,” she says, removing her hand from my face. I quickly wrap my larger and around her wrist, shaking my head hastily.

“I don’t care what destiny thinks or whatever the fuck life thinks. You and I have been through all of this because it’s testament to see how much we can take. I know we’re at our breaking points Y/N, but baby I love you and I don’t care what you say because I know you love me,” I place my hand on her neck, leaning her forehead against mine. I can feel her hot breath on me, she’s slowly panting just like she was earlier.

I know everything she says and does are just excuses to not want to be with me, because she’s scared of me and I don’t blame her. She’s fragile and one more fuck up and I would lose her for good. Our breathing increases as we lean in forward, further and further when finally those lips that I have been aching for all day touch mine. She pulls me in further, taking control this time. Obliging to her movements, I follow her every movement.

I’m such a kid right now. Liam could come in any moment and see us, and though it may sound like I’m an asshole, I hope he does. She loves me, not him. And with each swipe and lick of her tongue, it’s only reassuring.
She bites my bottom so fucking seductively, I nearly convulse wanting to rip off the robe off her body. My hands are firmly placed on her hips not wanting to add any pressure. She pulls away for a short quick second, whispering against my swollen lips from her assault,

“Stay with me tonight, please. Just hold me all night long Harry while we sleep. I need you,” she sniffles. I move away the water from her cheeks and eyes. Pecking her lips before finally responding to her request, as if she had to fucking plead for me to say yes.

“Yes,” I silently whisper, reconnecting our mouths to continue kissing her. I know this doesn’t mean we’re together or that she has forgiven me, but she needs me just like I need her, and if sleeping with her on this small bed means just that then I will do it.

We’ve been away from each other for too fucking long, we need this. Just the simple fact that she wants me to sleep right next to her means everything. This will definitely be the best sleep I have gotten in weeks because she will be beside me, while I hold her and protect her. She’s my everything, she definitely is.