Most people would be stoked to be this close to 21… but to be honest I am pretty bummed. I’ve been a teenager for 7 years and I have grown pretty fond of it. I feel like you can get away with so much more when you’re a teen. I know deep inside that being older won’t make me any more mature… because I will always be an immature little kid in the inside. I am not sure whether its from watching peter pan too many times, watching too many cartoons or listening to Blink-182 consecutively. What I do know is, I never plan on growing up inside. I may act mature in public (sometimes) and pull many serious faces when in a meeting, but the scene in Billy Madson when Chris Farley takes his shirt off will be running through my head the entire time. Even though I have a fun, but serious job, playing music on the road…The first thing I do when I get home is jump on my Blue Diamondback BMX and ride around my neighborhood with my neighbors. Because I believe no matter how old you are, nothing/nobody can take your childhood away from you. But don’t get me wrong… when situations call for it, I will be mature and smart in my decisions. I would never let my puerile behavior affect my friends and loved ones in a negative way. And Who knows…maybe 10 years from now I’ll be sitting in a cubicle working an important desk job reading this going “Wow, I used to be a really fun and happy go lucky guy, I wonder what happened?” But chances are, I wouldn’t be hired for an important desk job with only a high school diploma Haha. -Jack Barakat
I feel like my life is taking a turn. I’m heading down a road I’ve never been on before. Nothing is familiar. The signs don’t make sense. Do I get off the road? Or do I keep riding? Do I go alone? Or take others with me? Who do I trust for the journey? I now understand why being a leader requires isolation. I have to remove myself from those whose lives are affect by my decisions. Those I love as well as those I hate. It’s getting more and more difficult to be a brother when my decisions are the ones a father has to make. By the time you’re old enough to make a sense of this life, you’ll know everything about me. The things i’m proud of and the things I regret. And then you’ll be faced with your own decisions. And as much as I want to help you and tel you what to do… those choices will be yours alone. The only advice I can give you son is to examine who you are as a man. figure out what’s important to you. Know yourselves. Know what’s in your heart. Don’t be swayed by fear or history or the opinions of outsiders. Find your own truth, it will lead you to the things you love.
“When we first met you told me that disguise is always a self portrait—how true of you. The combination to your safe, your measurements. But this, this is far more intimate. This is your heart. And you should never let it rule your head. You could have chosen any random number and walked out of here today with everything you worked for. But you just couldn’t resist it, could you? I’ve always assumed that love is a dangerous disadvantage. Thank you for the final proof.”