(part one)if all goes well in a few days, i should be starting t. im very excited but im also a bit nervous. its something i think about everyday when i have to talk and when i get misgendered and when i look in the mirror and still see a girl and its really frustrating. but im still a little nervous because for one, im a singer . i am young, im 15, so i know bc of that theres a better chance i can keep my voice but im still scared bc its really important to me.
(part 2)this is very recent as well? i only started identifying as genderqueer ~7 months ago and ive wanted to go on t as soon as i started letting myself be masculine. i now identify as male and i have my hrt appt very soon. i guess id just appreciate some reassurance? i guess because of all the stuff ive been hearing from my family about “this is so sudden” “you were so girly” has made me question everything a lot.
LOTS and LOTS and LOTS of people keep their singing voices, at least if they consciously practice singing or take singing lessons. I’ve spoken to my song teacher about this (well, regarding me personally) and he expressed zero concerns. Obviously your voice is going to change, there’s no denying that, and there are some songs you probably won’t be able to sing in the same pitch again, but you will still be able to sing if you practice. Anyone can learn to sing with the right amount of dedication - and, sadly, sometimes money for lessons. But the bottom line is, it’s not like you’ll never be able to sing again just because you go on T.
If you’re unsure about whether or not to start T, talking with a therapist or at least the endo about it would be a good idea. Some effects of T are irreversible, and if you feel like this is too sudden a thing, I’d say don’t rush it. However, if it’s just your family telling you it’s too sudden but you are sure, have been consistently sure this is a good thing for you to do for a long period of time, and everything like that, and you feel like going on T now would improve your life, I’d say don’t listen to them. Your mental health is important, and you are allowed to put yourself first.
Regarding the “you were so girly”-thing: during the past week a lot of us talked about how you don’t need to use your childhood to define whether or not you’re trans. I suggest you look through the videos from the past week on our channel and perhaps show some of them to your family.
Best of luck!