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“A beautiful Japanese-American girl who enjoyed the same cultural pursuits as Ray but who displayed a much, calmer, both-feet-on-the-ground approach to life, Dorothy was studying medicine. The same age as Ray, Dorothy had a much older head on her shoulders. She could stay up all night rapping with Ray about the finer points of Kurosawa’s Rashomon and still make a 9am class on cardiovascular disease. She was also Ray’s first big love affair. […] Dorothy was more than just a scintillating lover and friend. She became his muse. The one he would always try to impress, to make happy, to gain the ultimate approval from.” - Mick Wall.

“She could look into you and through you. No games, no lies. She was in her moment of time. In the suchness, as Zen master and author D. T. Suzuki would say. And she was cute as hell.” - Ray Manzarek.

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He was like no one I had ever met before. He was very confident and I have never been confident. We grew together. I liked him - and it went on from there.

The more I got to know him, the more I loved him for himself. He had quality as a person, which I think is rare in life these days. One thing which was always constant was the love. We knew we could trust each other and we were safe with each other. We knew that we would never hurt each other on purpose.

Before, I always had Freddie to turn to and he always had me to turn to if need be. Suddenly, there wasn’t anyone to help me. It made me realise that I wasn’t as self-sufficient as I would have liked to have been. As much as I’d been a friend to him, I realised how much of a friend he’d been to me as well. He was always very protective of me. I only realised, after he died, quite how protective he’d been. If something happened, he’d say, "Oh darling, don’t worry - we’ll get over that.” He was uplifting. At other times, when he was aware he had AIDS and only had a limited time to live, there’d be the odd serious conversation when he’d say to me, “Let’s go and sit, we don’t know how long we have.

Love is the hardest thing to achieve and the one thing in this business that can let you down the most. I have built up an immense bond with Mary. She has gone through just about everything and always been there for me.” —Freddie

I lost somebody who I thought was my eternal love. When he died I felt we’d had a marriage. We’d lived our vows. We’d done it for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health. You could never have let go of Freddie unless he died - and even then it was difficult.