vic problems

im rlly sad that adam is going to lash out and cheat when he and vic are struggling fertility wise and I rlly hope that it’s not vic who has fertility problems because how awful would it be to find out your husband has gone and slept with someone else because you can’t get pregnant

omfg but like sterek soulmate au where the only people who can see your tail and cute furry ears that sit on the top of your head are your family/family to be (found family counts) and your soulmate. and scott and stiles can see each others’ when they meet when they’re like 4 and they decide they’ll be bros for life (and well, years later after claudia dies, sheriff/melissa get married) and stiles can see lydia’s in high school and he thinks they’ll get married but naaah she just becomes one of his closest friends, pretty much sister from another mother. when he’s going through college, allison’s becomes visible (after like the 3rd time she and scott make up), and so do isaac’s, erica’s, boyd’s, and ew, even jackson’s as they all sort of become pack. and stiles has been able to see all the hale’s tails since before he can remember and he has no idea what is going on but well, all of them are kinda hot but cora and laura have people and stiles sees them as sisters more than anything and wow that leaves hunky hulking derek who (has pulled his tail when they were younger and still does) has the cutest ears that are black on the outside and pink on the inside and stiles kind of wants to stroke them and maybe wrap derek’s tail around himself and go to sleep since it looks so soft and inviting all the damn time.

Society:
“Kellin Quinn sounds like a girl!1!1"
Me:
No bitch girls sound like Kellin okay bye.
Society:
“Vic Fuentes can’t sing!1!1!1!1!1!1!1!1!1!“
Me:
Neither can you, ya stupid dickmunch.
Society:
“Patrick Stump used to be so fat haha he’s still ugly though!1!1!1”
Me:
Bitch back away while your legs are still attached to your body.
Society:
“Gerard Way is gay as fuck!1!1!1"
Me:
Yah I know. We all know that. (JK not really but kinda JK)

Hi so this is an apology letter kinda
This is stupid but
I have bpd. That means I’m a monster. I have the devil illness where I can turn into a monster at any minute. People have often described people who have borderline personality disorder as soulless, apathetic, vindictive, pure evil, heartless…
It’s horrible and I hate that I can turn insecure and rebellious, vindictive, jealous, hateful, manipulative, and I can turn into a terrible person at any second. I wish I didn’t have this. I really really am empathetic and I love all of those I’m close to so much. I love them so much and I’m sorry about how ugly I can be I wish it could stop. I feel everything so intensely. I feel love and depression and fear so fully. I love all of my friends so so much. I am sorry I turn ugly so quickly.
But because of this I feel emotions so intensely. I feel love and happiness so strongly. When I’m happy I am so happy. I do feel good things and I am so so glad that I have this in a way because I feel emotions so strongly, even if the bad ones are more common, I feel love and happiness and beauty so fully that sometimes when I’m happy I feel like I’ll never be sad again. All I can see is beauty and love. Everything is beautiful. The world is so beautiful and nothing hurts. It’s calm and I can breathe and be friendly and I feel happiness so intensely that I can’t sleep for days at times. It’s almost worth the pain. It’s not but sometimes it feels like that.
This hurts so much. I hate who I turn into. How I dissociate and all I can see is red. I hate that I can be okay one minute and start to scream and punch things and hurt myself the next. I hate that sometimes I can’t stand to be in my body so much that I dissolve out of it and I have stupid out of body experiences. I hate how I’m not in control and how the only ways I can feel in control are self destructive. I hate that I either eat everything or nothing for days straight, I either scream and cry or I stay silent for days, I hate that I can’t do anything normal. It’s either black or white. It contributes to my eating disorder and everything else that’s going wrong with my brain.
I love everyone I’m close to. I don’t mean to be like this. I love you all so much and I am so sorry.