That’s not a bad place to be, to be honest.
Yes, the goals are vague, but you HAVE goals and even though they’re seemingly unattainable right now, there’s no reason they have to be in the future.
A lot of people - especially younger people - think that goals have to be completely flushed out and bright and complete before they’re realized. That’s painfully unrealistic. You want something? You have an idea? Go and start TRYING to do it, even if you’re not sure how exactly, even if you don’t know what you’re doing.
You wanna help MOGAI youth? Find a clinic near you, or a counseling center that helps LGBTQA students. Go find a community center that does talks for queer people - the opportunities are endless. But only if you look for them actively. They will not knock on your door. You have to open it up, step outside, and START walking towards them.
One way or another, if you push yourself into the right spaces, you will see more solid things appear in front of you - things that you can become a part of to make your life the way you want it to be.
As for your QPP - don’t give up on that dream, but don’t let it control your life. Find yourself, and don’t try to depend on a separate person that’s in another country. No matter how much they love you, or how little, you will always be reaching for your goals by yourself. They can support you, but they cannot always be there for you, no matter if they’re in another country, or if they’re in the next room. The best thing to do is to motivate yourself - the rest will come naturally.