Every time I talk about my feelings I get paranoid people are thinking I’m seeking pity or that type of attention. I find pity really insulting. I get nervous they are going to think I’m seeking pity when in reality I need help, especially since I only seek out emotional support when I seriously need it. I fear my feelings being invalidated, minimized, ridiculed, shrugged off as nothing. It hurts so deeply. Every time it happened a kid it felt like someone pouring acid on a pre-existing wound. It still does, but now I perceive implications that I’m unimportant when they aren’t there because that’s all I know and all expect. That’s why I never let my guard down.
My parents made me feel so unimportant.
I actually feel sad they made me feel so unimportant.